crossed border

Chapter 277 of course
Where does such a thing as personality exist?

You know, as long as the brain can survive completely, people don't need a body at all.Just by externally stimulating the current, only the area of ​​the brain can keep dreaming and live.

However, if someone is really just a brain, then that person has to create a "brain-only self" personality.That is to say, we have to abandon the big self of the body and preserve the small self of the intellect.

Because although it is possible to live with only a brain, a person must first have a body in order to have a true sense of self-awareness.

And after having a body, what is cultivated simultaneously with it is the personality we have now.

However, the body, which is the source of intellect, has nothing to do with intellect itself.

Just like there is no way to tell what the color itself is, no matter which color it is, they are just a description, there is no way to say that yellow is yellow, red is red...

And so on.

Back to the topic, after all, the body itself is just an existence, but it is undeniable that it does have a personality, but it cannot think about things, so it has neither intelligence nor meaning.

However, there are exceptions to everything - for example, Mu Xiu himself is the best example.

After he entered the restricted area of ​​life and liberated the fourth floor, every cell in his body produced a weak instinctive idea.Although he has the control ability at the cell level, before the cell consciousness is fully integrated, this "control" will encounter resistance.

It's not difficult to understand. For example, if his body as a whole is compared to an extremely large super empire, then the instinctive consciousness produced by countless cells is the will of the tens of trillions of people in the country.

But not every people's thinking is completely in line with the will of the country. After all, since the people have their own consciousness, they must have their own ideas, and they are not puppets who only promise and have no position.

When their interests and positions conflict with each other, they will more or less develop opposition and confrontational rebellious psychology and rebellious emotions.

If the problem has not been resolved, the accumulated grievances of the people will naturally start to explode.

And every time this kind of outbreak is suppressed by the will of the country, it will only intensify this not-so-good process, and finally there will be rebel forces intent on subverting the country...

From the perspective of the relationship between subject consciousness and cellular instinct, this is the generation of violent consciousness and the suppression of it by the subject consciousness, and when suppressed to a certain extent, it will erupt and even form the so-called inner demon.

In fact, the body has produced its own personality, and it no longer completely and unconditionally obeys any instructions of the subject consciousness as before.

Because when the body loses the control of reason, only the most primitive instinct remains.

— called survival.

However, the "two ceremonies" are different. She is the origin of the body essence that has been awakened, and she has also been endowed with intelligence...

As a result, the ultimate concept that was originally just a legend has become a real existence, and things have become horrifying and terrifying.

The world will prevent things that cause destruction for its own sake, so generally speaking, creatures close to the root cannot be born with a body, and this situation should not exist.

However, as the saying goes, there are always exceptions to everything.For example, a realm monster like Yakumo Zi is a good example.

Therefore, it is very much like a coincidence, but it is not like a coincidence. The root itself, which had no intelligence, was miraculously endowed with a personality that can act.

Although she is only connected to the root, she is a part of the root itself, so it is equal to the same existence.Rather than saying that she is connected to the vortex of the root, it is better to say that she is a personality born after the root flowed out.

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"It's funny, isn't it? In fact, I was supposed to disappear as an immature fetus, and ended up getting something like myself."

The girl in kimono smiled lightly, but there was no smile in her eyes.

"I was supposed to keep existing in that state, ignorant of the outside world, but they woke me up. Then, the outside world was pushed before my eyes... because it was too troublesome , so I decided to push everything to "Shiki". "

"...Why do you do this?"

Because there was no way to distance himself, Mu Xiu could only turn his head hard to avoid the girl's touch, and searched hard in his chaotic mind, trying to find out from his past life experience that he could deal with the current situation. best choice.

If possible, he also wants to express his opinions in a more direct way in a simple and neat manner.

But at this moment, he was completely unable to launch an attack. To be precise, he couldn't even conceive the idea of ​​launching an attack. It seemed that a series of related concepts had been deleted from him.

"Isn't this a matter of course? Because what happens in the outside world is something that is immediately obvious and boring." The girl in kimono suddenly smiled.

"But, you already have your ego..."

Mu Xiu didn't know why, but suddenly felt that she looked very pitiful, and couldn't help sighing and said, he vaguely understood something.However, during this period, he also continued to try to step back or move to the sides, trying to distance himself from the opponent.

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"Yeah... But, what's the point of that? It just makes me feel very tired, like a dream."

Stopping her hands and standing still less than one meter in front of Mu Xiu, "Two Ceremonies" nodded slowly, as if she was expressing sad feelings that no one could understand——

"So, I don't see anything, I don't think about anything, I dream a dream that I don't even dream. It's painful and boring and meaningless, so I close my eyes... and yet everything goes on, just like before .”

Speaking of this, she turned slightly sideways, looking at the distant night: "What a boring reality, how boring--me."

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"..."

"Then why did you come to me?" Mu Xiu asked uncertainly as if he had remembered something.

"Because I realized your existence, then Shiki and I had a different dream...not the boring dream before."

Saying that, the kimono girl turned her eyes and smiled softly.

As if she was contemptuous of herself, she said it was really stupid.

"'Shiki' says she hates being alone, but there's nothing she can do about it...if only she could sleep all the time.Don't even dream, don't think about anything, just go on like that.It is best not to notice the end of the dream until a certain time, when the body decays and disappears. "

After a pause, she once again looked at the person in front of her with envious eyes: "—but, before that, I was awakened and endowed with intelligence and personality."

"..." Mu Xiu was almost certain that the other party didn't seem to come to make things difficult for him, but it definitely didn't just come to tell him.

"Of course I didn't come to embarrass you, just like I don't know how to intervene in actions and organization choices, and the same is true for you." worthless."

She raised her hand again, wanting to touch Mu Xiu's face: "It's a bit regretful, but time is running out, I ask you a question, and that's why I came here—tell me, you What is your wish?"

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"..."

This sudden turning point made Mu Xiu speechless for a while. While he tilted his head back to keep a distance, he wanted to see the other person's expression as clearly as possible.

The pupils of the girl who stretched out her hand were transparent, and there was endless depth inside.But it seems that the pupils that can see the depths of people's hearts lack such things as humanity. It seems that people are facing the real god.

She sighed and said, "Why keep silent? I actually don't mind who you are, even if it is another person with the origin of "nothingness" created by using Zhizhi's information. Now you are just the two of my Tai Chi. One of the instruments, my rights also belong to you. "

— She is indeed a god.

"What do you want? Tell me your wish, and I can do anything. No matter how appalling your wish is, as long as you wish, it can be achieved directly."

Unstoppable, Mu Xiu suddenly felt his heart beating in his chest, and even subconsciously held his breath.

Excited?Or are you afraid of something?
Because Mu Xiu has a feeling that what the girl said is true, she can really do anything without any restrictions.In other words, I seem to be holding the opportunity to realize an unimaginably terrible wish, the only thing that can limit myself...

Maybe only your own imagination?

The way he tilted his head thinking was so strange that she couldn't help laughing.

However, 1 minute, 2 minutes, 5 minutes, 10 minutes, half an hour have passed... Perhaps it has been as long as a century, and Mu Xiu still has not made a decision.And not only was he silent, but his eyes became clearer and clearer.

So the girl stopped laughing, she looked away like a butterfly avoiding the sun, and lowered her fingers with a movement softer than the snow that fell one after another.

She gradually realized the difference between herself and him, with an impossibly mixed desperation.

In the end, Mu Xiu seemed to be confirming something, and asked cautiously: "Well, if I make a wish and say that I want more wishes... Will such things be allowed?"

"Yes, even so." She closed her eyes and let out a breath, but for some reason it sounded like she was very regretful, but she also seemed to have a reassuring love.

"Is that so...then I don't want anything." Mu Xiu nodded, and then expressed his wish.

"Why? Don't you want anything?" The girl in kimono was silent, but she was not surprised. After a while, she asked softly, her voice was ethereal and cold.

"No, I want too many things, but... I always feel that I shouldn't ask you in this way." Mu Xiu shook his head and said, after finally making a choice, he seemed to be the whole person All relaxed.

It's not that I don't want anything, and it's not that I don't believe her.

"That's it, that's it... Then it's time to say goodbye, maybe there will be a chance to see you again."

"Two Rituals" took her eyes away from him, and she stared blankly at the darkness in the distance and the end of the night, as if she was looking at something important that she would never see again.

Mu Xiu couldn't help biting his lips, afraid that he would blurt out and change his mind, so he finally just said hesitantly: "...Should I be sorry?"

He didn't understand why he had to apologize, but he always felt that... he seemed to have made a very cruel choice.

"It's none of your business. It's my own thoughts that I shouldn't have." She whispered.

"After all, if you can do something for someone, you can have a relationship with the outside world... But, what do you want from me... Sure enough, everything is so meaningless and futile, it's time to end. "

Mu Xiu couldn't say anything, just stared at her side face.

The girl in kimono raised her head to watch the crystals falling from the sky, she didn't speak to anyone, the words leaked from her lips in a low voice.

"Live as a matter of course, and die as a matter of course."

Ah, that's really—

"How lonely—"

(End of this chapter)