cut love silk

Chapter 101 (3)
Chapter 78 Chapter 72 (3)
"It's really delicious, try it? You'll get warm after eating it. Look at your face, it's flushed red from the cold." Ji Li stretched out a hand, wanting to touch the boy's face.

The boy dodged in disgust, stood up and walked into the hall.

Ji Li panicked and stood up, his foot slipped on the snow and fell to the ground with a plop. The boy turned his head and saw that she was about to cry, with an adult-like helplessness on her face. He turned around and helped her up.

Ji Li patted the snow on his body and smiled at him, showing a small pear dimple on the left side of his face.The boy glanced lightly and left.

The seventh year of Long'an, the winter solstice.

Ji Li came out from Feng Zongying's place and shouted with a smile: "Grandpa Feng, I'll be back soon, I can only enter the palace once a year, I'll play for a while, a little while!"

As he spoke, the man flashed out of the hospital, his little feet creaking in the snow, Ji Li looked back at his footprints from time to time, ran forward happily, looking back while running, suddenly felt a pain all over his body, bumped into He was lying down in the snow, and when he saw the person opposite who was also lying in the snow, he raised his half-shrunken mouth, and ran over to help him up, but he ignored him.

"I met you again, you play with me."

"Hey, what are you walking so fast for? Let's go play and build a snowman?"

"Hey, wait for me, my brother is always forced by my father to study homework, and no one plays with me, just this day, don't be so stingy..."

"Hi, my name is Ji Li, you can call me Li Er, what should I call you?"

The eighth year of Long'an, the winter solstice.

Ji Li nestled in his mother's arms, and asked carefully: "Mother, didn't you enter the palace every winter solstice before? Aren't you going this year?"

"Yesterday you made trouble, your father said he won't take you today." Mrs. Ji nodded Ji Li's nose and teased.

Ji Li's eyes were filled with tears instantly, he shrugged his nose, and said pitifully: "Mother, Li'er will stop making trouble in the future, stop making trouble..."

It was snowing all over the sky, Ji Li was wearing a big red shawl, hugged by Feng Zongying, twisted his body, and said softly: "Grandpa Feng, I will go by myself." As soon as he got off the ground, he started running by himself, Feng Zongying called out carefully from behind: "Girl , be careful, I have to come back in an hour!"

Ji Li ran all over the garden, sat on the promenade panting, angrily broke a dead branch, threw it on the snow, but was picked up again, stared at it dissatisfied, his angry little face just now smiled, "So you are here."

The boy came over, sat down beside her, glanced at her, and said calmly: "You look good in red."

"Really? After that, I'll show you the clothes every year when I enter the palace?" Ji Li blushed with excitement.

The boy nodded with a slight smile.

The ninth year of Long'an, the winter solstice.

"Look, let's see, isn't it pretty? My mother-in-law specially made me a red padded jacket." Ji Li turned around in the snow, bouncing around.

The boy looked at her with a smile, "You are going to fall again."

As soon as the words were finished, Ji Li sprained his feet and sat down on the snow, looking at him aggrievedly, "Damn it, Crow's mouth!"

The boy pulled her up and patted the snow off her body, "Aren't you going back?"

"It doesn't matter, I sneaked out, they will wait for me, you also sneaked out, right?" Ji Li said with twinkling eyes

"Sneaking away" is extremely exciting.

The boy thought for a while and nodded.

Ji Li looked at the sky and pulled the boy's arm, "They must come to pick me up. They dislike me for making trouble at the banquet and never let me participate. Tell me what your name is, or it will be next year. Tell me." Come on, I'm not going to tell anyone you've been sneaking around, really!"

The boy chuckled and said, "I am..."

"Yan'er." With a majestic call, Ji Li hastily lowered the boy's arm.

The man in the bright yellow robe came over, picked up the boy, and said softly, "Yan'er, the dinner party is about to begin."

Ji Li hurriedly knelt down, but before he could salute, the man carried the boy and left.She raised her head and pulled her eyelids, stuck out her tongue at the boy and made a face.

"Mother, which prince in the palace has words in his name?"

"In the palace? Li'er, who do you want to ask?"

"I know." Seven-year-old Ji Quwen stood up and said proudly, "Third Prince."

"Then what's his name?" Ji Li asked excitedly.

"Yun Jinyan." Ji Quwen replied naturally.

Ji Li turned his head and asked Mrs. Ji: "Mother, is that so?"

Mrs. Ji glanced at Ji Quwen reproachfully, and said to Ji Li: "Prince's name is taboo, don't call it casually, does Li'er understand?"

Ji Li's eyes sparkled, and he nodded suddenly, "Oh, so his name is Yun Jinyan."

Ten years in Long'an, winter.

Ji Li was wearing a bright red satin padded jacket, with two braids tied together, the red headband fluttering in the wind, laughing and running in the vast snow, suddenly heard soft weeping, looked around, at the bottom of the green pine tree See the boy in the yellow shawl.

"Hey, what's wrong with you? Someone bullied you?" Ji Li walked up to the boy cautiously, with a powdery smile on his face. He smiled softly, "Don't be shy, I love to cry too." After finishing speaking, she got under the tree, sat down next to the boy, took out something from her arms, stretched her arms around the boy's eyes and said, "Here, Let me give you sugar, eat sugar, all bitterness becomes sweet, and if you eat sugar in winter, you will not be cold."

"Nonsense!" The boy finally wiped his eyes with his sleeve, turned around, glared at Ji Li, looked at the colorful pile of things in her hand, and said disdainfully, "Teacher said, suffering is suffering, Fang Be a master. What's the use of eating sugar!"

"Haha, you are so funny. Those old men's words are all used to bluff people. Look at Grandpa Feng. He won't let me eat candy. He ate happily behind Grandma Feng's back. Last time I caught him Right now, haha, later on he never talked to me about suffering or not." While speaking, Ji Li raised his eyebrows, and the happiness in his black eyes was about to overflow.

The boy was puzzled, "Grandpa Feng?"

"That's right, it's Grandpa Feng from the Taiyuan Hospital. Today I'm here to play with him. Oh, no, it's calligraphy! I practice calligraphy with Grandpa Feng." Ji Li moved his eyes, covered his mouth and smiled slyly.

"Are you Ji Li, the daughter of Prime Minister Ji?" The boy frowned and asked seriously.

"Yeah, even you know me?" Ji Li asked with a smile, before waiting for the boy to answer, he said again, "What's your name? I'll practice your name today!"

"Me? Yun Jinyan."

The boy's voice lacked confidence, and was blown to pieces by the cold wind. Ji Li raised his crooked eyebrows and asked, "Ah? Jin Yan? Oh, Jin Yan, are these two words?" She said, picking up a bag. With a dead branch, he said casually while carefully drawing strokes on the snow, "Jin...yan..."

"Hey, Yun Jinyan, are you the Third Prince?" Ji Li asked while holding a tree branch.

"Yeah." The boy nodded slightly.

"Really?" Ji Li's eyes lit up, he dropped the branch and grabbed the boy's sleeve, excitedly said, "You don't remember me? We used to play together when we entered the palace every year, but you seem to be taller than me Oh, and your appearance is not the same as before, I didn't recognize you just now! I will have more chances to enter the palace in the future, come to play with you often, okay?"

Ji Liyan smiled at Yanyan, like a fiery red lotus in winter, warming his heart, the boy completely forgot the grievance and sadness just now, and nodded heavily.

When my concubine died, I was seven years old.

I thought I wouldn't be sad, but I cried anyway, and the cold tears hung on my face, wet and sticky and nasty, and I wiped them off with my sleeve.

The concubine mother is one of the four concubines, but she is not favored. She is always crying, and her eyes are full of resentment when she looks at me. I know she blames me for not being able to please my father. She always says, I don’t care about anything. Not winning for her is simply a burden.

There may be some truth in what she said. When I was young, I would occasionally go out to play in the palace, and would be bullied by the two emperor brothers, covered in mud and water, or come back with injuries. At first, the mother and concubine would hug me and cry together, and then she began to Scold, because I can't always attract the attention of my father.

I remember one winter day, when it snowed heavily, I was playing with ice cubes in the pool in the backyard. The ice cubes became loose, and I fell down. I fell seriously ill, and my father came to see me.

Since then, I have often been sick.

In winter, my bedroom usually does not have a heater, and the quilt is also thin, and I am [-]% full after eating; in summer, my concubine will eat some strange things for me, and I will start to get sick after eating.At that time I occasionally complained that I was useless and that my illness caused a lot of trouble.

The number of illnesses increased, and my father rarely came over. My illness became more and more serious, and I often cried because of the pain.

I remember one time, my concubine forgot to feed me medicine, I went to her in a daze, and when I was about to enter the door, I heard Eunuch Hao crying. He was begging my concubine, saying that if I didn’t reduce the dose, I would die.

Eunuch Hao is the eunuch next to my concubine, he is very kind, and he is the one who takes care of me most of the time.

I watched him cry for his concubine mother and smiled.

Since then, I have never eaten anything from my concubine, nor have I taken the initiative to go to her place. I ate with Eunuch Hao, and occasionally got under his quilt. I asked him why my concubine treated me like this.He patted my head and put me to sleep, saying why not so much in the palace.

After my mother's concubine died, I was pushed around by several concubines, but no one wanted me.I went to find my father, who was in a bad mood that day, gave me a cold look, and said, a child of the royal family must rely on himself.

I hid under the green pine tree and cried. I thought that my father loved children very much, like the son of Prince Pingxi. A child from an ordinary family should not have the same name as the prince. My father personally gave him the word "yan". When he entered the palace, he held her in his arms and refused to let go.I thought he refused to hug me because I was sick, but it wasn't.

I have always known that there is a Biluo Palace in the palace, where my father often goes, more frequently than any concubine's palace in the palace, I didn't understand it before, but then I knew, my father loves Princess Pingxi, so he also Prince Ai Pingxi, I am just the most inconspicuous of his dispensable princes.

I silently told myself that I would never cry again in the future.Before the tears were wiped away, a string of crisp laughter rang out in the snow. I looked up and saw a girl in red running in the snow. She came to me, with a red face and big watery eyes, and asked me why I would Cry, hand me candy, ask my name.

Her smile is very clean, her eyes are very clear, different from others in the palace.

If the sky was cloudy when I was seven years old, then she was a ray of sunshine that broke through the dark clouds, making me dazed in an instant, forgetting the grievances in my heart, and the indifference of my mother and concubine's dead father, the emperor, she said I should be very happy to come to see me often in the future, if I ignore her previous sentence.

Many years later, I know that people's choice is only between one thought, one thought becomes a Buddha, and one thought becomes a demon.

She said that she played with me every year in the palace, but I never stayed with my peers in the palace.

You got the wrong person. —I almost blurted it out.But she said next, that she would often come to play with me.Just for a moment, I didn't deny it, but nodded in agreement.

I am still the third prince who is not favored, and I am still often bullied by the two princes, and even some slaves who are favored by the master dare to throw a little temper at me. Ridiculous, the so-called right and wrong are actually only in the hands of one person, life or death is controlled by one person.

Brother Dahuang often said that when he becomes emperor, he will depose me and play me like a monkey.The second brother always just glanced at me coldly, and kicked me indistinctly when he walked past me.I know that if I'm just the unfavored third prince forever, the day waiting for me will be a hundred times worse than it is now.

Regarding the throne, some people in the court support the eldest son, some support the second brother, but no one pays attention to me.

I enumerated the list of all the court officials, and only found the emperor's uncle who went to the northeast frontier. Perhaps there was a slight hope that only he would help me.

One winter day, while he was returning to the palace for the new year, I found him and knelt down to him. I said that I didn't want to die, I didn't want to live a worthless life, and I didn't want to be inferior forever.I lowered my head and couldn't see his expression, but he agreed.He said he didn't understand anything, but he would try his best.

If there is anyone in the palace who is kind to me, it is Grandpa Feng.

Li'er said that she was able to enter the palace all the time thanks to Grandpa Feng, and she and I occasionally went to the imperial hospital, Grandpa Feng and Li'er played around, but he cared for me like a grandparent.If Li Er gave me the feeling of being bright, Grandpa Feng is warm, it was a feeling I had never had before with my mother, concubine and father, in my past life.At that time, I didn't know too much, I just wanted to guard them, and I just wanted to one day, I don't need to meet with them secretly, and I don't need to be separated again.

I don't know who said that once I tell a lie, I need to use ten lies to cover it up, but my lie seems to be endless.

I asked Li'er why she was wearing a red dress, she blinked and asked me, didn't you say I look good in a red dress?Don't you like it now?
I shook my head and said I liked it.

She told me what she remembered, and I agreed perfunctorily. From her mouth, I knew that the person she was talking about was actually Prince Pingxi's son, Xie Yanmo.

I checked secretly. In the past, King Pingxi brought his son into the palace every winter solstice. It happened that there was a big banquet in the palace, and Li'er would also enter the palace at that time. Wang felt that his father was too special to him, and his father began to be wary of King Pingxi. He felt uneasy, so he no longer brought Xie Yanmo into the palace.

Since then, I have never dared to mention King Pingxi and Southwest in front of Li Er, deliberately avoiding the topic of her recalling the past.If there is anything I fear, it is that Li Er discovers everything.

Once people make mistakes, they cannot forgive.I have always thought so, I think, if Li'er knew that the "you" in her mouth was Xie Yanmo, and I lied to her again and again, she would not forgive me, and my sky would be clouded again.Besides, Li'er is the daughter of Prime Minister Zuo.

The left minister, Ji Ning, holds great power. If I can marry Li Er and get the support of Ji Xiang, I will be able to compete with the two imperial brothers.

I guarded the lie anxiously, and went out of the palace to play with Li'er from time to time. The people in the palace had long given up any hope for me, the third prince.I am happy to see the two imperial brothers fighting to the death, and the royal father turns a blind eye.I remember I asked Uncle Huang why, and Uncle Huang sighed and said that there are chess pieces everywhere in this palace, people, things, and emotions can be used as chess pieces.

Maybe I understand this in my bones. I am a pawn of my mother and concubine. The pitiful love my father and son have for me is my capital as a pawn. If I am useless, I will be abandoned.Even my mother would treat me like this, I can't imagine why other people in this world treat me sincerely?Rather than being reduced to a pawn, I would rather be a chess player and control everything with my own hands.

There are only three truly good people in this world, Li'er, Grandpa Feng, and Eunuch Hao, and they are also the three people I want to believe and try to believe in.

(End of this chapter)