Ghost husband and domineering: waiting for you to be reincarnated

Chapter 313 The Last Self-Esteem
A bitter feeling suddenly came to my heart.

Thinking of how desperately I was under the water, felt that I was going to die several times, and finally survived, is Qin Lin going to tell me that the reason why he came so late was on purpose?

"..."

Qin Lin looked at me and didn't speak.But at this time, wouldn't there be no difference between not speaking and acquiescence.

I looked at him in disbelief, and felt as if my heart had been pinched suddenly, and the pain was so painful that I couldn't breathe.

From the day I knew I was in love with this man, I was ready for the worst.Because I know that he is not a living person, he is the emperor of the underworld.

It is said that emperors are ruthless, and ghosts are also ruthless.As the king of ghosts, he is obviously more ruthless than anyone else.

But maybe I got a little too carried away, because he was so kind to me that I even forgot about it.

Maybe it's the one who will take me to the highest place to watch the sunrise, maybe the one who will gently say that nothing will happen to me, maybe the one who will suddenly show a smile that turns all living beings... I don't know what Time, unexpectedly occupied such an important place in my heart.

Although I have been telling myself not to be obsessed with him, not to forget who he is, but in the end, when I found out the truth, I still felt heartbroken.

It was just using me as a bait, but in the end he arrived in time and rescued me, what is there to be dissatisfied with, why do I still feel so sad?
There seemed to be two different voices arguing in my mind, one voice was screaming and crying, and the other voice was mocking me nonchalantly, mocking my overreaching and knowingly committing crimes.

It's good to be alive.

I comforted myself, and suddenly lost the courage and strength to embrace Qin Lin.

Lying softly back on the bed, she couldn't help curling up into a small ball.The irony is that this posture is exactly the same as when I was in the river not long ago and thought I was going to die. The difference is that at that time I wanted to survive no matter what, and I wanted to protect Qin Lin and my child.

Now that I'm alive, I feel like I don't know why I'm alive.

"It takes time for me to set up a trap that can catch the water ghost. That's why I didn't rescue you immediately, but I won't let you have an accident, you know?"

Qin Lin put his hand on my shoulder and spoke slowly.

His voice seemed a little dignified, but to me, it didn't seem so important.

"What if... what if I die?" I asked weakly.

He will definitely say that I can't die without him, right?He is always sure of winning, and I am always the only one who is anxious and panicky because of his own life and death.

Therefore, even if he uses me as a bait, it is a sure win for him. I will not die, and the water ghost will not be able to escape.

What a perfect calculation, I'm the only one who does the fake show and acts too hard.

"You won't die." Qin Lin really said so.

It was clearly true, but my heart seemed to have sunk to the bottom.

It's good to be alive, it's obviously what I'm looking forward to.But why after I survived, I started to be dissatisfied with this?

As long as you can't die, then no matter what you have experienced before, no matter how much pain you have endured, no matter what danger you face, can it be indifferent?
To him, I'm just a bait, a bait that won't be lost?

"Are you angry with me?" Qin Lin hugged me from behind.

This is my favorite position, I can put my whole body in his arms, from head to toe, I seem to be trapped in his tenderness.It made me feel that I belonged to him and that he valued me, but in such a state of mind, this gesture is too ironic, right?

I lowered my head and did not hide.

Bai Xiaoxi is actually a good-for-nothing, even under such circumstances, she can't give birth to the heart to resist him.However, what I was afraid of before was that he would kill me suddenly, but now I am afraid that he would suddenly abandon me.

Bai Xiaoxi, who had sworn and sworn many times that she would never lose herself, would endure to such an extent for the sake of a man.Bai Xiaoxi, you have finally lived a life that you hate.

"You really don't want to talk to me?"

Qin Lin asked again.

My heartbeat seemed to stop for a moment.He opened his mouth, but said nothing.

Could it be that if I want to talk to him, then I will really lose the last bit of self-esteem?But if I say no, will he leave?

I was apprehensive, but my throat seemed to be filled with lead, and I couldn't utter a word.

Until the cold embrace disappeared, I could no longer feel the hug that made me feel at ease, and a tear that was held back in my eyes finally fell uncontrollably.

landed on my own pillow.

He sent me home, my own home, not his.

I buried my head and burst into tears on the pillow, not even knowing why I was crying.But this uncomfortable feeling was so real, it gave me a feeling that my heart was hollowed out.

Qin Lin never showed up after that, and I didn't even think about contacting him.

If he doesn't want me anymore, I don't want to make myself too cheap.

Of course, the part-time job in the hospital was still in vain. I skipped work every three days.And after the grieving ghosts in the hospital were cleaned up, the director also found a new person to take over my job.

When I was fired, the director was still a little surprised. The girl who was obviously very responsible suddenly seemed to be a different person.I just smiled, the job I regarded as a precious opportunity was gone, but I couldn't feel sad at all.

Yin Wushuang also has no news for the time being, and my life seems to have calmed down suddenly.It was unbelievably calm, the whole winter vacation passed smoothly, and in a blink of an eye, school had already started.

In the new semester, I bought the textbooks and sat in the classroom 10 minutes ahead of the first class.

This is my long-standing habit, to go to the classroom in advance to get the best seat.

But Jiang Jiajia was not the same as usual. When she saw me in the classroom, she rushed over and asked loudly, "Bai Xiaoxi, what's wrong with you?" Looking at her, she wanted to grab my collar and scold me.

"Huh?" I replied suspiciously, but my mind was not in the classroom at all.

Jiang Jiajia gave me a strange look, and suddenly put away her angry expression, "What's the matter with you? We didn't go back during the winter vacation, and we wanted to meet you after we arrived at school, but you are fine, and you keep saying that you are uncomfortable, no Go out. Don't think I can't see, is something wrong with you?"

Jiang Jiajia is usually careless, but now she speaks a little seriously.

(End of this chapter)