Only married but not in love: Ex-wife, see you tonight!

Chapter 312 Dreamland
Ruan Anxi was not frightened by his words, but shook her head invisibly: "Who knows."

Shi Yan has always stayed here these days. Although she has been in a trance, she can inexplicably feel the presence of another person in the ward.

She seemed to be able to "see" that person reading documents, as if she could "see" his slightly wrinkled brows and his bony hands holding a pen, and even "see" him having a video conference with others.

Even if she refuses to admit it, her heart cannot be deceived. As long as Shi Yan stays in this room with her, she seems to be able to get rid of all fear and anxiety. Even if bad news comes again and again, she seems to always have that feeling glimmer of hope.

But just now, this sense of security disappeared quietly.

Shi Yan left the ward.

The fear that had been suppressed in her heart seemed to have broken the seal, and all the negative emotions that had accumulated for a few days burst out at once, but her first reaction was not panic, but bewilderment.

It was as if she suddenly didn't know what to do, didn't know the meaning of her existence, and couldn't even feel her own existence—as if she would dissipate as long as a gust of wind came out.

This kind of bewilderment gradually occupied her whole mind. She knew that she should rest, but she walked to the window involuntarily. Even if Shi Yan hadn't hugged her down, she didn't know if she would just jump down like this.

In fact, the moment she saw Shi Yan, her mood gradually calmed down, but in an instant she hated her uncontrollable emotions.

Why do you have to rely on this person all the time, obviously he has never been the one worth looking forward to, and obviously every time he will suddenly disappear, why do you still have expectations for this person?
But Shi Yan didn't know what she was thinking now, let alone that it was all because of his sudden departure. Seeing Ruan Anxi like this, he felt both distressed and resentful.

Why can she do whatever she wants and never think about his feelings?
It's the same when you leave the villa, do you want to do the same when you leave this world?
He knew that Ruan Anxi's current situation couldn't be rationalized at all, he knew that the other party was just grieving too much because he couldn't find Xiaobei, and he knew that he shouldn't lose his temper-but he knew that he knew it, and when he thought of this person who didn't cherish his feelings at all Life, he wished he could tie people to him with chains.

Staring at Ruan Anxi for a while, Shi Yan finally took a deep breath and suppressed all his emotions: "The news about Xiaobei has been released, I think there will be news soon, if you want Xiaobei to have no mother in the future , then you can do whatever you want.”

His hands beside him were clenched until the knuckles turned white, so he controlled himself to say more hurtful words. He only hoped that Ruan Anxi, after hearing this, would see Xiaobei's sake and stop thinking about it. up.

After saying this, he closed the doors and windows, turned off the headlights in the room, and sat on the sofa by himself to deal with the unfinished tail by the porch light, leaving Ruan Anxi alone.

——It seems so on the surface, but Shi Yan still unconsciously pays attention to that side from the corner of his eye, and he is relieved when he sees that the man sat for a long time and finally lay back on the bed.

Because of the trip to the East District, he didn’t finish the matter that should have been dealt with early in the morning. After saving the last contract and locking the computer, he walked lightly to the bed on the other side—after all, it was cold in the villa. It's deserted, it's the same wherever you make do for the night, he doesn't bother to go back to the company lounge.

Of course, what is more important is that what Ruan Anxi did today made him feel uneasy all the time. The most important reason was to guard this person at close range to prevent her from having any messy thoughts.

There is still a bathroom in the advanced ward, so Shi Yan went to take a shower and lay down on the other bed as lightly as possible, and he was relieved to make sure that the person on the opposite bed didn't move and didn't seem to be disturbed by him , closed his eyes.

Today was a really chaotic day, Shi Yan, who was always sleepy, almost fell asleep the moment he touched the pillow, the sound of steady breathing came quickly, and Ruan Anxi slowly opened his eyes.

It wasn't that she was woken up, she just didn't fall asleep.

Thoughts by day and dreams by night, but now she is trapped in the ward all day, so she can't help but think too much, the result is restlessness and nightmares at the same time.

The first two days were fine, but today I suddenly heard that Xiaobei might have news, but in the end it was nothing but joy, such a gap made her unable to control herself at all, as soon as she closed her eyes, the child was covered in blood. In front of her, ask her why she didn't save her look.

Just keeping her eyes open until dawn, the opposite bed was empty, she couldn't remember where Shi Yan went again.

There was a slight sound from the direction of the door, maybe it was Shi Yan's return, but she didn't want to turn back at all - after yesterday's quarrel, she didn't know how to face him.

It's just... the footsteps of the visitor seemed a little too brisk, would Shi Yan have such footsteps?

Before she could think about it, there was a flower in front of her eyes, and the familiar smiling face was close at hand: "Mommy, I'm back!"

"Baby?"

She sat up suddenly, looked at Xiao Douding standing in front of her against the morning light, and still couldn't believe it. It was not until she was thrown into her arms by the child that she finally realized the truth, and her heart was instantly filled with surprise.

She wants to ask where the child has been these days, who took her away, and who brought her back, whether she is very scared these days, whether she has ever thought about her mother... She wants to ask many questions , but the last thing that came out was only one sentence: "It's good to be back, it's good to be back..."

After hugging for a long time, she pulled the child out of her arms, and then she was suffocated.

The child in front of him was wearing the little skirt before leaving home just now, but now his hair is disheveled, and only a pair of tattered overalls with no color can be seen on his body - the pants obviously do not fit, and are supported by the child's bones , like a tattered kite.

Ruan Anxi's heart had long since lost the previous joy, replaced by a heartache: "Xiao Bei, what's wrong with you, why are you so thin..."

In the past, Xiao Douding would come to him with tears in his eyes even if he cut his fingers while carving, but now the child is covered in messy wounds that even hurt when she looked at them, but she backed away when she was about to hug him step.

Ruan Anxi's hand stopped in the air in embarrassment, and she looked at Xiao Douding in disbelief, only to find that the child's face was full of guard: "Who are you?"

"I'm a mother," Ruan Anxi suddenly became flustered, and carefully tried to pull the child closer and asked, "Don't Xiaobei know her mother?"

"You're not Mommy!"

The child suddenly became irritable, and opened Ruan Anxi's hand: "Mommy won't ignore Xiaobei, Xiaobei is obviously very good...you go away!"

After saying a few words incoherently, the child suddenly gave her a bitter look, turned his head and ran out.

"Little Bei!"

Ruan Anxi felt distressed and anxious, and subconsciously wanted to chase them out, but when she got up together, she found that there was darkness in front of her, and there was no shadow of Xiaobei in the room, only the shallow breathing sound beside her ear and her violent panting sound, entangled together .

Another dream.

Ruan Anxi lay down again dejectedly, but never dared to close her eyes again.

Although her little Bei is not chubby, but the child's face is always soft and fleshy, she can't imagine if Xiaobei really turns into the skinny appearance in the dream, whether she can bear it.

The hospital is always noisy during the day, but at night all the sounds are silenced, leaving only the night wind blowing past, as if the whole world is empty.

Ruan Anxi lay on the bed in a daze, listening to the sound of dead branches being blown by the wind outside, listening to Shiyan's steady breathing beside her ears, she felt that when her heart gradually calmed down, her heartbeat was suddenly "da da da" "The sound of footsteps disturbed.

It's the round nurse.

After staying in the hospital for a few days, she should have been familiar with these sounds, but this time the sound seemed to be amplified dozens of times, and it kept drilling into her ears.

She just felt that her whole brain seemed to be stepped on by someone else, and her heartbeat became faster and faster with the sound of footsteps, and then the sound of opening the door, the sound of flipping paper... Even though it was far away, it seemed to be directly against her. Ears remembered.

The mood that was already disturbed by the nightmare became more and more agitated because of these voices, she couldn't lie down anymore, she simply got out of bed and went straight to the balcony.

Shi Yante chose a room with a balcony, because he wanted Ruan Anxi to live here more comfortably - the sun in winter is always beautiful, but Ruan Anxi knew for the first time that the moonlight in winter nights is not much less.

The wind on the balcony was much louder, but it covered all the messy noises. The feeling of emptiness at the beginning reappeared. Ruan Anxi took a deep breath, and the cold air went all the way to her lungs, and she finally calmed down.

Today is the sixteenth day of the twelfth lunar month, and the moon, which looks like a white jade plate, looks clearer against the backdrop of the cold air, like a piece of fine white jade.

Ruan Anxi stared at the moon, thinking wildly in her head, only at this time she could let herself forget about Xiao Bei for a while, and forget that she, a mother, lost her child.

When you let yourself go, you always don't remember the speed of time. Ruan Anxi felt that she hadn't been outside for a long time, and suddenly the world was spinning. To the hospital bed.

The hospital bed is not as soft as the bed at home. Ruan Anxi felt that her bones were about to break after this effort, but before she could complain, Shi Yan said, "What are you doing!"

Just now the light was too dark and I didn't feel it, but now that the light from the corridor lamp came in, Ruan Anxi realized that Shi Yan's face was ugly, and he swallowed back the words that had come to his lips.

What is this man doing?

Shi Yan didn't mean to wait for her to speak, he was just awoken by the wind and was dazed for a moment, then subconsciously looked at the hospital bed next to him, but there was no one on it.

(End of this chapter)