how far is Forever

Chapter 18

I opened my eyes wide and struggled in horror. I hurriedly pushed him away, but he refused to let me leave.Facing such a brother, at that moment, I felt my eardrums slamming, I was a little dizzy, my blood seemed to rush to the top of my head, and my heart was full of fear.

I'm afraid of being seen by others. The old neighbors and neighbors who live here don't know the truth about Su Luoyan's life experience. They will definitely think that something big happened to our family!
"Brother, brother, don't, please..." I struggled in horror, but Su Luoyan grabbed me firmly. He must be drunk, he must be, he must have regarded me as a Ji Nuannuan, it must be.

I was trembling, suddenly Su Luoyan's body left me, my body was still stiff, I suddenly looked in front of me, it was Jiang Chuan, he grabbed Su Luoyan, and pulled him away forcibly.

"Su Luoyan, what are you doing? Su Ruo is your sister!" His voice was low and deep, his eyes touched my eyes, and I could feel the chill on Jiang Chuan's body.

"Sister?" Su Luoyan looked at me in despair, and repeated these two words, "Sister? Is Su Ruo my sister? She's not my sister, no! No!"

Jiang Chuan's fist hit Su Luoyan hard in the face. He lost his footing and fell to the ground for a moment, his eyes still staring blankly at an unknown direction.

"Su Ruo."

Jiang Chuan called me softly, but when his hand was on my shoulder, I was still startled, and I looked at him blankly: "What, what's wrong?"

"Are you OK?"

"I……"

My voice was inaudible, and I looked at Su Luoyan. The moment my eyes met his, my mind went blank, and I ran away in a hurry. It must not be Su Luoyan, it must not be him.

I ran aimlessly, and I didn't have the courage to face Su Luoyan like that again.

"Ji Nuannuan..." My footsteps stopped suddenly, and I stared blankly at the person in front of me, "Why are you here?"

"I came to Luo Yan but I didn't expect to see this scene. Su Ruo, you are so shameless. Didn't you say that you only treat him as a brother? Is there any younger sister who treats a brother like this? Tell me, tell me, Su Ruo!" She grabbed my shoulder and shook it non-stop, I seemed to have hallucinations when I was shaken by her, Su Luoyan shattered in my eyes like a mirror.

"He... is just drunk." My voice was so low that even I couldn't hear it, it was as soft as the wind, and I didn't know where it was drifting.

Ji Nuannuan grabbed my neck, I struggled between her palms, but I couldn't break Ji Nuannuan's hand: "Let me go, let me go."

"Say, why did he kiss you? Why? Why? Luo Yan never kissed me!"

The originally beautiful face became ferocious, and she strangled my neck so tightly that I could barely breathe.

"You are the most shameless woman in the world!" Ji Nuannuan was furious, fingers tightened around my neck, my throat hurt, my eyelashes trembled violently, looking at the night sky, I felt like I was about to collapse.

"Su Ruo!"

who is calling me?
I opened my eyes tremblingly, and rushed away from Ji Nuannuan and grabbed my hand. I fell to the ground, splashing rainwater all over the ground. Only when the man rushed over and grabbed me, I had a point of support.

"Su Ruo, what's wrong with you? Talk to me!"

I tried hard to open my tired eyes, and my narrow field of vision gradually expanded. The night was quiet, and at some point it started to rain, and the rain fell drop by drop on Jiang Chuan's face.

"Su Ruo, look at me, look at me!" Jiang Chuan shook me gently, as if trying to regain my consciousness.But I didn't have the strength to respond to him, my fingertips became stiff and cold.

Jiang Chuan clenched his hands tightly, and staring at Ji Nuannuan behind him in a blink of an eye, he rushed over with a desperate look, and slapped him away: "If you hurt Su Ruo again, I will kill you Pay it back!"

Ji Nuannuan's face turned red and white for a while, as if she was afraid that Jiang Chuan would really do something to her, she covered her face and did not speak again.I understand Jiang Chuan's temperament. If he gets extremely angry, he will fight with his life!
I coughed violently behind them, as if I was panting, Jiang Chuan hurried back to help me, stopped the car by the side of the road, and wanted to take me back.I sat on the ground in a daze, with my fingers spread out in front of me, and the rain fell drop by drop, like blood-colored ripples. I wanted to hold it tightly, but I couldn't.

Jiang Chuan called TAXI, and he helped me into the car. I nestled in front of the window, shivering.Jiang Chuan sighed slightly: "What's going on with you?"

I shook my head: "I don't know, I don't know either."

Jiang Chuan asked me: "Su Luoyan and Ji Nuannuan broke up, do you know?"

I nodded.

Jiang Chuan asked me again: "Do you know why?"

I closed my eyes and tried to squeeze out a word from my throat: "I don't know..." There are too many things that I dare not think about.

Jiang Chuan sighed: "Actually, Ji Nuannuan told me everything on the way here."

I regained my composure and turned to look at him: "What did you say?"

"I said, I know everything." Jiang Chuan patted my head, "You..."

He didn't say the last half of the sentence, but just grinned and made a smiling expression, and he said to me: "In the past six months, we have experienced too much, and we have too much to face, but it's okay. What's going to happen, it's better to be able to save some things when we are still young."

There was a sudden pain in my heart, I couldn't tell what it was like, Jiang Chuan stretched out his hand and pulled me, I felt like a porcelain doll.

I shook my head blankly: "I have a headache, my head hurts so much."

The glass of the car window was somewhat reflected by the street lights outside, and the night scene reflected a luxurious light, everything seemed to become dazzling and blurred.

"Su Ruo." Jiang Chuan called my name again.

"Don't ask me..."

Unexpectedly, Jiang Chuan didn't intend to let me go this time, he suddenly shook my shoulder, I was shaken violently, my eyes gradually widened, but bit my lip, he said: "Su Ruo, you must be sober, You have to be sober! Think about Su Luoyan, think about Song Junmu, think about them, what are you thinking."

"I think Su Luoyan is my brother, he is my only brother, my best brother, but now he is no longer, I don't know, I really don't know what to do, I don't know that he has changed , or I have changed."

Jiang Chuan was still holding me, and the tears welled up in my eyes: "Let's stop fighting, okay? Let's go back to the past, okay?"

Jiang Chuan was slightly dazed: "Can we go back to the past..."

I think, at that moment, he must have thought of Yan Lele again, his princess has been lost by him.

yes……

Can we now go back to the past?

I cried loudly, Jiang Chuan hugged me and patted my back gently.But I cried harder, my temples were torn in pain.In fact, I have always been willing to believe, whether it is Su Luoyan or Song Junmu, so I have to forget, forget all the things that should not be remembered.

03
Song Junmu picked me up in the dormitory the next day. I don't remember that I had an appointment with him, and there are still two days before our three-day date. His sudden visit caught me off guard.

"How did you come?"

"About you for dinner, let's give myself some impression points before you make a decision." He said with a smile.

"Then what do you want to treat me to?" I couldn't help but smile with him.

Song Junmu smiled slightly: "Do you want to eat hot pot?"

I nodded hurriedly.

Song Junmu said: "My car is parked at the door, let's go eat the little fat cow."

"Isn't it Little Sheep?" I pouted.

"It doesn't matter whether it's a little fat cow or a little fat sheep, it's a good animal if it makes my family happy." He smiled and fondled my hair, "Let's go, I'm so hungry."

Song Junmu led me and walked out, as if he had endured a lot to say, but he didn't know what to ask. What I told him last time must have hurt his heart.But I didn't have the courage to say it again.

Song Junmu suddenly asked me: "What are you thinking?"

"It's nothing!" I smiled back.

At this time, I saw Su Luoyan coming back from the school, seeing me, and also seeing Song Junmu who was holding me, with a stiff expression on his face, but it was fleeting.

Su Luoyan smiled at me, and I also showed a faint smile.Instead, I looked at Song Junmu, who was also smiling slightly.

"boarding."

I just realized that we were in front of a black car, the brand... I don't know it!

Song Junmu saw that the corners of my mouth were slightly pursed and I looked thoughtful, so he opened the car door and asked me to sit in the passenger seat first and then slowly stare blankly.When I was relieved, the car had already started. I don’t know if it was because of the heavy traffic during this time period, or because Song Junmu was habitually driving very slowly. This completely unfamiliar relationship made me feel uneasy. .

"What's the matter with the restless look?" he asked me.

"I didn't sleep well last night."

Song Junmu continued calmly: "Me too, I didn't sleep well last night."

"Are you busy recently?"

He didn't answer, the red light ahead, the car just stopped, Song Junmu suddenly stretched out his hand to brush away a strand of my bangs, his fingers passed, as soft as smoke: "I haven't seen you for a day, I miss you so much, what should I do?" , I was poisoned, I was poisoned by a poison called Su Ruo."

"Where did you learn the lines, it's disgusting." I pushed him, "Drive well, I don't want to be on the headlines tomorrow."

"Yes!" He smiled at me funny.

I blushed and turned my head to look at the scenery outside the window. It seemed that my heart had already made a decision.

"God lost again."

He flicked my head once, and I turned to stare at him angrily, "What are you doing?"

"Bring you back from Java."

"Concentrate on driving!" I glared at him again.

"Where is the red light?"

"Look carefully at the red light." I don't know why I'm shy, we've known each other for a long time, and we've all "lived together"!Why did you blush because of his eyes and actions?

"Look, you're distracted again, here's a read." He took out a comic and handed it to me, "Read this to pass the time, or you'll be thinking about it again."

"Where is the nonsense!" I retorted.

"Okay, okay, no, then you should read the comics obediently first, we will be there soon."

"Ah."

The little fat cow on Yanqing Street is not far from the school. When Song Junmu and I got out of the car, I couldn’t help squinting at him again. The sky suddenly drizzled, and Song Junmu’s slight smile was like a cloud of smoke in the south of the Yangtze River. , under the neon lights, it is as beautiful as cherry blossoms in a spring night, exuding a faint mist.

I quickly searched for this information in my memory, but I still didn't think of anything about him.

"Song Junmu." I called him and wanted to ask him when we met. After thinking about it for a while, I dismissed this idea. If I didn't remember it myself, it seemed meaningless.

"What's wrong?" Song Junmu looked at me and smiled.

"It's okay, I think I still have to work hard on my own, and I can't trouble you."

He looked at me suspiciously, and then pulled me into the hot pot restaurant.

On cold days, there are especially many people eating hot pot. Song Junmu and I searched for a long time before finding a place. When we saw the mandarin duck hot pot with a layer of chili floating on the table, we seemed to be in a bad mood these days. swept away.

"I want a large plate of mutton, beef, enoki mushrooms, beef balls, fish balls..." I ordered a lot of food in one go.

Song Junmu looked at me in a daze and said, "Ruoruo, is there anyone else coming?"

"Didn't you invite me to dinner? Don't you know who else is better than me?" I gave her a blank look, and finally asked the waiter to leave after adding another vegetable.

Song Junmu sat across from me and looked at me with a smile. The constant heat from the hot pot made his face flush like a peach. I couldn't help being a little jealous, how could a boy's skin be so good!
"Food." Song Junmu gave me two words.

I gave him a blank look, "I'm a foodie and I'm proud."

After saying this sentence, I became gloomy. When I was young, Su Luoyan would often pat the top of my head and say, "Su Ruo is a snack foodie." pride."

I wonder what happened to Su Luoyan?Where did he go that night?Are he and Ji Nuannuan reconciled?
"Miss, your meals are ready." I suddenly realized that there was already a table full of dishes on the table. I looked up at Song Junmu with some guilt, but there was still a smile on the corner of his mouth, but this smile did not reach fundus.

"Let's... let's start eating." I put the mutton into the pot, and the smile on my face was a little stiff.

"Okay, let's go."

After a meal, in the "competition" between the two of us, I kept complaining that he was so unkind and robbed a girl for food, but he ignored me at all and replied directly that there was no lover before the dinner table.

I vomit blood!

However, this is Song Junmu, the Song Junmu who loves to talk and laugh.After being with me, the smile on his face really disappeared a lot. I can clearly feel his sadness in some things, but I don't know how to comfort him.

If possible, I hope he can keep smiling.

"Song Junmu, where is your home? Is it that villa?" It was too quiet there, and he lived alone, it really didn't look like a home.

I found that I really didn't know anything about him. I didn't know where his home was, what he liked to eat, let alone why he fell in love with me.

"Why, I finally remembered to get to know me." He looked at me with a smile, "My family lives in Anju Community, the one on Qingping Street."

"Ah? You lied to me. My home is there. I haven't seen you before." I blamed him a little in my heart. He was clearly a son of a rich family, so how could he live in such an ordinary community.

"My home used to be there. I still remember that when I was a child, I especially liked hide-and-seek in the old house in front of the community, and an older sister taught me to hide in an abandoned rice vat."

Big sister... rice vat...

Such a familiar scene, it seems that I did such a thing when I was a child.Later, the family searched for that child for a long time. After hearing this, I felt very guilty and wanted to find an opportunity to come to apologize to him, but he came to me first.

At first I thought he was here to settle accounts with me, but he put a big bag of lollipops in my hand and said, "Thank you."

At that time, I was taken aback by this kid's weird thinking. I almost made him spend the night in a rice vat, but he even said thank you to me and smiled so sweetly. This must be sugar-coated cannonballs!

But how could I resist the temptation of candy when I was a child, even if I believed that the other party came to me with malicious intentions, I still couldn't help eating lollipops. In order to express my apology, I even gave him a lollipop.

Later, he often came downstairs to wait for me. Every time he came, he would bring lollipops and occasionally a few cute toys. Now there are a few small plastic toys from him on the bookshelf at home. Woolen cloth.

We played together for several days. He was a bit withdrawn and didn't like to get along with other people. Every time we played, it was just the two of us. So after he disappeared inexplicably, I looked for him everywhere. Jiang Chuan and the others thought I was hit by a ghost.

The image in the memory coincides with the person in front of me, both are good-looking, and they all look like stinky farts.

"You're that little boy? The king of farts?" The king of farts grew more and more handsome when he was a child. Why didn't I grow into a peerless beauty?God is so unfair to me.

"What are you thinking again?" He flicked my head, "Did you remember something?"

"Big fart king."

"Small cabbage head."

"Hey, I'm obviously the eldest sister, okay?" I retorted this ugly nickname.

"It's obviously Xiao Caitou! I like Xiao Caitou who pretends to be a big sister! I like Xiao Caitou who eats lollipops!"

It really was him, I suddenly wanted to cry, the nickname I hated for a long time was brought up again, I really wanted Hai Bian to give him a good meal, and I really wanted Hai Bian to get me a mushroom-headed hairdresser!Make a good invincible beautiful girl into a vegetable head.

He hugged me and said, "After so many years, I finally found you."

"Hmph, I've never moved. If you wanted to, you would have found it long ago, okay?"

"My parents have been changing places for so many years, and have never stayed in one place for a long time. I didn't have the opportunity to choose myself until I went to college. When I came back here, I found the big sister Caitou who made me dream of it."

"Hey, I'm an invincible beautiful girl!"

Turns out that's why he struck up a conversation in the first place.

It turned out that we really knew each other, but I forgot.But now that I remember it, I will definitely remember it firmly in the future!

After we had hot pot, we went shopping and watched movies together, and he sent me downstairs at night.

"Su Ruo." He called my name.

"Ok?"

He stepped forward to hug me gently, and said softly beside me: "Su Ruo, I love you."

I also hugged him back, but I still couldn't say the phrase "I love you", I could only say in my heart: "Song Junmu, I like you."

(End of this chapter)