I don't want to be a big star

Chapter 50 You Are Not Really Happy

Listening to Fan Qingqing's narration of the pain in his heart, Zuo Qian couldn't help sighing, this is really a simple girl!Putting it on this girl, Zuo Qian thought of a song, "You Are Not Really Happy".

This song is a song composed by Mayday Ashin. The song is included in the album "Poetry of Post-Adolescence" released in 2008, and it is also the main song of the album.The most heartbreaking title song of the No. [-] Healing Department.

Later, Deng Ziqi also sang this song. Although Fan Qingqing's voice is somewhat different from Deng Ziqi's, Zuo Qian can still hear it. When she sings, her voice quality also has the penetrating power that Deng Ziqi was born with that day. It's the kind of charm that touches people's hearts.Although Zuo Qian didn't know much about music, but the high note just now, this iron lung really conquered him all at once.

But what excuse is there to give her this song?Zuo Qian held his chin and raised his head to think for a few minutes. Fan Qingqing thought he was composing a song!Don't dare to disturb him, but how can a song be created in a flash?Which song is not created for a week or even several weeks?

Thinking of this, Fan Qingqing smiled wryly, but Zuo Qian's next words made her stunned!

"I created a song, shall I sing it to you now? You write it down." Zuo Qian asked earnestly, his old face blushing. After all, this song was not written by him, but by Ashin.

But seeing Fan Qingqing's bewildered expression, I also felt that this was a bit shocking, but there was no way, time was running out, and Fan Qingqing was going to fight next week.Regardless of these things, Zuo Qian was a little proud of himself when he thought of his talent as a genius.

Ward day.

Fan Qingqing was not only shocked, but felt as if her heart was overwhelmed.

"You really created it?"

"Of course!" Zuo Qian enjoyed this feeling, and said in a shameless voice, "I'm a genius!"

"Pfft~!" Fan Qingqing couldn't help laughing, obviously amused by this weird boast. How can a genius say that he is a genius?
However, Fan Qingqing was still skeptical about Zuo Qian. If he could compose a song in a few minutes, he would be a genius!But what if he was a genius?

"Alright then!" Fan Qingqing agreed with obvious hesitation!

After receiving Fan Qingqing's answer, Zuo Qian thought about his own singing skills, and couldn't help but say, "I can't sing, don't dislike my bad singing!"

"Of course not!" Fan Qingqing returned with a smile. This is the number of times she has laughed today. Although she often laughs, it is obviously not from the heart.Among them, there are work needs, and you have to force a smile when facing customers and colleagues, but when facing Zuo Qian, his words made me laugh from the bottom of my heart time and time again.

But she also thought of Zuo Qian who spent a lot of money when he bought a car, was a talented player and wrote novels. Later, Fan Qingqing gradually understood that the two people were not from the same world at all.Now being able to say a few words and chat with him for a while may already be the greatest gift that God has given her.

At this moment Zuo Qian coughed and began to sing,
crying in the crowd
you just want to be transparent

You'll never have dreams or pain or heartbeats again
you have decided
you have decided
you endure quietly
Hold yesterday tightly in your fist
And the sweeter the memory, the more hurtful it is
the more you keep in your palm

Dense deep and shallow knife cuts

After singing this passage, Fan Qingqing nodded slightly following the melody of Zuo Qian's singing. Although the singing was not beautiful, the lyrics were quite interesting.At this time, her eyes seemed to be out of focus, and she was gradually immersed in the lyrics.

you are not really happy
Your smile is just the protective color you wear

You decide not to hate and you decide not to love
Lock your soul in a shell locked forever
the world laughed

So you laughed together

When survival is the rule not your choice
so you cry
Walking staggeringly
Fan Qingqing's heart skipped a beat when she heard the first line. This line of lyrics obviously touched her heartstrings, as if the person in front of her was telling her with her singing that you are not really happy.Ask yourself, are you really happy?of course not.

The following sentence, "Your smile is just the protective color you wear", once again touched her heartstrings. Looking back on her past, every time she smiled, it was not a smile from the heart, but a smile to protect herself. The same goes for clients, colleagues, and even family members.

Every line of the lyrics after that drew Fan Qingqing in a little bit.She found that this song was completely a true portrayal of herself.

you are not really happy
Your smile is just the protective color you wear

You decide not to hate and you decide not to love
Lock your soul in a shell locked forever
you are not really happy
Your wounds never fully heal

I'm standing on your left but it's like a galaxy across the way
Do you really hold regrets until you grow old?
and then regret
The last two sentences made Fan Qingqing's heart shake! !Do you really hold regrets until you grow old?And then start to regret it?

Fan Qingqing was confused, but when she heard the last paragraph, she cried.

you deserve real happiness

you should take off the protective colors you wear

Why would you be punished if you lost it?
Can we just let all the sadness end at this moment
start living again
When Zuo Qian sang, he didn't dare to look at Fan Qingqing. When the song was over, he glanced at Fan Qingqing, but saw her eyes were red, obviously crying for himself.

Grip~!When did I become so awesome?

Suddenly Zuo Qian panicked!Neither is wiping her tears.According to the plot of the TV series, at this time, you should hug her to comfort her, then pat her on the back, and coax her a few words, "Be good, don't cry, I will buy you candy later." '

Of course, it is impossible to have such a silly line on TV, and Zuo Qian is not that stupid to say such a silly line.He seemed a little flustered at the moment, seeing Fan Qingqing's tears started to fall, but it made Zuo Qian feel bad!

"That what~! Don't cry, okay?" Zuo Qian had no choice but to bite the bullet and said something that he didn't know why.

"Thank you!" Fan Qingqing sniffled, wiped her tears, took a deep breath from her nose, breathed out, and calmed down her emotions before saying, "Did you write this to me specially?"

Zuo Qian scratched the back of his head, and he was relieved to see that her mood had stabilized.As for Fan Qingqing's question, did you write it specifically for her?Of course not, but on this occasion, he is not the kind of man who doesn't understand the style.

"Of course, do you like it?" Zuo Qian said a lie without blushing.

Fan Qingqing bit her lips sweetly, said "En" lightly, and turned her head away from looking at him. At this moment, her delicate face was already blushing!
(End of this chapter)