The Rebirth of Miss Xin Er

Chapter 103

Xin Er suddenly felt that his body was full of strong negative energy.

At that moment, she finally understood what the contradiction she had felt in him all this time was.It is as contrary to her age as she is, a depth that has slowly settled down over the years.This is different from the temperament that children in this period should have. No matter how well it is hidden, the eyes, the way of speaking, and the attitude of expression can be gradually discovered by people.

The first time I met him, he was cold, distant, taciturn, with cold and gloomy eyes. Rather than a hostile young man in a rebellious period, he seemed like a fighter who did not compromise with any force.Although his eyes were cold and decisive, there was a trace of flame burning deep inside, which added a strong stroke to his contradictions!
And after many contacts and getting along with him, she found that he is not expressionless, he actually loves to smile, and when he smiles, his eyes bend, making him look very immature.He is very good at speaking, and his speaking is very interesting. When you talk freely, you will find that he has a wide range of insights and rich knowledge.But such Hu Bingze is short-lived.Whenever the conversation got to the depths of love, he suddenly withdrew and returned to that cold look, his eyes full of annoyance and unwillingness.

Xin Er didn't know his past, so it was difficult to publish anything.But she knew that he didn't need her verbal comfort or anything else at this time, she just needed to listen to him quietly.

Hu Bingze lowered his eyes, raised the corners of his mouth and sneered, "I feel like a monster. I will never grow old or die. I will always be 14 years old." He suddenly raised his head, his eyes were crazy, "It's incredible, isn't it? When I was young, the time was up to me, and then I went back to the age of 14 and repeated the same life trajectory until I was eighteen.

"Those scenes have been repeated over and over again, from the initial fear and shock to the later indifference and calmness. Everyone is like a puppet arranged by the script, only I am wandering around in this script so abruptly. I know it clearly Everything that will happen, but I have no ability to stop it, and I can't change any facts. I want to get rid of everything, but I can only look on."

Listening to what Hu Bingze said, Xin Er could no longer use the words shock and surprise to describe it.She stared wide-eyed, and ten thousand muddy horses galloped past her heart.What the hell is this setting!If that's the case, it's admirable that he's still not crazy!
"For the first time, when I thought it was a dream, people around me thought I was a lunatic and sent me to the hospital. The pain told me that this was completely real. For the time being... just pretend that this is my world Well, but everything in it is out of my control. Everything I do, every result I want to change, will eventually return to the original. Family, friends, classmates, teachers, they are all living, they do not know their own I am repeating my life, and I am the only one who is sober and can only accept it passively. Xin Er, can you understand my feeling?"

At this moment, Hu Bingze's pupils seemed to be foggy, and he couldn't see clearly, which made him feel erratic.

"I don't remember how many years have passed in this kind of cycle. What's the use of remembering them? Anyway, as soon as I arrive, I will go back again. Hehe... last time I did a thorough Crazy, last time I was a deviant little bastard, what about the next time? It seems like a hypocrite, this time I am a school bully.

"When I learned to accept it, I played it all as a game. You wouldn't imagine how crazy I was before that. Falling from a tall building in Shanghai, the fuck can't die. The newspapers covered this bizarre Deeds. Haha, only I know that because this damn thing hasn’t arrived yet, I can’t die yet, so I can only linger on until then.”

"I hate it so much!" Suddenly, he became hideous, gripped the railing with both hands and said angrily, "Why is it just me! I just want ordinary people to be able to live, grow old, get sick and die like ordinary people, even if there is nothing to do, even if the family is still bankrupt in the end , That’s okay! But! Why should it be me? Let me live forever in this fake real world, and even struggle is ridiculous! No one understands me, no one wants to believe what I say, No one can see my pain! Why is this!! I want to know, what is the meaning of my existence? Or, in fact, I don’t exist at all?”

Feeling that his spirit fluctuated violently, Xin Er grabbed his hand and held it firmly, "Don't say that, I believe you. Really, I believe you!"

"Do you believe me?" He looked at her in a daze, and suddenly laughed, "You are Xin Er. You are different from them. From that day on, you are different, different from them." Hu Bingze shook his head and muttered repeatedly.

(End of this chapter)