The world is so bad, so lucky to meet you

Chapter 22 Long-distance love is to fight monsters and upgrade
When Walnut called me, I was sleeping late and answered the phone in a daze.

She said excitedly: He is coming!He is coming!
I squinted my eyes and said, "Say it slowly, who is coming?"
She said: Ocean!He said that he had already handed over the business, and booked a ticket for Friday to come here and develop here, so he won't leave!

I woke up immediately, my good fellow, I am finally going to achieve a positive result!

I said: He came to invite us to dinner!
She said: No problem, just order a big meal!

I am so excited because I have watched Hu Tao's emotional ups and downs in the past few years. She is happy, she is sad, she tears, and she is sad, all because of a long-distance relationship.

Hu Tao and Hai Yang are college classmates. When they saw each other in the third year of junior high school, they seemed to have a little interest in each other, so they walked together naturally.

At that time, the days when the two of them faced each other day and night were still very beautiful. They went to get out of class together, went to self-study together, went to the cafeteria together, fetched water together, went to the library together, watched the moon and counted the stars together.

They lived together for a short time, and rented a house in a community not far from the school. Walnut was skillful, bought some exquisite gadgets, and arranged a small world for the two of them.They cook together in that small home, do hygiene together, dry the quilt together, and celebrate birthday together.

He squeezed toothpaste for her and put in face wash; she tested the temperature of the water for him and rubbed his back; when she lacked information for her thesis, he would help her look up the information all night and all night; the braised pork she made was his favorite, She always makes it for him to eat; when her aunt is in severe pain, he boils brown sugar ginger juice for her and takes it to class in a thermos; he doesn't like to take notes, so she does every class seriously Take notes, tick out the key points one by one for him before the exam; if she wants to eat melon seeds, he will peel them one by one and put them in a big bowl for her; if he likes to eat pears, she will peel off the skin and cut them into pieces Put one petal on the plate, insert a toothpick, and put it in front of him... According to our words, they spoil each other as if they can't take care of themselves.

They originally agreed that Haiyang would stay in the city of Walnut after graduation, and he was responsible for convincing his family.But the plan is not as fast as the change. Haiyang's father is sick, and cancer cells are found. During the treatment, the situation looks good now, but the doctor is not sure how long he can live.The family was afraid of affecting Haiyang's graduation exam, so they didn't tell him until after he finished the exam.

Haiyang was dumbfounded when he received the call, and he was at a loss when he hung up the phone.He has heard so many cancers, chemotherapy, radiotherapy, surgery, etc., which sound heavy. He never thought that his parents would also be affected. He dare not imagine his life after his father left.

While he was eager to go home to take care of his father, he was reluctant to part with Walnut. He knew that if he went back this time, he might not be able to come back for a long time, so he was very conflicted.Hu Tao sees it in his eyes and feels pain in his heart. When he loves someone, he can't bear him to suffer.

Hu Tao said: You go back to take care of your father first, and I will settle down. If you can, I will let you go.

Haiyang wanted to say something, but he didn't say it after all, but just held her hand tightly.

On the day Haiyang left, he was reluctant to part, and he said: You must come.Hu Tao smiled and nodded slightly. He kissed her tenderly on the forehead, and held her hand for a long distance before reluctantly letting go.

Hu Tao has 1000 million regrets in her heart. She doesn't know when the next meeting will be, and all the words she said to go with him are to comfort him and reassure him.She is a child of a single-parent family. She has no mother, only her father, and an elderly grandmother who is a little trembling when she walks. Her father is busy with his career and supporting the family all day long. She is responsible for taking care of her grandmother. She can walk as far as possible where to go
If only considering the future of the two of them, Hu Tao would definitely be willing to go with Hai Yang, but behind them were two families and a few old people.They are all only children, and parents want their children to be by their side. The older they get, the more lonely and insecure they become.

The ocean is gone, and they have been separated by two thousand kilometers since then, and their long-distance relationship has begun.

When Haiyang first left, Hutao was really not used to it. At that time, there was no tool such as WeChat that could be contacted at any time. They could only send text messages and make phone calls every day. Video recording on the computer at night was their happiest moment.

Hu Tao went shopping with her friends, and her feet hurt when she walked, remembering that year at school, the stairs were very high, Hai Yang said: Come up, I will carry you on my back.She happily jumped on his back, humming and twisting on his back to torture him.

He pretended to be angry and said: If you move again, if you move again, you will be thrown down!

She said "throw it, throw it, see if you don't want it", and twisted even more, and the two of them laughed so hard that their flowers were trembling.

Many small details of being together lingered in Hu Tao's mind, and she became sad when she thought about it.Not being able to see him, not being able to hear his voice, wanting to see him but not being able to see him, this feeling of powerlessness overwhelmed her. Fortunately, there were his text messages and phone calls to support her, which made her feel better.

Hu Tao likes to eat snacks. When we were together before, Haiyang accompanied her to the supermarket to buy them. After we separated, he bought her favorite snacks online and mailed them directly to her.Whenever I receive the snacks he bought, I can feel full of love when I open the box.Pudding, chocolate, beef jerky, mochi, handmade biscuits, etc. are all her favorite snacks, and he can even choose the flavor she likes.

Haiyang’s mobile phone was out of charge, and he happened to be doing business outside. At that time, it was not so convenient to recharge the call charge through the Internet. He sent a text message to Hu Tao, and Hu Tao ran out immediately, and bought a 100 yuan call charge card from a small shop. He charged.At that time, her phone bill was only about 50 yuan a month, and she was only willing to recharge her phone bill by [-] yuan every time.

They agreed that every three months, he would come over, or she would go over to see each other. In the first year of the long distance, he came over three times, and she went over once.

They are trying to maintain this relationship in various ways.

In the second year of the long-distance relationship, Haiyang's father's physical condition stabilized, and he started his business by relying on his family relationship.

At the beginning of his career, there were many difficulties. He gradually became busy and no longer had so much time and energy to connect with Hu Tao. His phone calls and chat messages also decreased. Sometimes it took a long time for Hu Tao to send messages. Will reply, the appointment time to meet, also because of the postponement of work, Hu Tao's heart is getting more and more restless.

The most uncomfortable thing about a long-distance relationship is that you don’t know what he’s doing, whether he’s really busy or pretending to be busy, whether he’s alienating you intentionally or unintentionally, and being ignored a little bit will magnify a hundred times. When I am free, I will think wildly, and my sense of emotional security is faltering.

The sea is very busy, so the half-believing Walnut flew there on vacation.But he was too busy with work to take care of Hu Tao at all, so she wandered around alone during the day and waited for him to have dinner together at night.

On the weekend, Haiyang took a day off and planned to take her to play, but he was so tired that he slept until noon.She felt sorry for him, looked at his tired face, and couldn't bear to wake him up. After a hard-won day, another half day passed.

In the afternoon he took her shopping and bought her clothes.Hu Tao felt that he worked too hard and didn't want to spend his money, but he insisted on buying it for her.He couldn't accompany her often, and he still owed her more or less.

How busy is the ocean?Let's put it this way, when Hu Tao came back, he asked his friends to drive him to the airport, and he stayed in the company for meetings.Walnut sent him a message before boarding the plane, but he didn't reply.

Hu Tao was very angry when she left that trip, but Hai Yang was busy with serious business, and she was not easy to get angry.When everyone asked after returning, she couldn't say anything bad about him, she was really aggrieved to death.

After working independently for more than half a year, Haiyang has undergone great psychological changes. He feels that his relationship is stable, chatting occasionally, and making a phone call a day is enough, but Hu Tao feels that it is not enough at all.He advised Hu Tao not to focus on her feelings, but to give each other space, and she should also plan for her own future. She felt that these were all his excuses.

She also knew that it was impossible for him to be with her 24 hours a day, and she also understood that he was very busy at work, but she couldn't help but feel disappointed when she saw other people going out and about.Their relationship is unequal, Haiyang is very independent, and Hutao relies on him more, as time goes by, both of them feel very tired.

Insecure lovers are always prone to fights, and so are they.

One day, Haiyang didn't reply to messages all day long. Hu Tao waited until twelve o'clock in the evening, and finally couldn't hold back anymore. He called, and there was a cold voice, "The number you dialed has been turned off." Feeling that the sky was gloomy, she began to think wildly again.

What is he doing?Why shut down?Why don't you come home so late?Does he have a new girlfriend?Did you go out with your new girlfriend?Once she started to think about it, those imaginary plots would piss her off, and many questions would go back and forth in her mind.

In fact, Haiyang was on a business trip that night and did not tell Walnut.He competed with customers on the wine table, drank white, red, and beer, and he didn't know that his mobile phone turned off automatically when it ran out of power. When he returned to the hotel, he fell asleep exhausted and completely forgot about walnuts.

When he woke up the next day, he remembered that he hadn't contacted Hu Tao all day yesterday. He charged the phone, called Hu Tao, and heard her hoarse voice on the other end of the phone.She must have cried all night. He felt a little distressed, but he felt that she was too sensitive, so the two got angry on the phone and quarreled.

Later, Haiyang became even busier, talking, socializing, drinking, and always returning home in the middle of the night.Hu Tao also has to go to work early in the morning the next day. In order to wait for him to say a word or two, he often waits until midnight or one or two o'clock in the middle of the night. When he is sleepy, he has to work hard to keep his eyes open, but he goes home most of the time. He fell asleep right away, completely ignoring a few words with her.

In the messages sent on weekdays, even if Haiyang can reply a word, Hu Tao feels at ease in his heart, but he is so busy that he can't care about anything, and often can't even reply a word, Hu Tao feels more and more insecure. Seriously, she's fighting herself every day.

In the second year of their long-distance relationship, they quarreled, fought coldly, reconciled, quarreled and fought coldly again.Haiyang felt that he was busy, and Hutao should forgive him. Hutao felt that he could not find him, and wondered if he had changed his mind. Haiyang thought that she had promised to come over, but why did she push and push again, Hutao felt that he cared less and less They are becoming more and more strangers, unable to understand each other.Once suspicion and mistrust start, they will intensify.

Hu Tao's work is step-by-step. A male colleague chased her and boldly confessed to her.She said frankly: Sorry, I have a boyfriend.

The male colleague was surprised: I didn't notice it at all. I have been observing you for a long time, and you are always alone, and no one has picked you up.

She was a little embarrassed, smiled and said: He is out of town.

The male colleague said in surprise: Long-distance relationship?
She still just smiled.

A good colleague advised her that a long-distance relationship is always fruitless, and if someone chases after her, she should consider it, maybe it is better than the one in the distance.

She just smiled and said nothing, at that time she was extremely determined that they could make it to the end.

When she came out of the company that day, it was raining. She didn't bring an umbrella, so she ran to the nearby cafe to hide from the rain.Passers-by on the street, she saw those boyfriends holding umbrellas for their girlfriends, like holding up a clear sky.Looking at it, her eyes became wet. She has a boyfriend, but there is still no one to support her.

The whole day of Valentine's Day, there was no news from the ocean again.

Some female colleagues in the office received flowers from their boyfriends, and some female colleagues received gifts from their boyfriends by courier. The female colleagues happily took the flowers, happily unwrapped the presents, happily took pictures, and happily posted on Weibo, walnut She could see God, as if all the happiness brought out her unhappiness.

On Valentine's Day in the first year of a long-distance relationship, Hai Yang called and said: Happy Holidays, Tao Zi!She held the thermos he sent by mail, hugged the phone and said: I miss you so much.

On Valentine's Day of the second year of the long-distance relationship, he never heard from him.

She called him, and he picked up and said: I'm busy now, so I'll talk tonight.Before she could speak, he hung up. She was helpless and angry while holding the phone, and wanted to throw it down.

Hu Tao came out from overtime work and looked at the lovers in pairs all over the street. She felt suffocated, and fled back home as if fleeing for her life. She locked herself in the room, crying uncontrollably.

After Hu Tao finished crying, she wanted to chat with Hai Yang, so she didn't send a message until eleven o'clock in the evening.

Walnut said: Are you there?

After more than ten minutes, Haiyang replied: I just went home.

Before she could speak, he sent another message: I'm going to bed, and I have to go to the company early tomorrow morning.

Her thousands of words finally turned into one word - good.

After closing the phone, it was a night of insomnia.For countless nights, she suffered from insomnia like this. She thought over and over about their future. She was in pain, but he couldn't feel it.

When Hu Tao was at work, she had a severe stomachache. She wanted to call Hai Yang, but she didn't press the phone when she picked it up. She held her stomach with her hands alone.Colleagues asked her to go to the hospital, and she sweated and said: It's okay, just persevere.

The male colleague who still wanted to chase Hu Tao picked her up and took her to the hospital.

Acute gastroenteritis, infusion, anti-inflammatory, the male colleague stood by for more than two hours.

It's not that Hu Tao is not untouched. She wishes that the person by her side is Hai Yang, but it's a luxury for lovers in different places to have dinner together, to watch movies together, or even to see each other.

In different places, the most difficult thing to overcome is the absence in each other's lives. He is not there when she needs him, he is not there when her relationship needs support, and she is not there when he is tired, hungry, or thirsty. Unable to support each other, unable to face the sunny and rainy season together, unable to watch the rainbow after the rain together.

They broke up that year, there was no communication, no emotional expression, and no companionship, which became their biggest obstacle, quarreling, cold war, and finally broke up.

Hu Tao listened to everyone's persuasion, tried to accept that male colleague, tried to eat with him, watch a movie, go on a date, like all couples, trying to cultivate a relationship.

The male colleague also gave the greatest tolerance, he could see through her heart, and saw that the ocean still lived in her heart.He said: It's okay, I will accompany you to forget him slowly.Seeing his sincere eyes, Hu Tao was almost moved to tears. Having experienced the pain of a long-distance relationship, she felt that it was not easy to have someone who was willing to support and wait by her side. She really wanted to treat this big boy well. Take it as seriously as you take the ocean.

But after going out a few times, Hu Tao didn’t want to go again, she felt awkward, the person she loved deeply in her heart was Hai Hai, she couldn’t forget him, and it was infinitely embarrassing to face the care and care of her male colleagues, she was afraid of procrastinating and delaying She once again tactfully rejected her male colleague.

Everyone who knew said she was stupid, for missing such a good boy for a lover who couldn't be seen or touched.

Only she understands, some people can't tell what is good, but she just can't let go.

Haiyang heard from a friend about his male colleague chasing Hu Tao. Two months after the breakup, he suddenly flew over, appeared in front of Hu Tao, and wanted to take Hu Tao away.Hu Tao was taken aback, but reason told her she couldn't, she shook her head and said: No, I can't go.

Haiyang said: Is it for him?

Hu Tao looked blank: Him?Which him?
He said: Your male colleague.

Hu Tao wanted to laugh, it turned out that he had misunderstood.

Hu Tao decided to tell him the family situation. She was always afraid that he would dislike her single-parent family, so she never dared to tell.

That was the first time they had a good communication, the first freshness and passion, and the later quarrel, they lacked communication like all lovers who are getting further and further apart.

They came to a candle-lit night talk and spoke out what was in each other's hearts before. They realized that if the lovers in different places do not communicate well, there will be great misunderstandings. The busyness of real life and work makes each other ignore each other.

Haiyang wanted to take her away, but he understood her very well.

He said: Good boy, I still have anything to do.

She blinked and said: I don't want to trouble you.

He touched her head and said: If you don't bother me, who will I trouble?

She plunged into his arms with red eyes.

Haiyang's career there is developing very well now, and he doesn't dare to give up everything and stay.After an ideological struggle, he left alone.They lost another chance to reunite.

Career, family, contacts, there are always too many things that involve two people, and they miss the opportunity to be together again and again, but this is the reality. No one dares to put everything aside and go for a walk, and no one can selfishly ask each other sacrifice everything.

They began to miss each other again.

After Haiyang returned, he was still busy with work. Hu Tao tried his best to adjust himself and gave him the greatest trust. The two got along for a while without quarrels, cold wars, or breakups.

The most rare thing about a long-distance relationship is that after experiencing longing, loneliness, torture, suspicion, and pain, you are still willing to wait for that person.

It was originally a calm day, but a tornado suddenly blew. In the third year of their long-distance relationship, a third party appeared between them.

In the space of the ocean, Hu Tao saw a girl leave a message saying, it's nice to meet you.The avatar was a beautiful girl, Hu Tao was dumbfounded.

She had wondered whether another girl would appear next to Haiyang countless times, and overthrew it by herself again and again, but now that girl was in front of her eyes, she was at a loss what to do.

A few simple words, but there is no politeness, even some intimacy, it should be someone who is more acquainted, so they deliberately leave such words in the space.Walnut's intuition told her that there was a story between them.

Hu Tao opened the girl's space almost tremblingly, and then saw their group photo in her space. They sang K together, cut cake together, and sat together, and her heart skipped a beat.Although the group photo is not too intimate, ordinary friends of the opposite sex will not deliberately take pictures alone like this. It can be seen that the relationship between the two is quite good.

Hu Tao clicked on the girl's single photo, and she almost cried when she saw it.She thought that if the opponent was this girl, she would definitely lose miserably. The girl is more beautiful than her, more charming than her, and has a better figure than her.Everything seemed better than her, and her self-confidence was shattered bit by bit.

Hu Tao struggled for two days, didn't sleep well for two days, and was absent-minded at work for two days, so she decided to ask.

She called Hai Yang and asked him about the girl.

Haiyang obviously hesitated, the sliver of hope she held in her heart was gone, she originally thought that if he denied it, she would choose to believe it, but he didn't deny it, he hesitated, that meant there was indeed a story between them.

Haiyang said: Walnut, I don't want to lie to you, but you have to believe that I love you the most.

Hearing him say this made her even more convinced that something had happened.

The story is simple but ambiguous.

Haiyang and Goddess met at a friend's party. Another friend brought a girl. The friend liked Goddess and wanted to chase Goddess.

When we met for the first time, the goddess drank a lot of alcohol, and my friend was also short-hearted. Haiyang lived in a house close to the KTV, so my friend sent the goddess to Haiyang's house, and stayed with the goddess for a night with Haiyang.

When they met for the second time, the goddess drank again. They repeated the pattern of the first time and guarded the goddess for another night.

The third time the goddess still drank the broken piece, the goddess seemed to be always broken.Still send it to Haiyang's house, the difference is that my friend also drank too much and couldn't hold back and went home, leaving the goddess and Haiyang alone in a room.

That night, Haiyang looked at the sleeping goddess, and his heart was indeed moved a little bit.The goddess who woke up saw Haiyang who bought her breakfast for the third time, but she really liked it.

Later, the goddess often came to Haiyang and asked him to do this or that.At first he thought it was a friend, but later he found that she seemed to love him very much. He deliberately told the goddess about having a girlfriend, but the goddess kept showing up as if she didn't know.He wanted to explicitly reject the goddess several times, but he was afraid of hurting the pure goddess, so he never made up his mind.

Later they went to sing K again, and the goddess sang with Hai Yang, and deliberately took pictures with him.

Hu Tao asked what song it was, but Haiyang didn't want to say, but girls like to hang on to the details, Haiyang couldn't help it, so he said weakly: "A Little Temptation".He is too honest.

Hai Yang said: Hu Tao, I will make it clear to her that I love you, you have to believe me.

Hu Tao couldn't laugh or cry, she didn't know why he couldn't refuse the temptation of the outside world as decisively as she did.She didn't even understand why he felt that every time he drank alcohol, he would drink fragments, and that the goddess who lived in a stranger's house would be innocent. She felt that his logic was too difficult to understand.

Hu Tao is not good at singing, Baidu listened to "A Little Tempted", "I am a little tempted for you, but I am so afraid of looking into your eyes, I am so a little bit tempted and a little bit hesitant, I can't believe I can't help it..."

After listening to the walnut collapsed, they actually sang such a song, like a naked confession.

Hu Tao really wanted to fly over to defend her love immediately, but she had to work, and it was the busy time of the company, too many entanglements did not allow her to put down the leave note and leave immediately.She is so helpless, in the face of distance, she was so helpless.When the third party appeared, she in the distance could only watch other girls threaten her feelings, and she was powerless.

Fortunately, Haiyang's friend launched a fierce pursuit of the goddess, and he took advantage of the trend to persuade the goddess to accept his friend, and at the same time give him advice.Money, gifts, and meticulous care. Soon, the goddess was distracted, diverted her attention, and stopped talking to him.

After the goddess incident, Hu Tao found that the most frustrating thing was not living alone for a long time, but the lack of any expectations in her heart. She didn't know when they would be able to stay by each other's side, and when their long-distance relationship would end .

Haiyang said: If you persist, I will always find a solution.

This time, Walnut said obediently: Well, I will.She knew that it was useless for her to lose her temper, it would only affect the relationship between the two of them.

In the fourth year of a long-distance relationship, Hu Tao is very used to being alone, eating alone, shopping alone, drinking coffee alone, traveling with friends, and mailing him a postcard.

When looking at the weather forecast, Hu Tao will check the weather in the city where Haiyang is located. If the temperature drops, just send him a message: The temperature will cool down tomorrow, so wear more clothes.After sending it, he threw it aside, and no longer foolishly waited for his reply.He responded happily when he called, entertained himself without hearing from him, and lived more and more independently.

A friend said: You are so strong, having a boyfriend like this is like not having a boyfriend, why do you want him?

On the surface, Hu Tao said that girls should be independent, but sometimes they feel uncomfortable in their hearts. If they can deceive others, they cannot deceive themselves. If everything is one person, why bother to have a boyfriend in name?A girl's strength is forced out. The stronger the girl on the surface, the weaker she is deep down. She is fine on weekdays, but once touched, she will be defeated.The softest place in her heart is still the ocean.

Walnut sometimes jokingly asks: Is there any pretty little girl by your side?Take one.

Haiyang said: No matter how beautiful other girls are, they are not as beautiful as my peach.

It is not enough for lovers who are separated in two places to reason with a serious face. Instead, they can choose something nice to say, which can make the other party feel at ease.

Haiyang will send a few words to Hutao every night, talk about work, talk about life, and then say good night.This is not hypocritical, but down-to-earth. Seeing the message he sent, she felt at ease, she was at ease, and he was also at ease.

Walnut received a particularly expensive gift on his birthday.Haiyang also sent some small things before, such as crystal bracelets, thermos cups, etc. This time, she didn't pay much attention to it. When she opened it, she was shocked. The box belonged to Chow Tai Fook.She opened the box and found a diamond necklace. She picked up the necklace and looked at it for a long time. She was sure that it was not a zircon, but a platinum diamond necklace. She took a breath. She really didn't expect it to be so expensive this time.

Hai Yang personally selected the gift in that city and then couriered it to her.She wanted to tell him that he didn't need such an expensive gift, but she changed her mind and accepted it again. This expensive gift, which was different from the past, represented the improvement of her status in his heart.

In fact, long-distance relationships need some small gifts to express their feelings for the other party. They don’t care about the price of the gift, but care about the thought that is always missed. It will also give the other party more sense of security and happiness. A feeling full of security can be Go down smoothly.

Taking advantage of the spare time in marine business, they went to Yunnan together and lived in Erhai Lake for five days.Wake up together in the morning, stay in bed together, go to have breakfast together, look at the Erhai Lake in a daze together, look at the clouds like cotton candy, look at the rare blue sky in the city, make a pot of Kung Fu tea, and sit on the sofa for an afternoon.Just snuggled together for five days of quiet time.

Hu Tao posted a photo of the back of two people facing the sea in the circle of friends. The sky is very blue and the clouds are white. The back of the two people standing by the sea, he is holding her hand.That was the first time they traveled together, and it was also the first time she sent a picture of him.

Five days later, they went back to their respective cities to continue their long-distance relationship until Hu Tao called me.

I don’t know how determined Haiyang is to hand over the company he worked so hard for to a partner, and we don’t know how he persuaded his parents to come to this city. The only thing we see is the smile from the heart on his face. The tender eyes of Walnut.

Haiyang said that after waiting for Hu Tao to take her annual leave, she would take her back to meet her parents and finalize the marriage.His parents knew about Walnut, and there was only one formal meeting missing.

By my side, many long-distance relationships have been lost to distance and time, and only they survived.

Choosing a long-distance relationship means choosing to fight monsters and upgrade, which is a more difficult road than ordinary love. In this process, patience, communication, trust, understanding, deep feelings and firm belief in being together are the stepping stones, and the only thing that can The way to win is that one side bravely flies to the other side's city.

Turning "distance" into "beside" is the best promise to each other.

(End of this chapter)