The maid is the queen

Chapter 196 The Hateful Me
Now I finally understand that the greatest sorrow of a woman is to see her own flesh and blood being raised by others, and she can't even see it, in this palace surrounded by high walls, but she feels that it is thousands of miles away. Baobao often visits Concubine Li who is in the cold palace.

To my delight, he didn't refuse again, and waited anxiously until the early morning of the next day, but Zhenghua Palace didn't send it back. Otherwise, he will be stingy and let people go back.

I asked the maid to dress me up, I looked better, and put on a thin layer of rouge. After thinking about going to Feng Palace to greet me, I went to the back door of Zhenghua Palace, and he would definitely not stop me. Let me in, my Xi, concubine mother is going to see you today.

When Lu Yao saw me, he asked me calmly: "Is Empress Yungui feeling better?"

"Thank you, Empress Empress, for your concern, this concubine is already in good health."

"I heard that the imperial concubine often goes out of the palace, so she got the cold."

I also answered her truthfully: "One of Chen Qie's friends was injured, Chen Qie went out of the palace to visit several times, and accidentally caught the cold, Empress Lao is worried, I really feel guilty."

"Is it better?" She raised her eyebrows.

I saw some concern in her eyes, and nodded: "Thank you, Empress, for your concern, she has recovered."

Then several people greeted her, looking at all the smiling faces, but the situation passed year by year, I don't know how many acquaintances were lost, and beautiful faces were added.

Sitting in a trance, hoping that Lu Yao would let us go soon, but I heard Lu Yao say: "Sister Yunsha is serving the emperor in Zhenghua Palace, she really does her best, noble mother."

The noble mother presented some pearls and emeralds with both hands, and the young Yunsha was not only beautiful, but also extremely exquisite, and immediately said in panic: "It is the honor of a concubine to take care of the emperor."

"I just like that you know the etiquette. If you are favored by the emperor, you will not be arrogant. These are rewards for you. In the future, you must take good care of the emperor, work hard, and be kind to others."

"The concubine should be respectful rather than obedient, and the concubine would like to thank the empress for her kindness." He raised his hands to catch the things held by the noble mother, the wide sleeves slipped down, and the brilliance of the pearls gently revealed, attracting everyone Sight.

Lu Yao praised: "Yun Cairen's wrist guard is very unique."

She stretched her sleeves and said softly: "This is a gift from the emperor. If the empress likes it, I can embroider one for the empress."

"Yeah." Lu Yao smiled: "It's good to have this kind of heart. It's almost the end of the year, sisters, you should take care of your health. A great victory came from the northwest. The army led by General Lu Xianhu has temporarily driven out the wolf people. It is a matter of great joy and congratulations for the great minister to the northwest, the emperor's dragon face is very happy..."

Seeing the wrist guard in Yunsha's hand, the thorn in her heart pierced her gallbladder, and the pain was painful and dull.

When she was walking outside, her mind was still on the wristband embroidered with pearls, the maid said softly: "Your Majesty, you are going the wrong way, this is the way to Zhenghua Palace."

Wrong way, wrong way, I don’t look back until I reach the south wall, have I always been on the wrong way?

Back in the Nuanxin Hall, listening to Xu and the baby talking, I went in and hugged them and buried my face deeply.

"Mother Concubine, don't cry." There were tears in Xu's eyes, and his little hand still wiped the tears from my face: "Both Xu and the baby love Mother Concubine."

Kissing him and the baby's little faces like crazy, hugging the three heads tightly together and crying.

The maid came to tell me that a good lady came to see me, I wiped my tears and sat on the carpet: "Let's just say that I have taken medicine and fell asleep now."

"Yes, ma'am." She closed the door and went out.

"Concubine mother, don't cry. Xu will grow up soon, and will protect concubine mother, younger sister, and younger brother." He said every word, but he was firm.

The baby also nodded: "Mother Concubine, so does the baby."

"You are all good children, Xu, how about you go to Zhenghua Palace and help your mother and concubine see brother Xi."

"Mother Concubine, Xu hates Imperial Father, makes Mother Concubine angry, makes Mother Concubine cry."

"Xu, you can't hate him. He's your father, so you can't hate him, you know? He loves Xu very much too." I really mean it, don't cry in front of your children in the future.I want them to live a happy life. It's not good to be accompanied by hatred since childhood.

Xu nodded: "Mother Concubine, Xu is wrong."

"That's good. Concubine Mother is crying because Xu and the baby are going to be one year older and taller. Concubine Mother is happy. Be good. Xu followed the maid and sister to Zhenghua Palace to see brother Xi."

"Okay, concubine mother, Xu misses brother Xi too."

"The concubine mother also went with the baby, and the baby thought about it too."

I shook my head and smiled: "Baby, concubine mother just came back from outside, it's a bit cold, baby also wants brother Xi and brother Hexu to be together, tell brother Xi that concubine mother misses him."

The children went there and came back very late, just to let me understand that no one except their Highness Nuanxin could see Xi.

When I think of him, I sigh, something weighs me down.

There is still the warmth of holding each other in the fingertips, I thought I understood you, I thought I was different in the harem, Xia Junlan is like this, is it because I don’t love, but you didn’t take back the jade finger, and taught me like It's like a silk thread, which can't be let go.

Playing with the jade wrench finger, the luster is still bright, and there is no more love. I can only sigh when I close the wooden cover and put my forehead on the pattern on it.If there is no emotion, wearing these will only feel cold.

The plum blossom died very quickly, and within three days, the petals fell off as soon as they were touched.Xu and the baby are still so obedient, I spend a lot of time with them to fill my empty heart, and I can ignore the outside world.

When I saw him again, I went to pay my respects to the queen.

Lu Yao was talking about the end of the year, the distribution of various things, I smiled faintly in my heart, it turns out that the year is coming so soon, the years are really like light, and there is no trace to be traced line by line.

I sat and listened from a distance, looking up at Lu Yao's gorgeous and majestic face, even though she hated me, even though I was out of power and out of favor, she still didn't have any trouble for me.

Hate, is it just like this, made up of a little bit of loneliness and loneliness?I looked down at my fingertips, it was a clean pink color, the concubines like to dye their nails brightly and dazzingly, which complements the whiteness and tenderness of their little hands, I looked up and sat upright listening to her talk, my mind wandered far away.

Now Yunsha has risen again, and she has reached Zhaoyi, but no matter to the queen or other concubines, she is always respectful and obedient, even I can't hate her, she is really a very smart and witty woman .

The palace maid came in and whispered in Lu Yao's ear, Lu Yao stopped talking and said with a smile: "All sisters, go back first, after a while, Concubine Yang will give away the New Year's gifts in her own name. Distribute it."

Everyone got up to say goodbye one after another, and I was no exception.

When going down the steps, I walked carefully, fearing that I would slip if I stepped on the snow, but I don't know who bumped into me from behind, and then I staggered the next step and rushed to the ground.

There was a stabbing pain between the knees, and the concubines all screamed.

"I'm sorry, Concubine Yun Gui, it's all bad for my concubine, please forgive me." The woman who was so frightened that her face turned pale panicked and knelt down, looking at me with tears in her eyes.

It turned out that Yunsha bumped into me, and a concubine beside me helped me up, and said coldly, "Yun Zhaoyi really can't wait, not long after she was promoted, Zhaoyi is about to knock down Concubine Yun Gui. "

"The concubine didn't mean that. The concubine should be damned. I accidentally stepped on the hem of my clothes and hit the imperial concubine. Please punish the imperial concubine." The soft voice was mixed with crying, and she bit her lips with tears in her eyes, pitifully looked at me eagerly.

Surrounded by concubines watching the show, they want to see how I teach this new Yunsha a lesson.

I smiled lightly, then lowered my head and brushed off the snow on my skirt: "It's okay, be careful next time."

There is nothing to calculate, it is because I am careless when I walk, I don’t want to think too badly of people’s hearts, she often goes in and out of Zhenghua Palace and can see my Xi’er, if I really want to pick up the imperial concubine’s The power came to punish her and let out a breath of anger. Anzhi would not take her anger on my child later.

A mother is always sweet with bitterness, there is nothing to worry about: "Get up."

Do I look like someone who punishes everyone I see?I don't care what others think of me, if I'm petty, I'm petty.

She lowered her head and tears fell to the ground: "Concubine Yun Gui, this concubine really didn't do it on purpose."

"I don't mean to blame you." There's no need to cry so miserably.

The maid was about to help her up, but all the concubines in front saluted: "Your Majesty, Sheng'an, long live, long live, long live."

He walked through the crowd, looked at it with a very displeased face, and then went to Fu Yunsha: "It's snowing, who is so bold to make my beloved concubine kneel on the ground?"

"Your Majesty, I..." Before she could finish speaking, tears began to fall from her eyes.

"No matter who it is, I will make the decision for you. You are so brave. Your body can't catch the cold now, and you still kneel? I want to see who is so bold."

A man who is so familiar yet so strange, who once loved him, was so impulsive that I was not afraid to block a knife. How did he get the courage at that time?I can't even find her now. Now that she is kneeling in front of me, it's just unnecessary to ask who it is.

Maybe I chuckled unconsciously, but he turned his head and glared at me fiercely and said sharply, "Yun Zhiqiu, you are too jealous."

I nodded: "Yes, this concubine knows his mistake, and this concubine punishes herself to go back and face the wall and think about her mistakes. The concubine's face is so hideous that even the emperor will only blame him." I don't even want to give gifts, it's better to go, see It's better not to meet each other.

He will only accuse me, no need for any reason, even if he is wrong, he is right, because he is the emperor.

Out of the gate of Chaofeng Palace, the maid helped me to leave without delay.

I asked her: "Yong'er, do you understand feelings?"

"Your Majesty, Yong'er doesn't understand, you can't think about these things when you are a maid in the palace, and you are doomed to be lonely until you grow old if you are a slave in the palace."

I nodded: "Yeah." That's it, everyone is the same, I'm glad that there are still people who take care of my anger, so don't be unhappy all the time, face everything optimistically, that's the best.

(End of this chapter)