Spread joy in the arms of the cold male god

Chapter 147 I wish you a happy engagement
The distance between the two was less than half a meter.

Song Xiaolin raised his head to look at him, smiling crookedly in his brows and eyes, with sparkles in his eyes, as before, and said sweetly, "Lu Jingyan, you are finally here."

A wisp of white air from Kazakhstan disappeared with the wind.

Lu Jingyan, who was hidden in the twilight, had a cold expression, as indifferent as ice and snow, only his lowered brows contained a hint of undetectable pain, and he was trying his best to restrain some kind of emotion that could not be calmed down.

He didn't speak, and she didn't mind.

In fact, she would rather that he didn't say anything, it would be good to be silent like now, at least she wouldn't be so reluctant.

She smiled at him, but it seemed to be a wry smile, but she had tried her best to smile brightly. The sunset glow in the sky was full of red, the shadows of the trees were whirling, the sound of car horns was endlessly ringing in her ears, and when the voices of people were buzzing, she suddenly felt a sense of humor. Back then, she was still the little girl bouncing around behind him all day long and getting toothache when she ate sweets, but in a flash, this scene has been almost ten years.

A few seconds later, Song Xiaolin came back to his senses, took a small step forward, raised his hand and gently tidied up his slightly messy shirt collar, just like a normal intimate act between lovers, this was her most daring move, what a pity It can only be the last time.

She looked at him, Yiyi's eyes were full of love that could not be burned by wild fire.

When the spring breeze blows in the coming year, it will be born again.

Then, she lowered her eyelashes to cover the tears welling up in her eyes, and murmured to herself——

"Lu Jingyan, in fact, I have always been the only person trapped in Beicheng. I was trapped in a small theater and couldn't get out. It was the boy in white that I met when I was six years old and who amazed me all my life. You have already walked out of the North City, you have already walked out of that theater, maybe you have never been trapped here, but you have always been in my story, you have never walked out of my heart. Maybe it is like the book says, love is Writing poems in the snow, disappearing while writing, I really can’t do anything about that kind of powerlessness, but it’s not that love is useless, it’s my love that is useless. These days, I’ve been thinking about a question, I once asked You, what is wrong with loving someone? Later, I thought about it day and night, and finally understood, what is the sin of love? There is no sin in love, but it is sinful to drag the gods down from the mortal world to perish with such an unbearable me. In the final analysis, you You shouldn’t love me. If you love me, it’s an unforgivable sin for me. I’m five years behind you, five years apart, but these five years are not just five years, but a lifetime. When I was still ignorant and couldn't tell what love was, you already understood love. It was the first time you disobeyed Aunt An for the girl you liked, and it was also the first time you were beaten. Su Lingling could meet you , just because I am the same age as you, you are at the same age, how do you want me to bridge the time gap? I can’t bridge it. It’s hard to fall in love, but meeting is enough.”

So, it's time to let go.

Just like a kite, go with the wind and the rain, let it fly to a wider sky and get closer to a more beautiful scenery.

Keep holding tightly in your hands things that don't belong to you and don't suit you, it will only hurt more and more, just like stepping on broken glass with bare feet.

It's full of glass scum all over the place.

When enthusiasm is exhausted, there is only fatigue and disappointment.

Disappointment piles up, leaving nothing but despair.

After despair, a heart also dies.

In the end, Song Xiaolin's eyes were red and her eyelashes fluttered. She tried her best to hold back the moisture in her eyes. She didn't want to cry in front of him, but she still couldn't hold it back. Her cheeks were slightly cool, at that moment, she suddenly felt relieved, and said softly, "Lu Jingyan, I wish you a happy engagement one day in advance." The voice mixed into the wind was extremely pale and thin, like a broken wine glass , embarrassed, and vulnerable.

She didn't even know how much courage she had exhausted to say this sentence.

But after saying it, she suddenly felt less sad.

She was trapped in the North City for 14 years, and was trapped in a theater for 14 years, and now she is finally leaving this sad city.

When I was six years old, I met a boy who I could never forget in my memory ever since.

He once gave her a candy of redemption.

is salvation in darkness.

It is also redemption in the light of dawn.

So, she used 14 years to repay the redemption.

She was covered in bruises, which should be enough for his redemption.

"Lu Jingyan, from now on... I won't follow you."

She's going to live her own life, she's only 20 years old, it's not too late.

It's just that in this life, there is no him alone.

Forever without him.

Although the meaning is difficult to level, it will eventually be leveled.

Therefore, even if you are reluctant, you must be willing.

Hearing this, Lu Jingyan's eyes were still calm, and his expression was not clear in the twilight. He looked at her, saw her blushing eyes with tears still hanging down, and saw her stubbornness... In the end, he had no choice but to He smiled, his eyes were soft, and there was a little regret, "Child, it's actually about us..."

At that time, the train whizzed past overhead, rolling a few winds and sands.

They drowned out his voice together.

She didn't hear clearly, didn't ask, and he didn't repeat it.

But the reason why she didn't want to ask was because she felt that those words were no longer important.

She just wants to listen to the words of retention.

But he will never hold back.

So, why bother.

*
The day of the engagement party.

Song Xiaolin left without saying goodbye and went to France.

After all, she didn't have time to wait for the first snowfall in Beicheng this year.

But in the final analysis, the so-called leaving without saying goodbye is only a literal meaning.

In fact, she was ready to leave a few days ago, and she had already discussed it with Lu Zhengquan.

After all, he was the one who adopted her in the Lu family.

She has always been grateful to him.

So she had to discuss it with him if she wanted to leave here.

Fortunately, Lu Zhengquan respected all her choices.

She also planned the rest of her life for herself.

Withdrew the money deposited in the bank by his parents during his lifetime, that huge inheritance, and after completing all the formalities, he went to study in France.

She wants to pursue what she loves.

She didn't tell Lu Jingyan about this.

Maybe he knew, or maybe he didn't.

But none of that matters anymore.

The moment she embarked on the road to France, love and Lu Jingyan were not important anymore.

What can be kept and what cannot be kept will eventually become memories.

But, do you believe it?
Those who did not say goodbye well will definitely meet again.

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Five years later.

Under the sycamore trees on the streets of France, the setting sun is about to sink between the buildings, rendering the sunset in the sky, and the people coming and going are picturesque.

airport.

VIP channel.

　Chasing wife crematorium and walking~(ω)
　　
　
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