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Chapter 95 93. When Do You Cry?

It was bound to be a restless night.Every room is full of exhaustion but still sleepless.

PAI curled up in the quilt and whimpered like a wronged kitten.Lu Yuan leaned on the bed and watched PMG's league video, shaking his head and nodding. PAI's groaning sound cannot be ignored, Lu Yuan sighed and pressed the pause button.

"Do you still hate it?"

"Hmm!" PAI poked out his hairy head from under the quilt, with a sad expression on his face.

"Xiba! Me! Vegetables!"

Lu Yuan smiled slightly, "Everyone comes from newcomers. Some people are like cubs. Their debut is the pinnacle, but the pressure is even greater, and even the slightest leak will be questioned by everyone. More people are step by step It’s been a difficult process, but it’s solid. It’s not bad that you’re making your first appearance at such a young age.”

"But, hold back! ZAI is obviously so powerful"

"Boy." Lu Yuan raised his head, and couldn't help but feel pain when he thought of An Zai, "Boy is very powerful, it's not easy for her to get to this point."

"Chacha, why don't you fight?" PAI raised his head and looked at Lu Yuan seriously.

"I don't want to fight, I just feel... Tired and stagnant at the level of strength, I can't find a breakthrough, I can't pass this level." Lu Yuan was melancholy. For a professional player, standing still is a kind of regression, but He couldn't find a way to move forward and couldn't be happy with himself every time he stepped off the field.No professional person is willing to be a jerk. Instead of deceiving yourself, it is better to take a step back.

"And the cub also needs an assistant who can keep up with her footsteps. New collisions will stimulate her creativity, and an unchanging partner will smooth her edges and corners."

"You are better than me. I..." PAI was suddenly dejected. He had longed for the game so much, but he didn't realize that he was far behind until he really got on the starting lineup.

"No. You are still in the adjustment stage and haven't found a suitable method for you yet. Xiao Xiba, don't belittle yourself. The cub is sometimes very jumpy, but you will always be able to keep up with her thinking and actions. This is why It's not easy. Believe me, you are a good fit. What the cub needs is a teammate who can grow up with her, and you can do it." Lu Yuan was a little bit bitter. A long time ago, he thought he would be that person, but it turned out that his growth has stagnated.

Ji Canghai threw himself on the bed, his long legs were limp and hanging out of the bed, the air conditioner was turned on very high, he didn't feel cold even though his upper body was naked.

"Oh!" Ji Canghai called out.

"En." An Zai casually replied in a half-dream and half-awake state.

"Haven't you cried yet?"

"Ok?"

"Why haven't you started crying yet? Do you need to brew your emotions?" Ji Canghai's voice was full of expectation, waiting for An to cry again with genuine emotion.

"Why are you crying?" Ann turned over again, her sleepiness made her unable to think about the other party, what kind of madness is this.

"Isn't that what you are like. Every time you lose a game, you smile and cry behind your back. How many times have you hidden and cried, pretending that I don't know?" Ji Canghai seemed to have thought of something interesting, and couldn't help but speak Bring a smile on your face.

"I didn't, I'm not, don't talk nonsense." An's instinctive qualities continued.

"You cry."

"You're insane~" No matter how impatient An was, why would she chase others to cry?It's not a party show!
Ji Canghai was silent, and after a pause, he said leisurely: "If you don't cry, why should I be sad?"

"Ok?"

"Or I'm sorry and sad." Ji Canghai took a deep breath, as if he was talking to An again, or talking to himself.

"I have always felt that no matter whether I am uplifted or disappointed, the emotions on the field will stay on the field. When I step off the stage, everything will start again. Professional players should not be judged by past emotions. As long as the next round is started, everything is possible .The spring finals was the first time I experienced setbacks in a major competition. At that time, I still felt that there was no need to lose heart because of the unchangeable results. So everything is business as usual, and I still do what I have to do.” Ji Canghai never said in one breath With so many words, even he himself couldn't stop himself from opening the mouth tonight.

"But that night when I saw...no, I heard you crying, I suddenly felt that I had a reason to vent my negative emotions, as if all my disappointments were excreted with your tears. At that time, I felt, looking at you It's fine to cry."

"Bullshit." An Zai hiccupped inexplicably, and his brain twitched.

"Today. Today's game will be lost like this. Actually, it's my problem." Ji Canghai stared straight at the ceiling, the pale top surface was sporadically decorated with some flashy decorations.The shadow of the wall swayed, like a hypnotic pendulum nibbling away at his hard shell bit by bit.

"Of course Li Bai didn't play the rhythm, but it was all because the first-level group took the routine. Their first-level group is actually not sophisticated, and there are obviously many signs. If it is normal, it is impossible not to see it."

"The jungler has no rhythm, and the top lane can only be wretched. You can't get the early advantage you should have, so you and PAI are caught in a hurry to stand up. These are chain reactions, and it is not difficult to judge. Unfortunately, I was a little bit at the time. I didn’t have any ideas, and the command made a mistake again, and today is totally my fault.”

An Zai was originally drowsy listening to Ji Canghai's thoughts, but the more he listened, the more he felt that the situation was wrong. The familiar voice contained strange self-blame and sadness, it was not the usual arrogant and indifferent Ji Canghai.

The topic couldn't be answered, but Ji Canghai didn't really care. He was just tired and wanted to vent his emotions. It didn't matter if the boy was listening or not, as long as he was by his side.

"Isn't it unbelievable? I actually have a day when I'm so nervous that my mind goes blank."

An Zai finally opened his eyes slowly, his bright pupils shining brightly in the darkness.She was lying cross-legged on her side facing the bed next door, and Ji Canghai's quiet side face was in her line of sight.

"Even I couldn't believe it myself. Before today, I really thought I was a game machine without emotion, and I would never blink when I walked on the field. But the first time I walked out of the competition area and sat there, I could only hear my own words. Heartbeat, no game sound effects, no feedback from teammates, very panicked.”

An Yi waited in the room for a long time before An came to join him, and sent a message but did not respond.There was a knock on the door, but it was Dandan who walked in.

"Hehe, why are you here so late? Test me?" An Yi slumped lazily on the sofa with his usual hippie smile.

"Hehe, if you are so unfocused, how can I live so hard?" Dandan sneered. "Haven't you come here again?"

"No." An Yi put his long legs up and put his hands under his head. "After all, they have been training hard and under a lot of pressure. I don't want to chase after them to make trouble."

"Did you watch today's game?" Dandan asked.

"Well, I saw it. Are you in a good mood again?"

"It's okay. After losing the game, it's inevitable to be depressed, but I've talked to her, and if you have that temper, you won't get down just because of a game."

　Talk to each other, cheer up, calm down, and wait for the counterattack~~~
　　
　
(End of this chapter)