deep sin

Chapter 337 Make it clear

The canteen upstairs was divided into many booths by the contractor, and there seemed to be a few private rooms in the innermost. As soon as you went upstairs, you could see pictures of various fried dishes hanging on the wall. Many people here are drinking drinks and chatting slowly, most of them are young couples, I don't know if it is because of the rain that they are not in a hurry to leave, or there are too many love words to talk about.

Qin Ruonan was somewhat uncomfortable. When he came up just now, he just wanted to take this opportunity to explain clearly what he wanted to say in this environment far away from work and where he would not be bumped into by any acquaintances. The booth area is usually an area where couples are densely populated. I, an "older youth" who has been away from campus life for many years, seems a bit out of tune with the surrounding atmosphere.

An Changpu didn't care much about whether he was much older than the young couples around him, so he chose a suitable seat to sit down, called the waiter over, asked Qin Ruonan what he wanted to eat, and ordered two kinds of stir-fried dishes and two bowl of rice.

Soon the dishes and rice were served. An Changpu was not in a hurry to eat. He sat there quietly and looked at Qin Ruonan, as if waiting for her to speak. Qin Ruonan's heart beat a little faster. The urge to sit down and speak clearly, especially after reading the novel that I don’t know who put it on my desk, no matter how indecisive I am emotionally, how lacking in courage, at least I used to be considered a hothead I was brave once, but now times have changed, but the original feeling has not changed significantly, and I have not become as relieved as I thought in the past. I am no longer the girl who was just in her early 20s. Time and energy to continue to spend the few remaining years of youth with an illusory relationship.

Although not all efforts have been able to exchange for the desired ideal results, although not all unilateral attachments can lead to a consummated love, but it is better to have a clear ending than to hang in the air in embarrassment. Allow yourself to think wildly.

But sitting here, facing An Changpu's eyes, Qin Ruonan felt a little ashamed to speak.

"Why didn't you ask Bi Hongxu about the alibi when Zhang Qiao and Tang Lerong were killed?" She realized that she needed to talk about other topics to set the stage, so she asked casually.

"It's better to ask her. Let's confirm it ourselves. If she or Pan Yi really dares to attack Zhang Qiao and Tang Lerong, it is impossible not to make up a reason for not being there. If you ask, you will be prevaricated. It is meaningless. Besides, We haven't completely relaxed the relationship between Bi Hongxu and Pan Yi, have we?" An Changpu answered Qin Ruonan's question in a serious manner, and then pointed to the food on the table, "Don't you have something to tell me? ? Surely it’s not for talking about work? Some things are best done in one go, otherwise you won’t be able to talk about them, or else let’s eat the meal while it’s hot, and you’ll build up your emotions while you’re eating.”

Qin Ruonan was inexplicably guilty, and turned his eyes away from An Changpu. She knew what she wanted to say today, and An Changpu should already know it in his heart.

"Forget it, if you're not particularly hungry, I think it's better to finish first." In fact, she also had the same worry, fearing that once there was a buffer time, her courage would become smaller and smaller.

"Okay, tell me." An Changpu nodded, moved his body forward, leaned his upper body forward slightly, and rested his arms on the table, waiting for Qin Ruonan to speak.

An Changpu, who was the audience there, showed full sincerity, but Qin Ruonan, who was the speaker, seemed a little stage-frightened. Instead of moving forward, she moved back and leaned her back against the back of the booth chair above.

"I saw that letter in your wallet the other day." Qin Ruonan's voice sounded quite calm. If it wasn't for the expression on his face that betrayed her, it would be difficult to detect that she was shy and embarrassed at this moment, with a smile on his face. In a nervous state, "I...you must have read that letter, I don't think it's necessary to waste our lunch time repeating known things, I hope you can give me a clear answer about your If you have any ideas, just tell me directly.”

After speaking, she mustered up the courage to move her eyes from the table to An Changpu's face, and met his eyes.

An Changpu's gaze never left Qin Ruonan's face from the beginning to the end. After quietly listening to her words, he did not react immediately, but smiled slightly, took out his wallet from his pocket, and spread it out. Kailai put it on the table, straightened the letter paper stacked inside, and asked, "You mean this letter?"

Qin Ruonan nodded unnaturally, looked at An Changpu, every muscle in his body was involuntarily tense, his ears were filled with the sound of his heartbeat, thump, thump, thump.

"This letter was written several years ago. When you ask me now, are you asking what I thought back then, or what I think now?" An Changpu took the letter paper out of his wallet and gently held it in his hand. Playing around.

Qin Ruonan's eyes looked at the letter paper in his hand, and it felt as if what was at his fingertips was not a piece of letter paper, but his own heart. Sudden cerebral hemorrhage.But she just thought about it, she really couldn't do the thing of reaching out to grab the letter paper, let alone whether she had that position, the student couples who were still eating in the other booths on the side alone were enough for Qin Ruonan to continue. Pretend to be calm.

Originally, it would be embarrassing for the boss to play secret love tricks when he is not young. If there is any disturbance and people watch, Qin Ruonan might as well just dig a hole on the spot and bury himself, at least like an ostrich. buried.

"Then, let's talk about that year first." She answered, because she was nervous, she stuttered slightly.

"I didn't have any ideas back then," An Changpu said with a smile, paused deliberately, saw the disappointed expression on Qin Ruonan's face, and then said, "Because I only got this letter a while ago. Letter, as a man, I didn’t even know there was such a letter addressed to me, so of course it’s impossible to have any thoughts!”

"You said a while ago? How is this possible?" Qin Ruonan was so surprised by this unexpected information that he almost forgot to be nervous.

"Cai Min forgot about that letter before. The last class reunion was during the handling of your brother's case. She gave it to me when she met me." He couldn't find Qin Ruonan's solemn entrustment letter, so how could he lie to Qin Ruonan because he was afraid of being blamed.

After listening to An Changpu's explanation, Qin Ruonan was so surprised that he forgot to close his mouth, and then realized his mood and attitude when he and An Changpu had just reunited, and couldn't help feeling embarrassed: "I...I don't even know Cai Min, she is so unreliable, and she still treated you like that at that time..."

"Don't feel embarrassed. You didn't know it at the time. If it were me, I would probably be upset. This is normal." An Changpu waved his hand, indicating that he didn't care.

"Then..." Qin Ruonan took a deep breath, "What are you thinking now?"

"Now...how can I say this?" An Changpu looked a little embarrassed, frowning as if looking for a suitable way to express, but his eyes secretly glanced at the tense expression on Qin Ruonan's face, " You also know that the letter was written a few years ago. After I read it, I know what your thoughts were at that time. As for your current thoughts, you have never told me, and I am not very clear. In this case, I don't know how to answer your question."

When An Changpu said these words, his expression was as innocent as he wanted, and as sincere as he wanted, which made Qin Ruonan obviously not believe it, and felt that he was deliberately setting his words, but he couldn't find a flaw In the end, I had no choice but to give up my heart, look at An Changpu bravely, and said: "My thoughts now are similar to those in that letter. What is written in the letter is how I feel about you, and it is still the same now. However, the situation is a bit different. At that time, I was still young after all, and I had more or less dreamy thoughts in my mind, and I also had the capital of persistence. It is different now. If it is a road that is destined not to reach the end, enough is enough Good choice."

"Your mentality is not very positive!" An Changpu did not react immediately after hearing Qin Ruonan's words, but sighed softly.

"How do you look at the positive or negative score? Blindly negative is low self-esteem, blindly positive is naive. I have passed the age when I can continue to be naive, and I still have a little self-knowledge, so..." Qin Ruonan pursed his lips and looked at Shang An again. Chang Po's gaze, "Now you are clear about my past and present thoughts, can you answer my question?"

An Changpu looked at her for a while, then suddenly smiled, and said, "Actually speaking, the two of us have a good understanding. Putting aside work matters, it's the topic you talked to me today. In fact, I also have a good understanding. I have been trying to find a suitable time to talk to you clearly."

Qin Ruonan's heart skipped a beat, as if turning over in her chest, she looked at An Changpu nervously, secretly biting her lips with her teeth, wondering what An Changpu meant by "speaking clearly" mean something.

Who knows, after being nervous for a long time, An Changpu's words made her suddenly disappointed.

"But not now, this place is too noisy," An Changpu looked around, "and not all the people who should have come."

Objectively speaking, An Changpu’s words are a bit unreliable. Although music is played on this floor of the cafeteria, there are still many students who have left without dinner, but there is still a distance from the concept of “noisy”, and What did he mean when he said that all the people who were supposed to come had not yet come?Is there anyone else who needs to show up about this?
A guess appeared in Qin Ruonan's heart, and at the same time, a burst of irritability came to her heart. Seeing that An Changpu had no intention of speaking, she was unwilling to speculate wildly by herself, so she could only suppress her irritability and say goodbye to her. An Changpu nodded: "Let's eat then. I will follow your arrangement when you think the time is right."

(End of this chapter)