Killer baby is too tough

Chapter 222 I Have No Choice

"It wasn't on purpose..." Lin Qianqian repeated these words with a bitter smile on her lips.Hanging on the face, it makes life painful to see.

Who can do it on purpose?Did she and Lu Xiangdong do this on purpose?No one wants to separate, but they have no choice.

It's not that Lin Qianqian doesn't understand anything, she's just too rational and smart, knowing that leaving Lu Xiangdong is the best choice for them.As Qu Shaoan said, when they were together, the two of them were blinded by each other, and were easily played around by Sun Jingxiang. They cared too much for each other, and were too afraid of each other being hurt. This kind of consideration, this kind of Hesitation undoubtedly gave Sun Jingxiang the best opportunity to take advantage of.

But after leaving, Lin Qianqian began to doubt her decision.

She could no longer tell why Lu Xiangdong and Sun Jingxiang got married. After so long, in his heart, was it to catch Sun Jingxiang's evidence, or did he really give up on himself?After careful calculation, after all this time, she has owed him more.

Rubbing her eyes, Lin Qianqian looked at Qu Shaoan who was standing in front of her at a loss, her throat was choked and her chest felt tight.Even at such a moment, the way Qu Shaoan looked at her was as if he saw a stray puppy in a heavy rainy day, squatting in front of him with all his eyes wet, his eyes were full of pity Two words.

Lin Qianqian felt a little embarrassed.

The harder she tried to hide her embarrassment, the more she had nothing to hide.

"Qu... Qu Shao'an." Lin Qianqian's voice was trembling as she squeezed out between her teeth.It sounds like unbearable heartache.

"Huh?" Qu Shaoan was still a little dazed, obviously he didn't expect Lin Qianqian to talk to him in this tone, he seemed a little flustered and didn't react.

Lin Qianqian gagged back the words she had prepared, unable to utter a single syllable.She didn't know when she touched the sweaty newspaper in her pocket, and her fingers were trembling. She thought that anyone could easily see through her current embarrassment.

She has read the contents of the newspaper many times.

Almost without thinking about it, she could immediately recall every word, every word written in the news above, and Lu Xiangdong's expressionless face above.

He has lost a lot of weight, and his expression is also much sharper. At first glance, he is almost unrecognizable.

Lin Qianqian didn't know what she was thinking. She followed a demon and was bewitched, and said calmly and distantly, "Would you... stay here?"

A look of surprise appeared on Qu Shaoan's nervous face, the wine glass in his hand hit the table with a bang, jumped a bit, and then fell to the floor, shattering into countless glass residues.His brows twitched, and he couldn't recover for a long time to understand what Lin Qianqian meant.

The sound of the glass breaking broke the silence in the room.

Lin Qianqian suddenly woke up as if a bucket of cold water had been poured over her head.She wished she could bite her tongue off, regretting what she just asked, how could she ask such selfish words, maybe it was the long and endless waiting that made her see no hope, It made her tired and made her want to give up, so when she knew that Lu Xiangdong was about to marry Sun Jingxiang, she didn't want to resist at all.

She just wanted to give up Lu Xiangdong and live a good life.

Sure enough, it's still impossible...

As soon as she said it, she was in such self-remorse, how could she really give up on Lu Xiangdong.

Lin Qianqian smiled wryly, stood up hastily, and shook her head, "I'm talking nonsense, you don't need to answer, just pretend I didn't say anything."

"Qianqian..." Qu Shaoan turned his back to the light, and he carried all the dim lights on his back, his face was dark, and he couldn't see what kind of expression it was.

Lin Qianqian walked around the stool in embarrassment, took her bag, and was about to leave, "Really, you don't have to take it seriously. Let's go, let's go, it's getting late, let's go first."

Qu Shaoan clenched his teeth tightly, clenched his fists tightly, and his whole body tensed up completely. He didn't know what kind of emotion it was because of, but he was staring at Lin Qianqian firmly. , without even blinking, as if Lin Qianqian would disappear from his sight in the blink of an eye.

"Listen to me, Qianqian, I—"

"Stop talking." Lin Qianqian interrupted him hastily.

She knew that she looked capricious and irrational now, but she just couldn't control her emotions.She couldn't help thinking wildly, she didn't know what Lu Xiangdong was thinking, she wasn't sure, she waited for so long, was afraid for so long, but she didn't wait until Lu Xiangdong came to find her.

She was afraid, she was afraid that he really gave up on her.

Maybe it was just a show at the beginning, to show Sun Jingxiang and deceive her trust, but after wearing the mask for a long time, it is difficult to take it off again.

What Lin Qianqian was most afraid of was undoubtedly making a fake show.

Qu Shaoan was interrupted by Lin Qianqian all the time, seeing Lin Qianqian walking past him, his long suppressed emotions suddenly burst out, he stretched out his hand, and grabbed Lin Qianqian tightly Lin Qianqian's arm, nails dug straight into Lin Qianqian's skin, pinching the bluish mark, "I won't leave. Qianqian, I will always be with you, even if you don't give me any chance, and you don't Relationship, I'm still young, I'm not afraid of being wasted by you, I still have so much time to wait for you, if I can't continue to wait for you, I have nothing to say so proudly."

Lin Qianqian's face was pale beyond recognition, her lips were trembling, such affectionate and firm words, it should be that person standing beside her, hugging her, sticking to her ear, speaking slowly.Why, in my most painful time, you are not by my side.

And I fell into an even more painful abyss because of you not being by my side.

Lu Xiangdong...

Lin Qianqian tremblingly stared at the floor, not daring to turn her head to look at Qu Shaoan, she was afraid, she was afraid that if she turned her head, she would choose the wrong path.She was really tired and lonely, those hot loves were forced to hide in her heart, like fire, tormenting her day and night.

She was almost desperate.

Qu Shaoan's hand, at some point, had already let go of her, and changed to holding her five fingers. The ten fingers were interlaced, a little hard, but very gentle, and it was a very addictive way of contact.

"Qianqian, I don't know if it's too late for me to say these words now, but I don't want to hide anything from you. I have tried not to love you, and I have really done it. When I went to the United States For a while, I really forgot about you, worked hard, stayed up late, but I shouldn't come back, do you understand? As long as I come back, see you, and stare at you, I can't control myself To love you and follow you. As long as you look at me, I will feel that it is the most tender thing in the world. "

Qu Shaoan's voice was very soft, very soft.

It seemed that once it got a little heavier, it would scare Lin Qianqian.

Lin Qianqian's body began to tremble.

Fang Zhen looked at her, hesitant to speak.At this time, it was inappropriate for him to say anything. All decisions had to be left to Lin Qianqian to make and choose by herself.Maybe there are not only two roads in life, nor are there only right and wrong, choosing the wrong one, sometimes, choosing the other one may not necessarily be the right one.

Lin Qianqian touched the dust on Lu Xiangdong's nose, and Qu Shaoan dusted off her body for her.

For anyone, there is no way to choose.

Lin Qianqian took a deep breath, turned her head, and looked at Qu Shaoan quietly, her voice was far away and vague, "You are right, it is more difficult for me to give up than ever to say such things at this time. I Admit it, I am almost desperate, but at this moment, you tell me that you want to pull me up and save me. I should go with you. But..."

"I can't help it." Lin Qianqian paused, "I can't hurt you. Qu Shao'an, the people around me have nothing to do with it. Just look at Lu Xiangdong, look at Lu Xiaoxi, and you'll understand. .I will only drag the people around me to one huge swamp after another, but I have no ability to pull them up. You said that you haven't had such a long life, and you shouldn't waste it all on me. This There are so many good girls in the world who are worthy of your love and waiting, but I am not worthy. My feelings for him have far exceeded the scope of my control. "

Qu Shaoan clasped her five fingers unwillingly, "I can't live without you."

"It's ok, you can do it, I can do it too, Qu Shao'an, we can all do it, even if we don't have the person we love by our side, we can all survive. People survive like this, don't they?" Lin Qianqian sighed, she suddenly realized that even without Lu Xiangdong, she would not have chosen Qu Shaoan.

It's like she doesn't like apples anymore and doesn't necessarily have to choose pears, bananas, or something else.

Although she only loves apples, one day, she can no longer eat big, sweet apples, and she can still live.

Qu Shaoan held Lin Qianqian's five-fingered hand, and gradually lost his strength.

He looked at his urgency, then at Lin Qianqian's calmness, smiled wryly, and let go of his hand.

"Maybe you are right, but I will never be able to see things like feelings so clearly like you and him. For me, loving someone should be desperate, I don't understand, what kind of love is it between you tormenting each other and suffering each other?" Qu Shaoan shook his head and pulled the corner of his mouth upwards, but failed to reveal a peaceful smile .

Seeing him like this, Lin Qianqian felt uncomfortable.

The person she was most sorry for was Qu Shaoan.

She doesn't want to hurt him every time, but in fact, she is the only one who hurts him every time.

(End of this chapter)