all the mornings

Chapter 37 Reunion (4)
"It's not that Zhou Yu hit Huang Gai, one is willing to hit, the other is willing to suffer." Li Sichuan said helplessly: "I'm a bitch, if I don't let you hit Huang Gai a few times, it will be hard."

On the day of Yingying's graduation ceremony, Li Sichuan and Xiaoyu went to the kindergarten together to participate in the suspension ceremony.After the brief ceremony, the principal invited the parents to enjoy the painting exhibition.The walls of the auditorium were set up as a painting exhibition, and the children's paintings were pasted all over the wall one by one.Li Sichuan followed Yingying to see her painting. The painting was a ball of cats sleeping in a stroller with one eye open and the other closed, quite playful.Li Sichuan laughed when he saw this painting, picked up Yingying and pointed to the painting and said, "The painting is very good."

Xiao Yu looked sideways and asked, "What did you see?"

Li Sichuan pretended not to answer, but said: "Just ask Yingying if it's okay."

Xiaoyu really went to ask, Yingying replied: "The painting is a dream."

Xiao Yu asked: "Did you dream about cats?"

"Cat," said Yingying, "the cat wore my little dress and slept in my shaker."

Li Sichuan laughed loudly and asked, "Did you take the cat that Dad gave you to bed?"

Yingying covered her mouth and smiled, "The cat is talking to me. When I fall asleep, it will purr, meow, and talk to me in my sleep."

Xiao Yu was curious: "Hurr, meow, meow, what are you talking about?"

Yingying said: "Huluhulu is very happy, meow meow meow is see you tomorrow."

Li Sichuan laughed again, and said to Xiaoyu: "She has never raised a cat before, so how does she know this?"

Xiao Yu expressed her confusion, and muttered to herself, "What does dreaming about a cat represent?" Then she looked at the paintings of other children on the wall. There were lions and tigers, and she smiled and said to Li Sichuan: "This is a zoo. Well."

Li Sichuan accompanied her to look through one by one, commenting on them while watching, and hearing her words were inappropriate, he said, "Do you understand what she means?"

Xiao Yu squinted at him and asked, "Do you understand?"

Li Sichuan said: "Of course I understand. Master Freud said that dreams are the fulfillment of wishes. For children at the age of Yingying, their dreams are too simple. She wants a cat."

"It's that simple?" Xiao Yu laughed out loud, "I can guess this without you telling me."

"There is also a crib," Li Sichuan said: "She combined two wishes into one picture. Of course, there is a third meaning. The open eye means that she is observing. She is also In this image, this is her dream: she sees what she wants."

"What does she want? A little milk cat?" Xiao Yu asked suspiciously.

"That's just an appearance, haha." Li Sichuan murmured, "Baby is too lonely, maybe we can consider raising a cat or a dog."

"Yes," Xiaoyu said, "When we come back from Jiayuguan, we will go to the pet shop and let her pick one."

Of course Li Sichuan doesn't think that the baby's dream is just because of loneliness, and this kind of loneliness can be solved with a cat or a dog.Baby's dream is clearly projecting loneliness and affection onto the cat, and the crib is the essence.But Li Sichuan felt that Xiaoyu shouldn't put too much pressure on her. Now that she is willing to accept him back into their lives is a big victory.Having another baby was never considered by Li Sichuan.Xiaoyu's body and spirit are not suitable for another child.Yingying's loneliness depends on him and Xiaoyu to resolve it.Fortunately, he is back, and he will spend all his time with their mother and daughter.

Freud said that children have an innate sense of mission, they are born guardians of the family, and their innate sense of responsibility allows them to do things that are not equal to their age for the integrity of the family.After witnessing her father's betrayal and her mother's grief, did the five-year-old Xiaoyu do anything to save her family?Li Sichuan suddenly thought of this question, but unfortunately he couldn't ask Xiaoyu directly.

Kindergarten had winter vacation, and Li Sichuan took vacation early again. He took care of the baby at home, which made Xiaoyu breathe a sigh of relief during the busiest time before the festival.She and her staff arranged the exhibits of Yin'an Building, invited the media to visit, and issued announcements. The momentum was full and brought a lot of popularity.

This exhibition exhausted Xiao Yu, and when her work was over and she entered the sales stage, she felt relieved. She had a slight illness and had a fever at night, so she had to stay at home to recuperate.

This delay has come years ago.Li Sichuan saw that she was not doing well, so he postponed the travel plan of the family of three, and planned to book a plane ticket in two days.

Xiao Yu has slept a lot in the past two days, but she has a lot of dreams.

That night she had a dream again, in which she was restless and murmured repeatedly.Li Sichuan woke up in sleep, he didn't push her to wake him up, but stuck close to her, listening to what she had to say.But after hearing it, it was just a few vague words.He was still thinking about what those words meant, Xiao Yu woke up by himself, fumbled to turn on the light, and took a glass of water to drink.

She lay on the bed and saw Li Sichuan was awake, so she said: "I had a dream just now, can you analyze it?"

Li Sichuan hugged her tightly to his chest, turned off the light, and asked, "What did you dream about?"

"I dreamed about my mother," Xiaoyu said.Li Sichuan kissed her on the back of the neck and comforted her: "Poor child, I have never had a mother since I was a child. What is mother doing?"

"Mom smiled at me. I haven't seen my mother smile at me for a long time. I asked my mother, how are you doing? Mom didn't talk."

"Dreams have no sound. I wonder if you have noticed this?" Li Sichuan asked, "You know your question because you understand what you want to know, but you can't hear your mother because dreams have no sound. Sometimes, even most of the time, dreams have no color."

"Like an old black and white movie?" Xiao Yu asked.

"Yes. Then?"

"Later, my mother took my hand and took me home. I followed my hand and found that I was only the size of a baby."

"Well, that was your last time together. You don't know what your mother will be like when you grow up. You can't imagine it. So in your dreams with your mother, you never grow up."

"I'm relieved when you say that." Xiaoyu breathed a sigh of relief, and then said: "I dreamed that my mother and I were walking slowly on the road. There was a slope in front of us. There were a few people talking and laughing loudly on the side of the slope. I was very scared. , I think these people are bad people, don't get close to them. My mother ignored them and continued to walk towards the slope. I hid in a small house on the side of the road. looking at the cocooning silkworms."

"Oh, you've always been afraid of such things. This is what you fear the most. What did you do then?" Li Sichuan felt a little strange.Logically speaking, getting along with her mother was the happiest time in her memories, but at this time the thing she was most afraid of appeared, there must be some reason.

"Yeah, I was scared to death. I called my mother, and my mother was gone. I said to myself, this is the place I don't like to be, and I want to go back. Then I woke up. You say, dreaming of silkworms and straw symbolizes what?"

Li Sichuan stroked her arm and said, "Close. Silkworms need to pile straw into haystacks for cocooning, which is called going up the mountain. The appearance of silkworms and straw together means that they are silkworms preparing to cocoon. Silkworms that are cocooning do not put themselves Wrapped in the silk you spit out? You don’t like that, and you desperately want to come back, that’s right.”

"Ah, I think it's the same. Si Chuan, it's good to have you by my side." Xiao Yu turned over and hugged him back.

"Of course, Li Banxian is a free iron-mouthed magician, specializing in Zhou Gong's interpretation of dreams." Li Sichuan couldn't help boasting about himself when he was proud.Unexpectedly, Xiao Yu's next sentence frightened him quite badly.

Xiao Yu sighed and said, "You are so kind to me, making me wonder if I am worthy of having these? Look at my mother..."

Li Sichuan leaned over to kiss her and stopped her from continuing: "You deserve what I do. All girls deserve better. Your mother met a bad guy, yes, your dad is a bad guy. He is bad, he Not only broke your mother's heart, but also made you feel unnecessary guilt. But he is very good to you, to everyone, to friends, to fellow countrymen, to subordinates. He is a philanthropist and a good boss. There is too much contrast between his kindness to outsiders and his badness to his own people, which destroys your sense of right and wrong. On the one hand, you think that as a daughter, you should not stop loving your father, and on the other hand, you hate his unfeeling towards your mother .”

Hearing his evaluation of her father like this, Xiao Yu hummed dissatisfiedly.

Li Sichuan ignored her objection, and continued: "You projected this kind of emotion into our marriage. On the one hand, you think that I treat you so well that it's unreal; at the same time, you will doubt whether I will Treat you the same, just like your father treats your mother mercilessly. You are afraid of that result, so you want a divorce. Because this decision is made by you, so I am the injured party, so as to avoid you from being hurt. Hurt like your mother."

Xiao Yu whimpered and said in a low voice, "I'm sorry."

Li Sichuan kissed her and said: "But you forgot, you came from your family, and you are used to seeing problems from a bad marriage; but I came from my family, and I am used to seeing problems from a bad marriage." A good marriage depends on the problem. I hope to be like my parents, to travel around the world after retiring at the age of 60, then I will go in that direction. When you made that decision, didn't you think about babies?"

Xiao Yu was ashamed by his question, and rubbed her cheek against his cheek.

"Family has a huge influence on children. Children observe their parents' marriages and come to the conclusion that they are happy or unhappy, and then either follow suit or do the opposite. I am the former, and you are the latter. When When our unhappy marriage affects Yingying's decision-making in the future, she will definitely follow your old path." Li Sichuan said cruelly.He knew that this conversation would determine the direction of their marriage, and he had to awaken Xiaoyu's sense of responsibility.

"After you and I are dead, she will be alone. She will live alone for the rest of her life. In the future, there may not be someone as determined as her father who will stick by her side and will never drive or beat her."

Xiao Yu wrapped her arms around Li Sichuan's neck, hugged her face close to his, and whimpered: "I did something wrong, forgive me. Also, thank you for your persistence, please come back to us. "

Li Sichuan tilted his head and kissed her, and said, "Fortunately, you remember to come back."

(End of this chapter)