Rebirth after waste

Chapter 45

There was silence for a while, and there was a sound of tapping on the seat.

Lu Chuan hurriedly ordered the palace servants to stop the sedan chair.

The emperor himself lifted the curtain and walked out slowly.After standing still, he looked ahead and saw a slim figure.

In fact, they were still some distance away from the imperial chariot, but he still recognized her back at a glance.She was wearing a snow-white fox fur cloak, but she didn't look bloated at all. She was slender and elegant.Next to her was Liu Shanggong, carrying a glazed lantern, and walked forward together with her.

Their direction is Changle Palace.

Guessing what she was going to do, he waved his hand and followed them silently with only Lu Chuan.

Gu Yunxian held a bunch of red plums in his arms, without looking sideways, he just walked forward.At this time, the Zhuoyue Pond had already frozen over, and she remembered that when passing through here in summer, she could always smell the fragrance of lotus, but now there was only the cold wind blowing towards her face.

At the corner in front, an exquisite small building stands quietly.She didn't pause, only her eyes fell on it uncontrollably.

Listen to the rain pavilion.

That night, she was here to accompany him who was drunk.He had spoken more truths to her than in the next five years put together.

That should have been a very meaningful memory, but unfortunately when he woke up the next day, he didn't remember anything.

She still remembers that morning, when Liu Shanggong came to tell her, "His Royal Highness was too drunk last night. When he woke up this morning, he couldn't remember that he had sneaked out. The empress thinks it's okay for him to forget about it, and she has already told the people below Don't mention it, so Miss San, you have to be careful, don't let it slip."

The anticipation that had just floated in her heart was like being poured with a ladle of ice water, and it quickly cooled down.Her fears came true.However, she couldn't do anything, she could only smile and said, "No, Ah Yun understands."

Since then, this incident has become a secret for her alone. When she thinks about it in countless late nights, she doesn't know whether it is joy or sadness.

Later, my aunt arranged for them to meet, and when she bowed to him, she had hoped that he would remember.He remembered that in Shanglin Garden where the peach blossoms were in full bloom, he once shot down a peach in the hands of a girl with an arrow.

Unfortunately, he doesn't remember anything.

He didn't remember that he had made flowers for her, he didn't remember that he had spoken to her, and he didn't remember that she was by his side and comforted him when he was most sad and frustrated.

I don't remember it all.

Sometimes thinking of these things, Gu Yunxian doesn't know whether they are destined or not.If it is said that there is no predestined relationship, why did so many involvements happen one after another, and finally they became husband and wife?If there is fate, why doesn't he remember any of these things?
God arranged for them such a fate, is it just to let her get stuck in the mud alone?

"Ma'am, we're here."

Liu Shanggong's words brought her back to reality.Taking a closer look, it was the heavy palace gate of Changle Palace in front of him.

Gu Yunxian asked in a voice that could only be heard by two people: "Has Your Majesty followed?"

"The servant did not dare to look back, and did not hear the sound, but it should have followed."

"Okay, let's open the door."

Liu Shanggong took out the key from his sleeve and inserted it into the keyhole.

The keys of each palace and door, except for one held by the lord of the first palace, are stored in Siweisi.After the Empress Dowager passed away, the Changle Palace was no longer inhabited, and all the keys were returned to Siweisi, so ordinary people could not touch it.However, Liu Shanggong, as the highest officer of the Shang Palace Bureau, could easily obtain a key.

As soon as the palace door was pushed open, one could see a thin layer of snow on the ground.Gu Yunxian walked in slowly, only to feel that everything he saw was desolate.

In fact, although there are no residents, Changle Palace has always been cleaned regularly, which is not much different from before.However, due to the lack of human habitation, there is a layer of vitality missing here.

Gu Yunxian walked along the avenue in the courtyard and walked all the way to Changxin Hall.The inside of the hall is very neat and tidy. There is a fine porcelain blue-glazed flower vase by the window, in which several green plums are offered with clear water.

The emperor stood outside the door, watched Gu Yunxian approach the window, took out the green plums in the vase, replaced them with the red plums he brought, and said with a smile: "On New Year's Eve, we need to change to a festive color, my aunt saw it. I'd be happier too."

Liu Shanggong next to him smiled and said: "Your Majesty is really thoughtful, she even came here specially on New Year's Eve."

"Anyway, I have nothing to do." Gu Yunxian's voice was slightly lower, and he had to listen carefully to hear clearly, "At this time in previous years, His Majesty was with me. This year, I'm afraid I won't be so lucky."

There was silence for a while, and then Liu Shanggong's confused voice came, "I don't understand, what happened to Your Majesty recently? Ma'am, did you do something to make him unhappy?"

"I don't know." Her voice was a little lonely, "He came to accompany me to drink Laba porridge that day. I was actually very happy. But later, I don't know if I said something wrong or made a mistake. He left suddenly, and then Never came again."

With a soft sigh, he could almost imagine her frowning, "I can't figure out what he's thinking. There are many times when I think I understand, but then I realize that everything is just my self-righteousness. He is not like that at all. want.

"It's like now, I thought he cared about me and had me in his heart. I thought the king's heart was like mine, and he lived up to his love. But in fact, it's just me being sentimental."

"Your Majesty, don't say that, I think Your Majesty cares about your Majesty." Liu Shanggong persuaded, "Why don't you go to the Dazheng Palace to find His Majesty, speak soft words to him, and clarify the matter, maybe it will be all right!"

"Do you think I haven't thought about it?" Gu Yunxian said, "To tell you the truth, once I walked near the Dazheng Palace, but in the end, I still didn't dare to go in."

"Why is this?"

After a long time, she whispered: "I'm afraid." The slightly trembling voice was very clear in the silent night, "Your Excellency, you also know that His Majesty didn't like me before. I don't know why he suddenly likes me again." , and want me to accompany him. I have been worried in my heart that he is just a whim. But my love for him, my lord, you have seen clearly for so many years. "

At this point, she seemed to be unable to continue. After a long pause, she said with a choked voice, "I'm really scared... I'm afraid to see him being indifferent to me again. If you experience that kind of thing again, I can't take it anymore..."

As if someone had grabbed him hard, he felt a throbbing pain in his heart.Her voice was so sad, as if she had lost the most important thing, but she didn't know where to find it.

Full of confusion and sadness.

He suddenly recalled on the wedding night, after he finished reading the fan poem, she removed the fan covering her face little by little.Black and slender eyebrows, eyes as bright as stars, and lips as red as diamonds appeared in front of his eyes one by one.

He thought to himself at the time, this girl is really beautiful.

Gong'e offered the wine, and he took it with a smile, and handed one of them to her.When they exchanged cups and drank together, he said softly: "Madam has an extraordinary complexion, Xun is really blessed."

Her hands trembled, and after a while, she replied in a voice as thin as a mosquito, "If you can marry your husband as your wife, I will have no regrets in this life."

He was very surprised at that time, he didn't expect this shy-looking woman to say such a thing.

However, it's okay after the surprise, he didn't take these words very seriously.After all, there are too many women who show affection to him, and he has not found it strange for a long time.

But thinking about it now, she must have summoned up all her courage to say this at the time.

Those were her sincere words, but he didn't listen to them.

He never felt that it was wrong for him to neglect her before.He is the crown prince, the emperor, as long as it doesn't affect the overall situation of the court, he can pamper any woman he likes, and he doesn't need to force himself to get close to the woman he doesn't like.

But at this moment, he suddenly felt that maybe he really did something wrong.

Her words echoed in her ears, every word weeping.It turned out that his neglect was such a great pain to her, even after such a long time, it still made her feel fearful.

As if waking up from a big dream, he suddenly realized what he was doing recently.

He is repeating past mistakes.Just because of a look, a look that he might have misread, he actually started to doubt her heart, and started to snub her again.

There were footsteps coming from inside, coming towards the door.He thought of her walking towards him, panicked inexplicably, and dodged to avoid the dark place.

Lu Chuan passively followed him to hide in the dark, secretly staring at his majesty, completely confused.

He is, is he afraid?
Gu Yunxian was the only one who came out, and Liu Shanggong did not follow.She stood at the door and thought for a while, then turned to the left and went around to another bedroom.

Confused, he followed.

Turning around a corridor, he saw Gu Yunxian standing outside a bedroom, without moving for a long time.

He froze for a moment, then suddenly realized.On New Year's Eve last year, he pretended to be drunk, and his mother arranged for him to rest in Changle Palace, and he stayed in this dormitory.

Is she thinking about him?
"Last year and today in this door..." She read softly, feeling infinitely lost, "It's really like a dream in Nanke, and when I wake up, I'm the same as before. I have nothing."

He finally couldn't bear it anymore, appeared from the darkness, and called softly: "Yun Niang."

She turned her head abruptly, staring at him blankly.His eyes were wide open, and inside were tears that were about to drip.

Speechless for a while.

"I saw you and Liu Shanggong coming here, and I thought you were here to pay homage to the queen mother, so I followed." He explained, but the more he said, the more he felt powerless.

A majestic emperor, following a concubine all the way at night, and listening to the corner for so long, is really very promising.

After thinking for a long time, he finally said the most important sentence: "I didn't bother you. I haven't come to see you for a while, it's my own problem."

She looked at him without speaking.

He slowly stepped forward and took her into his arms.When I stretched out my hand, I was still apprehensive, but when I found out that she didn't refuse, I was actually relieved.

"It's all my fault." He murmured, he didn't know if he was talking about the recent things or the past, "Don't be sad. I will treat you well in the future and won't make you sad again."

She leaned in his arms, not knowing what to feel in her heart.

On this day last year, she bewitched him here and realized the first step of her comeback.On the same day this year, she was still here, whispering her feelings and seducing him into being fooled.

It turns out that things go around and never change.

Smelling the familiar scent of pines and cypresses on his body, she slowly closed her eyes.

(End of this chapter)