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Chapter 259 Soliloquy 4
Chapter 259 259 Monologue 4
At that time, I only wanted to do a good job in my career, and I devoted eight percent of my energy to it. I learned to be tactful, sophisticated, talk to people, talk nonsense, all kinds of things. The entertainment came one after another, and I started to spend less time with your mother. Every time I went home, your mother could not wait to fall asleep. When I got up, your mother went to the company early.

This kind of life lasted for a long time. Your mother has always been used to being confident and self-reliant. I didn't know that she was in a bad mood at the time.

Looking back now, probably since that time, your mother has been suffering from depression.

If I had noticed sooner, your mother might not have gone so far as to commit suicide.

Once, your Uncle Han noticed something was wrong and reminded me, and I was going to go back and have a good talk with her, but at this time Song Xueyi came over and said that she was pregnant with my child that night that year, and now this The child is over ten years old.

I was shocked at the time, and there was a thunderbolt.

Because for a man, it feels a little bit to do some things without doing much. I don't believe her words at all, but she seems to have been prepared for a long time and brought me photos and Zixi's hair.

I was immediately attracted by the pair of eyes in the photo, like me and like you, the eyes of the three of us are exactly the same, I can't deny it at all.

I did a paternity test, and the result was as I guessed, that child was really my daughter, and it was caused by my cheating on your mother during her pregnancy.

I couldn't accept this fact, and I rejected it from the bottom of my heart. I also knew your mother's character, so I didn't dare to tell her about it. I took a sum of money and sent Song Xueyi away, telling her not to come again.

Because of this secret hidden in my heart, I was afraid to see your mother for a while, and I was afraid to meet her unreserved trust. Several times I found out that she wasn't actually asleep, she was pretending.

We were originally a couple who talked about everything, but there was a distance because of this secret. Your mother should have noticed my deliberate avoidance later on, and she didn't ask anything, and I wouldn't take the initiative to tell her.

Later, I felt that our husband and wife would definitely have problems if this continued, so I changed my attitude towards her, treated her twice as well, and tried to return to the state we were in when we first got married.

We have indeed returned to the original state, but the peaceful days did not pass long. The news about Zixi fighting with someone at school reached me. I didn't pay attention to it.

In the end, I still couldn't help taking a sneak peek, that is, this glance led to irreparable results.

When Shuren and I went together, I saw Zixi. The child was sallow and emaciated. He was malnourished for a long time. He was in the first year of high school and was as tall as a primary school student.

At that time, she was wearing a bandage on one hand, and was surrounded by several boys. Those boys said all kinds of vicious words, calling her the daughter of a murderer. At that time, she was very angry, and regardless of her injured hand, she wrestled with those boys, and finally fell to the ground, still crying and explaining, "Is that her real father? Her real father is not such a person. Her My father is the boss of a company, and he is a very good person."

I am struggling in my heart, I also came from that kind of life, I know the pain of that kind of life, I once vowed to be a good father, not to let my children suffer like this, but I have done something What, I let my other daughter go the same old way as me.

So in the end, Shuren made a move. The child thought that Shuren was her real father, immediately hugged Shuren's leg, and cried loudly, "Daddy, help me."

After talking about it, I fainted. Shuren and I had no choice but to take her to the hospital in City A for treatment. I also figured it out. I can’t leave this daughter alone, otherwise I won’t be able to pass the test in my heart for the rest of my life. So she was left in City A.

Naturally, Song Xueyi would not let Zixi stay here alone, and she followed her after a while. She behaved very calmly and promised repeatedly that she would not destroy my family. After thinking about it again and again, I felt that Zixi still needed They were taken care of by others, and finally decided to place them in a slightly remote house.

After more than a year like this, I see that the matter can no longer be concealed, and I am ready to explain this matter to your mother.

It's just that I didn't expect that your mother chose to commit suicide before I explained it.

The person I am sorry for in this world is her, she is the person I love the most, but I have failed her.

Until he died, he never heard my sorry, nor heard my explanation with his own ears. If time can be repeated, I will communicate with her immediately when I know there is a daughter outside, even if she Blame me and hate me, and want to divorce me, and I don't want to watch her die in front of me covered in blood.

She is the warmth of my life, even if I hurt myself, I don't want to hurt her.

I found out after reading her diary that Song Xueyi had looked for her and knew that she had suffered from depression a long time ago.

But I know her, these are not the main reasons for her suicide, she is just using such a decisive way to take revenge on me, my cheating and my betrayal.

Mo Nuan couldn't help covering her mouth, and sobbed softly. The handwriting on the paper was so heavy that it almost broke the paper. It seemed that the person who wrote this sentence had put a lot of effort into it.

After your mother died, I was depressed for a while, either working or smoking.

Not long after, something like that happened to you and Zixi again. You were dying, and Zixi's legs were also amputated. If it wasn't for my insistence, she should be able to live in a wheelchair now.

During that time, I was really in a mess. I would only sneak around outside your ward in the dead of night to talk to you. I was happier than anyone else when I heard the news of your waking up.

Song Xueyi insisted on suing you. I don't believe that you were in charge of the car accident. I watched you grow up. I know your character better than anyone else, so I just made a small fuss. In the face of such big right and wrong Always sensible.

I used all my connections to investigate, but unfortunately I couldn't find anything. The power behind the truth was far beyond my imagination. Only then did I realize that I was not strong enough to be able to support my daughter at this time. Wash away the grievances.

(End of this chapter)