The maid is the queen

Chapter 34 Gifts (4)

"Zhiqiu." He looked at me with heartache, and held me tightly in his arms: "Follow me to the northwest, and forget about tonight."

Can you really forget?Can I still like you again and be with you?

Blowing the cool wind in the morning, drying up the tears from last night, I still feel sore when I lower my head.

The mind is like countless stones being dropped, making a mess.

There is nowhere to sort out the feelings, and the confused pain haunts me.

I don't know how to think about the future, I don't think about anything.

The morning breeze carried the fragrance of flowers and his breath into the tip of my nose.

A bouquet of white irises with morning dew was under my eyelids. Xia Juntang gently wiped my tears with his fingers, and said softly: "Crying early in the morning, the tears of my daughter's family are very precious."

Holding my shoulder: "Zhiqiu, I know you are sad, and I don't know what to say, no matter what, don't shed tears easily, drop by drop, like a knife, maybe I shouldn't know you, like this You won’t get hurt. But fate and God’s arrangement finally let me know you and some people. Zhiqiu, every word I say now is true, and I will To be good to you for the rest of my life, to spend my whole life to redeem my sins, may not be called love, but it is undeniable that every drop of your tears will make my heart ache, I think, this is love."

I threw myself into his generous arms, crying silently.

On the road to happiness, I stumbled hard.

"Forget it, Zhiqiu, okay. I don't want to see you in such pain." He rubbed my hair: "We should never mention it."

Raising my tear-filled eyes, I nodded vigorously.

That is the dirtiest memory, I would rather not think about it.

Xia Juntang will take me away from here.

However, I felt that I was not worthy, and my eyes dimmed little by little. He is so kind, elegant, knowledgeable, and demeanor, and he can have a good conversation with me.

He held my face and gently wiped away my tears with his fingers: "From now on, don't shed another tear. If you want a reason, I'll tell you: You hurt me more."

Need I say anything more?I think there is nothing more to say.

Holding his big hand tightly, I look forward to leaving the capital and going to the place Yi Taifei said, where there is a blue sky, big birds flying high, and endless green grass.

He hugged me tightly and let me forget everything in the morning breeze. I believe we don't care.

Tired and didn't sleep all night, she actually relaxed in his arms, and then fell into a deep sleep.

When I woke up, I was already in the bedroom, a piece of brilliant golden sprinkled on the ground, shining on the simple tables and chairs, with a special sense of confusion.

I wipe my eyes, where is Xia Juntang?Why is there no one there.

Walking on the ground with bare feet, the door seemed to be the door of my heart. I took a deep breath and opened the door. The brilliant sunset made me almost unable to open my eyes.

Why is it so quiet? Could it be that everyone is in the front yard, and I ran out again, put on my shoes and walked forward.

Before it arrived, some noisy quarrels were heard.

Who ate the heart of a bear and the courage of a leopard, and actually came to the Three Princes' Mansion to quarrel.

"Bang." There was a crisp sound, the sound of the table being overturned, accompanied by Xia Juntang's angry roar: "Rest, Yun Zhiqiu is my concubine, no one can take her away from my hands."

"Third Prince, you are too serious. Yun Zhiqiu is the emperor's beautiful daughter. Besides, the emperor did not bestow marriage to the third prince. How did you say the princess? The third prince must also pay attention to his own identity." The voice must belong to the father-in-law.

Why didn't he let me go? I closed my eyes and trembled with anger.

Xia Juntang smiled coldly: "Will I care about this third prince? I won't hand over Zhiqiu if I have nothing. You go back and tell him that fame and fortune are just things outside of your body. I, Xia Juntang, never care about it."

"Is it worth it for the third prince to be so reckless for a woman?"

Xia Juntang said loudly: "Naturally it is worth it, not everything can be compared with Yun Zhiqiu."

Should I be happy?I was so heavy in his heart, something was pressing down on his heart, it was so heavy.

The father-in-law also sneered and said: "Third prince, you have to think about it. Yun Zhiqiu is the emperor's woman. When did you hear that there is someone who can compete with the prince for a woman? And the third prince is not an ordinary vulgar person. It's not appropriate to be impulsive, there is still a concubine in the palace, and there are people from the top and bottom of the Three Princes' Palace, has the Third Prince considered it properly?"

These words carried a lot of threats, and I heard Xia Juntang say in a forceful voice: "I will protect Yun Zhiqiu if I have everything I have."

I wanted to shed tears again, I held back and looked up at the blue sky.

Is it wrong to be indifferent to fame and wealth?Because he has no real power, can he be bullied like this?
Juntang, am I worth your desperation?

You have to protect me no matter what you give, but I also like you in my heart, and I don't want you to embarrass me either.

If we are doomed to have no fate, why did we meet? If I knew it earlier, it was a mistake because of the similar appearance. I would rather never have known you, so that you would not be so heartbroken.

I am carrying the blue sky, why can't they tell me, why don't they give me happiness?

He is trying his best to protect me, and I will not let him be embarrassed.

Taking a deep breath, I stepped out and calmly looked at the two groups of people in the main hall.

"Zhiqiu, go in." Xia Juntang spotted me first.

No matter where he is, he can see me first, which makes me happy. I smiled at him tactfully, looked at those father-in-laws, and said coldly: "I will enter the palace with you, and I will not harass you in the Three Princes' Mansion again. "

"Zhiqiu." Xia Juntang looked at me disapprovingly: "You are tired, go to rest, don't talk nonsense, I won't let them take you away if I'm here."

I shook my head and said calmly, "I know what I'm doing, Jun Tang, don't protect me."

He rushed over and held my hand tightly: "I won't let you enter the palace."

"Juntang, listen to me." I turned my eyes and looked at him with some sadness: "They are telling the truth, I know you have me in your heart, that's enough, let me go."

"Don't give up, don't give up." He became angry, and it hurt my hand.

I pulled up his fingers one by one, very hard, and my heart ached, tears fell on his hand: "Jun Tang, let go, okay, Princess Yi is old and her body is not in good shape." Well, don’t be hit too much. Filial piety is the first thing to do, and no matter what you do, you must consider the consequences rationally.”

"What if I don't?" The loose hand grabbed my wrist again: "Zhiqiu, look into my eyes and talk."

I looked up into his eyes, dark and sincere emotions appeared in my eyes, maybe we needed to progress step by step before, but all of a sudden, like a fog that was lifted, we could see the emotions clearly.

I grinned and nodded at him: "You will."

He sighed, his voice hoarse: "Zhiqiu, don't think too much about me."

"You will." I just repeated this sentence, seeing the heartache in his eyes drowning him like a tide, and pulling out my hand little by little, he wanted to grab me, but seeing the firmness in my eyes , he let go slowly, and finally roared angrily like a wounded beast.

I turned my head suddenly not to look into his eyes, I was afraid that I would sink in it and couldn't extricate myself.

I'm sorry, I don't want to see you hurt, I don't want to see the pain in Concubine Yi's eyes, you and he are very good to me, besides, I'm already an unchaste woman, Juntang, you are so gentle , how can I be worthy of you.

Some lightly went out to the door, he called my name loudly: "Yun Zhiqiu, Yun Zhiqiu."

I closed my eyes with tears streaming down my face, nodded vigorously, then turned around and smiled brightly at him, and left without saying anything.

No matter how twisted your arm is, the people in the world, no matter whether you are a prince or nobleman or a rich and gifted scholar, cannot beat the emperor.

The father-in-laws followed me and invited me into a carriage.

As it got farther and farther away from the Three Princes' Mansion, a few mournful birdsong called out the helplessness of autumn.

I don't want to look back, I'm afraid that if I look back one more time, I will be more sad to let go.

I thought that once I walked out of the palace gate, I would never have to step in again. I was secretly glad that a smile came to my face, but the nightmare shattered everything.

The entanglement between me and him started before I entered the palace.

I thought, that's evil fate, I still hate him.

How could it be a joy to enter the palace again?There is only endless helplessness and powerlessness in my heart.

I sat quietly in the room waiting for his imperial decree to arrange me. I hate him, but this hatred cannot be shown.

After a while, the father-in-law came in and said: "Yun Zhiqiu, the emperor said that he can arrange you casually, please go with the servant."

I couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief, he didn't actually care about me, it was just the kind of jealousy that allowed him to deliberately occupy me and ruin the happiness that Xia Juntang and I had built, because I and Concubine Mu looked alike, just because of this one The reason is that Xia Juntang and I can't be together, how can we not make me hate it.

I have no title, no status, my status is more embarrassing than a court lady, I live alone in a hut next to the cold palace, the green bamboo sways its branches and leaves in the autumn wind, and there is a thick layer of yellow leaves on the ground , It seems to be a place where no one lives for a long time.

The father-in-law obviously didn't want to go in, but stood outside the fallen leaves and said: "Yun Zhiqiu, you go in and clean up by yourself, the emperor didn't give you any title, and no court lady will come to wait on you, I'm thinking about the weight, you and the cold palace women, and it's no different."

"Then why do you have to let me into the palace?" How angry I was.

He snorted coldly: "How can the holy will be guessed."

There is no need to give any reason, because he is the emperor, and the emperor represents everything, and he can destroy other people's happiness, hate it.

I stepped in, stepped on the bamboo leaves, and even the fallen leaves sighed for me.

Stepping in, looking at the dusty tables and chairs, there is a kind of silence of the years. There is still a book and a teacup by the window, but it is covered with fallen leaves and dust. The half-broken wooden window Squeaking in the wind, there used to be a woman living here, books and tea, and small dragonflies made of bamboo branches.

(End of this chapter)