cut love silk

Chapter 103 (5)
Chapter 78 Chapter 72 (5)
For years I've relied on this frothy hope to bring light to my dark world, and when the truth was about to be revealed, I was a little hysterical.If he refused to go in person, as long as he didn't see it with his own eyes, he could tell himself that the Imperial Forest Army was negligent.Just like when I didn't see Li'er's death with my own eyes, I said to myself, in fact, she wasn't dead yet.

The assassin sent to test Shen Mo came back and reported that Shen Mo was seriously injured and no one came to rescue him. I have some doubts. Could it be that I mistaken his identity?

During the palace draft, I saw Su Bai, and I couldn't help but make her a noble concubine on the spot. I like to see her smile at me. With that smile, I see Li Er who is smiling brightly at me under the spring sun.

I found myself sinking more and more.Ever since I was poisoned by Su Ronghua, the memories I forced myself to forget in the past six years have slowly eroded my body. Even when I was with Li Zihe, I seemed to smell Li Er. I said to myself, it was because I knew she was from the Ji family. Subconsciously looking for her aura similar to Li'er.

Now there is Su Bai, and I know very well that she is not Li Er, from top to bottom, from inside to outside, only the pear dimple on the left cheek is half similar, but as long as she is drunk, her shadow and Li Er's shadow will overlap, I can really hug Li'er and tell her the words that have been lingering in my heart every night for the past six years.

But Yao'er refused to let me do what I wanted, she yelled in my ear again and again, Li'er died.

I couldn't take it anymore that night, so I went to the cold palace in person. I had to burst the bubble with my own hands and bring myself back to reality.I saw that in the attic of Zhuhun Pavilion, the coffin was parked, the coffin was placed, and the coffin was carefully opened. There were ashes and the clothes used by Li Er before.

The foam shattered and dissipated, and my heart sank. I couldn't breathe as if I was tightly covered, and I slammed the coffin shut. I thought, I should wake up.

After a long time, when I thought of that night, I suddenly realized that maybe I had a chance. I just needed to push the coffin forward, and some things might turn around.But I didn't, I made a mistake once, and I made a mistake again. In my whole life, I made a fatal mistake when I reminded myself not to make a mistake, so there is no redemption.

When the Yulin army trapped the Lenggong, someone trespassed in the Lenggong. After being chased for a long time, he escaped. The people who secretly monitored the Tai Hospital reported that it was Shen Mo and Li Zihe.There is almost no need to guess Shen Mo's identity, and his hidden power in the palace has also been exposed because of the cold palace.I ordered Li Zihe to be killed, to draw out his eyeliner, and at the same time let him taste the feeling of losing a loved one.

All along, I think he doesn't love Li'er, he proposed marriage just because of some liking when he was young, his liking is not as good as what I have for Li'er!But because of his liking, I couldn't sleep or eat, and I reluctantly parted with him.I have always hated him, loved by my parents, spoiled by my father, and cared by Li'er, but he acted like he didn't care about anything. He was born with what others wanted extravagantly, and others worked hard to get it , He can take it away with a single word, so this time I will take it away too, take away the woman he loves.

Mu Pianwu said that they were going to leave the palace with Yao Er, him, and the important things in the cold palace, so I decided to follow suit.

Li Zihe is very calm, I deliberately provoke the relationship between her and Shen Mo, but she laughed at me instead.She is only 15 years old, but she is uncommonly calm. I made her a concubine just to stimulate Shen Mo.

But when I was with her, a strange feeling gradually spread all over my body. I couldn't restrain myself and went to her Temple of Morning Dew when I had free time. I felt extremely peaceful in her place. Perhaps, she was my unexpected surprise when I dealt with Shen Mo. reward.

A woman likes a gentle man who pampers her in everything. As long as I pamper her, one day she will be willing to be the woman in my harem.

I like the feeling of being alone with her, and I also like the feeling of holding her. I can't find the reason. I ask myself, is it because she is Ji's family?
Shen Mo was seriously ill, I thought he would try to snatch Li Zihe back, but he didn't, and Xie Qianlian came to bid farewell, I hosted a banquet for him, he left halfway, I sent someone to follow, and he went to Chenxiang Hall.

He said he had something to report and let Xie Qianlian go first.

In the Hall of Qinzheng, he said that he asked Yao Er a word, asking why Ji Li liked red clothes, and Yao Er said that it was because someone said she looked good in red clothes.He looked up at me, with no waves in his eyes, cold sparkles, flickering, and he said, "That person is not you, is it?"

I think my face is ugly, but my secrets over the years have been exposed, I can't hide it, I smiled contemptuously, "That's right, it's not me, I approached Ji Li with your name on it, so what?"

Shen Mo was not as angry as I imagined, he just smiled in relief, bowed slightly and retreated, before leaving, he said: "So I was right."

It suddenly occurred to me that he proposed marriage because he thought Li Er's red dress was for him, but Li Er's refusal to marry him puzzled him.I only asked this question today, and I unintentionally solved the knot in his heart for many years.

The memorial to Qinzheng Hall was thrown all over the floor, why did I never seem to win against him?

The more I cared about Li Zihe, I wanted to keep her by my side, and I followed her wishes in everything, but she still wanted to escape and poison me without a trace.I to

To be clear, a person's greatest weakness is what she cares about, so her greatest weakness is Yao Er.

I poison Yao'er, as long as Yao'er is in my hands, I can keep her.But I didn't expect that Shen Mo, who had already bid farewell, turned back halfway, and everything seemed to be under my control, but suddenly my fingers slipped out.I don't know when they got in touch, or where they got the poison from.Suddenly wondering, what they planned to take away from the cold palace was really just Li Er's ashes?

That night, when the cold wind was blowing, Li Zihe cried and begged me to give me the antidote, but I refused, and she wanted to run away after the antidote was given, Yao Er rushed straight at me, I thought she wanted to hurt me, so she slapped me , but saw a long arrow on her back.

Li Zihe hugged Yao Er tightly as if he had lost his soul. I couldn't hear what Yao Er said to her, but the way she looked at me at the end made me feel uneasy. What did I miss?
Li Zihe got up suddenly, looked at me and chuckled, her eyes were too dark to see a gleam of light, she called me Jin Yan.

It was as if lightning flashed across my mind, and I could hardly think. Looking at the cold arrow pointing at her, I was afraid that I would snatch her away, and shouted loudly not to do anything, but she snatched the longbow. Before I could react, I watched helplessly. See her being kidnapped.Not far away, she stood on the city wall, with a bow in her right hand and an arrow in her left hand, shooting through the last line of defense in my heart.

When she stood in front of me, I realized that love had already penetrated deep into the bone marrow.

I escape into memory again, or hide in memory, no matter how painful the injury is, as long as I don't remember that Li'er personally cut off the relationship between me and her, I would rather hide for the rest of my life.

I couldn't hear, couldn't see, couldn't feel, until a familiar figure blurred in front of my eyes, and I suddenly woke up. That person was Eunuch Hao.

Eunuch Hao knelt in front of me and wept bitterly.When I decided to get rid of Ji's family, he persuaded me, and I only said that he should understand me better than others.He knows how hard it is for me to survive in the palace, knows how much I have suffered, knows that I have lied to Li Er, and also knows what I am most afraid of.

At that time he retreated silently, without any dissuasion, but now he suddenly appeared in front of me, with tears streaming down his face, I asked him, what is in the cold palace?
He shook his head and refused to answer, I smiled and said, "I have long been abandoned by the world, and I don't care if there is one more you."

Eunuch Hao kowtowed desperately, I spit out a mouthful of blood, he gave me the answer, it was hope or despair.It's hope, because it's Li'er and I's child, after all, I still have a little bond with her; it's despair, because I let him live in the coffin for six years, sick and weak, unable to speak.

My son, I want others to protect me, because I want to guard against me.

The wind that night felt very cold to my bones.

I dreamed again, dreaming that Li'er came back, I made love with her desperately, told her that I love her, and told her not to leave.The ruptured wound felt no pain, this time it was wrong again, that person was Su Bai.From the moment I decided to abandon Li Er, I often made mistakes, the first time was Yao Er, and the second time was Su Bai.

As a result of the investigation, I was poisoned.The poison was given to Su Bai by Li Zihe.I have the antidote elixir, but I didn't take it, since Li'er wants me to be poisoned, then let me be poisoned, as long as it can reduce the resentment in her heart, anything is fine.

Send troops to catch up with Xie Qianlian, snatch Yiyi back, follow Xie Qianlian to find Shen Mo, I use Yiyi to threaten Lier to come back.

Yi Yi is very similar to Li Er, with a dimple on the left side of his face when he smiles, he loves to laugh, always stays quietly, and talks to people by pointing his fingers.When he saw me for the first time, he smiled at me, and when I picked him up, he gestured to me and asked me, where is Aunt Yao?

I froze, not knowing how to answer.He looked at me with clean eyes, and gradually, the smile disappeared.

I gave him an antidote elixir, and the imperial doctor said that he would be able to speak aloud within a month or as long as half a year.I smiled and patted his head. He looked at me with a little alienation in his eyes, and asked me with gestures, where is Uncle Shen?
I knew that my face darkened in an instant, and I walked away with my hands behind my back for fear of scaring him.

Yi Yi was very smart, I placed him in Chenxiang Hall, and after a short stay he asked me, did Aunt Yao live here?I asked him how he knew, he gestured hesitantly and said that the place smelled like Aunt Yao, and then he nestled down on the couch and fell asleep.

On the night I went to pick up Li'er, Shen Moye broke into the palace and robbed Yi Yi.

When he came back, there was blood everywhere in the palace, and he couldn't tell whether it belonged to the Imperial Forest Army or his.I sent people to chase after him, but they didn't catch up.

After guarding by Li'er's couch for a whole day and night, I couldn't bear it anymore and fell into a deep sleep.In the dream, I told myself that no matter how much she hates me, no matter whether she loves me or not, I will keep her by my side and never separate.I can't tolerate her being with Shen Mo, and I can't bear to live without her anymore. The world is in my hands, and I will never abandon her for any reason.

I put away all the things that might make drugs, hid sharp weapons, and sent away those who might be used by her. I would rather lock her by my side and use my life to make up for it.

She is gradually docile, she can play the piano for me, she can lean on my chest, she said, go pick up one by one with me.I put aside the uneasiness in my heart and felt that happiness with all my heart. Those were the happiest days of my life. In front of Li Er, she would not regard me as Shen Mo, but Yun Jinyan.

I would like to make this kind of day longer, longer, but it is coming to an end after all.

I saw the hairpin in her hair slowly turning black, and the word "Li" was engraved on the hairpin in Shen Mo's handwriting.The texture of the hairpin is also very special. I sent someone to check it. It is an extremely precious wood in the southwest. It only grows one section in a hundred years. It is almost invulnerable to all poisons.

But Li'er's hairpin has turned into pure black, with a heavy poisonous smell.

She asked me to drink detoxified blood, and I drank it; she asked me if the guards were still there, and I left; she stabbed me with a soft sword, and I was powerless and unwilling to resist.As long as she is by my side, as long as she doesn't hate me anymore, I can make up for him in anything.But she pointed the tip of the sword at my heart, and I knew that when the sword passed through, I would never see her again.

The question that has been hidden in my heart for more than ten years is finally asked. I want to know if she loves me, because of me, or because of the six years that I have not participated in.

She didn't answer directly, she said Li Er's life was a joke, so why not my life?
She left, I followed, and I said I would never let her go again.

In Beixuanmen, her eyes were calm, she couldn't find waves, she couldn't see love and hate clearly, she held the phoenix seal, raised it high, and fell down hard, I felt that blood-red phoenix seal was mine The heart, she once held it with both hands and slowly warmed it up, now it hit the ground, fragmented.

At that moment, I understood that Li Er was really dead.

My Li'er can only smile at me; my Li'er is angry, and coaxes me to get better; my Li'er is most afraid of my pain, which is more uncomfortable than her own pain; my Li'er carefully protects the phoenix seal, Keep my promise to her.

She was right, my Li'er was killed by me long ago.

I heard the screams of many people, terrified and surprised, but not worried or sad.I thought I was abandoned by the world long ago, and I would inadvertently kill the few people who cared about me. Today, I have really become a loner as my father said.

It turned out that I never knew what love was or how to love.

During that big change, I was in a coma for three months. After waking up, my body completely collapsed, and I stayed in bed all year round.

I sent someone to check Li Zihe's whereabouts, and someone reported that she was taken away by Shen Mo.

Shen Mo was already seriously injured when he broke into the palace. Someone estimated that he was seriously injured twice and seriously ill once. Even if his internal strength is amazing, and he recovers in a short period of time, he will definitely collapse after a long time.

Eunuch Wei said that on the third day of my coma, King Pingxi sent the last antidote elixir and the seal of King Pingxi, along with a letter.

I read the letter. There are eight words: one is surnamed Ji, and the other is not bad.

I caressed Li'er's handwriting, my heart felt as if a knife was twisted, but I smiled softly, the blood I spat out stained the words in black, and I wiped them off again and again.

She would rather be poisoned by herself than to put aside Yiyi's relationship with me.

I asked Uncle Huang to check their whereabouts. Uncle Huang went there for half a month, and when he came back, he said that at the border of Fengguo, someone once saw a child who looked exactly like Yiyi, traveling with a blind woman, but only once, and never saw it again.

"What about Shen Mo?"

At that time, spring was in full bloom, and it was already the second year since Li Zihe left. I sat at the desk of Qinzheng Palace, looked at the newly repaired Hongluan Palace not far away, and casually looked at Uncle Huang.

Uncle Huang frowned slightly and shook his head, "I don't know, I can't find it."

I suppressed my cough and read the hidden thread to report.After Xie Qianlian handed over the Pingxi king's seal, he took dozens of cronies and hid in the mountains in the southwest. It is said that he collected all kinds of rare medicinal herbs, but there was nowhere to find them. However, a few months later, a group of people were waiting on the way to Fengguo disappear.

I shook my head and smiled wryly.In fact, the life and death of the two of them has never been related to me.

I will still light the red lanterns on the winter solstice, watch the peach blossoms bloom in the spring, lean under the big trees in the North Lake in the summer, and crunch on the withered and yellow leaves of the back mountain in the autumn, feeling the pain of emptiness in my heart, looking for Not to rely on.

I don’t remember which year I was seriously ill, but that day should be the winter solstice. I remember lighting up the lanterns in the mountains and calling Li’er back with a smile.Then I saw Yangliu Yiyi, the flowers were in full bloom, and the woman in bright red clothes smiled at me.I was happy in my heart, walked over carefully, and said slightly uneasy: "Li'er, actually... Back then, you recognized the wrong person..."

"Admit it?" Li'er frowned puzzledly, then smiled relievedly, "Haha, if you admit your mistake, then admit it, you are the one who grew up with me, you are the one who played with me, the one I fell in love with... ...and you too..."

"Really? You don't blame me for lying to you?" I breathed a sigh of relief, but I was still a little nervous.

"It's not strange." Li'er waved his hands, walked two steps with a smile, stopped again, stretched out a hand, and said sweetly, "Come with me, I've been waiting for you for a long time."

I felt relaxed and comfortable like never before, nodded heavily, and walked forward holding her hand, and then, I saw the river of forgetfulness flowing silently at the bottom of the Naihe Bridge.

(End of this chapter)