me and a divorced housewife

Chapter 265 Crying
Outside is the flowing night.

I was walking on the street alone, and even though it was summer, I still felt cold all over my body, like falling into an ice cellar.

In summer, it is the peak time of people flow in this seaside city again. Tourists from inland areas flock to this city with yearning and longing for the sea.

The cars on the street are constantly flowing, and the crowd is constantly flowing. These noises gather in front of my eyes and in my mind like a frenzy.

Even though I was surrounded by people, inside I still felt like I was alone on an island.

I can't describe my feelings at that time. Sometimes, language is limited, and you are neither in the fire nor in the water, so you will never be able to empathize with the torment like purgatory and the bone-chilling coldness.

I don't know where to go, what to do, I can only walk.

All of a sudden the cars stopped in front of me, the dazzling lights shone on me, and they kept honking at me, only then did I realize that I was standing at a red light, blocking the speeding convoy.

Curses ensued.

"You are blind!"

"Don't you want to live anymore?"

……

I smiled, "How do you know? I just don't want to live."

The man driving couldn't be more angry, "Finding faults, aren't you?" He opened the door and was about to come up and beat me up, but the woman in the co-pilot hurriedly stopped him.

"I really don't want to live anymore, please, please do me a favor." I said.

"Sick!" The man scolded me, then turned his head and passed me.The surrounding cars followed him and passed me, and the cars on both sides continued to flow.

It turned out that I myself was an isolated island.

I walked on, aimlessly, and let the horse go.

I have lived in this city for almost five years, but I found that I have never been to some streets, and I have never seen some scenery.

Later, the road became more and more unfamiliar, and there were fewer and fewer people and cars.I was also a little tired. In front of me was a park I had never been to before. There were many stalls selling barbecue at the entrance. In front of the stalls were standing in twos and threes with couples who had returned from the night.

I have a sudden urge to drink.

I walked over, "Boss, have a beer."

The boss looked up at me, "Do you want skewers? This is the most authentic coastal seafood, I just caught it."

"No, I'm not a foreigner, so don't trick me." I smiled.

The boss also laughed, I paid the money, and took the jug of beer into the park. The park was quiet and scary, and there was no sound of people around, only the screeching of cicadas and the sound of water splashing slightly. .

I found a gazebo to sit down, then opened the bottle with my teeth, and poured wine into my mouth.

I seem to have read a book before, which said that the three greatest inventions of mankind, one is music, one is wine, and the other is alcohol.

I didn't understand it when I was young, but now I really understand it. Putting the other two aside, wine is indeed a great invention.

Human pain comes from the nervous system, and wine just paralyzes your nerves, which can achieve the effect of quick pain relief. This is not only the external pain, but also the inner pain.

I sat there, drinking happily, heartily.

As I drank and drank, the tears flowed down uncontrollably. I have never seen myself cry so violently. The tears flowed down my cheeks like the water breaking the embankment. In the end, I couldn’t even tell the difference. The liquid that goes into the mouth is wine or tears.

This woman subverted my cognition of the world, of reality, of emotion.

I really can't tell what is real and what is fake.I used to think that she was worthy of love, that she loved me as much as I loved her.

But what about the facts?Facts have proved that all this is nothing but an illusion, nothing more than a mirage.

The woman who kept saying that she didn't care about money was finally captured by money.

I don't understand, my IQ is not low, and I claim to be smart, but why I can't see people and things like Kim Dae-jung and his ilk, why can they see a person so thoroughly, even at a glance See that she loves money?

Then what am I?What is all that I have done?Could it be that those painstaking efforts are not as good as the string of cold numbers in the bank card?Can those numbers be used to greet her?Can you block the stabbing knife for her?Or is it okay to stand in the street and be beaten for her?

I have never been so kind to a single person in my life, and I have never paid so much attention to the parents who gave birth to me and raised me, but why did I get such a result?Who said that hard work always pays off?

I dare not think, the human heart is really the scariest thing.

While filling myself with wine, I felt sad and throbbing from it.

At this time, the phone rang suddenly, and I was suddenly very excited.

After taking out the mobile phone, I found that it was Guo Xiaoting calling.

This made me feel very stupid, because I found myself expecting that the call was from Liu Ruyue just for a moment.

fuck you!

I answered the phone.

Guo Xiaoting asked over there, "Where are you?"

"Outside, what's the matter?" I said.

"Which outside?" she continued.

"Why are you asking?" I said, "Is there something wrong?"

"What's the matter with you?" she asked.

I was taken aback, how did she know?

"What's wrong?" I pretended to be confused.

"Can you stop acting," she said, "She just called me."

"Who?"

"Who else? That young woman in your family." Guo Xiaoting said.

"Why is she calling you?" I said.

"What can I do, let me look for you, accompany you, and say that I am worried that something will happen to you, what happened to you two?" Guo Xiaoting asked.

"It's nothing, it's fine." I said, "Don't worry about it."

"I'm too lazy to worry about it. She will ask me at that moment, how can I tell her?" she said.

"Just tell her, don't be so hypocritical, it doesn't matter anymore, whether I live or die has nothing to do with her." I said.

"Hey, what's the matter? Did you quarrel?" She laughed. "Aren't you guys always pretty sweet? What's the matter? Break up?"

"It's always been sweet?" I sneered, "That's because I've always been a fool!"

She was taken aback, "It's serious to say that? I thought you were just bickering. What's wrong? Are you okay?"

"It's okay, don't worry, I'm not that stupid, let's not talk about it, I'll hang up." I said.

"Wait a minute, where are you? I'll go there now." Guo Xiaoting said.

"No, I want to be alone." I said.

"I……"

Before she finished speaking, I hung up the phone, and she continued to call, and I hung up.

After a while, she sent a text message: It's no big deal, anyone can live well without anyone in this world, don't worry me.

My heart warmed up.

(End of this chapter)