me and a divorced housewife

Chapter 445 Crying
I always feel that she seems to have asked me this question before, but it seems to be Yang Yang, so I can't remember.

It doesn't matter, the answer is the same anyway, I have to let her give up completely.

"No." I said.

After hearing this, the disappointment on her face was obvious.

"Why?" Unexpectedly, she still asked to the end.

But I don't want to answer this question any more, because the more I say, the easier it is to expose flaws.In fact, for this question, the answer in my heart is not so firm.

"No reason." I said.

Her eyes were red, "I thought you would at least lie to me."

In fact, I can say maybe, at least she can feel better in her heart, but for the sake of long-term consideration, it is better to be cruel.

She sighed for a long time and said, "I know, in fact, from the very beginning, you disliked me, disliked me for working for a rich man, and disliked me for being too proactive. The root of all mistakes is that I Shouldn't have met you at that time, in that kind of place, right?"

I didn't know what to say, so I just kept silent.

She lit another cigarette for herself, took a deep puff, and slowly spit it out again, saying, "I don't know what's wrong with me, it's like being possessed, I've never had such an urgent desire to be with someone Good man, I have convinced myself countless times that in fact you are not handsome and have little money, not my type, but I can't convince my heart, I just like you so much in my heart, I don't Knowing whether you can feel that feeling, you will constantly fantasize about the scene of you being together, happy, sweet, looking forward to your future life, and seeing you every day will be at ease, otherwise you will be restless all day , I always feel that something is missing, not a taste..."

When she said this, her voice became choked, she took a puff of cigarette, and continued, "That's why, even though I know you don't like me, I still go to your company with a faceless face and become a colleague with you. After joining the company, I also worked tirelessly to change jobs with you, I don't have too many demands, I just want to see you every day, that's all, do you understand?"

I can't answer.

"You know you didn't ask me just now, since marrying a fat man is an act, why did you say that on stage? I can answer you now, it's because that kind of wedding is the wedding with you in my countless fantasies , That was the wedding in my dream! In the dream, we were like that, I was wearing a wedding dress and holding your arm, you smiled at me, my life revived, the whole stage was covered with snowflakes, we were so graceful In a pleasant situation, accepting the blessings of relatives and friends, so you don't know how much pain I feel in my heart when I stand there, I really can't control my emotions, that's why I said those words... "Guo Xiaoting endured and endured, tears still fell.

I nodded and murmured, "I understand."

"You don't understand! You don't understand at all!" Guo Xiaoting cried emotionally, "You don't understand how painful it is to love someone deeply unilaterally, and you don't understand how painful it is to live in a fantasy You don’t understand, the person you love pretends to be someone else in his heart, you see his heart being affected by others, but he never pays attention to you, the key is you have to pretend to be indifferent to them Do you know what it feels like to make a plan? That is the feeling of locking yourself in a dark prison!"

"Xiaoting, stop talking." I said.

I felt a shock in my heart. Before, I only knew that Guo Xiaoting liked me, but I never thought that she loved me so deeply, which was far beyond my imagination.

Let me have a deep sense of guilt, even though I know I don't need to bear this kind of guilt.

"Let me finish, these words have been held in my heart for a long time." Guo Xiaoting said, wiping away her tears. "I know you love her deeply, there is no possibility between us, and I don't want to be so painful, so I want to divert my attention, I try to be nice to that surnamed Guo, to ease my pain, but I find that it is not at all Maybe, I can't do it, I can't do it at all. In fact, the reason why I was in pain after we separated from him was that you thought I had feelings for him, and you asked me why I had such deep feelings for him in such a short time. I also persuaded me to let go of my feelings, but in fact only I know, I am just disappointed in myself, panicked in myself, I find that no matter what I do, I can’t forget you, and I can’t let you go, what should I do? You don’t know, Every time you and Liu Ruyue have conflicts, I see you torture yourself so painfully, how tangled and contradictory I feel in my heart, on the one hand, I am happy and joyful from the bottom of my heart, I always feel that if you break up, Then I will have a chance. Maybe my fantasies will no longer be fantasies and will become real. But on the other hand, I love you very much. You torture yourself so hard, I don’t want to see you like this , so I hope you can reconcile, then you won't suffer so much..."

I was indeed shocked, but also moved, and tears fell down.

I never thought that I had such a deep root in her heart.

I watched her throbbing and crying, heartbroken, I really wanted to comfort her, but I didn't know what to say.

I walked over and patted her gently. She suddenly threw herself into my arms unexpectedly, hugged me and cried bitterly. She kept saying, "What do you think I should do? What can I do?" manage?"

I felt her body trembling slightly, and tears welled up, which quickly wet my shirt.In such a situation, I know that I can't push her away, so let her lean on for a while.

"It will get better." I comforted her softly, "It will always get better. You are so good. There are many men who are better than me. You will definitely meet them."

"I don't want it, and I don't want anyone..." she cried.

At this moment, I suddenly caught a glimpse of a figure out of the corner of my eye. I couldn't help being taken aback, and quickly pushed Guo Xiaoting away.

Because I saw the fat man standing at the door of the bedroom.

He looked at me, then at Guo Xiaoting, and then walked towards us.

I was a little confused for a while, Guo Xiaoting was too involved in talking just now, and even forgot the fat man sleeping in the bedroom. I don’t know when he woke up, but judging by his appearance, I think he should have heard everything .

(End of this chapter)