Complete Harem Raiders

Chapter 62

After hearing Gu Jingchan's words, Jinxuan smiled, and said to the servant girl with a smile: "I want to eat plum cake, can you go and make it for me? Aunt Xiangping, let's go..."

Xiangping glanced at Gu Jingchan, what she said before, Xiangping was hesitant to tell others, but looking at the eyes of the master and Tian Zhaoyi, Xiangping decided to shut up.

It wasn't until Xiangping left that Jinxuan changed her appearance.

Jinxuan looked at Gu Jingchan with a light smile and said, "Ms. Zhaoyi must think I'm weird! In fact, I think I'm weird too. I don't even know who I am, who should I be. You are very smart." , you may not believe it, but I want to say... As Jinxuan, this is the second time for me... I really... feel so boring. I don't know why this is so, it's just that after going through all the pain, I feel that I really don't have the courage to live again. And... I found that this life is really too different from the past. "

Jinxuan's eyes were somewhat resentful, with a trace of sadness in her expression.It was as if her heart was filled with all kinds of helplessness, but it all turned into a sigh, and then continued: "I was pure and kind in my previous life, and I thought I could go far in this palace with my father's love. But later I found out that I was wrong. My mother was not favored, and she didn't have a good identity and status. With just a little pity from my grandmother and the love and favor from my father, we couldn't survive at all, especially my... sister Jinxuan is better, she is sensible but not as smart as me, so there are not many people in the harem who hate her. Because in my memory, I was adopted to the queen, but also because of the adoptive mother of the queen, My life just got more miserable."

Jinxuan stared wide-eyed and recalled that there seemed to be a thousand kinds of helplessness in her tone. She glanced at Gu Jingchan and said, "The empress actually treated me very well, both in the past life and in this life. She treated me very, very well. I love her like my own daughter and gave me all the love, but she also protected me too well. If it wasn't for my mother and concubine, mother and concubine Jinxuan wanted me to see clearly the meaning of this harem Right and wrong, I can't learn anything from the queen. She is like a big bird protecting her young, and she doesn't want me to endure a little bit of vicissitudes and storms, but she doesn't know, the turmoil in the harem, isn't it It's so easy to suppress. What she didn't know was that the dissatisfaction with her in the harem, who didn't dare to act explicitly, secretly tricked me. Since then, I have understood that since I entered Phoenix Yigong, I am the empress's daughter, even my biological mother... only respects me, nothing else is possible..."

After saying this, Jinxuan lowered her head, she didn't look at Gu Jingchan, but Gu Jingchan didn't interrupt her either, she just listened patiently and never interrupted.

"At first, I also wanted to tell the queen everything, but... Later, I gradually didn't allow it. The empress...was in poor health, and she left within a few years. At that time, my mother treated me Now that they are not close, Xin'er is the only one she loves the most. But after losing me, the concubine mother and the empress do the same thing, protecting Jinxin too much. Jinxin is different from me! She is pure and kind, and she is the most unsuitable to live in the imperial palace, because she is so simple. I returned to my mother and concubine, but the name of the queen's adopted daughter can never be erased. Everyone in the harem still stares at me Yes, because I am here, father will pay more attention to mother and concubine, and because of this, at that time, mother and concubine often saw father and concubine, and she also had a new pregnancy. I am really happy for mother, but..." Jinxuan shook Shaking his head, big drops of tears rolled down, covering his mouth with his little hand, sobbing from time to time.

Seeing Jinxuan's appearance, Gu Jingchan was very distressed. She took out the handkerchief from her sleeve and wiped Jinxuan's face little by little, and said softly: "Don't cry, although it's uncomfortable, but don't cry. You said it yourself, Be a strong girl. Be good...speak slowly, I'm listening, I'm willing to listen."

Maybe it was Gu Jingchan's warm and pleasant voice, which eased Jinxuan's agitated emotions. She slowly calmed down and said, "Mother Concubine has a body, so she is not so wholehearted for Jinxin and me. Besides, Mother Concubine is only Zhaoyi." , there are not many people to serve her. Jinxuan has never been canonized. She and the mother concubine have the same servants. The mother concubine is pregnant, so naturally I can't take care of Xin'er. I can only draw people from myself to help take care of her. Looking at Jinxin. I thought it was just that the mother concubine was pregnant and had no time to take care of us, but in fact I found out that I was wrong. The mother concubine gradually stopped caring about Jinxin, and at least she still treated me respectfully. I love you, but for Jinxin..." Jinxin shook her head, as if she didn't want to say anything more.

Looking at Jinxuan's appearance, Gu Jingchan suddenly felt that what she did was a little cruel, and she quickly comforted her: "Xuan'er, if you don't want to talk about it, don't want to recall it, then don't recall it. I think you are very painful. This memory It must be very sad, don't think about it..."

"No, Lady Zhaoyi, you want me to finish my sentence. Otherwise, I will hold back my heart, and I will feel uncomfortable, really uncomfortable." Jinxuan patted her chest, eyes filled with tears, and said with a glance at Gu Jingchan.

Gu Jingchan could only nod slightly, looked into Jinxuan's eyes and said, "Okay, I am willing to be your listener."

Jinxuan didn't understand what Gu Jingchan meant, but she also understood that she was willing to listen to her ramblings, so she let go of her defenses and opened her heart and said, "Mother concubine treats Jinxin worse and worse, and I understand why. Mother concubine I gave birth to a male fetus, and it is still very healthy. The emperor of Daqi Kingdom depends on the identity of the mother and concubine. At that time, there were not many princes in the palace. My mother and the empress concubine Defei were two of them. The children of the concubine Defei Older than my brother, but my brother is smarter than that child. The concubine mother is getting more and more indifferent to Jinxin. It is nothing more than that Jinxin is too delicate and soft-tempered. The emperor will not marry her into a big family. I am the only one who can earn a bargaining chip for my younger brother. The mother clan cannot be relied on, so I can only rely on my daughter."

"They all thought that I didn't understand, but they actually understood everything. They knew why they were kind to me, and why my mother and concubine were kind to me. Including my father...the kindness of everyone to me was not as simple as that of the empress. She didn't The heirs have no children, but they regard me as their own flesh and blood, like a precious treasure. It seems that I can't do anything to watch her disappear little by little. I thought that when I grew up, I could help my mother to avenge and The queen mother got rid of the villains who killed her, but I found that I have no chance... I really have no chance." Jin Xuan sighed helplessly, and tears came out of her eyes again.

"I thought that when I was 15 years old, I would be able to help my grandmother manage the harem like sister Guiyi, but I was wrong, I was really wrong. At that time, Toshiba Kingdom overseas came to ask for marriage, and Toshiba Kingdom sent A princess said that she wants to ask another princess to be the queen of Toshiba Kingdom. I am only 15 years old, and the emperor of Toshiba Kingdom is already 30 years old. His father is reluctant, sister Guiyi, and grandmother, she is reluctant to bear sister Guiyi , I was the only one left... Originally, according to the naval power of the Daqi Kingdom, I would not be required to marry far away... But, my father still wants me to go. The reason is that he wants to give me the best... He promised his mother that he would give me the most honorable status in the future. Yes, the empress status is very honorable, but... I don't want to marry and go overseas." Jinxuan said that she was already sobbing softly, as if she had a huge grievance and unwillingness.

Gu Jingchan wanted to say something, but she saw Jinxuan shook her head lightly and said, "My concubine persuaded me, saying yes, if I become the queen of Toshiba Kingdom, it will be helpful to my younger brother. I really I'm a little sad. The Toshiba Kingdom is already a subsidiary country of Daqi, and they have surrendered to Daqi. I married him because they wanted to ask for a safe life and protection. The reason is that they are afraid of Daqi's attack again. I like this What's the use of getting married?"

"But in the end I went. But before I went, I took revenge on the person who really killed the mother. I stepped on the sedan chair and looked at the mother and the father. I actually felt better. At least When I arrived in Toshiba Kingdom, I was the queen, and they had to give me three points for the sake of being the princess of Daqi Kingdom. So... I actually had a good time in Toshiba Kingdom, but it was still very difficult to be far away from my homeland. Pain. At first I thought that the medicine I gave to that person when I came out was enough revenge, but I found out that I did one thing wrong. I ignored the safety of my mother, concubine, sister and brother. I married In the third year of Toshiba Kingdom, Jinxin got married, but because of a miscarriage, she left in less than half a year. My younger brother didn't live past ten years, and my mother and concubine... was even framed as a concubine. For the murderer who hurt the prince, he can only live in the cold palace forever."

What Jinxuan said was a little excited, and her small body trembled. Seeing Gu Jingchan was a little startled, she quickly patted her on the back and said, "Speak slowly, don't get excited, don't be like this... your current body I can't bear it, don't forget, you are only three years old now..."

Jinxuan broke free from Gu Jingchan's arms and continued: "I was revoked by my father because of my mother and sister. His Majesty Dongzhi Kingdom is always reluctant to let me go back to Daqi Kingdom, but as a princess, I was deposed by my father Even though I lost the title, I can’t be regarded as a nobleman of the Celestial Dynasty. His Majesty Toshiba treated me very well. Although I lost the title of princess, he didn’t want me to lose the title of queen. Later, he brought me back to Daqi, but... when When I returned to Daqi, I realized that the nightmare had just begun."

Jinxuan lowered her eyes as if unwilling to continue, she looked at Gu Jingchan looking at her, with pity in her eyes, no surprise, no puzzlement, not even panic, Jinxuan was stunned.When she said these words, she was actually prepared in her heart.Either she would be regarded as a monster, or she would be regarded as crazy, no matter which of these two kinds, the taste would be unpleasant.

Gu Jingchan sighed softly, stretched out her arms to hold Jinxuan in her arms, and said in a low voice: "Afterwards you encountered a very painful thing, only to realize that you became Jinxuan again, right?"

Jinxuan's eyes widened, she was stunned when she saw Gu Jingchan whose tone was calm and relaxed.She nodded and said, "Yes... I really don't want to talk about that memory."

"I understand... I have a lot of doubts, but I don't want to ask any more...Xuan'er, I think you also have a lot of doubts about me, right?" Gu Jingchan looked down at Jinxuan, her eyes still full of Calm and calm, without waves.

Jinxuan nodded lightly, looked at Gu Jingchan who had heard such a shocking secret, gritted her teeth and asked, "Could it be that...you are like oh?"

Gu Jingchan looked at Jinxuan and shook her head, smiled and said in a low voice, "The place I used to live in is very beautiful compared to now... If I can, I still want to go back."

Jinxuan was at a loss, she shook her head, she didn't know what she was talking about... Gu Jingchan just smiled and said: "You definitely don't understand, but you have to remember that now there is more than one odd number, so don't worry What will happen, just look forward. Because before I don’t know your existence, I don’t know what my life is like. Let’s live like this every day! Perhaps, the real change is not changing anything. "

(End of this chapter)