when i have experience

Chapter 2 Origin of Pickled Fish
Chen Xing stood in the largest room on the second floor. He said it was a room, but in fact there was nothing there. A bed board, a table, and a chair were all there was.Chen Xing sighed, walked to the table and saw a piece of paper on the table, on which was written in crooked black ink, "I know I am not worthy of all good things."

Seeing this word, Chen Xing felt a pain in his head and a pain in his heart. The pain as if his heart was being squeezed made Chen Xing squat down and form a ball, with beads of sweat gushing out from his head.

It took a long time for Chen Xing to recover and regained his ability to move. The pain was as if he was experiencing the distress of a master in this body.

After seeing that note, more memories came to mind. It has been several times today. Chen Xing wiped the sweat from his forehead, stood up and slumped on the chair, looking at the white sheet spread out on the table. Paper, he already knew why Chen Xing committed suicide, depression.

Luo Feng is well aware of how hopeless depression is, because he has experienced it. He was also a depression patient, but he got out of it through his own efforts, of course not completely. There is a saying that depression cannot be truly cured , there is always a chance of relapse, but Luo Feng chose to continue living.

When he was Luo Feng, he had an ordinary childhood and graduated from an ordinary university. He was an ordinary person who lived an ordinary life and was pampered by ordinary parents. He found a job and lived an ordinary life.

Until one day, a car accident took his parents away, and he resigned from everything and started wandering alone.

Everything has changed.

Huh, Chen Xing took a deep breath, picked up the white paper on the table, "I know I am not worthy of all good things." These words are so dazzling and bleak, it must be hard work, Chen Xing.

You should have waited bro, you really deserve all the love and joy.

Folding the white paper upright and putting it in the desk drawer, Chen Xing stood up. Since everything was irreversible, he had to live on. The last Chen Xing got eternal peace.

But I still have to live no matter what.

Chen Xing walked to the toilet, looking at the childish and pale face in the dim yellow glass, only those eyes were inexplicably calm and firm.This can be regarded as rebirth, but this is the most miserable rebirth, not going back to the past, but being reborn on a person who has nothing, this is really - nothing.

There is no so-called cheating, but Chen Xing doesn't think there is anything, his soul is cheating, 27-year-old Luo Feng's soul is on 15-year-old Chen Xing, this is cheating.You have experienced youth, experienced loneliness, experienced pain, experienced friendship, love, maturity, this word is not just talking.

But now is not the time to think about these things, Chen Xing is very hungry, and the sky is getting dark, it's time for dinner, not to mention whether Chen Xingtiao ate or not before, anyway, he is starving to death now.

But there is not a single grain of rice in this house. Chen Xing searched his memory, but there is no memory that shows where there is money in this house.

No wonder you're depressed?Who has suffered from this thing?

Chen Xing really suffered. When he was wandering around in his previous life, he was hungry a lot at the beginning, but then it became less and less. In a lifetime, one mouth can fill you up most of the time.

Take beggars as an example, beggars begging for food. In the past, beggars went from house to house to beg for some food. Few people who had conditions allowed would not give leftovers. It was not until the goal of begging became money that all this changed. , It also shows from the side that today's beggars actually have enough to eat.

Chen Xing walked out of this concrete building, which is a combination of steel bars and stone bricks. He shook his gray short sleeves, which were still a little wet, but Chen Xing didn't mind. He looked around the house, a large open space at the corner of the road, There is no one else but this house, if that can be called a house, of course.

This open space can be said to be halfway up the mountain, right by the sea, where the sea water washes against the rocks under the cliff. Chen Xing stood by the cliff, he was more than ten meters above the sea, the sea breeze was blowing his wet clothes, and he carried salt water with him. Fishy hair, this is where he committed suicide by jumping.

Who would have thought that this chicken building would still be a sea view room?
The sea, Chen Xing likes to look at the sea very much, otherwise he would not go to the sea by boat.

Cuckoo, my stomach rumbled, and I called Chen Xing back to reality, rubbed my stomach, alas, I don't have abdominal muscles.

Hey, Chen Xing saw someone fishing on the rock not far below the cliff, he licked his lips, his eyes flashed, it was time to use his mouth.

Go back along the road you came up just now, and after walking for a while, Chen Xing arrived at the rocky reef. A middle-aged man was wearing a straw hat and fishing with a fishing rod in front of him. On the rocks, this kind of place is really good for fishing.

Chen Xing pursed his lips when he saw the straw hat. People who wear straw hats to go fishing in the summer these days are really sentimental. Although the sun is not very bright now, most people will buy a fishing hat, and some even wrap it like an Afghan woman. eyes.

Chen Xing didn't mind being dirty, so he sat down next to the middle-aged man, and glanced at the live fishnet in the water, yes, there was movement.

"Brother, how are you? How many fish?" Chen Xing said with a smile after confirming that there were fish.

The middle-aged man didn't expect the young man to talk to him as soon as he came over. In fact, this kind of chatting is very frequent when fishermen meet others. Those are people of their age. How many young people are fishing?Let alone chat like this.

No one minds being chatted with, unless you want to be alone.

"It's okay, so-so. When the tide is high, I catch a few more." The middle-aged man also responded kindly.

When Chen Xing heard this, he stood up and took a look at the fishing net in the water, "Hey, not bad, it's all this big."

It was very good, and there were a few white and fat ones that were more than enough to eat. Chen Xing swallowed his saliva at an angle that the middle-aged man couldn't see, and put the fishnet back into the water.

"Haha." The middle-aged man smiled complacently. Which fisherman doesn't like being told that the fish he caught is big.

Chen Xing sat down next to the middle-aged man again, chatting with the middle-aged man without a word.

Young people may be a little disgusted with this kind of chat directly, but people of a certain age will not mind this kind of chat. You may only find out when you are older that it is very good to have someone chatting with you in many cases.

The middle-aged man is also in a good mood. Chatting with the young man in front of him, he found out how he feels like a peer.

"Do you have any children?"

"There is a daughter."

"How old are you, have you gone to college yet?"

"Internship, older than you."

"Oh, that's good, you don't have to worry about the child."

Hearing this sentence, the middle-aged man even glanced at the young man next to him. His face was still childish, and he looked like a minor. When he said this, his face was still so flat. I felt a little weird even at my age. Ah, my daughter is older than you!
Although it's weird, the middle-aged man doesn't mind that much. If this young man really talks about young things with him, he doesn't understand. Open his mouth and shut up, what idol 101, what creation 101, Fanfan, Hanhan, Kunkun Yes, what are they.

Chen Xing didn't think there was anything wrong with the topic he was talking about, so he just chatted with the middle-aged man, and also talked about the local situation, the environment and so on. Occasionally, some fish would help the middle-aged man copy the net.

Soon the sky darkened, the sun set from the sea level, and the light was dim.

"Young man, it's time for me to go. You should go home too." The middle-aged man stood up from the stool with a smile and said, putting away the fishing rod.

"Okay." Chen Xing also stood up and patted the dust on his buttocks to help the middle-aged man pack his things. When he was done, he picked up the fishing net from the water and handed it to the middle-aged man.

"Brother, can you give me a fish?"

The middle-aged man was stunned when he heard this sentence when he took the fishnet. He was not hesitating whether to give the fish, but wondered why a young man would ask him for fish. This is not a good-looking ornamental fish. As for eating, Middle-aged people didn't expect to go here.

In this day and age, are there still children in the family who run out to ask for fish for dinner?
It was strange, but the middle-aged man quickly took out the biggest fish from the net and handed it to Chen Xing.

Chen Xing took it and pinched it with both hands. The strength of the fish is still quite strong, and it is really difficult to control it with one hand.

"Let's go." The middle-aged man packed up his tools and said goodbye to Chen Xing with a smile.

Chen Xing also nodded with a smile. He wanted to wave his hand, but he was holding the fish, and the fish was still waving its tail vigorously, splashing sea water on his face.

The middle-aged man left, and Chen Xing walked back with the fish.

The fish was still shaking vigorously.

Chen Xing slammed the fish onto a rock, and the big fish stared and twitched a few times before it stopped moving.

What are you crazy about, brother? !

Chen Xing walked towards his "home" leisurely, holding the fishnet with one hand and whistling.

The sea breeze blowing on Chen Xing's face in the summer evening gave Chen Xing a strange sense of ease. He was born inland in his last life and had never seen the sea a few times. He liked the sea very much, otherwise he would not have sailed by boat that day. Into the sea, the result sank in the sea.

Carrying the fish and returning to the cold concrete-reinforced building, Chen Xing walked into the kitchen. Of course it was a so-called "kitchen". There was no gas, but there was a stove, but the whole kitchen was just one pot. I knew it was only used to cook instant noodles, but how did he cook it without gas?

After searching in the kitchen, Chen Xing quickly got the result. There was a hot water pot. It was a good thing. Chen Xing filled the hot pot with water and put it on. He folded his hands expectantly and waited.

For a while, nothing happened.

Huh?Chen Xing's face collapsed with anticipation, and he looked carefully, but the indicator light was not on.Chen Xing had a bad premonition in his heart, and walked quickly to the switch of the kitchen light, click, there was no movement,
No electricity, probably no electricity bill.

Chen Xing rubbed his forehead and felt a headache. This time, it was either because of the memory flooding in his head, or just a simple headache. No wonder he jumped into the sea, because he knew that the power would be cut off and he couldn't bear it anymore.

Fortunately, Chen Xing won't be knocked down just like that, he exhaled, and continued to search in the kitchen. Fortunately, the kitchen was empty and there was nothing, so Chen Xing quickly searched it all over.

found it!Chen Xing was pleasantly surprised and took out a box of matches from a corner of a drawer. Chen Xing was determined to eat this fish today!Chen Xing glanced at Yu, who was motionless on the table beside him, with firm eyes.

He cleaned the fish with a knife, and there were no seasonings in the kitchen. Fortunately, Chen Xing found a few packets of old altar sauerkraut instant noodle seasoning packets, good guy, pickled cabbage fish!
(End of this chapter)