military marriage

Chapter 20
Chuanlong took off his military coat, hung it on a tree branch, and rolled up his sleeves.Started to move the mountain of coal to the canteen coal shed.Trip after trip, his hands and face gradually became dark.A gust of wind blew, and the soot fell into the eardrum, which was very itchy. Chuanlong quickly sent the coal in his hand to the coal shed. His little fingernail rubbed the soot on his clothes, and then he stuck it into his ear to fiddle with it.

Suddenly, Chuanlong was stunned. He seemed to hear the noise of the wind, the noise of soldiers carrying coal, and... There was also a burst of bugles blowing in the wind, making his blood boil.Did I hear you?I heard it!Really, the bugle summoned him in the wind, issued orders, and issued instructions. His disorderly life began to be full of vitality like blood. Chuanlong listened, confirmed, and burst into tears.

I hear the bugle!I hear all the voices!I heard it!He grabbed the military uniform hanging from the tree branch and started to run. The soldiers transporting coal looked at each other in dismay, with sincere smiles on their black faces and white teeth.

Chuanlong ran to the reception room, dialed a series of numbers and called Lu Dayong directly. He heard the bugle. He can go back to the company and go to the training ground!However, Lu Dayong told him that Commissar Song went to the military region for a meeting yesterday and would go to the hospital to see him tomorrow, why not go back together in the commissar's car!

Yu Suo watched Song Daming's lips move, as if he had something to tell Chuanlong, so he went into Chuanlong's room with Yuanyuan in his arms.

"How are you going to arrange her?" Song Daming said.

Chuanlong's happy expression suddenly dimmed.I've hurt her before, I won't be stupid enough to hurt her again! "Political commissar, don't worry, I will take care of it. If she is still alone in two years, I will remarry and take the responsibility of taking care of their mother and child!".

Song Daming sighed, "Oh, it looks like she is the kind of person who will go through fire and water once she falls in love with someone! Let alone two years, even ten or eight years, she will wait for you to propose remarriage."

Chuanlong looked at the jeep going away, thinking a little.

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Chuanlong bought two porcelain bowls of food from the cafeteria and brought them in.Yu Suo took a few mouthfuls, but couldn't swallow, so he pushed the bowl and chopsticks aside.

"Should I just eat a few bites?" Chuanlong said.

"Not hungry!" Yu Suo shook his head, lowered his eyelids, and caressed the sleeping child.

Hu Chuanlong involuntarily became short of breath.No matter how bleak their love was, they do exist here and there, constantly beckoning...

Yu Suo walked towards him eagerly.

Bursts of bugles came over the window, sometimes far and sometimes near, clear and warm.Chuanlong took a quick breath and became indifferent.How can he make up for this woman's hurt feelings?

His genitals are no more than the thickness of a little finger, and it often takes half an hour or even an hour to urinate every time he urinates. It is impossible to live a normal married life.It is precisely because of this that he does not resent He Manxiang's escape.

"When...are you planning to go home?" Chuanlong said.

Yu Suo was stunned, as if he couldn't understand Chuanlong's words: "Go home? Which home?"

"Of course it's your aunt's house! When you came here, Lu Dayong said that you are only suitable there!"

"You mean, while you're enduring pain, I've been enjoying happiness?"

"I still have a family now, even if you insist on marrying me, it will be two years later."

"I wait!"

When the bugle stopped, Chuanlong lost his patience and interrupted Yusuo decisively: "Why are you such a rascal? I have already dragged down the company. I have to make up for it. I have to devote myself to training. I can't be dragged down in the slightest, do you understand?"

Yu Suo looked at him in despair.

Chuanlong's mood became even more irritable: "Don't torture me, do me a favor! I'm useless, I'm useless. You know, He Manxiang, a village woman, can't stand it..."

"I don't care," she said.

He stood up abruptly: "But I care! But I don't want to owe you again and again..."

"It's not that you owe me, it's my own willingness!"

Chuanlong pulled off the quilt, covered his head tightly, and let out a suppressed cry: "Get out, get out of the way! Show me how to live again, that's the ability..."

Yu Suo looked at him, crossed his arms, leaned against the wall, and looked at Chuanlong who was wrapped in a quilt and crying in confusion, thinking that I was really too optimistic and overestimated this long journey.

Deep down in Chuanlong's heart, he yearns for happiness, but he finds conflict, incompleteness and imbalance in his behavior, so he is surprised, resists, and disappointed. Surrounded by layers of pain, those once sacred appearances, that kind of magical Feelings are temporary.He suddenly throws away all intimacy between man and woman, like a toy, and puts on his armor to pursue some great and universal goal.

"You'd better go back, what's so good about being a military wife? First of all, you have to be more self-disciplined than other women. You can't wear slippers like local women and walk around in the street with disheveled hair. Gossip about living at home is like eating melon seeds. Husband and wife also get together less and leave more, and the order says when to leave. What's more, I have a lot of burdens on my back. Before I get rid of these burdens , you better go."

Yu Suo fell down and sat on the chair. In this small house of seven square meters, with a table, a bed, a chair and a curtain, she could not enjoy the right of temporary residence.

Chuanlong put a stack of money on the table and patted it: "The army went out for training for a week, and I hope that after a week, my room will be restored to a military camp instead of a feminine family courtyard." . " Then he plunged into the sound of the bugle, and the high-spirited slogan bounced back, shaking Yu Suo's eardrums.

Where did he get the money?Are old debts unpaid and new debts added?Yu Suo quickly saw Chuanlong's true intentions towards their mother and son: for fear of hurting her, force her to leave!

Touched, heroic emotions are born in Yu Suo's heart during the days of parting!This man endured his own pain and joined the military camp. During the physical training, he ate cold steamed buns by himself, but he still put down his self-esteem to borrow money to put their mother and son in a safe place!Such a man, Yu Suo will not leave, she may have grown up for him, why should she care about two years?

Yusuo began to look for rented houses around the barracks. She wanted to stand here with her own hands, so that she could watch Chuanlong watch over her love closely, and prevent Chuanlong from afar. Distraction prevents Chuanlong from falling into the dilemma of violating military discipline and military laws.

As soon as the local people heard that Yusuo was the wife of the army, they introduced Sikeshu Village in the suburbs of the county, three or four miles away from the army. There were many empty houses there, and the landlord moved to Lanzhou for business at 15 yuan a month. , The courtyard with six or seven acres of land settles accounts every six months, and it costs 80 yuan a year.As soon as Yusuo saw the seven or eight mu of land compound locked by the rusty iron gate, he decided to rent it.Such a vast land, where she can grow vegetables, raise chickens, and feed pigs, can be arranged as she likes in the future. The rent only needs a few hundred yuan a year, and this vast land belongs to her.

The tricycle was driving on the muddy path, with Yusuo sitting inside, holding Yuanyuan in his arms, and protecting the simple luggage loaded under his feet with one hand, as he swayed towards Sikeshu Village all the way.The cold northwest wind blows directly into this yellow land from the Badain Jaran Desert and Teng Desert, and the dust is everywhere, which is extremely cold.Minqin County is surrounded by the two deserts of Teng and Badain Jaran, and river water resources are scarce. The amount of water evaporated by the high temperature of wind and sand every year is dozens of times the amount of precipitation, so the ecological environment is fragile.The whole area is basically desertified and desertified.

Sikeshu Village is deserted by a river that has long dried up and cracked. To the east of the village, the Teng Desert roars in. To the west and north, the tall Badain Jaran sand dunes swoop over with a force of destruction. The silent Sikeshu The village is shrouded in the vast sea of ​​sand.

The sand enters and the people retreat. This village stands with hundreds of holes, but now it is rare to see people. Most of the families have already moved. No wonder Chuanlong said that this is a rare, quiet and spacious place!

Around the bleak cave dwelling with yellow sand all over the field, the trees can’t absorb the groundwater, and the top of the main pole is all dead, leaving only the surrounding branches still growing wildly. This kind of hat-like tree grows twisted and wronged in front of the cave dwelling .

The tricycle stopped oscillating and stood in front of a large rusty black iron gate.Yu Suo rubbed his hands that were numb from the weight of the child and the luggage, put them to his mouth, let out a breath, and took out the key.With the loud bang of the big iron gate, a three-hole gray cave dwelling appeared in front of the gray and yellow wide yard.

Yusuo opened the door of the cave dwelling in the middle. The dilapidated and messy household items and kang, covered in thick dust, exude a pedantic atmosphere similar to a cemetery that has been unoccupied for many years.

"Look, how big the house is, how spacious the courtyard is, you can roll around here if you want, and you can practice carp and carp if you want to fight here. No one will say anything about you." He picked up the daily necessities on the wheel, put them on the gray kang, clapped his hands, walked out of the courtyard, stepped on the three wheels, and stomped away.

Yu Suo chased after Yuan Yuan in his arms.She really wanted the other party to help her hug Yuanyuan, let her free one hand, wipe off the dust on the kang, tidy up a cleaner place, spread a mat for the child to lie down, so that she could take the opportunity to clean the inside of the cave. Clean it inside and out, but look at the distance from the other side, look at the darkened sky, the dust covers this abandoned village, there is no light from the outside, and there is no dog barking and cock crowing.Except for the courtyards of three or four families, there were piles of empty corn cobs that had been removed from rice grains and used to wipe buttocks.

"Say something quickly, I'm leaving! I'm very busy." The other party seemed to sense a pair of eyes behind him asking for help but embarrassed to speak, stopped for three rounds and turned around.

"I...how do I write my mailing address here?"

Yu Suo looked at the carefree northern man, and listened to his series of inquiries, his melancholy eyes stayed on his face for a long time.

Yusuo's appearance made the northern man suddenly realize that he was going too far. He scratched the back of his head, lowered his volume and speaking speed: "Well, if you want to write a letter, the mailing address should be your lover's army, I know Almost all family members are like this, it is impossible to have their mailing addresses and names, all of them were handed over by their lovers."

Yu Suo was silent. Since anyone's letter to her has to be reviewed by Chuanlong before it can be delivered to her, how many words can come from the heart?So she decided not to contact anyone anymore. The feeling of chewing and feeding is no better than being alone.

"Are you all right? I can go now!"

"Then..." Yu Suo shook his head slowly, "Go ahead, I'm fine."

The back of the man riding a bicycle in the northwest quickly disappeared, calm, desolate and gloomy, slowly approaching Yusuo, and she developed a deeper, solemn and melancholy feeling for this place.

In the wind and sand of the setting sun, a song Xintianyou floats——

Roaring at the ridges and ridges, Xintianyou
The cattle and sheep grazing stopped

I know my sister, you are going this way today

……

I want to hold on forever
sister's hand

Cow on the head of a fruit tree trough in the garden

Green vegetable growing shed

Hoop a few new cave dwellings every day
wait for my sister
The two of us go ahead on the Xiaokang road

In the desolate and setting sun where blood was like weeping, Zhao Yusuo was already in tears.

When she stood at the entrance of Sikeshu Village, she was empty and helpless, as if she was standing in the dark night, standing tall, with the living sky as the background, painting her vast and lonely face on it.And Yusuo is like a woman who committed a heinous crime and was severely punished by her relatives, the world, and ethics, and was abandoned in the wind and sand. She was helpless.When he left Huwawan, the eagerness and blood boiling in his body instantly overflowed in a long river of helpless and innocent indifference.

Yusuo thought that I had to adjust myself in time, and I knew that I had to adjust myself.I can't complain that Chuanlong couldn't ignite the passion, so he didn't have the patience to transform love into friendship or family affection, so he threw our mother and son into the whistling yellow dust, leaving me to live alone.I can't be without a clear mind, and because of lack of sufficient psychological preparation, the situation turns a little bit, and my mentality is completely chaotic.I can't, I can't repeat the mistakes of my mother-in-law.I have to use the love in the softest corner of my heart to light a lamp to illuminate the way home for a man, a hero suffering from an internal disease. I have to use all my love to transform this hellish state into Heaven. "

(End of this chapter)