Spread joy in the arms of the cold male god

Chapter 196 But in the end I failed
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Qingming flowers fall all over the branches.

With the wind, there is a faint fragrance.

Su Lingling was wearing a white dress, a pair of white shoes under her feet, and even holding white chrysanthemums in her hands.

Grass was overgrown, and a thick layer of dust fell in front of the tombstone.

She didn't think it was dirty, she sat on the ground next to the stele, letting her white dress get dirty.

"Grandma~" she called softly, looking at the kind old man in the black-and-white photo tenderly with her eyes full of remembrance, "I bought your favorite white chrysanthemum. This season, the flowers are the most colorful. Look at me. You brought it, I hope you can see it in heaven."

She put the bouquet of flowers in front of the stele, and suddenly choked up, "When I was young, you were the one who loved me the most. You always secretly left me the most delicious things XZ in a basket. I still remember Uncle Park next door once. I will give you a piece of homemade nougat, and you will put it in a box and offer it up like a treasure, thinking about it and waiting for me to go back, but that time I just went on a spring outing, and it was three days after I came back, and it happened that the weather was hot that year, the temperature It was so high that the nougat melted..."

"Grandma...grandmother..."

Tears welled up in Su Lingling's eyes, and Su Lingling could hardly cry, "I regret it, I really regret it, you kept talking about missing me and wanting me to go back to Beicheng to be with you more, but I never listened to you , but please don’t blame me, grandma, it’s not that I don’t want to go back to Beicheng, it’s just that this city hurts me so deeply, once I recall that unbearable past, it makes me feel extremely painful, it hurts so much , It hurts so much, I was just a coward when I was young, I only dared to escape, I didn’t dare to face it, even in countless nights I thought it would be like this, everything is not worth it anyway... But I can’t bear you, I I am not reconciled...but after all, I failed your love, I am not worthy to be your granddaughter..."

Since she was a child, she has been an existence of "father does not love mother or mother".

From the moment she was born, her parents never really liked her one day, or even hated her coming.

It was as if she was born to be the lone star of the devil, and she couldn't avoid it.

The children in the neighborhood always laughed at her behind her back for having a father who was a smoker and alcoholic and a mother who was full of dust.

Being isolated by classmates and teachers is also normal.

Grandparents died early.

Fortunately, there is also a grandmother who regards her as the apple of her eye.

Grandma lived in a small alley in Beicheng, and opened a pine nut cake shop for a living.

She likes muffins.

Crispy and soft, it is the best taste in memory.

Although the family is not rich, it is also smooth sailing.

At that time, she didn't understand grandma's hard work, she just liked to act like a baby in grandma's arms, until she grew up, she recalled every bit of the past, like fishing for shells in the sea of ​​time, it was so precious, that Scenes were no longer the warmth she was familiar with before, all she could think of was her grandma's white hair and staggering back.

Grandma has paid too much, too much for her.

But not only did she not repay her well, she even didn't see her grandma for the last time...

She actually let grandma leave the world alone like that...

Su Lingling covered her face and wept bitterly.

Despite the title of the most coquettish rose in Beicheng, she is just a little girl who needs to act like a baby in her grandmother's arms.

At this time, the wind blew, and the sound of footsteps on fallen leaves came from behind.

Almost inaudible.

For some reason, even though she was nowhere to be seen, she was certain that that person was Si Zhengting.

Then, suddenly, she smiled contemptuously.

Since when did she become so familiar with his footsteps.

How ridiculous!
Su Lingling stood up slowly and faced him. The tears were still hanging under her eyelashes and gradually dried by the wind, but her eyes were fierce, and her hatred was more piercing than ever. Without any warning, she suddenly looked up. He slapped him hard with his hand, his voice was like an iceberg, full of disgust: "Si Zhengting, do you still have the face to appear here?"

He can go anywhere, but he can't appear in front of his grandma's tombstone.

She used so much force that her whole hand was shaking.

A trace of blood slowly seeped from the corner of Si Zhengting's mouth, it wasn't painful at all, it was a bit stinging at best, he wiped it with his fingertips, he didn't get angry, and said in a low voice, "I know today is your grandma's death day , let me see her old man."

But these words completely ignited Su Lingling's anger, she suddenly lost all reason, rushed up, grabbed his neck forcefully, her eyes were so bloodshot, she shouted like crazy, with tears wantonly Eyes burst out: "How dare you, Si Zhengting? If it wasn't for you...if it wasn't for you...I could obviously go to see grandma for the last time, I could...Grandma left with full of regret and unwillingness. Before I left, I still held my photo tightly in my hand... It's all because of you, how dare you appear in front of grandma's tombstone? How dare you?"

He endured her hysterical roar without saying a word.

Immediately, he opened his arms and took her into his arms.

With her faint hair fragrance and the smell of white chrysanthemums lingering in his nose, the suffocation on his neck made him unable to breathe for a moment, but at this moment, he was inexplicably delighted.

Su Lingling was tired from crying, and gradually loosened the strength on her arms, and collapsed limply into Si Zhengting's arms, letting the smell of cigarettes on his body mix into her heavy breath, lingering.

He stroked her soft hair, with a gentle expression on his face, but the words he said were like ice balls, without the slightest emotion, "Since you are so unwilling, then try to live and kill me."

"..." The other end was silent for a long time, and she suddenly laughed, "You said that too at the beginning, you asked me to live hard to kill you, but then I thought about it, and the reason I lived hard was to kill you. It's like I'm living for you."

She sarcastically said, "Si Zhengting, you are still as selfish as ever."

Instead of being angry, he smiled, "Maybe."

On the day her grandmother passed away, he had seen her in the most embarrassing state.

Dying, no nostalgia for the whole world.

In fact, before this, she had long thought of committing suicide, but he had been using her grandmother as a shackle to firmly trap her, making her his own.

But once the shackles are gone, it means that she has no spiritual support.

He could no longer trap her.

she will die.

This was Si Zhengting's first thought.

So, he finally panicked, he just wanted to do everything possible to keep her by his side.

In the end, she took advantage of her hatred for him.

What's wrong with hate.

At least she was alive and trapped by his side.

Maybe she was right, he was just a selfish and sick person.

(End of this chapter)