strange i love you

Chapter 19
From: Grapefruit

In the past week, I lost seven pounds.These seven days have been like years, and every minute I want to give up, turn around and throw myself into the embrace of delicious food.I thought there was nothing wrong with being fat, plump and round. My parents saw me and knew that I nourished myself well.When I couldn't bear it, I went downstairs to eat noodles twice, but I didn't feel hungry as soon as the boss brought the noodles. I only drank some noodle soup, took a few mouthfuls of noodles, paid the bill and left.I don't want to go home, the house is too deserted, even turning the TV volume to the maximum can't cover up the loneliness.I have read all the books I can read. If I used to call or go online to chat with friends, but now this desire is gone.Even if they talk on the phone for an hour or two, so what, after hanging up the phone, the ashes return to the ashes, and each returns to its own life track.

But what makes me strange is that I didn't think about him during the time we were separated from Qin Zhihao.Even if I think of it, it's just a name I accidentally found in the phone book, or I suddenly think of him when I encounter a certain event.But this kind of thinking has nothing to do with love, it just feels regret and emotion.

Knowing that it was impossible for me to continue like this, I started to go to the library to read professional books and various advertising cases.After all, I have to devote myself to work again, so it is better to find some feelings in advance.It's like going back to high school, taking a notebook and a pen every day, copying out the parts that I think are useful, and then taking them home to continue reading.After a few days, I gained a lot.

I also started to look at the recruitment information on the Internet, screen out the suitable ones, and then send the resumes to them.The only thing I feel fortunate is that because I have several years of experience in the industry, I have done several good projects, and my resume is quite beautiful.At least I won't be as anxious as when I first graduated and saw the numbers of one year, two years and three years behind the requirement for work experience.

This experience made me think about a lot of things. I just want to tell all the girls that a person’s happiness is not given to you by others. The right to your happiness is always in your own hands, and you will always be in your life. Unexpected difficulties are waiting for you, you don't know when they will happen, when they will suddenly come out and knock you down, so you have to be fully prepared and work hard to become stronger, so that you can overcome difficulties in the face of difficulties. It won't be a hit and fall.

let's work hard together.

Best Response

First sight: A person's happiness depends on himself.That's a really good statement, and I feel the same way.Don't depend on others for your happiness, it's unreliable.I still remember an accident two years ago, when I lost everything, when those friends who seemed close to me suddenly became indifferent and disappeared from my life, when my boyfriend left me for self-protection, I just I deeply understand how impermanent life is.In the past few years, I have worked hard and worked hard, just to prove that I can live a good life by myself.Now everything is better, those friends who have not left me are bound to become my best friends for life, and I have also met my lover again.

So you see, life isn't that bad.As long as it passes, everything will be fine.

Chibi Maruko: I agree with the words above.You are all good girls who work hard, let's work hard.

Yimi Sunshine: I have not experienced the situation of the host, but girls who work hard must not have bad luck.come on!
Lu Li came back from home and brought many special products to Lin Youxi.The two sat cross-legged on the floor and chatted while eating. Lin Youxi put down her chopsticks after eating two pieces of Cantonese sausage.

"I don't eat anymore, I'm losing weight." Lin Youxi said.

"Are you looking for a job?" Lu Li asked her, "Have you made any plans for the future?"

"I'm not worried about work. What I'm worried about now is how to tell my parents about Qin Zhihao and me. They all thought that we were going to get married, and they were still in the dark."

With chicken feet stuffed in her mouth, Lu Li smacked her lips thoughtfully and said, "What are you talking about? It's not your fault. Why are you so concerned?"

"They're getting older, they always thought I was settled..."

Before Lin Youxi finished speaking, Lu Li stretched out her hand, patted her on the shoulder with an old-fashioned look and said, "They will understand."

The two of them talked a lot that night, not only about Lin Youxi, but also about Lu Li, which made people worry.Lu Li said that she has no contact with the other party, but it can be seen from her expression that she has not let go.Lin Youxi didn't know how to comfort her, both of them were just ignorant children emotionally, they just acted according to their inner thoughts, without mature logic and rationality.

Lu Li said: "You said that if he really divorced for me, should I be with him or not? If I am together, I will really be the third party who destroys other people's family happiness , but I really like him, since I like him, why can't we be together?"

Lin Youxi was almost dizzy by her, scratched her head, and couldn't come up with the correct answer after thinking for a long time.Originally, there was no correct answer. A hundred people have a hundred attitudes. Who can figure it out?In the end, Lin Youxi said softly to Lu Li: "You can choose whichever choice you think will make you happy. Anyway, I will always support you and stay with you."

Lin Youxi interviewed several companies and almost all passed.In the end, she weighed the pros and cons and chose a company that was not too big or too small.Crouching tiger, hidden dragon in a big company, although there are many opportunities, but Lin Youxi is not very confident in her ability.It's easy to be outstanding in a small company, but the projects received are all miscellaneous. Lin Youxi doesn't like it, and it won't help her future career development.

On the first day of reporting to the company, she got up an hour earlier.Just standing in front of the mirror for almost half an hour, she has gained a lot of weight, and the previous clothes stretched tightly on her body, which was very uncomfortable.Lin Youxi gave herself psychological hints, telling herself that she is the best, and that she wants to start a new life, so don't make the same mistakes again!
Lin Youxi was hired as a copywriting instructor, and she has a separate office in the new company, which means that many trivial things in the work can be skipped and just handed over to the people below.She can drink coffee and browse the web.It's fun and you can get a good salary.

But within a morning, she completely changed her mind.Drinking coffee leisurely, browsing the web, and handing over trivial matters to the people below are all her beautiful fantasies!
So busy, her butt hasn't touched the bench all morning.

"Ah, you are the new director Lin."

Lin Youxi finally found a gap to go to the drinking place to make a cup of tea for herself, when a middle-aged man with balding hair asked her curiously.

Lin Youxi was quite annoyed and didn't want to talk to him, but she habitually squeezed out a harmless smile: "Yes."

"I heard that you worked in ×× company before?"

Lin Youxi suddenly realized that she was here to inquire about gossip.All the employees who have switched jobs from other places must have some gossip in their minds.However, most people are not interested in those small companies that they don't know about, but Lin Youxi has been in the previous company for a long time, and the gossip in the palace that attracted countless advertising newbies is naturally a lot.The key is to be able to involve some people in this circle who are not usually in contact with, but it is just a false rumor, and it is spread to Lin Youxi's ears. I don't know how much oil and vinegar have been added.

"Yes." Lin Youxi still smiled, but did not continue.

Seeing the expression on her face, the other party smiled resentfully, but continued to ask sternly: "I want to ask you about someone, she should still be in your previous company now."

"what is her name?"

"Zhao Zixin."

"Zhao Zixin?" Lin Youxi was stunned, and looked at the man in front of her thoughtfully. So far, she didn't even know his name. "I've heard of it, but there is almost no interaction in the company."

"I see." The man seemed a little disappointed, "Then how does she look like?"

"Well, it looks pretty good." Lin Youxi thought of those famous brand logos on Zhao Zixin's body, and her domineering appearance at the party, she said, "Should have a good life. Why, do you know her?"

"Oh, I used to be a colleague." The other party looked away, as if unwilling to continue.

Later, Lin Youxi found out from her colleagues that the man's name was Lin Kai, he was from the marketing department, and he had a good reputation, so Lin Youxi didn't take this matter to heart.

After get off work in the evening, in order to welcome new colleagues, the group had dinner together.Everyone seemed to be very interested in Lin Youxi's previous work experience. They asked her many questions. Lin Youxi answered them one by one with restraint at the beginning. In the end, she was really impatient, but she couldn't show it. .So she pretended that she drank too much, and complained softly: "Ah, there is nothing to mention about the company in the past. It is more practical to drink and eat, don't you think?" Then she raised her glass .

Everyone looked at each other and raised their glasses.

Lin Youxi doesn't like socializing. Compared with it, she might as well stay in the company and work overtime.She used to be a small clerk, and even if she wanted to do the socializing, it was not her turn. Now she is in charge of it all by herself, and she has to do everything by herself, so she has more time for socializing after get off work at night.

Talking about projects with clients and drinking a few glasses of wine during the dinner, I was not good at talking, but I forced myself to put on an official smile and say some insincere words.Often when I get home, it is already very late.It's too late to be sentimental, feel a little bit about life, and I'm going to take a shower and go to bed.So during this period of time, Lin Youxi's mood has calmed down a lot, and the resentment accumulated in her heart has gradually disappeared, because she has no time to blame anyone, and no extra thoughts to continue to focus on the past.

One month later, Lin Youxi not only didn't suffer from overtime work, but her skin became better than before, and she lost a lot of weight, all thanks to her mood.

The new company's projects are relatively easy. Lin Youxi has done similar things in her previous company, so she is quite comfortable after taking over. She doesn't need to think too much. But it is also stable.It's a pity that the good times didn't last long. The original director suddenly resigned and changed jobs. The company dropped a new director from nowhere.

"No, how can such things be given to customers?" The director is a young man in his 20s, with a sharp voice, and his colleagues call him a sissy in private.On the first day he took office, he said to everyone in a mixture of British and American English: "Just call me John from now on."

"The clients we are dealing with are all small and medium-sized companies. Their requirements for advertisements are as long as they can display their selling points. They don't need special creativity, and they can't accept those creative ideas."

"No, no, no." John clattered the folder on the table. "An idea that the customer cannot accept is not a good idea. It's not the customer's problem, it's your problem."

Lin Youxi suppressed the emotions that were about to explode, and said to him: "Excuse me, director, what projects have you been in charge of before?"

"What do you mean?" An unnatural look flashed across John's face, he glanced at Lin Youxi and said, "Are you questioning my professionalism now?"

Yes!Yes!It is questioning your professionalism!Lin Youxi was roaring in her heart, but she remained calm on the surface, showing a gentle and harmless smile: "No, that's not what I meant. I just want to find out and search the Internet later, as a model for reference."

Only then did John's complexion improve, but his attitude was still bad: "What I did before is completely different from what you are in charge of now. Do you have to refer to my work for future projects! Do it yourself!"

One sentence sent Lin Youxi away.She went out with the documents resentfully, closed the door, and couldn't help but sighed heavily.

It's true that you can meet annoying bosses wherever you go.

"Director Lin, what's wrong with you?"

Meeting that man named Lin Kai at the drinking water place again, Lin Youxi couldn't help feeling a little puzzled, it was a strange coincidence.

"En." Lin Youxi responded, lowering her head and shaking the spoon in her hand.

"You don't look well."

"Oh, I didn't sleep well last night."

"Pay attention to your body. It's especially bad for girls to stay up late." Lin Kai touched the top of his head with his hands, "You see, I'm about to be extremely smart, but health is more important."

"Thank you."

Lin Youxi turned around and walked towards the office. Lin Kai suddenly stopped her from behind. Lin Youxi turned her head and saw that he hesitated to speak and hesitated. Zhao Zixin is related.Could there be some connection between these two people?
"Is there a way for you to know Zhao Zixin's cell phone number?" Lin Kai finally opened his mouth, a little embarrassed, "She is an old friend of mine, because I haven't contacted her for a long time, and I don't know her cell phone number, so-- "

"I don't have her mobile phone number." Lin Youxi said.

"Well, can you ask your former colleagues?"

"This..." Lin Youxi showed embarrassment. She didn't get along well with her colleagues in the company before, and besides, she had a bad attitude when she left the company. Who else would care about her?
"It's okay, it's okay. If you feel embarrassed, it's okay." Lin Kai said hastily, "Thank you anyway."

Seeing the back of Lin Kai turning away, Lin Youxi felt a little uncomfortable.But this matter has nothing to do with her in the first place, it's better to stay out of her business.

Since John took office, Lin Youxi's good days have come to an end again.A plan has been revised several times, but it still doesn't pass, which makes Lin Youxi's head dizzy.Later, when I had dinner with my colleagues, I happened to hear that John was the nephew of the boss of the company. It turned out that there was such a relationship. No wonder he took office as soon as the former director left.Seeing that his qualifications are still young, he probably has no practical experience. Maybe he was recruited by the boss as a director just after graduating from the advertising department of a certain university.Therefore, advertising ideals and aspirations one by one is completely divorced from reality.

Lin Youxi couldn't help but sighed, she was a difficult boss.

After arguing with John for the nth time to no avail, Lin Youxi threw the information in her hand onto the table with a "snap", put her hands on her hips, stared at John and said, "You have to trust me, the client will definitely be satisfied with this plan! "

"No creativity, no bright spots." John looked at her helplessly. "We are advertising people. We can perfunctory others today, but can we pass the barriers in our own hearts? We should take a long-term view and don't think it's just A job. You said that when you first learned advertising, didn’t it be because you liked it..."

Amidst John's chatter, Lin Youxi whispered, "I like it, but I like money more." Even though she whispered softly, John still heard it.

The two looked at each other, and Lin Youxi coughed a few times in embarrassment, and said, "Then I'll think about it again, but if you can't meet your ideal requirements within the time limit specified by the client, then there is nothing you can do. We You can't stop eating for the sake of your ideals, right? The company still has to wait for the money to pay employees." After speaking, Lin Youxi bent down to pick up the folder, and carried it out.

John made a disdainful face at her back, thinking how the company recruited such a philistine and vulgar woman, and his impression of Lin Youxi dropped a bit in his heart.

In the evening, friends asked John to sing. One of them had just returned from abroad. They were neighbors when they were young and had a good relationship.

Pushing open the door of the box, they are having fun inside. As soon as John entered, he immediately saw Zheng Tao sitting in the corner of the sofa.Walked over, grabbed his neck, and said, "Long time no see, you've become handsome. It seems that life abroad is good, and it's nourished so well."

"Come on." Zheng Tao pushed him away, "I heard you went to work in your uncle's company?"

"Yes." John picked up a piece of watermelon and fed it into his mouth, "Stop talking, I have absolutely no common language with those people in the company."

(End of this chapter)