The maid is the queen

Chapter 209 Our Emperor?
He didn't read it, but showed it to me. He didn't even have a seal, and he didn't even have a title. I was just Yun Zhiqiu. He didn't kill me, he asked me to become a monk.

I looked into the depths of the forest, and I was a little inexplicable about his actions.

Maybe, I smiled lightly, or maybe I still have some value that can be used, he will never destroy the chess pieces easily.He said that death is the real relief, and he will not give me a happy one easily.

The place where I want to become a monk is not far away. It is in an unnamed small temple in the capital. Layers of stone steps extend upwards between dark green and dark yellow. It seems that he does not want everyone in the harem to know about me. For the matter of becoming a monk, it was Eunuch Chen who personally sent me up the mountain, dressed in plain clothes outside the palace, and accompanied me all the way up.

In the dense green of the small hills, wild ginger flowers seem to be blooming, and I can smell the fragrance of flowers.

Finally I couldn't help it anymore: "Why did the emperor let me go?"

Eunuch Chen is dressed in gray clothes, he doesn’t look like a father-in-law at all, but he is still a man of thought, and he respectfully said to me: “Miss Yun, you have never understood the emperor, and the emperor’s heart is also difficult. In the past, the three foreign relatives were independent, and each prince stood by, the Li family was aggressive, and the emperor cooperated with the Lu family to overthrow the Li family. After all, he is not an ordinary person, so if you don’t want to, the servant is telling lies, right?

I nodded lightly: "Yes."

I have also thought about his situation, but when Eunuch Chen said it, I would sigh a lot. The emperor is not really so easy to do.

Some powers are very subtle, just like three sticks can support a peace, but if one is missing, the other two must be tilted. My father is an elegant person. When dealing with these matters, the Lu family is naturally the one with the most power.

After going up a few more steps, he deliberately slowed down and waited for me, and said: "The third prince Jing suffered a defeat in the northwest, and no one knew that the emperor stayed up all night, carrying the burden of the third prince Jing. Looking at these, there are so many people in the northwest who have to take care of them. There are endless things in the palace, and the emperor is indeed exhausted. No matter who goes, he will be defeated. The old slave is not good at talking now. In short, the emperor gave way to the general Lu, so he let the queen adopt him and is now the eldest prince. The Lu family won a big victory. It seems happy. The emperor is always one When life is over, go out with a smile so that no one will know his burden."

"Eunuch Chen, do you think I'm bad?"

He shook his head hastily: "No, Miss Yun is not bad at all, Miss Yun is a kind person in the palace."

"I think I'm pretty bad, otherwise I wouldn't end up like this. You said, just let me go like this. People in the palace won't make irresponsible remarks? Your majesty, just let it go in your heart." Do you have to hate it?" That's really strange.

Eunuch Chen was surprised: "Miss Yun? Our emperor?"

"Yeah, your emperor is no longer my emperor. I looked up and saw the sky. Although most of the branches and leaves blocked it, it was really not bound by high palace walls after all. Even the sky was so blue. of." It is no longer mine, and he has nothing to do with me.

But Eunuch Chen said softly: "Miss Yun, the emperor called so many people to come and see, and his order was to kill the concubine, but the emperor didn't really want to kill you, but let a woman go to the afternoon instead of you." Door."

"Therefore, there is no Yun Zhiqiu in the world who has entered the palace and was a noble concubine. There is only Yun Zhiqiu who has become a monk with the same name and surname. He is really sure that he is not afraid that I will run away when he leaves the palace."

He actually sent someone to decapitate me instead. It seems that he must be killed, but the method is so different.

Looking down at the fallen leaves on the stone steps, no matter how you escape, when it is about to fall, the branches will always shake it to the ground.

Eunuch Chen smiled and said: "The slave also asked the same question as the lady, and the emperor also answered. He said that the lady is tired and can't go anywhere. The lady is also an adult. No matter what she does, she will consider a lot. consequences."

That means no matter where you are, you still have to be restrained by him.

He is always so hateful, always plotting people to the end.

That's true, I'm really tired, I really can't go anywhere, my Xi is still in the palace.But when I get out of this house and go up these stone steps, step by step, I have to understand that I have to let go of all feelings little by little.

He added: "I know that Miss is not dead, there are probably only three people in the world, one is Duke Mu, the other is the emperor, and the old slave."

"Did my father pay a price?" I really hate my own personality, why do I want to know everything clearly?

Eunuch Chen shook his head: "No, the emperor doesn't want anything."

That really doesn't look like him anymore, don't give up the power of Duke Mu, he doesn't want to have everything in his hands, that's all, don't want to, why do you want him?
We stopped talking and walked up the top panting. The health of the past two years has not been very good. I was so tired that I was sweating when I reached the middle of the mountain. Eunuch Chen said: "Miss Yun, why don't you take a rest?" Let's go up again! Let's take a breather before we go."

I shook my head, wiped off my sweat and looked at the top, and still walked up step by step. My stubbornness has never changed for so many years, and I will not rest until the end.

I finally made it to the highest point with great difficulty. Before I had time to take a good look at the houses that had been through the vicissitudes of time, I slumped on the ground and looked down the mountain.

The stone steps winding straight into the woods, the leaves made the wind blowing, the mountain wind is like a tune, how beautiful it sounds, I really can't believe that I came out alive.

From now on, this is where I will settle down. Eunuch Chen didn’t sit and watch with me anymore, but went in, and said something to the old nun here, and said inside after a while: “Miss Yun, you can come in.”

When I went in, I saw only an old nun and a young nun. The younger one was about twelve or thirteen years old. They looked at me with wide eyes. The nun was knocking on the wooden fish and rubbing the beads.

After a while she stopped, opened her eyes and looked at me lightly and said, "What's your name?"

"Yun Zhiqiu." I said softly.

She shook her head: "From now on, you won't be called Jingxin. From now on, you will be called Jingxin. You will be clean from the beginning to the end, from the heart to the soul. If you enter my Buddhist gate, you will be cut off from the love between men and women in the world."

I nodded, I know.

When I was in the palace, I tried my best not to think of anything.

"My Buddha name is Huiqing, and this is your senior sister, Wu Xiang." She said solemnly.

I glanced at the little girl and wanted to laugh a little. It wasn't that I bullied her, it was just that such a young girl became my senior sister before she knew anything.

Mrs. Huiqing also said: "In Buddhism, no matter how old or young you are, you start first."

"I understand."

Then she said some rules here, and then asked Na Wuxiang to get a knife and come out and said: "Shave your hair, you will cut off three thousand threads of trouble."

It's right to the point, I finally became a monk and entered Buddhism, although my heart may not be cleared up now, but now, it must be cleared up.

Kneeling in front of the Guanyin, she lifted up my hair, and cut it to the ground bit by bit, falling down bit by bit, like flying away scene by scene in the past.

I don't want anything, I want to let my heart be quiet.

Until the hair fell out and my head was bald, I felt a little uncomfortable. Eunuch Chen picked up a lock of hair from the ground and put it in his sleeve, and said, "Master Huiqing, I should go back first."

"Let's go." She said: "Don't let people worry about you if you have nothing to do. This is a pure place of Buddhism. It is cut off from the world of mortals. Don't disturb it again."

"No one will come to worry about it," he said.

I touched my hairless head, and I felt extremely lonely. Without hair, it was so cold. The loneliness in my heart grew wildly, like winter snow weighing me down.

I looked up at Guanyin's eyes that couldn't tell whether it was sadness or joy. People like me, and all the vicissitudes in the world, whether the joys and sorrows are not worth mentioning.

Purify my heart, from today on, not only my heart, but also my lonely and sad soul.

It's just a piece of wood, pinned to the door of the Buddhist room in the middle, with the word Wuming Temple written on it.I began to practice here, and my bare head is slowly getting used to it. Every morning, the little girl can't help snoozing. I get up early to clean the courtyard, see the yellow and green in the forest, and listen to the sound. Like high and low tides, let them come together to drive away the loneliness in the heart, and entering the Buddhist gate does not mean that the heart has really stepped in.

I would think, sometimes desperately, about the kids, about the relationships I used to struggle with.

Clothes are becoming more and more unable to block the coldness. Only by doing more things will you not feel cold. After carrying two buckets, you go down the mountain to fetch water. The frost and fog in the mountains are thick, but each has its own beauty.

When I got down to the foot of the mountain, the sun also rose, but it still made me feel cold. The small river was like a silver jade belt, and it was steaming slowly. I warmed my hands with the breath, and then took a handful of cold water to wash my face , the ripples dissipate, and I see myself reflected on the water, why is it so lonely, my practice is not enough, my hard work is not enough, why do I always have this feeling, look up at the steps in the forest, full of I have tasted the mottled loneliness and sighs, tasted the strong wine of love, and calmed down, but I can't purify my heart.

I can't think about it. Missing is a kind of pain that erodes the bone.

He fetched two buckets of water and carried them with gritted teeth, his feet trembling.I have to worry about it every morning. When I reach the top of the mountain every morning, there is not much left.

I just went up to the second step, and I can't do it, and the place is not wide enough, so I can only squat down to protect it with a second hand.

Today’s stomach hurts so much that I feel like I’m about to strangle my intestines. After a few more levels, my feet are so weak that I almost fall off. One big hand is protecting my waist, and the other is holding the pole on my shoulder. left.

(End of this chapter)