Rebirth after waste

Chapter 63

He was too impulsive tonight, he shouldn't have agreed to play with her.But when His Majesty made this request, he really couldn't control his desire.

Many past events buried deep in my heart were evoked by this sentence.

In my memory, the clever and lovely girl, with slender white fingers, flutters like a butterfly when she plucks the strings, which is better than the most beautiful dance in the world.

Just like that, it has been imprinted on his heart for so many years.

When Tong Yi saw that he had finished speaking, Cui Shuo fell silent.Holding the wine glass tightly with his right hand, his eyes wandered, as if thinking of something a long time ago.

The confusion that had been hidden in his heart for a long time resurfaced again. He endured it again and again, but he still couldn't hold it back, "Actually, there is something I have always wanted to ask you. Of course, it doesn't matter if you don't want to say it. I have absolutely nothing Opinion."

Cui Shuo looked at him.

Tong Yi cleared his throat, and said after deliberation: "You are so determined not to remarry, is it because of your first wife, or..."

"Or what?" Cui Shuo looked at him deeply.

The pressure was so great that Tong Yi almost flinched.However, the words have already been uttered, and it is not his style to give up halfway, so he simply put his heart on the line, "...you still have someone else in your heart!"

Cui Shuo's eyes suddenly became sharp.

"You, you, don't look at me like that! I'm just asking casually. Do you want to tell me—oh, don't look at me like that—I have no objection!"

Under Tong Yi's strong protest, Cui Shuo finally looked away, and asked indifferently after a long silence, "Why do you say that?" Could it be that he showed some clues?
"I feel it." Seeing that he was not angry, Tong Yi also relaxed, "We have known each other for so many years, and I ask myself how well I know you. You have such a good life, and you are the most attractive to women, but you are in She is very indifferent in terms of female sex. At first, like others, I thought you were an unforgettable wife. But later, I felt that maybe we were all deceived by you."

He stared at Cui Shuo's profile that was enough to fascinate a woman, and slowly said: "I think there is someone hiding in your heart."

The sound of the wine glass being slammed onto the stone table.

Cui Shuo's movements were too fast, the wine glass was not stable, tilted in mid-air, and then slowly fell down, the wine inside flowed out.

Tong Yi looked at the wine glass, then at Cui Shuo, put away his hippie smile, and sighed softly, "It seems that I guessed it right."

Cui Shuo closed his eyes.

"I don't know which lady it is, and I don't know what's going on between you. But I think, since you haven't been with her for so many years, there is no hope for you." Tong Yidao, " We are friends, and I don't want to see you suffer all day long and take the risk of extinction for an impossible person."

Cui Shuo didn't know what to say, so he could only remain silent.

"In the past, I always advised you that the deceased is already dead, so take it easy. In fact, it's the same now. Since that lady is destined to never be with you, then she is no different from death to you..."

"Different."

Tong Yi was seriously persuading and educating, when he heard his calm answer, he couldn't help but widen his eyes, "What?"

"I said, it's different." Cui Shuo said slowly, "If she is really dead, then death is nothing. I can imagine her living a peaceful life in another world. But she is still alive. And I know , she lives very tired and hard. I can't stop worrying about her. "

Not only His Majesty listened to the song played tonight, but as an ensemble member, he could hear it clearly.

There was so much hatred and unwillingness hidden in her heart, and she was so unhappy.

You should have guessed it earlier, shouldn't you?
The dignified queen, the mother of a country, was suddenly deposed, and lived as a deposed queen for a year.Even if she is favored now, she is only a concubine.

How can she live well when her husband treats her so cruelly?
Tong Yi saw that under the bright moonlight, Cui Shuo's jade-like eyes were full of pain.

He was aching for the woman who had taken his soul away.

"You're worried about her, but can you help her?" Tong Yi couldn't bear it, but he felt that the long-term pain was worse than the short-term pain, and forced himself to harden his heart, "I knew you were still here and didn't rescue her , you can't do anything about her situation. If that's the case, what's the use of worrying?"

Yes, what's the use of worrying?
Just like before, when he heard the news that she was deposed, no matter how painful or uncomfortable he felt, he could only let the matter develop.

It's like tonight, when he heard her inner voice in the piano music, he couldn't express it clearly, so he could only make up an excuse for her to get away before His Majesty got angry.

Other than that, he couldn't do anything.

Tong Yi saw that his expression seemed to be loose, thinking that his words had worked, and just wanted to be happy, but he heard his words with bitterness, "If you can really say let go, then let go, there won't be so many people in this world who are troubled." Forgive me for that."

With such stubbornness, Tong Yi couldn't help but get angry, and was about to leave as soon as he slapped the table.

Cui Shuo called out behind him in time: "Ayi." The voice was full of helplessness.

Tong Yi stopped, took a deep breath, and said as calmly as possible: "Forget it, forget it, I don't bother with you." After saying this, he smiled self-deprecatingly, "How many times have I said this? It's all I was harmed by you, and now I am like an old woman, nagging one sentence over and over again. Let Yunxuan know that she must laugh at me again."

Cui Shuo could only smile wryly.

"That's all, as long as you think it's worth it. I won't try to force you anymore."

Cui Shuo hesitated for a moment, but still warned: "Don't tell others what happened tonight."

"I'll save it, don't worry."

In fact, without Cui Shuo's explanation, Tong Yi also knew that this must not be said indiscriminately.He had already guessed wrong from Cui Shuo's words, the person he admired must be of extraordinary status.If something really happens later, everyone will be unlucky together.

After Tong Yi left, Cui Shuo sat alone at the stone table.The moonlight in the Mid-Autumn Festival is always the best, covering the ground like frost and snow, reminding him of that year in his memory.

In the middle of winter, the sky is covered with snow, and the sky and the earth are white.He had just reached the crown, and because he couldn't stay in the clan anymore, he went to Yudu to study alone.One day, at the invitation of a friend, he went to Gu's mansion as a guest, but saw a little girl in the courtyard.

At the age of twelve or thirteen, wearing a pink jacket and skirt, with a thick layer of gauze wrapped around his eyes, he was squatting on the ground to tease a sparrow not far in front of him.

He found it interesting, so he stopped to look at her.Unexpectedly, within a moment, she wrinkled her nose and asked, "Who is looking at me?"

He only thought her expression of wrinkling her nose was very cute, like an angry kitten, so he smiled and said: "Little lady, don't be annoyed. A certain one is the third son's guest, it's just a moment of curiosity, there is no malice."

"Oh, you are third cousin's guest." She stood up with a hint of joy in her tone.

"Third cousin?" He raised his eyebrows, "How come the young lady is the lady of the Gu family?"

His skepticism was justified.Although the dress on her body was clean and tidy, the materials were not high-quality, unlike Miss Gu Fu who was raised by gold and jade.

She pursed her lips and smiled when she heard the words, "I'm not a young lady. I'm just a distant relative of the Gu family, and I came with my parents to look for relatives."

He realizes.A big family like the Gu family has no more distant relatives in the side branches, and I'm afraid they have to receive several groups of such people every year.

Glancing at the gauze over her eyes, he couldn't help but ask, "What's the matter with your eyes?"

"Oh, this!" She touched the gauze, a little embarrassed, "I am from the south, and this is the first time Yu has seen snow when I come back. Because no one warned me before, I made a snowman a few days ago. I was happy for a while, and stared at the snow for a long time, which caused my eyes to burn. But I don’t care, the doctor said it will be fine after a while.”

He couldn't help smiling.It has been said before that people who come to the north for the first time often make the mistake of looking at the snow, and as a result, their eyes are burned by the snow.But it's the first time he's met one in person.

Suddenly thinking of something, he couldn't help frowning, "Why isn't there a maid following you? You're running around like this, what if you fall?"

She seemed a little angry when she heard his voice, and quickly waved her hands, "It's okay. I used to come here before my eyes hurt, and I can clearly see everything around me, so I won't fall." After a pause, "The maids and sisters are all very busy. , taking care of me all day will make me feel bad."

She looked a little awkward when she said "Sister Maid", and he immediately understood.It's the same in big families, worshiping the high and stepping down, following the trend, and never bothering about unimportant people.Those maids probably saw that she was a cousin from the countryside, with no power and power, so they were impatient to take care of her.

Seeing her small face that was almost half covered by the gauze, his heart softened suddenly.

How similar are their situations?They are all marginal figures in famous families, living in the bustling and bustling room, but they will never be able to get in.

He felt pity, and remembered the joy she had on hearing the "Third Young Master" just now, so he said softly, "I'm going to see your third cousin, do you want to come together?"

She seemed to be moved for a moment, and then smiled shyly, "No, I'd better not bother the third cousin. My son, you don't have to accompany Ah Yun, go and take care of your own affairs. I will play for a while. Back to the room."

"Ayun?" He laughed, "So your name is Ayun!"

Only then did she realize that she had slipped her tongue.Although she is young, she also knows that her daughter's boudoir name is very expensive, and she cannot easily tell strange men.

Seeing that her fair little face was getting redder and redder, he didn't seem to know what to do.Such shyness made his heart skip a beat.

But in an instant he woke up.She was so embarrassed, it would be bad if she turned around and ran away in embarrassment.Her eyes are still wrapped in gauze at the moment, and she can't see anything.If the footsteps are disordered, I am afraid that I will fall down.

Thinking of this, he immediately said: "Okay, I still have something to do, so I'll take my leave first. It's cold today, little lady, don't stay outside for too long, go back to your room quickly."

She lowered her head and replied in a muffled voice: "En."

He turned to leave, deliberately accentuating the sound of his footsteps so that she could hear them clearly.When he turned a corner, he still couldn't help but stop and look back at her.

In the snow-covered courtyard, she stood alone, like an abandoned child.

That figure was all too familiar.

He remembered that many years ago, on the day of his mother's death, he once stood alone in the courtyard like this, looking around in a daze, but couldn't find the way home.

After meeting Gu Sanlang that day, he asked in a casual tone as much as possible: "I saw a little girl in the yard just now, her eyes were wrapped in gauze, playing with sparrows by herself. It's quite interesting, yes Where is the maid?"

Gu Sanlang immediately understood, and said with a smile: "You are probably talking about my distant cousin. She just arrived in Yudu a few months ago, and she has recently suffered from snow blindness, and she is currently taking medicine!"

"Oh." He made a look of sudden realization, "Your sister looks quite likable."

Gu Sanlang raised his eyebrows exaggeratedly, "If she knew that Tan Lang praised her for being good-looking in the girl's dream in Yudu, she would be so happy that she couldn't sleep!" After a pause, he couldn't help but echo, "But it is true, This cousin of mine has a pure heart and a gentle temper, and is much more lovable than my own younger sisters."

"What's her name?" he continued in that casual tone.

Gu Sanlang suddenly became alert, and looked at him solemnly, "If you ask so many questions, you don't think you have any thoughts about her, do you?"

He smiled faintly: "You think too much. If I marry your sister, won't I become your brother-in-law? I will have to call you big brother in the future! For this reason, I will never do that."

When he said this, Gu Sanlang laughed out loud, and relieved his doubts, "It's okay to tell you. She is called Gu Yunxian, and her own parents call her Yunniang, but you also know that the Gu family The daughters of the whole generation all follow the word Yun, and all of them are Yunniang. Therefore, people in this mansion call her San Niangzi according to her ranking in their branch."

Gu Yunxian.Yun Niang.He murmured silently in his heart, and then showed a faint smile.

What a good name, he thought.

As her person, let him like it.

(End of this chapter)