Sadness in Vienna

Chapter 8

Luoluo asked Beizi, how did you and Yu Kewei develop?
They were in the park, Yu Kewei put his hand on her shoulder, and that's how it started, and then he measured my middle finger with the grass on the ground.A few days later, he bought a pair of couple rings, and Beizi described it very plainly.

"Beizi, do you think the child likes me?" Luoluo asked Beizi.

"I don't know. If you really like her, you should work hard."

"I know, but I never dare to tell him that I like him. If he doesn't like me and rejects me, I can't be friends with him." The shadow in Luo Luo's heart is always there.

Bei Zi didn't speak.

Luoluo sometimes thinks, why is it so difficult for Chen Luoluo to like someone?Sometimes, Chen Luoluo would tease herself like this, because you are Chen Luoluo, you are not brave enough.

Chen Luoluo, a senior, still likes to write novels in front of the computer, Jiajia takes the postgraduate entrance examination, Beizi, and Keke are all in love.

The child had never contacted Luoluo, so Luoluo understood.Luoluo in the child's heart may be just the little sister the child talks about.

During her senior year, Chen Luoluo was lying in front of the computer and writing novels except for class, Mo Keke and Xing Xiaobing, Beizi and Yu Kewei, Jiajia took the postgraduate entrance examination, they were all busy with their own affairs, only Luoluo, lost.

Luoluo sometimes thinks why she is called Luoluo, it should be because she always loses a lot in life.No wonder the parents chose the name. When I was born, they knew that they would divorce in the future, and the daughter would lose a lot.

In fact, since her parents divorced, Luoluo was placed in foster care with relatives, and she has long been used to being alone. She never said what she wanted, because she knew that Chen Luoluo couldn't get it.

Luoluo saw that other people's children were accompanied by their parents, and they could tell their mother what they wanted to eat.But Luoluo can't do it, she has to look at other people's faces.When it's time to eat, no matter whether you like it or not, Luo Luo puts everything in her bowl to make herself full. This way, she also develops the good habit of not being picky about food.Luoluo told her mother when she was a child, I must make myself full, and I will not let myself lose anything.

It's hard to imagine that this was said by a seven-year-old girl, and her mother cried every time she saw Luoluo.

When she was in high school, Luoluo had a classmate who was very good at playing, named Zhang Ling, and Luoluo always called him Brother Ling.He is very honest, loves to study, and can sing very well.Luoluo likes to hear him sing, but what attracts her most is that his mother often cooks various delicious dishes for him.

Every time he would ask, Luoluo, do you want to eat?
Luoluo refused at first.

The food at the school was really not good. The dormitory students jokingly said that the food in the cafeteria was for the prisoners in the labor camp.Every time Luoluo sees her classmate's parents coming to deliver food, she is very envious. Only Luoluo knows in her heart that she has never been treated like this in her whole life.

Brother Ling would still ask Luoluo if he wanted to eat his food, and Luoluo accepted. His mother's dishes were not generally delicious. Luoluo liked to eat meat, especially fried pork with pickled vegetables, fried pork with dried salt and pepper, bacon...these Brother Ling's mother can make it, and it's not usually delicious.Luoluo always said, brother Ling is really lucky to have such a good mother, if I had a mother like you, I would burn incense to the Buddha every day to thank him for caring for me so much.

"Won't your mother cook these dishes for you?" Brother Ling would ask sometimes.

Every time Luoluo heard such words, she would hesitate for a while and say, "Don't you know that my name is Chen Luoluo? I always can't have what other people have."

Brother Ling looked at Luoluo and didn't speak.

After studying in college, every time Luoluo talked to Brother Ling, she never forgot to tell Brother Ling that your mother's dishes are not so delicious. Brother Ling, you are so happy.

Brother Ling always said with a smile on the phone, why don't you have dinner at my house during the Chinese New Year.

Are you not afraid that I will make your family poor?Luoluo joked.

Don't be afraid, as long as you can really make my family poor.

Luoluo likes to envy others, envying that they have their own room, have a gentle and virtuous mother, and have the love of their father.Eat whatever you want, and do whatever you want.But there is no Luoluo, nothing.Luoluo always laughs at herself like this, Chen Luoluo, because your name is Luoluo, Luoluo, do you understand?It is the previous life that left your happiness in hell.

After studying in college, Luoluo seldom went home, and basically stayed at school. She didn’t like to go home. When she came home, she felt a sense of homelessness in her heart. She dragged her heavy luggage and went to this place. No, not going there.There are houses everywhere, but where is Chen Luoluo's nest.

Mom said that Luoluo is a bad-tempered girl, and there will definitely be problems in the future.

Luoluo said, when did you really understand me? Have you ever experienced a child whose parents are not around since birth, and truly experienced a life where no one treats her like a daughter?

My mother couldn't understand Luoluo, and always said that Luoluo should understand her and be considerate of her.

Luoluo said, I will understand you.

Luoluo, who was writing novels in front of the computer, shed tears for some reason. Every time she wrote "Disappearing in the Rainy Season" and wrote about the tragic fate of the heroine Han Sumei, Luoluo would shed tears.Luoluo said, she is heartless, how could she cry?

Beizi knows Luoluo well, sometimes she would say to Luoluo, Luoluo, you can go to my house, my mother will make you whatever you want to eat.

Luoluo always smiles very happily. In fact, Luoluo never went to Beizi's house once. It's not that she didn't want to go, but she wanted to go too much, and she was afraid that she would live too well in their house and miss it in the future, and her heart would hurt even more.

(End of this chapter)