Masked Prince of Tennis

Chapter 24 Is it the last farewell (2)
There seem to be ten thousand kinds of ifs, but between Han Chengnan and me, there are no ifs.If it is true, it is actually something that does not exist at all!Because it does not exist, those things can only be if, and cannot become reality.

As for his retention, it would be great if it could be a if!In that way, I can stay, stay by his side, be happy simply, be happy simply, live simply.

However, if is just if.Because it was only if, so I shook off Han Chengnan's hand that was holding me.

I can clearly feel how much my heart hurts, looking at Han Chengnan, how much Han Chengnan's heart hurts.

Some people say that love needs to have the elements of time, place, and characters.We have the right people and the right place, yet we all neglect the right time.This, perhaps, is the greatest sorrow between me and him!
"If I say I like you, will you stay?" His tone was full of sadness.

Suddenly, he found that his handsome face seemed to have become very thin within a few days.I really want to ask him what's wrong, but I also understand that from my standpoint, how can I do this?

I shook my head slightly.

How reluctantly I shook my head, he didn't know.At this moment, how much I want to fall into his arms, he will not know.

I took his hand, that warm hand.This hand has many things that make me nostalgic.

I opened his palm and gently slid my index finger across it.

"I, have chosen Xia Yehan." I wrote down what I wanted to say, then turned and left.

He was left dumbfounded and stood where he was.

"I have chosen Xia Yehan." I wrote this sentence, however, there is actually another sentence after this sentence, that is - "Although I love you." However, I only I wrote the previous sentence.Because I know that if I write the following sentence, I will only bring my regrets to Han Chengnan at the same time.

Then, in such a dark night, the story of Han Chengnan and I really came to an end.With a complete farewell, although I still have regrets and regrets in my heart, as time goes by, I will forget it, right?

I cried while walking in the dark night.How bitter the tears are, I have long understood.

(3)

The breeze gently blew on my face, Xia Yehan and I walked side by side in the campus.

Because I can't talk yet, and because Xia Yehan doesn't like to talk, I walked side by side with him on campus, but it was just walking like that.Not a word, just walking.

Just when I feel very depressed...

"My dad, I hope I can study abroad." Xia Yehan said suddenly.

Study abroad?Because of what he said suddenly, I felt very inexplicable.However, after being inexplicable, I felt an instant joy in my heart.

Studying abroad is great!That should be the opportunity that many people dream of!For him, it should be something worth celebrating, right?But... why is there no smile on his face at all?Not only is there no smile, but there seems to be some anxiety and uneasiness.Besides studying abroad, does he have anything else to do?

"Is there anything else important to say?" Because I can't speak for a long time, but I must speak when communicating with others, so I carry a notebook with me and write down what I want to say.

"Xiaoyou seems to know me very well!" He smiled and patted my head lovingly.

learn?More or less a little bit!However, what I often confuse is, is what I understand the real him?He seemed to only show me his brightest side, but he hid the coldness hidden deep in his heart.

"I want to say, if you go abroad, can you come with me, Xiaoyou?" He looked at me with a smile.

His smile is so clear, so transparent, almost as beautiful as clear water.Because that smile is too clear, so you worry about what kind of words you say that will make that fragile and beautiful smile disappear?
I was stunned by his words.

go abroad...

I seem to have never thought of such a thing.Because originally, I am not someone who likes to read, and if I go abroad... I have to leave a lot of people I don't want to leave, and I have to let go of a lot of things that I never thought of letting go.

"I! I seem to be used to Xiaoyou by your side. If Xiaoyou is not here, I really can't imagine how lonely I will be." He said to me with a smile.

His words and his smile made me feel burdened in an instant.This sentence seems to be a reason, but it brings me an extremely heavy burden.

"But, I don't know anything. If I go, what will I do?" I wrote on the notebook.

First off, I don't know anything.But next?I don't want to go at all, do I?Yes indeed!Going abroad is something completely unfamiliar to me.

"Alright then! Since you don't want to go, Xiaoyou, then don't go." He still looked at me with a smile and said.

Then don't go?
Why do you feel that his words are so irresponsible?I'm not going, so he's not going?However, his irresponsibility seems to have become my heavy responsibility.

"Is it because I didn't go?"

I wrote it in my notebook.

"Although I think such words will bring you a burden, I really can't imagine my life without you." The affection in his words made me a little scared.

Because I feel that I can't like him like he likes me, because I know that no matter how long, there will be another person in my heart, so his deep affection often makes me feel shuddering.Because I can't respond in any way, I always feel that I owe him something.

I took a deep breath and looked at him smiling at me.

"Then, let's go together!"

I wrote in the notebook with a smile.

Although I can't respond to his feelings, I will try my best to do what he wants me to do for him.

So let's go together!
It's just such a few simple words, but a moving expression appeared on his face.He had such a happy expression, as if I had never seen it before.The joyful smile from the heart made his face even more handsome.

However, even though I saw such a handsome face, another face appeared unconsciously in my heart.I think I will go to hell in the future, right?Mingming smiled at the person in front of him, but he still wanted to think about others in his heart.I should have warned myself, but I just couldn't help thinking about it.

……

Sitting alone in the dormitory at night, I couldn't help but think of what happened during the day.

Did you just promise him that?Did you just decide to leave?Suddenly there was a feeling of emptiness in my heart.

Before I go, I should do something crazy, I should do something I want to do!If you just leave like this, it seems that you won't be able to come back for a long time!

Before I go, let me do one crazy thing!
Thinking, I walked out of the bedroom.

I can find him!Although that person has left and left me, I always know that he will be not far away, he will be not far away.

I seem to be able to find his location easily.

Perhaps, this is the only tacit understanding between me and him!

In the empty campus, under the big tree he left, I found him.

"You..." He should have noticed it long ago, right?Aware that I was aware of his presence.

His face is still full of haggardness. How long has it been since he had a good rest?Don't you know, this fool, how sad he will make me?

I resisted the urge to cry, and handed him the note I had written long ago.

"Let's go on a date tomorrow, okay? Don't ask me why, just have a happy date with me!"

Let's date!
Happiness seems like a very luxurious thing to me now.Because I found that although happiness seems to be waiting for me not far away, I can only look at the happiness not far away. Although it is within reach, I can't reach out to grab the happiness that is within reach.

"Okay!" Although his eyes were full of doubts, he didn't ask or say anything, just said such a simple word.

Because of his "good" word, what will it leave us?

Who knows?What matter, the result can only be known after it happens!
(4)

What a beautiful day it should be!
Maybe it's because the weather is so good that I feel that such a day is a little bit unreal.

"Have you been waiting for a long time?" When I was still lamenting the weather, a voice suddenly came from my ear.

Han Chengnan in black sportswear appeared in front of my eyes.Is it because of the weather, or because of the mood?In short, I don't know why, but today he looks very handsome.

I looked at him with a smile, then shook my head, indicating that I hadn't waited long.

"Why do you want to make an appointment in this kind of place?" He looked at the park in front of him in confusion.

garden?That's right, the location where he and I are located is the most famous park in the city - the Great Adventure Park.Why are you dating in the park?Because this is a place where couples must go on a date!Why do you want to come to this kind of place?

Because, to leave...

Because, I want to leave the last memory...

Because, I want to leave such a beautiful memory in the sadness of the future...

Uh!Obviously I made up my mind to be happy today, why inexplicably started to feel sad again?It's good to cheer up!
I smiled at him without saying anything.It's not that I can't say it, but that I don't want him to have the same concerns as me.

The sadness of parting like now, I want to bear it alone, although I know that he will feel such sadness and pain one day, but I hope he is happy by my side.

I pointed to the gate of the paradise and motioned him to go in.

Then, he took a step and walked in.Before he took two steps, he was held back by me.

He turned his head in confusion, and then I smiled and held out my hand to him.

He looked at me in bewilderment, and then my hand took his.

At the moment when the fingers were clasped together, I suddenly had an illusion. I felt as if I would always hold this hand, and I would always hold it like that.I think, if I can keep pulling like that, I will be very happy!

Although he was confused, he didn't let go of my hand.

The temperature from his palm gave me a warm feeling, this...should be the first time we hold hands like this, right?But...it seems to be the last time.Me, it seems that I still can't help feeling sad about this or that.I told myself in my heart, don't expect too much, just like now.

We just held hands and walked into the Great Adventure Park side by side.

This is probably my happiest moment!

He and I spread happiness all over the park.

on the roller coaster.

I sat side by side with him in the front row, and our hands were held tightly.He seemed to feel the difference in me, and he also seemed to feel that this... was the last time, so he didn't let go of my hand.Perhaps, he was afraid that if he let go of my hand, he would never be able to hold it like this again!So, all day long, he held my hand so tightly.

The roller coaster is speeding on the track, the speed is as fast as lightning, and the wind that keeps hitting the face without pain makes me feel that everything is real, but all these realities will become unreal in the near future.

Pirate ship.

I sat in the last row with him, and as the pirate ship swung up and down, I felt the tickle in my heart like ants crawling over.Only then can I be sure that the scarred heart did not stop beating because of the current situation, and did not stop beating because of too much pain.

In the haunted house.

The dark atmosphere is almost suffocating, but I don't, why is that?Because by my side, the person who is holding my hand tightly!As long as he is there, I will never be afraid.Because of him, I will be very, very happy.

Carousel right now.

He was sitting on the ornate white horse, and I was on the black pony behind the white horse.Suddenly, I feel very sad.Because, even if the wooden horse keeps spinning, I can't really turn to the person I want to hold.However, when I was so sad, Han Chengnan suddenly turned around on the wooden horse and extended a hand to me.I smiled and grabbed his.He, is he telling me something?He is telling me something!The moment my fingertips touched, I was so sure.

On a tandem bicycle.

He sat in the front seat and I sat in the back.He was pedaling the bicycle hard, but I was stupidly staring at his hard back in a daze.Even if you can't stay by your side, you can still see his back.I originally held such hopes, but if I go to study abroad, even such a small hope is impossible!Thinking of this, tears burst into tears in an instant.

Under the Ferris wheel.

"Shall we play a game?" I wrote this sentence on the notebook I carried with me.

"Playing what?" He said with a smile.

"You and I are sitting in different ferris wheel rooms at the same time. After we get off the ferris wheel, let's go find each other and see if we can meet each other, okay?"

I wrote down such a passage in the notebook.

He looked at me with doubts in his eyes.He seems to feel my helplessness and sadness, right?He moved his mouth, and there was an unconcealable sadness in his eyes.

I watched him walk into the Ferris wheel, and at the moment he walked into the Ferris wheel, my tears flowed out unscrupulously...

Goodbye!Han Chengnan!
Goodbye!my first love!

The Ferris wheel, people walk into the small room with happiness, but I can only watch my happiness walk into the room so stupidly.

When the door of the small room slowly closes—

I watched, and my happiness was slowly locked away.

I watched, and my happiness slowly rose.

I watched, my happiness was getting farther and farther away from me.

I stretched out my hand, trying to grasp the seemingly illusory happiness, but found that I couldn't grasp anything, and I could only wave goodbye to my happiness.

"Han Chengnan, goodbye!" I said goodbye to him silently.

Then, I turned and left.

The Ferris wheel that carries so much happiness has never belonged to me, and will never belong to me, right?
There are many stars in the sky, but which one belongs to me?
……

The Ferris wheel disappeared behind me, and I slowly disappeared from the sight covered by the Ferris wheel.

The moment of happiness is always so short, or maybe I am really too extravagant.

But that's good!
The date that belonged to me and Han Chengnan, belonged to the happiest date in my memory, was sealed forever in my tears.

(End of this chapter)