wedding dress

Chapter 191 Choice
In a sense, Zhao Zhi and the Qin family are very similar.

Qin's natal family severed ties with her, and her husband's family could not allow her to be evicted, and she took the child with her—it was exactly the same.

Xiaodong was standing on the porch, while Qin Shi was talking to Zhao Zhi in the room.Xiaodong didn't need to listen carefully, Qin's voice was not low, and she could hear her words clearly even standing outside.

"Xiaodong told me everything about you, and I think the experience between you and me is the truth."

"That year I was about the same age as you. Well, girls here in Suizhou got married early. Many people got married during the 16th and [-]th. I didn't meet Qin Lie's father until I was [-]. We met for the first time. At that time, I thought he was dressed like a girl, his hands were whiter than mine when stretched out, and his body was smelly. The first time I saw him, he was standing under a tree in a daze, and at first glance he really looked like a girl .I thought he was doing poetry like those scholars who came for an outing, but he was very embarrassed and said that he lost his way... He asked me the way, and I led him down the mountain. Halfway through He was out of breath and couldn't hold on anymore, and I helped him walk the rest of the way, and that's how we got to know each other."

Zhao Zhi didn't make a sound, and Qin went on: "I have thought about what kind of person I want to marry before. There is no one in the whole village that I like. I always feel that they are rude, and A Niang still scolds me and asks What kind of person do I want to marry? But I never imagined that the person I fell in love with later on was not barbaric at all. Compared with him, I looked like a barbarian, illiterate, and he said something about me I don’t understand at all. Once he said he wrote some poem for me, and he read it to me specially. I didn’t understand, and he didn’t get annoyed. He just looked at me and smiled. My face was on fire. My family didn’t allow me to associate with him, and they refused to marry me to him. My father locked me up, and my mother scolded and persuaded me. She said that the son of the Han people was not sincere, but was just coaxing Me. He will not marry me seriously. Several girls in our clan were cheated before and ended up miserable. He also said that even if I could marry him, life would not be easy. The etiquette and habits of the Han family are different from ours. It's completely different. Women are locked in the yard and can't get out for the rest of their lives... I know all of this, but I just decided not to change my mind. In the end, I severed ties with my family and clan and ran away. Come out. Nothing but clothes and a pair of shoes."

Zhao Zhi's voice was low and hoarse, and it didn't sound much ups and downs, but she spoke after all.

"He married you?"

"Married." Qin's voice was full of pride: "I have a good vision, and he is not such a heartless person. He also had trouble with his family and fell ill again. His father is very open-minded, and his mother is also I didn't hold him back, I still entered the Lin family, sat in a sedan chair, worshiped heaven and earth, and became his wife in a serious manner."

"Then... the people in your family have no contact with you anymore?"

"No." Qin said: "After meeting a few times, they didn't even look at me, and just left, as if they didn't know me."

"You don't miss them, don't you blame them?"

"I also think about it. I used to wake up from crying at night. I missed my mother, I missed my brother, I was with them in my dream, I was still at home, eating green leaf cake, running around on the wooden building with bare feet go……"

"Then, what about the Lin family? How do they treat you?"

"Except for Qin Lie's father, everyone else treats me like a poisonous insect. His mother can see that poisonous knives shoot out of my eyes, and she wants to eat me alive. From top to bottom in the Lin family, even The housekeepers are afraid of me and look down on me. They think that I seem to have some kind of evil method, which is why Qin Lie's father is fascinated. They must marry me. They will say some weird things in front of me Laughing but not laughing, he always murmured behind his back, and then burst into laughter. He has two cousins, and he wanted to take advantage of me, and he was beaten by me instead..."

"Ah? Then, does your husband know?"

"Some know, some don't."

"...does he treat you well?"

Mrs. Qin paused for a moment, and said slowly: "Very good. He couldn't have treated me better. For this, I don't care about other things... Now I just regret it. I was so bad-tempered at that time, and I often talked to him Noisy, noisy... Every time, he needs to coax me well. He also writes poems to me and reads them to me after he finishes writing, regardless of whether I understand or not. He also draws pictures for me. It’s very beautiful. The person in the painting is much prettier than myself. If I had known that the time we are together is so short, I shouldn’t have quarreled with him. I should have treated him well and let him live happily every day. That's right."

She said these few words plainly, but it made people feel an indescribable sadness.

"He... passed away?"

"Well. He left very early, without even seeing his son. If I hadn't been pregnant with the child, I would probably have gone with him. Later, I gave birth to a child, and I became both a father and a mother by myself. Yes, I have endured a lot of hardships. Sometimes I feel that I can’t bear it any longer. Every time this happens, I think of that short-lived ghost. If he is still alive, he will definitely look at me with a smile and say nothing. I I like his look the most, and every time he looked at me like that before, I wasn't angry or uncomfortable."

After a while of silence in the room, Mrs. Qin said again: "Actually, after so many years, sometimes I look back and see that there are many ups and downs. However, there is no difficulty in this world that cannot be overcome. Even if you have some stupid thoughts, are you willing to let them go?" Your child?"

Xiaodong listened carefully.

In the room, Zhao Zhi sobbed softly, but did not speak.

It's good to be able to cry.It's better to cry out than to keep it in your heart.

"I don't know... I don't know what to think and what to do. Sometimes I hate my parents, why did I go to such a dead end. But they were kind to me, married me far away, and gave me The thick dowry allows me to live and live. I want to hate, but I can't hate. And the Zhang family, he treats me well. When the news of the capital first came, he also protected me and comforted me. Me. But I can’t go back to Zhang’s house anymore. He is a dutiful son. To support him. If he follows me, what will he do in the future? His background will prevent him from raising his head to be a man for the rest of his life..."

Zhao Zhi and the Qin family are different people.Qin's stubbornness is probably like that of a child, so she was alone, struggling to give birth to the child, and raised it by herself.Now that he has this family business, Qin Lie is also promising, and his life is getting more and more prosperous.If she had committed suicide like Zhao Zhi at that time, what would happen afterwards?
Therefore, when encountering difficulties, some people choose to give up and escape, while others grit their teeth and survive.After passing the most difficult level, the difficulties in the future seem to be nothing.In fact, why should a person who is not afraid of death be afraid of living?

Does living require more courage than dying?
"According to what you said, then I should have committed suicide early? Qin Lie is still with my surname, and his surname is not Lin. Besides, although his surname is Qin, my clan has long since denied me. .”

That's right, Qin's situation at that time was also without relatives and no one to rely on, Qin Lie was still born in a straw shed.So difficult, but also survived.

What if it was replaced by yourself?
Xiaodong asked himself.If it were her own, if she was in the Qin family and Zhao Zhi's current situation, how would she choose?Will he commit suicide cowardly, or face it bravely like Qin Shi, live on, and live better?

When Xiaodong heard footsteps, she turned her head. Qin Lie hurried over and said in a low voice, "Zhang Manting is here."

Xiaodong was startled.

why did he come here?Is it to Xingshi to inquire about the crime?
"He's the only one. He said he wanted to see Zhao Zhi."

Xiaodong hesitated and glanced into the room.

Qin Lie said in a low voice: "This matter can't be dragged on forever, escape is not the way, there must be a break."

"Then, first ask Zhao Zhi...to see what she thinks."

Zhao Zhi's path must be chosen by herself, and no one else can decide for her.

This was the first time Xiaodong looked at Zhang Manting head-on.The last time I saw Zhao Zhi was when he got married. At that time, he was wearing an auspicious suit with big red flowers, and he looked really... um, with a red face.Probably all the bridegrooms looked the same, smiling silly.

Qin Lie walked over with him, the sun above his head was blazing, but the corridor was getting darker and darker, and his face was also blurred.

When they walked to the eaves of the corridor, Zhang Manting bowed: "I have seen the princess."

Standing up straight, Xiaodong saw his appearance clearly.Zhang Manting's eyebrows are like a kind of thorn grass that pricks a broom, very smooth and long, with a warm expression.From his face, it was impossible to tell what the man was thinking.

I don't know why, but when the word princess came out of his mouth, there was a very awkward feeling.

Zhao Zhi is also the princess, so why does he have the same attitude towards Zhao Zhi?

Xiaodong returned a salute: "Azhi is inside, she has been sick for several days. Well, the child is fine, her body is quite strong, and her temper is also good."

"Thank you Brother Qin and Princess for taking care of my wife and dog."

Xiaodong stepped aside, Zhang Manting pushed the door and walked in, then covered the door with his hands back, blocking Xiaodong's sight.

Qin Lie took her into his arms and walked to the tree in the courtyard, and pressed her to sit down on the stone bench.

"Don't worry, in my opinion, he is a very affectionate person."

"But I also heard that he is still a dutiful son."

Xiaodong turned his head and glanced at the door.

It would be great if Mrs. Zhang didn't die.Things between husband and wife are always easy to solve.But when human life is involved, that's another matter entirely.

I don't know what they will say.Will Zhang Manting blame her?Or comfort her?Will they be reunited, or will they end their friendship?
What will Zhao Zhi do in the future?What about the child?
Countless questions lingered in her mind.

"We have helped everything we can, and we have done everything we can. Even if the Zhang family wants to do something, they will look at you and me."

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Tomorrow is the last day of class, and I will go home the day after tomorrow. .

I miss my son and want to go back earlier, but I also feel a little bit reluctant to stay here.This small dormitory, as well as classrooms for classes...

The mood is really complicated.

(End of this chapter)