me and a divorced housewife

Chapter 113 Thoughts
I slept next to Liu Ruyue anxiously.

The familiar fragrance of her body lingers around, how can I sleep?

This is very strange, it seems that girls have a natural fragrance, but men don't seem to have it.

Some people say that it is because too much cosmetics are applied, and the smell is coming out of pickling.But girls also have this smell when they go to school without makeup, how to explain?

She moved her body slightly, and I could feel it.

The night is quiet, the curtains are not drawn, and the milky moonlight outside the window is pouring in, full of dreamlike poetry, which makes me even less sleepy.

I secretly turned my head and took a peek at her, only to find that her back was facing me, her long black hair was scattered on the white sheet, she was motionless, her breathing made her body undulate evenly, as if she had already Fell asleep.

The sleeping position of a woman is full of charm and artistic temperament, or why those easels always let those models lie down to create.When lying down, the woman's graceful posture is fully revealed.Especially for a plump young woman like Liu Ruyue, even under a quilt, her seductive curves still make people uneasy.

I was admiring her when she turned sideways suddenly, and I hurriedly turned around, pretending to be asleep too.

There was no sound for a long time, and I thought she had fallen asleep again, so I turned sideways quietly and continued to look at her.

Suddenly, her back spoke, "Why don't you sleep?"

I was taken aback, it turned out that she hadn't slept at all.

"I...I can't sleep." I hurriedly explained in a panic.

She turned around suddenly and looked at me without blinking.

I was a little embarrassed and avoided her eyes, "What are you doing?"

Still looking into my eyes, she said, "Are you reliable?"

I was taken aback for a moment, not knowing what she meant by asking, "Is it reliable?"

"Are you reliable?" she asked me.

"Of course it's reliable." I said.

She withdrew her gaze, smiled, and said, "Not necessarily."

"Why not?" I said unconvinced.

She sighed and said, "I can't say it, sometimes I think you are very reliable, but sometimes I feel very illusory."

"Why do you think so?" I asked.

"Sometimes, for example, Zhang Ya told me that she seduced you. I was very moved when I heard it. It seems that it is really not easy for a man to reject a woman like Zhang Ya. It is really rare. But sometimes, I feel that you seem to be interested in everyone, which makes me always feel that you are still young and haven't played enough." Liu Ruyue said.

"Who else am I interested in?"

"Guo Xiaoting, Yang Yang, and that girl who borrowed money from you tonight." Liu Ruyue said.

I didn't expect Liu Ruyue to talk to me about such a topic suddenly, it turned out that she was still very conflicted.

"But I'm not interested in them at all." I said hastily, "Guo Xiaoting, Yang Yang, both of them, no matter whether they are interested in me or not, but I know who I like in my heart. Not to mention that woman, obviously She came to strike up a conversation first, didn't you also see it? She asked me to chat alone, but I refused. "

"That's because we are all here, so you refused. If we are not here, can you still refuse?"

"Of course." I said without hesitation.

"I don't believe it." Liu Ruyue said. "If so, why did you and Guo Xiaoting..."

It seems that what happened to Guo Xiaoting did have a great impact on her impression of me.

"Then... Wasn't it because I drank a little wine that I couldn't control myself? You can't keep picking on other people's shortcomings, right? Then you weren't there at the time, why could I reject Zhang Ya?" I retorted.

"Maybe you don't like Zhang Ya at all." Liu Ruyue said.

"Then you're wrong. Even if a man doesn't like that woman, he can still have sex with her. It's entirely a biological need. Besides, at my age, there's nothing wrong with being impulsive." I muttered.

Liu Ruyue nodded, "You need it physically?"

I was taken aback, "That's not what I mean, what I mean is, even though I have such a physical need, I still rejected Zhang Ya. Doesn't that explain the problem?"

"Strong words make sense."

"Then...if I have it at home, can I still use...eat it from outside?" I summoned up the courage to retort.

But as soon as I finished speaking, I regretted it, because I thought of Kim Dae-jung, and most of the men who cheated. Which of them went out to steal food because they didn’t have one at home?
Although the lights were not turned on in the room, I could feel Liu Ruyue's face turning red.

I quickly explained, "That's not what I mean, what I mean is, if I'm not at this age and haven't prescribed meat, I definitely won't be tempted by anything."

"Okay, let's not talk about this, go to sleep." Liu Ruyue said.

Saying that, she turned over and covered herself with a quilt, and fell asleep.

I know she is not asleep at all, but just wants to avoid this topic, I am not reconciled, since the topic is here tonight, I might as well ask boldly.

I brewed for a long time, and the words came to my lips several times, but finally I still didn't have the courage to speak out.

Finally, I made up my mind and said, "What about you? What do you think?"

Liu Ruyue was taken aback for a moment, without turning her head, "What idea?"

When she asked, I finally lost my courage and said, "Then what do you think about our matter?"

In fact, the so-called idea I want to ask is whether she will help me have sex. If she is willing to help me, then I promise not to be tempted.

"Let's talk about it later." Liu Ruyue said.

I'm a little disappointed, why does she always have this shelving attitude towards us?

"Do you like to hang people's appetites like this?" I said.

Liu Ruyue turned around, "Why do you say that?"

"Then you clearly know that I like you, but you have not expressed your opinion for a long time, you let me..." I didn't continue.

Liu Ruyue said, "Yu Hao, I'm not a little girl anymore. At this age, do you think I shouldn't be more cautious about marriage?"

"It should be cautious, but you have to give me some hope, right?" I said.

Liu Ruyue nodded, "Then you think you and Guo Xiaoting were like that last time. I moved out and moved back again. Isn't that giving you hope?"

What she said left me speechless for a moment, as if it was true.

"Yu Hao, to be honest, you have done a lot of things that moved me very much. Many times, I even cry when I think of it. Moreover, there is one thing about you that moves me very much, that is, although you have never been in love, but You know women very well, especially your WeChat post, which made me feel that a husband should love his wife with that kind of love. There were moments when I even felt that you were what I was looking for, but... ..." Liu Ruyue didn't continue talking.

"But what?" I asked quickly.

"I said you don't think I'm annoying, but when I think about the reality, I don't dare to think about it. I'm older than you, and I've been divorced, and I have a child. No one can accept this! And you At such a young age, you have never been in a relationship, and you have never experienced the excitement of life, so marrying a woman with a child is too unfair to you!" Liu Ruyue said, her voice choked up.

"But didn't you marry Kim Dae-jung without having a serious relationship?" I asked back.

"I'm different. I had plans back then. What else can you plan with me?" Liu Ruyue said.

"How do you know that being in love with a divorced woman with children isn't considered love?" I said.

"You say that now, but you will definitely regret it in the future! You are so young, and the girls outside are so young, and your career has just started, and the wonderful life of your life has just begun, and you will definitely regret it by then." Liu Kisaragi said.

"How is it possible? I won't..." I was about to refute.

"Stop talking, okay?" Liu Ruyue seemed to be in great pain, she said, "I really don't want to talk about this issue anymore today."

"Okay." I said dejectedly, "Since you don't want to talk about it, let's not talk about it."

Liu Ruyue turned around and went to sleep, I sat there, watching her back.

After a long time, Liu Ruyue said suddenly, "Yu Hao, give me a little more time, okay?"

I didn't speak, what else could I say?

I just feel deeply helpless. Although I know that she is right to worry, I have also thought about these obstacles. I have thought about how to persuade my parents more than once. I also thought about waiting for one day to stand on the pinnacle of life When Liu Ruyue was old, would I regret it?But no matter what the problem is, when you love someone in your heart, all problems are no longer problems.All I want is to have her, to be with her!
But in the face of her shrinking and hesitation, there is nothing I can do.

"Go to sleep." Liu Ruyue said, "Don't think about it any more."

"Ah."

Although I agreed with my mouth, I was very unwilling in my heart.

I suddenly thought, if I go over now, lift the quilt, and push her down, will she get rid of these hesitations, anyway, I'm already with me, so I won't think about these things anymore.

I know that many men find this trick extremely effective when facing girls who are half-pushed and half-hesitant to them, and that's how Monkey handles her partner.

When I came up with this idea, I couldn't help but startled myself, isn't this too bold?I actually thought of forcing her. This is a crime. Even if I don't commit a crime, what if it doesn't work?Don't you even have to make friends?
But another voice said in his head, coward, how do you know if you don't try?You just lack courage!

I sat there looking at Liu Ruyue's back, seemingly calm, but my heart was about to jump in my throat.

Should I summon up the courage to try again? Just after I came up with this idea, I was surprised to find that my right hand was tremblingly raised, and I touched Liu Ruyue's back.

(End of this chapter)