Jia Ru can come back

Chapter 79

I was on the verge of falling, if Zhou Yu hadn't supported me, I might have passed out on the spot.

I was speechless, it was Zhou Yu who went up to negotiate with the police and medical staff, and then we got into the ambulance together.In the narrow compartment, I witnessed various instruments being used on my father, but my father never opened his eyes from the beginning to the end.Before reaching the hospital, the doctor announced that the injured had died.

Rolling my eyes, I lost consciousness.

In fact, the syncope didn't last long. When I woke up soon, I was lying on the hospital bed, and Zhou Yu was calling outside the door.

He saw me as soon as I got off the quilt, hung up the phone and ran in, "Are you awake?" I grabbed his arm, "Where is my dad?" His black eyes were dim, full of worry: "You just woke up?" wake up……"

"That's my dad!" I cried, "Where is he?"

Zhou Yu took me to a morgue.

When I entered the door, I saw my mother lying there, and the head of the person on her body was covered by a white cloth.My mother's body was trembling, and painful and uncontrollable crying came from her throat thin and sharp.

Walking up to me, I whispered, "Mom."

The mother's body trembled, and she raised her head from the lying down, her eyes were red, and there was grief that could not be concealed in her eyes.

I can't comfort myself because I can't control my emotions.

As soon as I stretched out my hand, I pulled the white cloth down, revealing my father's pale face.

The blood on his face had been wiped off, leaving a few bloody cuts, which were so glaring that they hurt.In the past few years, my father has paid great attention to his image. He always dresses neatly when he goes out, and occasionally has a few white hairs that are specially dyed black.

But now...

As soon as he lowered his eyes, hot tears rolled down.

It was my mother's "cry" that made me finally cry, and I couldn't stop crying until I choked up.

It turned out that tears could not vent the grief in my heart at all, but when they settled down, they formed a vast sea in my heart.

The posthumous affairs and the purchase of the cemetery were all done by me and my mother, without Zhou Yu.

That day, I bowed deeply to Zhou Yu: Please leave.

It's not about venting anger, it's because I don't have the energy to take care of other things, I just want to send my dad away quietly.

For the first seven days, I stayed at home and didn't go anywhere.

Because she felt that her mother's mood was not right, she set the original bedroom as a room for her father's spirit cards.I stayed inside almost day and night, and I didn't even come out to eat.

I was afraid, afraid that my father would leave, and my mother would follow.So I have to stay at home with her.

Mom didn't come out of the room until the first seven days had passed, and she was much more haggard and thinner than before.After finding out that I didn't go out all day, she calmly said to me: Xiao Ru, your father is gone, we have to live.

I went to find Zhou Yu, I could have called, but his phone was turned off.

I know his house naturally, and he took me there several times.It was Zhou Yu's second brother Zhou Liang who opened the door. He glanced at me and asked me what's the matter. I said to Zhou Yu.He threw me a sentence: The third child is not here.

At this time, someone came out from the inside and asked softly, "Who is here?"

Zhou Liang shrugged, gave way to the seat by the door and walked in.

I saw Zhou Yu's mother.

Originally a neighbor, it is impossible not to know his mother, but I don't have many opportunities to meet him, and I only ran into Zhou Liang or Zhou Nian when I came here a few times.It should be that he and his father are busy doing business outside, and they are rarely at home.

I called "Auntie", and she smiled politely and invited me in.

I did not see Zhou Yu in the room, so I felt divorced, but Zhou's mother asked my aunt to make tea for me, so I had to sit down.

Mother Zhou's tone was very gentle when she spoke to me: "Xiaoru, I heard about your family. Originally, Lao Zhou and I were going to go there, but we really couldn't get away." Liao sighed with emotion: "I remember that Xiaoyu used to go to your house when he was a child. Lao Jia and your mother didn't treat him as an outsider. I didn't expect him to be different in a blink of an eye."

I didn't know how to respond, so I could only wring my fingers together and remain silent.

I heard Zhou's mother say again: "If there is anything in the family that needs help, just ask Auntie."

I glanced up at her quickly, not quite understanding what she meant.

My father left, and my mother and I were left at home. Apart from loneliness and pain, there were no other difficulties that needed help.

At this moment, Zhou Liang came out of the room, and said abruptly: "If you have something to say, just tell them directly, why beat around the bush?"

Zhou's mother lightly said, "This child."

Turning to stare at it, I don't know if it is my illusion, there is a coolness in those gentle eyes.

"Xiao Ru, Auntie will also tell you the truth, Xiao Yu is now being escorted abroad by his father, and will not return to China for the time being."

I asked dumbly, "Why?"

"He was arguing at home to marry you."

marry?The word was unfamiliar to me, and my eyes widened in bewilderment.

After leaving his house, what Zhou's mother said was circling in his mind.She said, Zhou Yu hasn't even graduated from college yet, and I'm still studying, so it's too early to talk about marriage. She also said, what happened in my family is very regrettable.

Mother Zhou is a reserved person.

This is the conclusion I came to after thinking about it later.

I went back to school, it was the end of the term, and I had to prepare for the exam again. This winter in BJ was extremely cold, and he endured day after day until he returned to city A after the exam, but he never saw Zhou Yu appear.

A big event happened during the winter vacation, our house was going to be demolished.In fact, the demolition plan started two years ago. The size of the house has been measured, and the resettlement apartment has been built, just waiting for people to move there.

My mother and I borrowed a tricycle and moved our things into the new house one by one. It was a three-bedroom house.My mother and I each have a room, and the other room is set up by my mother as a spiritual place for my father.

I finally settled down a year ago, and my mother also changed jobs to the neighborhood committee, so I didn't have to travel too far to work.

It was New Year's Eve, and I walked back to my hometown.I saw a row of old houses being pushed down by a forklift, including my family's and Zhou's.Scenes of past scenes flashed before my eyes, but they gradually dissipated in the dust and noise.

Could it be that after the old house disappeared, my last contact with Zhou Yu also disappeared?
The year was spent in silence, staying at home until the first half of the first month before going to school.

It was still very cold in BJ in early spring. I was wearing a long padded jacket to cover my head and face, and I still felt that the wind made people shiver.

Returning from evening self-study with a book in his arms, he glanced casually when he walked downstairs in the dormitory, and there seemed to be a figure in the darkness.As soon as I walked into the dormitory door, I heard a soft call: "Jia Xiaoru."

His whole body froze, and he turned around slowly.

The figure walked from the dark to under the street lamp, revealing a handsome face.

He came over and locked his eyes on my face, "Are you okay?"

Three months and five days later, he came back and asked me if I was okay.

I answer: okay.

His lips moved, trying to say something, but he stopped talking.

I didn't look away, and said softly, "If you have nothing to do, I'll go in first."

With a tight hand, he reached out and grabbed me, "I'm sorry."

Why are you apologizing to me?Did you do something wrong?

I thought about it, but what I asked was: "Where have you been during this time?"

It was obvious that the palm holding me trembled, and he replied: "I was taken abroad by my father, and I wanted to call you, but the phone was confiscated, and my boss was asked to watch me. After a long time After thinking about it, I will come back anyway, and I can’t tell you clearly on the phone, so I will tell you in person.”

After a long pause, I whispered a word: "Oh."

"Why are you reacting so calmly?"

calm?So how should I react?Holding him and crying bitterly, pouring out the pain and despair accumulated during this period to him?But Zhou Gongjin, don't you think that after three months and five days of separation, you and I are separated?

He can't see through what's in his heart, and I don't want to pour it out.

In the end, he just said indifferently: "It's getting late, it's quite cold at night, let's talk tomorrow if you have anything to do."

She took her hand out of his palm and walked past him to the dormitory.

I can feel the eyes behind me have been fixed on my back until I walked into the dormitory partition.The phone in the pocket was vibrating, and I took it out to see that it was his text message——Jia Xiaoru, are you blaming me?

I typed a line and deleted it, typed it again and deleted it, and finally returned only two words—nothing.

When I woke up the next day, my nose was a little stuffy. I was afraid that I was frozen in the wind last night. I found two pills and swallowed them, and went downstairs to class with Lili.But when he walked out of the dormitory, he saw Zhou Yu standing there again.

Lili winked at me, and leaned into her ear and asked, "Do you want me to take the roll for you?"

I thought for a while, then smiled at her and said, "You can ask for leave for me."

Lili made a clear expression and left me to go to class alone.

I walked towards Zhou Yu and asked, "Where should I sit or take a walk?"

"Would you like something to drink?"

I nodded and walked out the back door of the school into a coffee shop.When the waiter came to introduce, Zhou Yu said that only a pot of tea was needed, but I ordered a cup of Blue Mountain coffee.Disapproval flashed in his eyes, and after the waiter took the order and left, he said the coffee was not good.

I smiled, it doesn't matter if I drink it once in a while.

He didn't object anymore.

When the coffee was served, I took a sip first, it was bitter and tasted average.

When I put down the cup, I looked up and found Zhou Yu looking at me.

The two of them didn't speak in their eyes, they just looked at each other quietly.In the end, it was Zhou Yu who broke the silence first: "Why don't you talk?" I held the cup in both hands, digging my thumbnails into the flesh, but my face was calm.

Things that have been brewing in my heart for a long time are still very difficult when I really want to say them, but I still can't get rid of them after all.

I lowered my eyes and said softly, "Zhou Gongjin, let's break up."

The figure opposite Yu Guangzhong seemed to be shocked, and an unbelievable question came: "What did you say?"

I repeated: "Zhou Gongjin, let's break up."

"Jia Xiaoru, are you kidding me?"

I raised my eyes, fixed those terrified eyes, and said firmly, "I'm not joking with you, I'm telling you this matter very seriously. I have thought about whether there is a way out between us, but Christmas Eve If Wei Lai hadn't gone to look for you that night, if he hadn't changed his assistant temporarily, then this tragedy would not have happened."

Zhou Yu's eyes shrank, and there was deep pain in his heart, "Are you blaming me?"

I nodded and admitted: "It's strange." I blamed myself even more. If I hadn't gone to find you at that time, but had accompanied my father in the theater and walked together later, the car accident might not have happened.

"But," he said awkwardly, "that was an accident. Jia Xiaoru, you can't just sentence me to death like this. Wei Lai came to me because..."

I cut off his words: "You don't need to tell me why she came to you, and I don't want to know anymore. Because of her absence, I temporarily changed the assistant, and the assistant was not familiar with the operation. My dad fell from the high platform during the performance." down."

From his surprised expression, it can be known that he didn't know about it.

I smiled bitterly and continued: "Zhou Gongjin, do you understand? I can't go on with you anymore. It's been more than three months. As long as I close my eyes, I will see the scene of my father lying in the blood. Not to mention the entanglement of nightmares, more pain and despair."

Also, your family can't accept me, even if you haven't spoken out about your suffering.

Feeling that everything that needs to be said has been said, he drank the cup of coffee in one gulp and got up, his hand was grabbed.Lowering my eyes, this is the first time I've seen Zhou Yu's pale face, with helplessness and pleading in his eyes, "Jia Xiaoru——"

After a long time, Xiao Dong asked me: Since I love you so much, why don't you persevere?Maybe...

Maybe if you get through it, nothing will happen.

I said: I can't get over the hurdle in my heart.

And I'm afraid that if I grind and endure, I'll wear away the last bit of love in my heart.

With Zhou Yu's temperament, it is not so easy to give up. Even if I act decisively, he will still come to me.

Finally tore the face off.

That afternoon, I was forcibly dragged by him to the apartment he rented off-campus. As soon as I entered the door, he grabbed my shoulders and pushed me against the wall. He lost his usual calm and said incoherently: "Jia Xiaoru, you are mine. I've liked you since I was little."

I looked at him coldly, and asked, "How can you let me go?"

He showed pain on his face, and his tone contained gnashing of teeth: "I won't let it go for the rest of my life."

He lowered his eyes, and slightly sour moisture invaded his eye sockets.

Zhou Gongjin, you know, a lifetime is really too long.

My silence made him more flustered, and he lifted my chin with his fingers and kissed me.Unlike the eagerness in the past, it was very light, and the lips were pressed together.The room was dim, and I saw a glimmer of light in his eyes, I don't know if it was the tears in his eyes or the color of his eyes.

Close your eyes and let him hold you numbly.How attached this embrace used to be, how sad this moment is, I can't feel a trace of warmth, even a cold breath penetrates into the skin, making my whole body tremble.

When he moved his lips to his neck, I said softly: "Zhou Gongjin, do you know? The last call my father made before he died was for me. There is a peace fruit rolling beside him. From now on After that, I will not be able to sleep peacefully every Christmas Eve, and I may never be able to eat apples again."

He paused, took two steps back from me, his eyes were filled with pain.

I said: forget it, okay?
He hugged me again, forcefully and decisively, "Not good! Jia Xiaoru, I, Zhou Yu, will never end with you."

My tears fell out immediately, and I tugged on his skirt and cried, "Are you going to force me to death before you give up?"

He was shaken all over, and his tightly hugging hands loosened a little bit. I pushed him away hard, turned around and opened the door to leave, but he hugged me forcefully from behind.Then, his face was buried into my neck, like a desperate beast, his voice suppressed the tension of sobbing, and even his breath trembled: "Jia Xiaoru——"

Warm fluid trickled down the back of my neck.

This time I didn't struggle or push him, just let him hold me, and then burst into tears.

He gradually calmed down, but his body twitched slightly from time to time.

Lowering her head, she pulled his hand locked in front of her body, and said softly, "I'm leaving, after you, take care."

Fingertips slipped, temperature was missing, and I walked out of the door.

Since then, Zhou Yu has never been seen again.

Later, I accidentally ran into Qian Xiaobao, saying that Zhou Yu applied for an internship before graduation and left school.

That's right, he's a senior, and our fate is only two years each semester.

And this time, we lost love.

(End of this chapter)