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Chapter 61
Chapter 54
Aunt Yao said, I am the only one for many people, so call me one by one.

Eunuch Hao always said that my world is very small. At this time, I will look at the place where I have stayed since I can remember. In fact, it is a big box with a small box inside. I.

No, not only me, but also that porcelain jar.Eunuch Hao said, that is my mother.

What is mother?I don't know, but with it and me, even in winter, when it's very cold, I don't feel particularly cold.

I know, I say it's small here, because the outside is big, and the outside of this box is big.

Mr. Hao will take me out to take a bath regularly. There is a river in the outside world. They say that the water in the river can wash the body clean.

Although every time I go out at night, I can still see some. At that time, I will agree with Mr. Hao that my world is really small.

The person who stayed with me the longest was Eunuch Hao. He didn’t know where to get food for me. In winter, he would remember to add bedding and change clothes for me. I don’t know where he took them. When it is clean, he will teach me how to write, and teach me many things that I have never seen or heard, but I dare not get close to him, because he seldom says anything else to me, and even when he does, he is very respectful.

Aunt Yao and great-grandpa rarely came to see me. Sometimes they came one by one, sometimes together, and they would bring a lot of things each time. I like my great-grandpa’s candy the most. The taste, my great-grandfather said, was called sweet.

I remember that Eunuch Hao taught me that the opposite of sweet is bitter. Only then did I know that the medicine I had been drinking was bitter.

Aunt Yao and grandpa are always afraid that I will get sick. Actually, I am not afraid. I can only see them when I am sick. Aunt Yao will hold me in her arms, which is much warmer than my little box. Grandpa will tell me What happened to my mother when she was a child, so I know that my mother is not just a small jar.

I like them to come, in fact, there is another reason.

Only when they come, the window of the big box will open, and the sunlight will be very warm. Looking out of the window, I can see many colors, blue, green, red, yellow... But when the window is closed, I can only see Can see black.

I often lie in a small box alone, thinking about what Mr. Hao taught me. What he said the most is that the world is very complicated, and people will be forced to do things they don’t want to do for something they want , Give up what you already have. For example, I really want to get out of this box, so that I may leave my grandfather or Aunt Yao forever. At this time, I have to choose and give up.

I really want to tell him that as long as I can be with Aunt Yao and Grandpa, I will not go out no matter what is offered to me, but I can't speak.

When it comes to my inability to speak, Aunt Yao will cry every time, while Grandpa is very sorry. They all said, wait a little longer, it will be fine.

I don't really care if I can talk, because no one talks to me anyway, and I like to listen to others, such as Aunt Yao and Grandpa.

What they said, I don't quite understand, I can only guess, they are arguing, grandpa wants Aunt Yao to go out with me, Aunt Yao refuses, she says she doesn't want to take risks, there is no guarantee, she won't do it, Aunt Yao also said that she hated, hated everyone here, and wanted them to have no peace.

I always hold Aunt Yao’s hand and hand her a candy. I don’t know what Aunt Yao means hate, but Eunuch Hao taught me that hateful people must have pitiful qualities. He said hate is not good So I want to tell Aunt Yao, I will give you candy, you can throw away your hatred.

This kind of debate lasted for a long time, and finally one day, I remember that it was the winter solstice, and the night was very cold, but I knew that Aunt Yao and grandpa would come. They said that the winter solstice is a day for family reunion. On that day, Aunt Yao Finally, I didn't object to Grandpa's words. He touched my head and said, it's time to leave.

In the next few days, they came more often. Grandpa told Aunt Yao that everything was ready, and in these two days, he said to be careful not to show any flaws.

I was very happy, but thinking of what Eunuch Hao said, I gestured with my hand and asked Aunt Yao: "Will I leave you forever?"

Aunt Yao started to cry again, she said no, she said I was her most precious one by one and would never leave me.

Aunt Yao didn't leave, it was Grandpa who left.

Faintly, I knew that I had harmed my great-grandfather, because Aunt Yao and my great-grandfather had just left that afternoon, and Eunuch Hao didn’t come back in time. I secretly and carefully opened the window. I was very cold, but the sun was warm. I thought, if I was exposed to the sun, my illness would be healed.

In the past, Eunuch Hao often taught me not to open the window casually. This was the first time I was disobedient, so I saw that man, who was prettier than Aunt Yao, but it made me feel even colder, and I quickly closed the window.

That night, I huddled in the corner, thinking about the way that man looked at me, and felt very scared.When Eunuch Hao came back, I pulled his sleeves and gestured in the air. I said that I was not good, and I was seen.

Eunuch Hao panicked for a moment, but only once, he picked me up and carried me into the small box. He said, no matter what happens, I must not come out.

I was shivering in the small box, and the quilt was very thick. Eunuch Hao said that Aunt Yao specially prepared it for me to keep me warm, but I was still shivering all the time, because a lot of people suddenly came to a place that was always quiet.

I have only met Aunt Yao, Grandpa Hao, and Eunuch Hao, as well as that cold person. I remember when I was very young, I thought there were only four people in this world plus me. Then I realized that it was just me. world.

Eunuch Hao said that I must not be seen by other people. I nodded. Eunuch Hao also said that I will stay in the small box now. I nodded. I know that disobedience will cause them to leave me forever, such as grandpa.

I don't know how long I stayed in the small box, it was so long that I felt it was difficult to breathe, and I even vaguely saw the shadow of my mother, she was just like what my grandfather said, wearing fiery red clothes, smiling at me, she said I can't Asleep, stay awake, stay awake and wait for her to pick me up.

At this time the box was opened, and Eunuch Hao stuffed me with a lot of food in a panic, secretly took me to solve my internal emergency, and left in a hurry.

I went back to the little box again, and the days went on and on. In the little box, I wrote with the lid on it, thinking about the mother my grandfather told me about, her smile at me in the dream, and Aunt Yao. Said, you can leave now.

When I was closed again until I could hardly breathe, the lid of the box was opened again, and there was a sudden burst of light that almost pierced my eyes. The lamp in the big box was actually lit.

I was still a little confused at first, but when the cold wind blew and the light came on, I immediately woke up. Then, there was a pungent smell floating on the tip of my nose. After a long time, I knew that it was the smell of wine.

I was very happy at that time, thinking that Eunuch Hao had finally come back, but I was afraid again. Eunuch Hao never lights up, so I curled up in the small box, looked up and did not dare to move.

I heard the man calling "Li'er" all the time, so I thought of my mother. My mother's name is Ji Li. It must be my mother that he was calling.

Then I saw a hand, pale but slender, trembling slightly, slowly reaching into the small box.

I think, if I could talk, I would have yelled: "Don't touch my mother!"

I was afraid that he would snatch mother away, so I almost got out of the box, but suddenly I thought of Aunt Yao's words. She always touched my heart and said that mother is here and will always be with us.Mother is in my heart, so he can't take it away.

Thinking of this, I honestly stayed inside, looking at the hand quietly, I thought he would take away my mother, but his hand only reached the mouth of the jar, without even touching my mother's name, so he stopped.

It seemed like a long time passed, and it seemed that it was just a moment, the lid of the box was closed suddenly, and there was only black in front of my eyes.

After that night, suddenly more people dispersed.I went back to the old days, but Eunuch Hao never said to leave, and Aunt Yao never came to see me again.

My illness was also getting worse, because I hardly ate anything during the few days I was locked in the box.

I finally made the only person around me who didn't cry cry too. Eunuch Hao often looked at me and shed tears when he looked at me, saying that I was a poor child.

I smiled at him, because I can't cry, I don't feel sorry for myself at all, I can't talk, I can listen to others, and I can't get out of the box. In fact, what am I doing in such a big world by myself?I am often sick, but only when I am sick can I see Aunt Yao and great-grandfather often. Now my great-grandfather is gone, but he is just like my mother, on the part of my chest, and will never leave me again.

A few days later, Minecraft finally saw the fifth person.

He stood at the window with his back to the light, so he couldn't see his face clearly, but when he hugged me, I suddenly felt at ease, and I thought, it would be great if I could be so warm forever.

Sure enough, he cried too. I always make people cry, but I only smile at them.

I handed him a piece of candy, and my great-grandfather said, sweetness will make people laugh, even though Aunt Yao holds the candy, great-grandpa holds the candy, and Eunuch Hao holds the candy, it will only make you cry harder, but I think Grandpa won't lie to me.

He wiped away his tears and actually smiled at me.

At that moment, I suddenly thought of my mother, except for the mother in the dream, he was the first person to smile at me.

He handed me a small porcelain bottle, saying that it was in exchange for sugar. I knew it contained medicine, but I thought the medicine must be sweet, because sugar is sweet, and the exchanged things should also be sweet, no? what?

He also said a lot to Eunuch Hao, which I couldn't quite understand, but I understood one sentence, and he would come back to see me.I am very happy, because he will smile at me just like my mother, and, like my mother, he has the word "Li" in his name.

Then he left and I went back into the little box, which was still warmer than outside.

After a long, long time, I knew that my mother was not dead; after a long, long time, I left my small box and saw a bigger world; after a long, long time, I nestled in my mother's arms, very similar to the feeling of sunshine shining on my body , the willow buds were just showing up, and the drizzle was falling against the wind. I jumped off my mother's lap, held her hand, turned around and smiled softly: "Mother, it's raining, I'll take you home."

(End of this chapter)