The maid is the queen

Chapter 44 The Happiness I Want

If I can get rid of him as much as I can, I will get rid of him as much as I can.

When we arrived at Zhenghua Palace, Lin Luoshui also arrived, and I buried my head in his arms, this time I was really ashamed to see anyone.

He squawked like a chicken, a cat and a duck, and the sound of the whole palace rang out in anxiety.

"See if she's okay, if she's bruised, if she's out of breath, if she's cold, hungry, or scared." A series of requests also came out of his mouth.

He still didn't want to let go, like I was a beloved object, he held it firmly, and tied a thread in my wrist for Lin Luoshui.

Alas, I don't want to poke my head out for anyone to see. I would rather be an ostrich. As long as I don't see my face, no one will know who I am.

Where is he really so nervous, he is just playing, the more he plays, the more this matter spreads in the palace, his goal will be achieved.He is the emperor, his every move naturally draws people's attention, and he can easily do it unintentionally.

In the end, Lin Luoshui said: "Your Majesty, she's fine, but if she doesn't change her wet clothes, I'm afraid something will happen."

Hearing this, he said relaxedly: "Fortunately, fortunately, Eunuch Yang, go and get the soft silkworm silver silk skirt that the Western envoy paid tribute to."

Eunuch Yang reminded in a low voice: "Your Majesty, a few days ago the Emperor said that he would just give this only dress to Concubine Li."

I felt that he was smiling even more proudly, and said arrogantly: "Zhiqiu should look good in that dress. Concubine Li is not suitable for wearing white. Only a slender waist and slender hands and feet can wear that style."

Push me into the heated kang like this, I pinched his waist, but he grabbed my hand and bit it carefully, in fact, it was really a bite, the pain made me want to retract, his strength was so great .

That bite hurt me, I couldn't bear it anymore, I pushed him away with one hand, then sat up and stared at him: "Have you had enough, playing with me like this, are you bored?"

His peach blossom eyes were full of smug smiles, he turned my shoulders, and made me face the father-in-law and maid who were kneeling on the ground, and Lin Luoshui who was a little dazed: "Luoshui, look, I I should still know your little wild cat, I like her a little bit, at least she suits my taste now, when I see her in a few days, I think I will call her "Qiufei Niangniang."

Qiu is so tall, I shook his hand angrily: "I beg you, the emperor who is extremely noble and self-respecting is higher than the sky, I offended you, I have paid a heavy price, I have been wrong all along , It was wrong before, it is wrong now, it is all my fault, Your Majesty, please forgive me."

I don't want to play with him anymore, these games are not suitable for me at all.

He looked surprised: "Zhiqiu, it's your blessing that I like you, how could it be a mistake? Come on, tell me, what do you want to do, Shangyi, or be like your good cousin Xibao To be a lover, or do you want to be a concubine?"

Fuck his Shang Yi, I don't want to do anything at all.

"I just want to go back." I was so angry that I wanted to vomit blood.

He looked at me tenderly: "Yes, I must have frightened you. You are so thin. I didn't restrain myself last night. You must be exhausted. Go back and have a good rest."

Biting my lip tightly, I didn't say another word.

Too many words and too many mistakes, he just has the ability to distort my words, presumably in a short while, everyone will know who I am, Yun Zhiqiu.

"Eunuch Yang, use my chariot to send Zhiqiu back, and ask the palace maid to wait on you."

"Yes, Your Majesty."

I clenched my fist tightly, I was afraid that my fist would fly to his face if I was careful, I closed my mouth tightly and didn't speak, my good temper was useless in front of him.

As soon as he left the palace, Eunuch Yang made a gesture of invitation to me, asking me to go to the emperor's magnificent chariot. I took a cold look, picked a path and ran away. Who would want to go back in such a beautiful way, making people look like monkeys.

When people saw me along the way, they all pointed and whispered. I knew he had succeeded, and he pushed me to the top of the limelight.

As soon as I went back, I saw that many maids were already cleaning the dilapidated bamboo house, and the order was faster than me.

It seems that there will be no more silence here, sitting on the bamboo swing, shaking vigorously, venting all the anger towards him, and then leaning weakly on the bamboo.

Unexpectedly, it was Lin Luoshui who came first. I was leaning on the bamboo and bumping my head against the bamboo, but he didn't say anything after just looking at him?
He smiled curiously and said, "Zhiqiu, why didn't I know that you were born out of the dust?"

"Are you here to laugh at me too?" My eyes were red, and if he dared to nod, I would cry for him.

He leaned against the bamboo and took a deep breath of air: "The air here is really fresh. It seems to Zhiqiu that it will be difficult for you to enjoy this fresh and quiet area alone in the future."

I said sadly: "I don't want to either, I'm really angry, I hate it, but I can't do anything about it." I grabbed my fist and hit the bamboo, treating it as a hateful emperor.

Lin Luoshui grabbed my hand, looked at the red fingers, frowned and said, "You're self-abuse. In fact, Zhiqiu, I can see that he has some thoughts about you."

I don't know if he doesn't need to tell me. If he didn't have the heart, why would he make me so miserable?Let me not get happiness, forget it, it’s not mine and I can’t catch it no matter what, I will slowly think about it, but he is really going too far now.

"I don't care about him. I hate him. Does he have to be liked by other people like him? Do all women in the world have to like him? What exactly does he want to let me go?" I asked. All powerless, I can only let him play and be beaten.

He rubbed his knuckles for me and said thoughtfully: "Zhiqiu, if you don't want to do this, you'd better not even show your anger and hatred. You are a strong girl and you must know how to protect yourself. I I just want to tell you that the emperor is interested in you, it is not necessarily a good thing, I have been in the palace for so long, some things are the clearest, he likes one now, and the other tomorrow, I don't want you to be hurt."

I nodded, smiled at him and said sincerely: "Thank you." Fortunately, there are still good people in this palace.

He leaned down slightly and rubbed my hair: "Thank you, I like you very much." Seeing me blinking, he smiled narrowly again: "It's not your evil thoughts, I admire your strength, your uniqueness , and your spirit of self-satisfaction."

"It sounds like I have many advantages." I smiled easily.

Talking to him is really much more comfortable.

"No matter what, don't let yourself be mad at yourself first."

"I know." I said easily, "I know what to do. I'm not angry. Angry is just following his way. Just deal with everything calmly and don't take him seriously."

He gave me a thumbs up: "Smart girl, you can understand everything."

So few people are against me, what he said made me feel happy.

I think I can think about it quite openly, maybe I have come over from that kind of unforgettable pain, and now there is no pain and I wish I couldn't get over it.

If it wasn't for Lin Luoshui to wake me up, I think I would still be foolishly throwing up at him, and I don't know why he is the emperor, and when I see him, I feel so humble that I have no self, but he It will still easily stir up the arrogance in my bones. What is the difference between me and him? There is such a big difference in status.

Feeling like a clown, he's holding on to the string, he's pulling all the reactions and emotions, and that's not a good thing.

Lin Luoshui also wanted to be friends with Xia Juntang, and he didn't want me to have any trouble in the palace. I understand that once I get the limelight in the harem, people like me will definitely be hated both openly and secretly.

When I was a girl in the Yang family, I heard how the concubines of the Yang family competed for favor, and how the daughters of the Yang family were pushed out to get the attention of their status.

The harem is a place with many women.

When I was in the Huanyi Palace, there was a concubine whose clothes were never sent for washing. The maid laughed and said that because of her clothes, a noble person was washing them.

The reason was that once the emperor had a sudden whim to find the concubine, but the concubine hadn't come out after visiting the house. The emperor felt that it was disappointing, so he went out through the back door and saw a court lady shaking flowers vigorously to bathe the concubine. It's interesting, later the court lady used tricks to win the favor of the emperor, and the court lady was lucky enough to conceive a dragon fetus. The mother is expensive because of her pregnancy. From a lowly court lady, she was promoted to Shangyi because of her meritorious pregnancy. Next to the concubine, the concubine's silver teeth were crushed.But always a maid is a maid, and her job is to do things. The concubine's clothes are customarily handed over to Shangyi, and Shangyi has to continue to wash them.

What I didn't like to hear the most at the time were the four words "contributive to pregnancy".In fact, it is like this in the palace, but I don't like it at all. I know that others say that I have some messy thoughts in my head, but I really don't like everything about women and children being involved.

One of my father's friends has spent most of his life with his only wife lovingly. He doesn't even have children, but they still live happily and often go to the mountains and rivers.

I think, I'm really greedy, maybe what I want is the kind of happiness of staying alone for a lifetime, but because I'm too greedy, I can't get anything.

He gave many things over, such as woven cotton quilts, clothes, shoes, and even some food, gold, silver and jewelry, all of which were gorgeous.

I looked at so many things, and my heart was a little confused. I don't know if he made the truth on purpose, or if he really liked me because of the reluctance in his heart.

These things are not suitable for this dilapidated bamboo house at all. The bright jewels are placed on the table like irony, which makes me very heartbroken.

Swallowing it abruptly, he went to the bamboo forest to touch Xia Juntang's engraved words, turning over and over to calm his heart.

As a result, it was very quiet for two days, no one came to trouble me or anything, either they didn't take me seriously, or they just watched with cold eyes to see how many days I could be favored.I felt relieved a little bit, but I was still restless, and I didn't even dare to visit Concubine Yi. The rumors would eventually go to her palace. uneasy.

(End of this chapter)