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Chapter 881 Xiaochun - I once loved a girl

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Xiaochun - I once loved a girl

1.

I think I love you.

2.

No one has ever truly loved me.

I've never had a decent love affair either.

However, I once loved a girl.

3.

Before talking about her.

I want to tell you my story.

My name is Xiaochun.The grass is small.The spring of spring.

Grandma said that Xiaochun is the best name in the world.Full of vigor and vitality.

I heard-

Xiaochun is the best kid in the world.

I heard this sentence once in a dream. I dreamed that my father stroked my hair and said to me with a smile.

but.

It was a dream after all.

The real situation is——

You disaster star, little bitch, why don't you die?
Why wasn't you the one who died in the first place?

My mother died of excessive blood loss after giving birth to me.Since then, my father refused to look at me more.He threw me, who was still in my infancy, to my grandma to be raised, and went out alone.

However, my grandma never told me the truth.

I have never seen my parents since I was a child.

Grandma said that because my mother passed away and I had to study again, so my father went out to work.

It was for me to have a better life.

She said, your father loves you very much.

On the day he left Lianhuadu, a big man cried into tears.

In the sketch of grandma, I really feel that I am very happy.

When I was seven years old and celebrated the New Year, my father came back.That was the first time I saw him.He came back and bought me new clothes.He also gave me New Year's money.But he didn't hug me.

Although I wanted to go up to hug him and act like a baby, I always felt a little far away.

Maybe it's because we haven't seen each other for too long.

After New Years, he left.

When I came back, I had grown up and was in middle school.

His attitude remains the same.

And I am also in the same mood, there is no topic between us.

Even if there is, someone is speaking unilaterally.

"You should help your grandma do more things at home."

"Don't be too bad in your academic performance. Be worthy of the tuition fees I pay you."

"Take good care of grandma."

Come to think of it, he never called me by my name.No nicknames or anything like that.There is no title, it is to direct the topic to order certain things.

And I never thought it was weird.

Maybe it's because we have known for a long time that the relationship between us is indifferent. After all, it is rare to see each other once a year, or even for several years.

I speak to him.

"Dad. I want a new box of watercolor pens during the Chinese New Year. It would be even better if I can have a box of paint."

"Dad. When are you going to stay home longer?"

"Dad. The outside world is big and beautiful, isn't it?"

The word dad is the same as grandma, it is a very warm and reassuring existence.

Even if he never responded to my words.

That's okay too.

Because he is dad, my only dad.

3.

If there is any wish at the beginning.

I wish I had a normal family.

There is no need to have a huge blood relationship.

I just need my parents, grandma and me.

My family only needs a few people like this.

But there are no ifs in the world.

Not only do I have them, but I also have uncles and aunts, which is really bad.

Our family is very poor.This is my impression all the time.

But why is there such a dirty thing about property disputes in such a poor family?
I can't figure it out, and I don't want to figure it out.

Anyway.

None of them like us.

I sometimes think it's okay if you don't like me, but at least be nice to grandma.

Because grandma has worked hard for this family all her life.

But no one will listen to me.

The adult world is really complicated.

4.

During that most tragic life, I often had a dream in which lotus flowers stretched endlessly, and there were even lotus flowers on the lotus bridge.My father came back from his hometown, and he said to me, Xiaochun, my good boy, I'm here to pick you up.We will be together in the future, of course, and grandma will also walk together.

During that time, I always had this dream over and over again.

When I woke up, the tears and sweat were not clear.

Feeling empty inside, very lonely.

5.

No one came to pick me up.

My grandma and I are still living on the top of that broken building.

There is no end in sight.

Then I met Anhao.

I met her again.

I have been watching this little girl since I was six years old, her cool short hair, rebellious eyes, and the beautiful friend beside her.

Basically Park Anho is my ideal image of a girl.

6.

i know her.

She is not only good at studying, but also talented.He is proficient in all kinds of piano, chess, calligraphy and painting.

She has a happy family.Parents love her dearly.Although her family situation is not rich at all.But she lives in full love.

She also has a good friend who grew up with her since she was a child.

They've probably been together for as long as I can remember.

I can see that Pu Anhao likes this girl very much.They are inseparable and are together every day.We go to school together, and we go home after school together.

We also eat together at noon.

When going to the toilet, they hold hands together.

As far as the eyes can see, basically, the two of them are together.

so good.

I also hope to have such a good friend who will always be together.

but.

I noticed that too.

Pu Anhao has no other friends except Zhang Jingya. Although there are many people who talk to her, she never pays attention to them.

But Zhang Jingya is different, she has many friends, when Pu Anhao is not by her side, there are always other girls or boys around her.

At that time, I suddenly thought, if one day, Zhang Jingya was gone, would she be very lonely.

It will be sad.

Will cry.

The more I think about it, the more sad I feel.It's obviously an irrelevant matter, and it has nothing to do with me.

So from that moment on, I made up my mind that I must not let her be lonely and sad.

I want to be by her side.

7.

When I was in elementary school, because the two of them were so close, I never talked to Park Anhao at all.

No, it's not entirely impossible.

I guess I just don't have the guts.

I always feel that I am like a deflated ball in front of Anhao, without any confidence at all.

I am nothing like her.

Studying is not as good as her, and even though she works hard, she is still hovering on the verge of passing.

talent?Hmm, maybe I just don't know what this is.

I don't even have a mother yet, and I don't think anyone loves me at all except my grandma.

The gap is so obvious.

I always follow them quietly.

That has almost become a habit for me.

If I don't do that one day, I will have trouble sleeping and eating.

Finally made it to junior high school.

What I had imagined indiscriminately turned out to be a reality.Zhang Jingya really left. She changed schools and went to a middle school in the city.

At that time, I thought, children from rich families are different.so good.

However, I am more worried about Anhao.

She only has one friend, Zhang Jingya, how sad she must be now that she is gone.

7.

It's time for me to show up.

Mustered up the courage of my whole life to strike up a conversation with her.

Finally gave up.

However, he had the first conversation with her by accident in class.

Until now, I still want to sigh, literature is really wonderful.Thanks to it, I can have the opportunity to approach her.I can find a level for myself in this way.

There is no way, I really feel inferior in front of Anhao.

I care about her so much that I hate my own imperfections all the more.

Because of asking her for leave to write essays, I became acquainted with each other day by day.

After getting in touch with Anhao, I realized that she seldom smiles, and she really doesn't like to talk to people.

So, when we're together, it's basically just me talking.

I collected many jokes, memorized them, and told them to her.

It's okay for me to imitate some cross talk sketches and perform for her in front of her.

I also like to frighten her with mysteries.

But only once out of ten times did she smile.

However, this is enough.

There are still three years to turn back, which is enough.

I will definitely warm up this cold jade in Anhao.

8.

However, God seems reluctant to give me this opportunity.

Because I was later expelled from school.

Ok.It was expelled, not a transfer at all.

It's a transfer, but it sounds more decent, for the school and for me.

However, I never regret it.I don't regret it at all.

Really.

In this world, I will not allow anyone to bully Anhao.

I will not forgive anyone who tries to hurt Anhao.

I don't care who the dancing beauty is, the principal's daughter is amazing.It was her fault that she slandered Anhao, and it was unforgivable for her to do anything to Anhao.

If things get serious, Wu Mei will no longer have a reason to trouble An Hao, which may be good.It is a once and for all solution.For at least the past three years, Anhao can study and live with peace of mind.

It's just that if I'm not here, you will be lonely.

Really, I'm sorry, I broke my promise and can't be by your side anymore.

9.

I know An Hao's character very well. If she knows the truth, then she will definitely die.

Because she is An Hao, An Hao who values ​​love and righteousness.

It is absolutely impossible for the school to leak the news, because this matter is too disgraceful.

Then there is home.

My grandma and I made a three-chapter agreement, telling her not to tell An Hao the truth.

So everyone knows that I transferred because of my father.

That's great.

I was originally a useless person, I never helped An Hao with anything, on the contrary I kept trouble An Hao, now, I can finally do something for her.

I know that Anhao has been looking for me all the time, and my grandma told me about it.

But from the moment I choose to do this, fate cannot turn back.

I don't want Anhao to carry the guilt towards me all the time, it's too heavy.In this world, besides grandma, the person I like the most is An Hao.

I want her to be happy and happy for the rest of her life.

10.

After leaving Lianhuadu, my life has completely changed 360 degrees.

I didn't go to school.

I became a working girl.

I am exhausted every day in the workshop.

The female workers in the workshop are all around my age, and everyone's experience is different.

However, I still don't regret it.

Every time I just think that An Hao is doing well, that's fine.

Later, I got married.

Don't be surprised, because I am the one who gets married, not Anhao.So it's normal.

My dad got a sum of money, and after the wedding, he said to me, "From now on, there will be no bond between us, father and daughter."

fair enough.

Anyway, he always regarded me as a burden.

After everything settled down, I went back to Lianhuadu and took grandma to my side.She is old, even a little demented.However, she could still pronounce my name clearly, she took my hand and said as before, Xiaochun, this is really a good name.Full of vigor and vitality.

11.

"Xiaochun, it's time for us to go." The handsome man in a white cotton shirt standing at the door is my husband.

There seems to be no love between us, but he is really good to me.

Although we are always quarreling and teasing each other.

Today is our wedding anniversary.

He booked a plane ticket to Paris.

"Right now." I walked towards him.

When boarding the plane, I thought of Anhao again, dear Anhao, I have already obtained my happiness, please be happier than me.

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