rebirth, romance, space

Chapter 303 Chapter 308 Self-understanding
During the days when I was about to give birth, I kept thinking about what kind of album I would like to make.Incorporate hometown traditional opera into R&B, soul, blues and gospel?Or is it like the female singer who gained international fame and recognition before, creating her own language, singing music without words like a hanging voice, and matching it with traditional costumes that people don't know how to comment on?Or half of the Chinese and foreign languages?Or how many languages ​​are used to sing a song?

And what kind of song do I like?There is actually no single answer to this. I listen to music based on my mood, and I listen to it as I grow up.When I was a child, I couldn’t read all the words, and I liked children’s songs with a brisk rhythm and positive lyrics; when I was a teenager, I liked idol stars such as Jay Chou, Stefanie Sun, and Fahrenheit; when I grew up, I listened to everything. If the first song suddenly hits the mood at that time, you can listen to it repeatedly until you get tired of listening to it, until you find the next singer, the next song that touches your heart.

Whether it is rock music with a strong rhythm or lyrical pop songs; old songs or new songs regardless of age, as long as they catch my mood at once and feel pleasant to my ears, I can sit down and listen to them quietly.Generally speaking, I am not a person who is easily moved. Even if you sing until everyone in the audience stands up and screams, I am still the kind of listener who is calm to a little cold, even if I really feel that I sing very well. OK, great.That is to say, no matter what song I listen to, my favorite way is to listen to the song quietly with headphones. What I pursue is to find the resonance with my current mood from the music, and it has nothing to do with the so-called artistic level and singing skills. .

Therefore, the album I want to release should have simple and straightforward lyrics; it should have a soothing rhythm that is neither too intense nor too bland; , Not exaggerated, not pretentious, not cumbersome, wear clothes that make your spirit look brighter.

I don't want to deliberately make myself into a small and fresh style, I am myself, the little woman who feels ashamed of her past self because of the turmoil in her heart; the silly woman who is so harsh to the person she cares about and is a bit perverted ;It's that waste material reborn flower demon who doesn't have much ambition and just wants to live her life in a plain way.

I may have a little temper, a little vanity, a little hypocrisy, a little selfishness, a little obsession, and I often doubt my own life, but my greatest strength is to accept everything that appears in my life ignorantly, and live with the flow.

Therefore, I was able to endure the violent pregnancy reaction, while having fun flipping through my memory, and finally decided to use the years I have passed to write lyrics and compose music.Although I often feel that I don’t understand myself, doesn’t inspiration come from life, people and things around me, and my own experience?
And in my past and present lives, I have been too rational.I have never really indulged my mind to do anything. Whether it is in relationships or in life, I have rationally seen, accepted, and endured silently. I have considered and worried too much.

For example, since I was a child, I have never dared to disobey the attitude of the adults and elders towards me, and I am tired of wanting to grow up and live in a distant place by myself, but I just dare to think about it quietly in my heart, and usually I will only work harder Go to study and obediently listen to the teachings; like the vigorous first love with Chen Jinghua in the previous life, even if the love is so strong that I don’t want the future, when the relatives of both parties object, I feel that my heart hurts even to breathe, and finally I choose to get together with Chen Jinghua. It's so rational that it's not like first love at all; it's like being snatched away by a classmate in the same village, and you just look away calmly after being surprised. The best man partners for a lifetime of randomness.

So, why can't I just be myself for once?Even if you are a child of farmers, the second, third, or fourth generation of farmers, so what?I still live in the era when the red flags fluttered. No matter in the previous life or now, I grew up with the love of my family. In this life, I rely on plagiarism to make myself popular both at home and abroad.

However, I am not afraid of losing everything now. All the money obtained from plagiarism has been donated to the construction of schools, libraries, and hospitals at the beginning of Hong Kong City's debut.Besides, I'm not someone who can't afford to lose, the flower demon who awakened the ancient blood.

Afraid of losing popularity?Don't be stupid, this is something that Ling Jianle is only worried about. If I wanted to, I should have quit the entertainment circle long ago.If you want to help people, you might as well practice hard, plant the land in the mirror of your mind with your heart, and then sell medicinal materials to make money.If it doesn't work, it's okay to sell pearls, anyway, there are as many pearls as sea sand in the phantom sea in the soul mirror.

(PS: I get angry, my throat hurts, my mouth is foaming... can drinking black tea also get angry? Huh... Is it really old?)
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