Rebirth after waste

Chapter 153

For a long time after the emperor's death, Gu Yunxian couldn't wake up from what happened that day.

She always felt that all that was just a dream she had.She dreamed that she was brought back to the palace by Lu Chuan, dreamed that someone told her that the emperor was seriously ill, dreamed...

He died in her arms.

She hugged his body and lay there for a long time in the peach forest, until Lu Chuan, who finally realized something was wrong, led someone to find him, and saw that the emperor had died, and the empress looked blankly at the blue sky .

His legs gave way and he fell to his knees.

Behind him, there were wave after wave of kneeling palace servants, and the cries that sounded one after another finally gathered together and resounded through the sky.

Gu Yunxian listened to the hustle and bustle in his ears, and for a moment couldn't tell what night it was.

She fell ill that night, with a high fever that burned her whole body, which lasted for three days.Later, the palace servants finally became anxious and insisted on pouring medicine on her. She opened her eyes in a blur and saw Ah Huan's teary little face.

"Auntie, Auntie, don't you want me?" He cried out of breath, "Father is no longer here, are you leaving Huan too?"

She feels sad.Why is the life of the people she cares about always so miserable?Her husband died in his prime, and her son had just lost his father, and immediately had to worry about whether his mother would leave.

But she clearly promised that she would be with him forever.

She held Ah Huan's hand tightly, and said in a hoarse voice: "Mother will not leave Ah Huan... Mother will not..."

A Huan ascended the throne seven days after the death of the first emperor before his death, and announced that the next year would be changed to Yuan Xianqing.Xu Qinghua, Prime Minister of the Left, and Cui Shuo, Minister of the Ministry of Officials, were assistant ministers to assist the new monarch.

Gu Yunxian was naturally honored as the Queen Mother, and moved from Changqiu Palace to Changle Palace.Regarding this, Lu Chuan once said to her hesitantly, "Anyway, Your Majesty is still young now, and there will be no people living in Jiaofang Palace in a while. If your empress is reluctant to part with this place, you might as well stay and live for two years..."

He knew that the peach grove behind the Jiaofang Palace had a profound meaning to both Gu Yunxian and the first emperor, and maybe she would be unwilling to leave...

"No need." Gu Yunxian said lightly, "It's not proper for me to live here now, and it's not good for the emperor to spread the word."

After she said that, no one would persuade her anymore, and soon everyone in Changqiu Palace moved to Changle Palace with her, changing from the queen's palace to the empress dowager's palace.

Three months after Ji Xun's death, Gu Yunxian saw Cui Shuo again.

They had also met before when they were crying in the Temple of Ganlu, but Gu Yunxian was completely a walking corpse at that time, and had no reaction to everything around him, so naturally he would not notice Cui Shuo.

And this time, she summoned the emperor's teacher as the empress dowager.

There was a bead curtain between the two, and she said flatly: "The emperor is young, and he still needs to rely on adults for everything, thank you Ai family in advance."

Cui Shuo hurriedly said that he didn't dare, he knelt outside and kowtowed, "It is the duty of a minister to be loyal to His Majesty."

Gu Yunxian nodded and said to Ah Huan: "Emperor, go and salute Master Cui, he will be your teacher from now on."

Ah Huan nodded, walked up to Cui Shuo and bowed respectfully to the end, "Sir, you are polite! I hereby ask you, sir, to guard our country of Great Jin together with me!"

Cui Shuo looked at the serious child in front of him, and knew in his heart that no matter how smart he was, such words were beyond his ability to come up with.

Instead of looking at the quiet jade face behind the bead curtain, he smiled and saluted the emperor, "I obey."

On the fifteenth day of the first lunar month of the first year of Xianqing, Ah Huan boarded the Chengtian Gate for the first time as the emperor, accompanied by Gu Yunxian and the ministers.

Looking at the brightly lit Yudu, Gu Yunxian said softly: "Ah Huan, have you seen it? This is the world left to you by your ancestors, and it is the world that your father guarded with his life. The bright lights of Yudu are the world of this world. The most beautiful thing, you have to keep it lit."

Under the night, Ah Huan's little face was full of solemnity, "I understand! I will definitely protect the inheritance passed down from my father and emperor, and I will definitely live up to my mother's expectations!"

After coming down from the tower, Gu Yunxian ordered the emperor to be sent back to the Dazheng Palace first, then silently walked along the road in the palace, Cui Shuo followed behind her.

Turning a corner, there is a water area in front of you, on which floats the lanterns put down by the women in the palace, like lotus flowers blooming on the blue waves, it is really beautiful.

Gu Yunxian stood still by the water, turned around and looked at Cui Shuo, "I wonder if your lord has brought the things that Aijia asked you to bring?"

Cui Shuo glanced behind him, and a follower came forward holding the box and opened it respectfully.

Inside lay a river lantern in the shape of a boat, and there was a three-story building inside the boat, which was extremely exquisite.There is a white sail hanging on the bow of the boat, with beautiful handwriting on it: May your words be worthy of virtue, and join hands with each other; not fly, and let me perish.

Gu Yunxian took out the river lantern and looked at it calmly.

"The Ai family once heard the late emperor say..." She said softly, "My lord once had a deal with him, I wonder if my lord can tell me what kind of deal it is?"

Cui Shuo didn't answer when he heard this, but remembered the scene when he was summoned by the emperor to the Dazheng Palace a year ago.

At that time, Gu Yunxian had already been sent to Maoshan. He thought that he would lead to death if he went there, but the indifferent king told him casually that he was suffering from a chronic illness and his time was numbered, so many things had to be entrusted to him .

"The New Deal has only been implemented for a few years, and it still needs to be consolidated. I have explained to Xu Qinghua, and he understands what I mean. From now on, you will stick to this foundation together.

"I will appoint the fifth prince as the crown prince, and he will be the new king after my death. You are his teacher, you must teach him carefully."

He finally couldn't help asking, "But Your Majesty, didn't you say that if I win the game, I will take my life?"

The emperor didn't answer, just looked at him lightly.In his eyes, he suddenly understood the whole story.

He knew early on that his time was numbered and that game was just a test.He wanted to see clearly how deep his feelings for Yunniang were.He wondered if he was really reliable enough to entrust orphans and widows to him.

He won the game, and he had the answer.

Since he was willing to die for her, he would not betray her and her son.

Such a deep calculation reminded him again of the years when the two of them fought wits and courage with the courtiers.Two men with great ambitions get together, plotting people's hearts, talking and laughing, and using military tactics, and there is an unparalleled tacit understanding in every move.

They are true confidants, and without each other, this game-changing transformation would never have been possible.

He looked at Gu Yunxian and said frankly: "The late emperor asked the minister to stick to his ambition, continue the New Deal, and assist His Majesty."

"That's all?" Gu Yunxian asked.

"That's all."

Gu Yunxian lowered his head and thought for a while, then smiled, "That's good."

It's good that he didn't do the thing of giving her up to someone else.At least in the end, he still hated her.When he was in Taolin, he spoke so sweetly, but in fact, if she was really with Cui Shuo, he would still be unhappy.

"This lamp is for me, right?" she asked.

"Yes." Many years ago, I wanted to give it to her.

She slowly squatted down, put the river lantern into the water, and watched it drift away like a big boat at anchor, and finally merged into the bright lights in the distance.

She turned her head and saw that Cui Shuo was still looking at the direction where the river lantern was drifting away.

"Your Majesty is His Majesty's teacher, and Ai's family is the late Emperor's wife. Between you and me, this will always be the case."

His expression was not very sad, he just stared at her tenderly, "I understand." He always understood.

She nodded, "It's good that my lord understands. The road is icy and slippery. When I return home, my lord should pay attention to getting off the horse. Take care."

She turned around and left without looking back, leaving Cui Shuo alone, staring at her graceful back in a daze.

How similar is this scene to the Longjiang Pool that year?

Only this time, they finally let go of the river lantern together.

I have no regrets.

In the second year after Ji Xun left, in February of the first year of Xianqing, when the peach blossoms were about to bloom, a thunderbolt struck the peach grove behind the Jiaofang Hall.Several peach trees caught fire first, and eventually the entire peach forest was affected.

When Gu Yunxian heard the news and arrived, he only saw the flames soaring into the sky, and a vague shadow inside.She wanted to get closer to take a closer look, but the palace servants stood in front of her and kept persuading her: "Queen Dowager...don't go up, queen dowager, be careful not to hurt yourself... queen dowager!"

She had no choice but to stop and stand there looking at the shadows of the trees churning in the firelight, with a smile and tears on her face.

Afterwards the fire was extinguished, but Taolin could not be rescued.Those dry branches shivered in the cold wind, and she stood in the forest, looking at them in awe.

She remembered that he had told her before leaving that the flowers here were beautiful when they bloomed, so she must come and see them if she had the chance.

But no chance.

This is the peach forest he planted for her, but she can't wait for the flowers to bloom, and never can.

Days passed day by day, and the years in the palace were turbulent.Gu Yunxian stays behind closed doors in Changle Palace, except for an hour every night to check Ah Huan's homework, the rest of the time is spent copying Buddhist scriptures.

Roll after roll, the long white paper was filled with her beautiful small letters, which slid down from the desk and dragged to the floor.

In a trance, she felt as if she had returned to many years ago. At that time, she just woke up from the nightmare of her previous life and invited herself to serve the Queen Mother in Changle Palace.

One day, she was copying scriptures in her room when he suddenly appeared.At that time, he looked at the thick stack of rice paper and asked in surprise: "Did you copy these?"

She was reserved and submissive.So he raised his eyebrows amusedly, and said, "What's your expression? I'm scary?"

It turned out that she didn't know until after she lost it. Things about him had already taken root in her heart.

So, just keep copying.

This fate has been teased by God from the beginning to the end. Their life and death have always been in the hands of others, and they can't make the decision at all.Now that he is gone, the only thing she can do is to copy more Buddhist scriptures to accumulate more virtue for each other's next life.

Maybe God will show mercy and let them meet in the underworld.

Later, her health became worse and worse, and she even began to forget things.The imperial doctor couldn't find out the reason, so he could only tell Ah Huan that it was she who wanted to forget.Like a paranoid lunatic, she only remembers the parts she wants to remember, and she discards those bad memories.

She often thinks of Ji Xun, and can be in a trance for a long time every time.When he was alive, although she didn't hate him, she always had a hard time in her heart.Even though Fan Su told her about those five years, she was moved again, but she never fell in love with him completely.She has reservations, she is afraid of being let down again, so she subconsciously protects herself.

But now that he is dead, he used that kind of concealment to isolate her from grief before he died, and repaid everything he owed her.So whether her resentment or knots, they all left with her.

She forgot that he had failed her and hurt her, and only remembered that her husband was the most gentle man in the world.He loved her very much, but they got separated under the peach blossom tree and couldn't find each other.

But it doesn't matter, one day, she will find him.

She died in one spring.

The ice and snow had just melted outside, she was lying on the bed, looking at the scenery in the courtyard through the half-opened window.

Ah Huan knelt by the couch, held her hand tightly, and said in a trembling voice: "Mother's queen..."

She looked at his handsome face and smiled, "Ah Huan, my mother never told you that you really... look very similar to your father..."

Ah Huan gritted his teeth tightly, not letting himself cry, "I know..."

"The queen mother is so tired." She muttered to herself, "After all these years, the queen mother is really tired. I miss your royal father very much, and there are so many things I want to say to him...it hurts my heart to think about it."

"I used to worry about you, but now that you have grown up, I can finally leave with peace of mind...

"I know you don't want to part with me, but I've tried my best...so, don't hate me...."

Her vision became more and more blurred, and she seemed to see clusters of pink smoke, as bright as clouds, dazzled her eyes.

That is...their peach grove...

"The flowers are blooming..."

(End of this chapter)