The maid is the queen

Chapter 236
There was a strong sense of ridicule between the words, and there was no ambiguity of contempt in the cold and stern eyes.

I lowered my head and felt a little cold: "Yes."

"It's good." He said a few words coldly, grabbed Prince Jinchang and left: "Follow me to practice swords, as long as a man has the ability, he will not be afraid of anything."

Prince Jinchang looked at me reluctantly, hoping that I, the stinky princess, could rescue him from Lu Xianhu's grasp. He tiptoed to see that he had disappeared into the lush forest with people dragging him along.

He has the fighting spirit on the battlefield and the domineering aura of a general, no wonder everyone says he is a general, with him guarding the place, no one can invade half a step.

Xi was actually a little afraid to hug my face, so she pressed her small face and called softly, "Mother Concubine."

"Don't worry, my concubine won't let you practice swords." They are all children who are afraid of hardship, and they are not yet Ruoxu, they study hard and practice everything.

Pick up the children and go back to the Shou Pavilion for dinner, and the maid will send them to the imperial academy when they fall asleep later.

In the evening, my father-in-law came to invite me and said that the emperor asked me to have dinner in Zhenghua Palace.

The table was full of delicious food, and the smile on his face was also strong. I asked him softly: "Is there any happy event for the emperor recently?" Get dark.After living in the palace for so long, I have only touched his temperament. Sometimes he is as cold and harsh as the wind, but when he is relaxed, he is even more childish than Xu.

"Exactly." He smiled all over his face: "Lin Luoshui will return to the capital in a few days."

"Oh." Is this Lin Luoshui an alluring beauty? The emperor fell in love with her smile when she looked back, and she smiled like this when she heard that she was coming to the capital.

"He will heal you."

"Ah, heal me."

"Of course, what are you thinking about? Don't think too much in your head. You are already like this. If you think about it again, I'm afraid you won't be able to get out of the way. Lin Luoshui is a famous doctor in the capital. I ordered him to return to the capital as soon as possible. You will see him in a few days and let him cure you, so you will have me in your memory, but you see now I treat you very well, don't you? I regret it, don't I? So You have to remember these too."

I bit my chopsticks and answered, not wanting to linger on this topic, so I said, "I saw General Lu Xianhu today, and it really doesn't deserve his name. He looks like a general."

However, the corner of his mouth curled up, and a sneer spilled out of his lips: "General talent? It is true, but it also depends on what kind of talent can be regarded as talent."

"Your Majesty, I'm afraid that General Lu's residence is not very good. Those beautiful women selected in previous years are close to the place where General Lu lives. The slaves don't think it is very good."

He raised his eyebrows and said with a smile: "Eunuch Chen, what do you know? I arranged this on purpose. I don't have the right to ask him to look up and down with all the girls. Just let people see who can get along with Lu Xianhu If it's close, I'll announce it. If..." He just smiled and said nothing.

I feel very inexplicable, which song is the emperor singing.

Let a man get closer to his woman, really, does he want to kill Lu Xianhu.

Looking at him in shock at the thought of it all of a sudden, he picked up a pearl ball with a smile: "Eat more, your broken body will definitely be afraid of wind, frost, rain and snow again when winter comes."

I feel that all the good dishes on the table lose their flavor all of a sudden, and I feel like chewing wax after eating them.

"Your Majesty, everyone says that he is a general. He guards the frontier in the prime minister's court, and no one dares to go any further." I lowered my chopsticks and still spoke out what was in my heart.

"Zhiqiu, you finally have some inspiration in your mind. You will walk side by side with me in the future. I will not hide some things from you. He is indeed a general, and it is only because he is so good on the battlefield that I announce him as a general." He entered the palace. There are some truths that you can understand after thinking about it slowly. This palace, I only now understand its meaning. Loving someone can also be killed by Dali, so there is nothing you can’t do in this palace. "

How did I suddenly have a mentality of being overwhelmed by the heights?This is none of my business, the emperor's insight, and his use have nothing to do with me.

That Lu Xianhu and I only met once, after hearing about his name for a long time, the first time I saw him, his reputation was indeed well-deserved, but now I also know what the emperor is thinking, how can I sigh.

He seemed to be able to see my thoughts, and raised his lips gently and said softly: "Zhiqiu, you don't need to worry about these things. In my world, such cruel, heartless and ruthless things are of course my fault. Don't think too much about it." , I will never take the path I missed again. I bumped into Nanshan and it hurts. I will not be like you.

"Your Majesty, I'm full." I put down the bowl and chopsticks and sat upright.

He put down his chopsticks: "I ate it, too many things on my mind."

There was a little silence, and the father-in-law stepped back after serving the tea. Looking at the lingering white air, he sighed a little: "Why don't I want to be a carefree person, why don't I want to do my best in everything, but political affairs, I don't care about it." As soft and kind as a woman's mind, it involves rights and interests, and the greedy heart is becoming more and more different, until finally there are some things that you have to remove, except for me, who would dare to be this bad person for me, seventeen or eighteen of my brothers, All of them said that their aspirations were not here, and roamed freely in the fiefs like idle clouds and wild cranes. Each of them had their own power and wasted their rich and noble life as princes. But I knew that my father made me the prince until I became king , all the brothers know that strategy and governance are inferior to me, and they are not my opponents in many aspects. This is a test for me, if I can't stand without the help of my brothers, then I can't control the world, and I don't deserve to be the emperor."

He stood up to take a sip of tea, his dark eyes became more bitter, and he continued: "I can only do everything by myself, no matter good people or bad people, I have to do it together, to be an emperor If you can't be cruel, one day people will push you down. It's a matter of face if you win or lose among women, but it's a matter of life and death if you win or lose power. Before me, the first emperor liked the fourth prince very much Long, make him the crown prince first, but I am the son of the queen, and my backer is the Lu family, so I have taken advantage of it. My father and emperor don't like my mother and concubine, so I can only pay seven points more than others Try to learn more things, I can't show off first, and when the time comes, I will fight with the dragon, and finally I will dethrone the dragon, and even within a year, the dragon will pass away, I am also very sad , every elder brother and imperial brother look at me with fear and fear, like a dragon dying because of me, I am very sad, only when they are not around, can I go to his mourning hall to take a look, you know his mother What did the concubine say to me?"

His lowered eyes could not bear the bitterness that could not be hidden.

"What did you say?" I asked softly.

He clenched his hands between his knees into fists, and said sadly: "She said that I was a murderer, and it was because I wanted to be a prince that I killed her dragon."

"It's not like that." I comforted him softly, taking his hand.

He turned his back and grabbed my hand tightly, trying to find some strength from me to support his bitter and bitter past.

He was so lonely, and when he thought of the past, his body was trembling slightly.

"I'm not angry about this. I know that as a prince, I have to bear more pressure and things than ordinary people, resentment, loneliness. The alienation of brothers, the resentment of concubines, and the sighs of father and emperor, I can do it all." It is understandable to bear it, but I have been wrong all the time. I thought that the queen mother would restrain herself, and the concubine Long's mother also went there in the end. It made me panic and scared. It rained heavily that day, and I ran alone in the harem. The rain made me feel comfortable all over my body, without pain or cold. I like heavy rain, because when I cry, no one knows my face. It's tears, or rain. I still want to jump into the water and yell fiercely in it, so that no one will hear how miserable I am, and it's what I thought, and I acted. I jumped down, but I don't know how to swim, I just feel very comfortable in the water, I don't even want to struggle, but my hands pulled me out of the water, it was my imperial sister, Princess Yutang, she pulled me out , wiped my face clean, and said with a smile that I am not fun in the water, her smile is so beautiful, the rain has become colorless, it was the first time I cried in front of people, crying in sister Yutang's arms. She also whispered In other words, my queen mother said that you should not cry casually, and you must not let her see it, and said Jun Lan, you are a good person, you know a lot of things, you are really amazing."

When he said this, he choked up a little, and my heart actually stung.What kind of youth was that, how much pressure was on his shoulders, that is to say, he occasionally has childishness now, because he still wants someone to pamper him.

He is the emperor, and he also has his weak side.

He held my hand tightly: "When I get older, my brothers are all knowledgeable, and they all go away. So far, I understand one thing. No one is willing to fight for me, defend the world for me, and help me. As a matter of fact, people have to rely on themselves, even I. I am a bad person, I want Xia Junzhong to die for me, I pulled out the domineering Li family, I want to live with my beloved, I don’t want to be controlled by others everywhere, I have to go one step further Pulling out the thorn in one step, I know it will eventually break, but I still have to do it."

"I know Princess Yutang." I looked up at him.

He smiled slightly: "What do you know about her?"

"She is Lang Teng's concubine. The people in Lang Teng told me, the emperor, don't be so sad. I think you always have your own reasons for what you do. It's just that each of you thinks differently and stands in a different position." , the way of thinking is different, there are so many people in the world, no matter what they do, there are good sides and bad sides.” I don’t think I think he is cruel anymore.

He has his own ideas, but they are different from mine. If he doesn't force me to agree with him, how can I make him agree with mine?Think about it, maybe you can understand.

(End of this chapter)