Spread joy in the arms of the cold male god

Chapter 226 It's No Use Calling Mr. Lu

Lu Jingyan did not give an answer in a hurry, but drank all the medicine quietly, and when he spoke again, his voice was much clearer, "In the five years since we separated, I am quite surprised that you have become a big star admired by thousands of people Yes, we haven’t had a trace of contact in five years, and I have never participated in your later star life, only the movie on the stills, I wish you a happy ending, the eyes you look at me are sincere and moving, That was the first time I felt that five years later, I participated in your life again, and I feel lucky and honored to feel that lost and regained feeling."

"I know that movie, there is a plot of reunion after a broken mirror, and in the ending of the movie, the heroine also married the hero in the end, isn't that just you and me?"

Song Xiaolin was slightly surprised: "Have you seen this movie?"

Originally, it was surprising enough that he could wish her a happy ending amidst the award-winning applause.

I didn't expect him to watch this kind of love movie when he was as cold as him?

Hearing this, he curled his lips noncommittally, his expression remained the same, but only a thin layer of leaden gray appeared on his eyes, and after a long time, he said in a hoarse voice, "I have lived in the bright sunshine since I was a child, how can I bear it?" Got that long, pitch-black darkness? Repeated check-ups every day, surgery after surgery, and constantly drinking bitter medicine, sometimes I really feel depressed, dull, and collapsed, and I can’t do it Anything I want to do, things that I used to be able to do with ease seem to suddenly become out of reach. I also try to digest all these bad emotions, but it is really difficult, as if there is always a big mountain separated, no matter what No matter how hard I try, I just can’t get over it. I know my mother is always worried about me, and she’s afraid that I’m worried, so she can only wait for me to fall asleep in the middle of the night, and then secretly go to the bedside to cry and caress my face lovingly , you don't know, the temperature on my mother's palm is so warm that I can't bear to cry, but I can't, I stand at thirty, I am a big man who stands up to the sky, I should bear all the consequences, I know I'm sorry for my mother and father, how dare I let them feel sorry for me again? But sometimes, my heart is inexplicably dull, which makes me feel very tired and tired."

In the air, there was a faint sobbing sound.

Lu Jingyan's hand touched Song Xiaolin's forehead, slowly moved down, and gently wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes, the tears were so hot that his fingertips burned, his tone softened for a moment, just like coaxing the clown who was sung The little girl who was frightened and cried by the man said, "My child, I didn't say this to make you cry, nor was it because I was so depressed. On the contrary, I said all these words, and I felt much more comfortable, and I didn't feel depressed anymore. Accumulating depression in my heart and becoming sick, doesn't it just prove that I have let go of it? So, this is a good thing, why are you sad?"

"..." Her eyes were red and sore. She wanted to hold back the tears so that they wouldn't fall down her cheeks, but he comforted her so much that she wanted to cry even more, "But what caused you to become like this?" The person...is me."

It was her own will.

It's her obsession.

It's her willfulness.

This was the first time that he took off his indestructible armor in front of her, and put a broken and pitiful heart in front of her without reservation, so that she could really walk into the world of his monologue.

He who has always been invincible, showing his most vulnerable and decadent side for the first time, it means that he is relieved enough, she shouldn't be sad, right?
But how could she not be sad?
As far as Song Xiaolin was concerned, she didn't want him to suffer such hardships, she would rather be blind than to let her bear great guilt and remorse for his reckless efforts to save her again and again.

She doesn't want his indifference.

She doesn't want him to be desperate.

She only wants him to be safe and happy, free from disasters and diseases.

Tears blurred her eyes, and she cried and asked over and over again: "Is it worth it? Is it really worth it? Is it really worth it for you to do this for me?"

Is it worth giving your life twice for one person?
"Since you can't find the answer, let my heart answer you."

Although she couldn't see her, Lu Jingyan still gave her the utmost tenderness, "I don't regret all this, and I am willing to do it. You are my salvation and the only salvation in the dark, because I want to marry you. I want to marry you into the Lu family and make you my Mrs. Lu, and I also want to be Mr. Lu who belongs only to you. For this reason, I firmly choose you, and I am willing to do so. The ending of the movie in that still photo, It is the meaning of my existence, I want our ending to be without regret, child, can you understand me when I say this? So, don’t worry about whether it’s worth it or not, okay?”

No matter how hard she tried, she still couldn't resist his gentleness and wantonness.

How can a city fall overnight?

She was defeated into an army, because she had already fallen in love with her.

Song Xiaolin wiped away his tears vigorously, and nodded his head emphatically, "Well, I understand, I won't dwell on this issue anymore, and let's live together for the rest of our lives."

He smiled and nodded lightly, "Well, you can no longer be an impolite coward in the future."

"I...how am I being rude? No, why am I a coward?"

"Anyway, in the future, I won't allow you to leave without saying goodbye and go to France to study alone like five years ago."

"...I know, but that was an accident, and I don't know the truth..."

"Still talking back? Huh?"

"Wrong, wrong, Mr. Lu."

"It's useless to call Mr. Lu, why not..." He smirked, "Can you call me husband?"

Her face burned up: "...do you want to be shameless?"

"No, here you are."

"..."

"Forget it, I'm not in a hurry, anyway, you will call sooner or later."

"..." What kind of tiger and wolf words! ! !
While playing around, the door opened quietly.

Song Xiaolin happened to look up, but in an instant, his originally laughing face suddenly froze, and he even swallowed nervously: "An... Aunt An."

Hearing the sound, Lu Jingyan tilted his head, "Mom, are you here?"

"Yeah, mom just came back not long ago." Mrs. Lu walked into the room slowly, her initially tense face gradually softened, she touched his forehead affectionately, and slightly tidied up the slightly messy pieces. "Ah Yan, are your eyes better? What did the doctor say?"

"Well, the doctor said the situation is not too bad, don't worry about it."

"Mom, don't worry, Ah Yan, don't worry too much, your father and I will definitely find the best doctor in the world to heal your eyes."

"Ah."

Mrs. Lu smiled gratifiedly, and then slowly raised her eyes to look at Song Xiaolin, her complexion suddenly turned dark, and her tone was unhappy, but it was obviously much better than before, probably because Lu Jingyan was here: "Song Xiaolin, you Come out with me."

(End of this chapter)