The male protagonist wants to rip off my vest today

Chapter 86 [085] It's Actually Jealousy
Lannorth once gave a piece of gold to a poor family.

Poor people feel happy, they are full of respect and gratitude to the gods.

After building the small building, they suddenly wanted more gold, so they cautiously petitioned Lannoth again.

The merciful gods still satisfied them.

After getting more gold, the family lived a very prosperous life. They put smiles on their faces every day, and they no longer looked miserable like before.

But with gold and money, they soon wanted a jewel from a neighboring village.

That gemstone is so precious that it is hard to buy it.

So they petitioned Lannoth again, "Exalted and great gods, please give me the same gems as them."

Lannoth still gave it all.

When the jewel was obtained, the daughter of the family made it into a tiara and put it on her head.

Enjoy the envious eyes of others every day, and show off everything you have.

Some people heard that they can get everything by petitioning the gods, so they went to the temple one after another, praying to the statue of Lannoth.

With more beliefs, Lannoth needs to give more things.

He gave every believer who came to pray what they wanted, but gradually, more and more people came, and the things they wanted became more and more strange.

"I want money."

"I want a house."

"I want to be in the upper class."

"I'm going to be a nobleman."

Suddenly one day, he heard the wish of one of the believers——

"I want to be king."

"No, not just a king, I want to be the master, I want to be the master of the continent!"

"Even, if I may—"

"Great god, please let me become the most honorable existence in this world just like you!"

At that moment, the strangeness that had been deliberately ignored finally gushed out from the bottom of my heart like a flood!

Lannoth, he found himself unable to do so.

The believer was not satisfied, he walked out of the temple cursing, and mocked——

"What god?! Is it so selfish when you mention your god position?"

"If you can't do it, don't promise to fulfill all your wishes from the beginning!"

"What a useless god! It can't make me happy at all!"

——It can't make me happy at all!
He can't let others get the happiness they want at all!
In the empty temple.

Only him.

All alone.

He was thinking about how to earnestly fulfill his mission as a god.

He tolerates everything, loves everything in the world, and wants everyone to be happy.

For this purpose, he can endure eternal loneliness.

Imprisoned in one world, imprisoned in this empty temple.

Just look at the happy smiles on everyone's faces.

But one day, someone told him.

He cannot make others happy.

He is a useless god.

The belief that Lannoth had always insisted on completely collapsed at that moment.

The bitterly suppressed negative emotions finally have a chance to fight back!

The dark elements bred from it constantly stimulated the boy's nerves, constantly mocking and cursing his ignorance and sorrow!

——But even so, I still want everyone to be happy.

With this persistence, he went back to everything.

Finding the way to eternal happiness.

*
It's too slow to make people satisfied little by little.

What the undead said makes sense.

But Lannoth was silent.

"Mr. Yugoro." He said quietly, "It's late, it's time to go to bed."

The young man took off his robe and handed it all over to the man beside him. He smiled and said, "I'm sleepy, so you should go back too. Let's rest early."

"What about your clothes?" Sophie pointed to the magic robe.

Lan Nuosi said: "Give it to me after class tomorrow."

After he finished speaking, he smiled softly, and then left the courtyard straight away.

Sophie blinked, and then yawned. It happened that she was full and sleepy.

For Sophie, happiness is being able to eat and sleep, and she is very satisfied!
*
Lan North didn't know what mood he was in.

Obviously got a good method, but he is not willing to use it.

why?
When he has completely merged with the darkness, he can no longer deceive himself.

In the forest blown by the breeze, the fallen leaves danced wildly, and the dark purple mist overflowed from the necklace, swallowing the flower elves flying around.

Lan Nuosi clenched his fists tightly, his breathing was disordered, dense beads of sweat rolled down his forehead, and his expression was slightly terrifying at this moment.

Why not use it?

Why is it full of resistance after getting the method of the undead? !
Lannoth covered his eyes, and he crouched down, trembling.

It wasn't until the sky became brighter and darker that he faintly revealed a pair of scarlet eyes.

--because.

He hates it so much.

Hate everything that used to be empty water!

Hate that his kindness is not respected!

Hating everyone for being insatiable is like filling a black hole!
He hates that everything in the world is so complicated, but he can't understand it!
Hate even more——!
an undead.

A dead guy.

Why on earth-

Can you say those words? !
Why do you see it more clearly than him? ! !

Why why? !

Isn't the god to satisfy all the wishes of people? !
Why did you tell him now that his kindness became a murderer? !

Why did the God of Light choose him but refused to completely eliminate his darkness? !

Without these dark elements, without these negative emotions, he would never have such deep hatred.

Tears welled up.

He has long been disgusted by light elements, he can only rely on these breeding darkness, listen to their taunts, and let them manipulate him!
The only mentor who wanted to be saved couldn't be saved either!

Even though he knew that it was the undead who played the role of mentor, he still transferred some resentment to it!
Why resentment? !
Not that it deceives itself.

But -

Lannoth wept in despair—

He resented for not being able to save Master Yugoro, and he resented for the sense of powerlessness that could not be saved.

He is clearly a god, but he cannot control everything.

Why not act a little more like that! ?

Why make him aware of the fact that he is really powerless and unworthy of being a god? !
Venting anger is a very despicable thought. Lan Nuosi knew that he had gone too far, but at this moment, he could no longer restrain and suppress himself.

He covered his mouth tightly, not to cry out, and smashed his fists hard to the ground, in order to vent the pain that had been accumulated for hundreds of millions of years!
The sarcasm in his mind still existed, and the dark elements smiled lowly.

As if watching the impotent rage of a loser.

"Useless Lannoth, no use."

"You were born in the dark, no matter how kind and gentle you package yourself, it can't cover up your dirty jealousy and resentment."

"Lannoth, do you really like the cleanliness of the little undead?"

"No, that's jealousy. I'm jealous of the soul, jealous of it being loved by light elements, jealous of its freedom, and not having to bear anything."

"Do you really want to save Sanjay and Nafi? No, you are selfish, you just want them dead, and you made up a lie for yourself."

"Do you really want to prevent Shana from going back to the way she used to be? No, Lannoth, you are just taking revenge, but you flaunt your reasons so high-sounding."

"Do you really hate yourself for not being able to save Teacher Yugoro? No, you are simply hating the feeling that you can control everything but find that you are out of your hands! You are not really sad for the death of Teacher Yugoro ! You are just resenting that your hypocritical selfishness is not satisfied!"

"Hypocrisy, disgusting."

"It's disgusting, this is God, this is you."

When the words disappeared, Lan Nuosi's eyes widened in horror!

Because, those words just now were actually the real thoughts that came from the bottom of his heart!
It's not the dark element that's talking.

But -

he himself.

There is nothing more hopeless than this.

Those negative emotions have completely swallowed the heart.

At the moment when he learned of the death of Ugro mentor.

His belief in trying to prove that he could change everything died with the news of his death.

Obviously still harboring a glimmer of expectation, being able to tell yourself that you can save others.

But now-

The truth told him there was nothing he could do.

He's just a hypocrite.

A hypocrite who was dazzled by jealousy but refused to admit that he hated the undead.

He, who was supposed to belong to the light element, hated the undead, but the dark element bred from negative emotions said—[Lanoth, I like it. ]
Ridiculous and ironic.

[The light element hates you, it's not that you are contaminated with blood donation. ]
[It's your heart, already in the temple, it has already started to rot and stink. ]
*
He couldn't suppress it any longer.

He lets negativity run wild.

He let the dark elements fly freely.

He was crying, as if he wanted to shed all the tears of hundreds of millions of years!
The blood is cold, the body is cold, everything is cold!

He stared at this cold world, and there was no clean place.

Even the gods are so dirty.

However, when the dead heart showed a mocking smile——

Lan Nuosi suddenly seemed to be pressed on the pause button by something.

I froze.

because--

He suddenly heard a surprised girl's voice coming from behind——

"Lan...North?"

A familiar girl's voice.

That is the original sound of the undead.

　Cough cough, so Lannoth actually hates Xiao Fei very much.

　　There is also jealousy, but he has always been good at disguising, if you don't analyze it deeply, hahaha, do you really think he dotes on Xiaofei?

　　In fact, she fell from the light to the darkness, was rejected by the light she pursued, and the things she pursued so hard were easily obtained by others. No matter how much she endured, she could not get them back. Lannoth didn't really like it, but used a shell of liking to hide his inner jealousy.Even though he knew it was wrong, he couldn't really stop being jealous.

　　The kind-hearted Lannoth has been suppressing this disgust, hypnotizing himself not to be jealous in a way that is kind to Sophie, but if he suppresses it for too long, he will still explode hahaha.

　　But after these few chapters, I will probably be really spoiled hahaha, the relationship line is making great progress! ! !

　　
　
(End of this chapter)