Say goodbye to you before the wedding

Chapter 13 You are such a crying person, how can I bear to impose sadness on you (1)
Section IX Funeral
After the morning meeting on Wednesday, I felt my right eyelid twitch. As soon as I went online, I found that Xia Qiusheng had changed his QQ signature in the early hours of the morning: Life can't bear the pain.This sullen man is full of sentimentality.Hate my teeth itch.

What does this sentence imply to him?Is he still remembering the owner of the hat?
Those who are alive don't cherish it well, you will live in that shadow for the rest of your life.May God bless you, Amen!

The phone is full of photos, and the memory card is not enough.I uploaded it to the computer, read the ones I liked, and deleted the ones I didn't like.

Put Vietnam's in one file, Lijiang's in one file, life memories in one file, and the rest of miscellaneous things in one file.Only in this way, time will pass by with a huff.

I also saw Xia Qiusheng's passport photo I took in Vietnam before.There is a calm expression between the brows, and the eyes are piercing.Although it is a big headshot, it makes people look awe-inspiring.Xia Qiusheng, an investigator of the X Detachment of the Anti-drug Team of the Yunnan Provincial Public Security Bureau.

By accident, I called 114 and found the phone number of their unit.

It's late, I can only try my luck.

"Hello, the duty room of the anti-narcotics team."

"Hi, is there anyone from Xia Qiusheng here?"

"Yes, do you have anything to do with him?"

"May I ask if he is at work today?"

"No, he has been on leave for more than a month, and there is something at home. Who are you?"

"I, I'm his distant relative, cousin. I often can't get in touch recently, so I want to ask."

"His mother died of illness. Are you attending his mother's farewell ceremony? 10 o'clock at the funeral home in Houtian City."

"What? Can you say that again?"

There must be something wrong with my ears, buzzing.A plane just roared past 1 foot above my head.

It turned out that death was so close to a person, taking away his two favorite people within a year.God, tell me, are you the mastermind behind the scenes, are you also jealous of Yingcai?

Compared with Xia Qiusheng's pain, my troubles are nothing worth mentioning, and life must bear it.

I risked being fired by Lao Yu and went to Yunnan again.

It was a really dark day. When I arrived at the funeral home in Kunming at 10:[-], many, many people were busy, coming in and out.There was the sound of weeping softly, and there was the sound of low greetings and greetings.It should be Beethoven's "Pathetique" floating in the hall like weeping and complaining, endlessly.

On both sides of the mourning hall, there are wreaths, flower baskets and elegiac couplets sent by relatives and friends, and Baidu black characters are hung on the curtain at the main entrance: Lian.On the black veil right above the hall it was written: Li Ruiqiu is going well all the way. Died on December 2012, 12 at the age of 8.Under the black gauze is a huge plaque, full of white and yellow chrysanthemums, on the high platform in front of the hall, there are many green plants, and among the flowers, there is a portrait stand impressively displayed.

In the 20-inch frame is a kind face, thin and short hair.He has the same eyebrows as Xia Qiusheng, a straight nose, a calm expression, and smiles without saying a word.

The half-window of remnant bamboo brings the wind, and the white horse and plain car worry about dreaming.

I was wearing a black windbreaker, standing firmly in the middle of the crowd, frowning, tears blurred, and wearing a pale mask.I was terrified that I would lose my composure in front of a group of strangers.

I searched for Xia Qiusheng in the crowd.This is the third time we met, so close and so far away, he was wearing a black tunic suit with a white filial flower pinned to his chest.The left arm wears a filial piety sleeve.I couldn't see his expression clearly, but his steps were a little staggering.

The last item in the memorial service is the filial son's speech:

Xia Qiusheng took the host's microphone, looked around, and bowed deeply.

"Ladies and gentlemen, ladies and gentlemen:

Thank you for taking the time out of your busy schedule to attend my mother's memorial service. In the name of my filial son, on behalf of my father, I would like to express my gratitude to the guests who came to the farewell ceremony for my mother's body, (bow).I would like to express my heartfelt thanks to the leaders, elders, neighbors, and colleagues who visited the hospital and home recently, (bow).Thanks to the friends and neighbors who came to take care of the mother's funeral for three days and worked hard! "

He speaks very slowly, and bows deeply every time he says thank you.

As the mother's son, I feel ashamed that the son wants to raise his relatives away. This is the biggest regret in my life.She was tortured by illness for many years, and she didn't leave any last words before she died...

I couldn't listen to the latter ones any more, so I took off my mask and clenched my hands into fists, biting them in my mouth to keep myself from crying.At that moment, I thought of my mother, one day she will leave me eventually, I wonder if that kind of pain can be described as heart-piercing, and Xia Qiusheng at this moment, can you tell me how painful it is for you ?

After the ceremony, the guests gradually dispersed.

I stood there in a daze while he was communicating with the elder in a low voice.And beside him, there was a slender and frail girl with red eye circles, who had been helping him with arranging things and sending guests off.I heard someone calling her, Jin.

"Jin." I called her softly in a hoarse voice. "Give this to him, please."

I handed a USB flash drive to her cold hand and held it.

"I think you look so familiar. You are Mei Xue's relative? Brother Qiu Sheng, do you know what it is?" she asked in surprise.

I nodded slightly.

It was Xia Qiusheng, a high-spirited person who happened to meet on the streets of Vietnam.

It was Xia Qiusheng who was upright at the bar to call the police to catch the liar.

It was the energetic Xia Qiusheng who dragged me around the streets.

It was Xia Qiusheng who bent down and helped me squeeze the blisters on my feet and gently applied a Band-Aid.

It was Xia Qiusheng with his hands folded on his chest in the Ho Chi Minh Church and his face pious.

It is Xia Qiusheng who shouts happiness while throwing stones at the beach of Mui Ne.

It was Xia Qiusheng who was deeply devoted to singing while standing in front of a stage with many people.

It was Xia Qiusheng who suddenly appeared at my door after ordering roses and carrying a cake.

It is Xia Qiusheng who talked about the historical stories of the Qing palace in the Forbidden City.

It was Xia Qiusheng who borrowed a guitar and sat on the floor of Xidan Subway pretending to be a wandering singer.

It was Xia Qiusheng, who was waiting for dinner in Quanjude and eating Roujiamo, wiping my mouth with satisfaction.

It was Xia Qiusheng, who said goodbye to warm hugs at the airport and still did not forget to humor and ridicule ambiguous.

I was alone in Lijiang and saw Xia Qiusheng from a familiar figure...

Although I don't know why you don't want me to contact you, I only know that leaving silently at this moment may be the best way.

Put on the mask again, wrap the windbreaker tightly, and stare deeply at the man who is infinitely sad at the moment.

I just realized that I am such an emotional person. When I was in Beijing, I would try my best to save money, squeeze the bus, squeeze the subway, eat cheap food, wear cheap clothes, and buy vegetables that were on sale. A friend who has met a few times is there when I think he needs it, no matter what.

Goodbye, Yunnan.Goodbye, Xia Qiusheng.So close to the end of the world, let me tell you: Treasure!Maybe we'll never see each other again.

Stand on the side of the road and take a taxi to the airport.

"Xiaoxiao."

I told myself not to look back.

"Li Xiao."

I stepped on small steps without looking back and ran forward all the way without looking back.

"You have to force me to call you silly elder sister. Don't run away, I really have no strength now."

I was startled, and I turned my head abruptly. He was leaning against the fence on the side of the road, looking at the sky feebly, extremely decadent.

Is this still the Xia Qiusheng I know?Well, given that today is such a special day, I forgive you.

That night Xia Qiusheng placed the urn in his home, put good incense on it, and arranged the sacrificial objects.

After everything was settled, he took me to the Haigeng Dam not far from home.

Night breeze.Although it is winter, Kunming, a city like spring all year round, does not feel cold.The water surface of Dianchi Lake is very calm, occasionally there are one or two lost seagulls circling on the surface of the water.

"There is a long couplet saying: Dianchi Lake, five hundred miles away, rushing to the bottom of the eye. Wearing the shore cape, the joy is vast and boundless! Is it about this Dianchi Lake?" I began to find nothing to say.

"Yes."

"What mountain is on the other side?"

"Sleeping Beauty of Xishan."

"Sleeping Beauty? It really looks like a sleeping beauty. You can vaguely see the nose, mouth, neck, body, and feet. The proportions are very good. Nature is really wonderful."

"I've read all those QQ messages, and kept them in my heart one by one. I thought, if you don't know about some things, just pretend it didn't happen." He looked at me, his eyes filled with apology.

"Why are you avoiding me? Why didn't you tell me about your mother? You didn't treat me as a friend. I was in Yunnan a few days ago? I can take care of your aunt with you and accompany her through the last journey."

"You are such a crying person, how can I bear to impose my sadness on you again and again?"

"But, but..." I really began to highly cooperate with his words, sobbing and unable to speak normally.I'm sad that he lost his family, and I'm even more sad that he didn't consider me a friend.

"Li Xiao, do you know? I have suppressed the lair of drug lords, I have experienced devilish training, I have persuaded drug addicts, I have made second-class meritorious service three times, I have faced I have passed the test of real guns and live ammunition, and I once stood on the edge of the sword and tried my best undercover. But, but, I watched my dearest person suffer from painful illnesses, but I couldn't save her."

This majestic seven-foot man spoke word by word.Repressedly holding back his tears, he propped his hands on the concrete fence by the Dianchi Lake. Under the street lamp, his eyes were filled with confused, helpless and extremely sad waves.

I was surprised that he had so many unknown pasts, but I couldn't say a complete sentence and continued to sob quietly.

"Li Xiao, can you understand the pain of the child wanting to raise a relative who is not around?"

"Xiao Xiazi, come on, come on, don't be sad, it's not your fault. Maybe, this is a kind of relief for your mother."

"Li Xiao, from now on I can only call a picture my mother."

"You still have me, silly elder sister. Besides serving your father, if your mother can do it, I think I can do it too."

I think I am really overwhelmed by maternal love.

That night we kicked beer cans frantically at the Haigeng Dam, running in the strong wind, like two playful children, praying to forget all the troubles of adolescence, shielding all the homework assigned by the teacher, just want to vent happily and play like crazy .

Early the next morning, I went to surprise Miss Zhou Xiang's new store. It was opened on the edge of the East Second Ring Road.The title of the beautician has been changed to Mr. ××, and the beauty salon is no longer called a beauty salon. According to the current fashion, it is called Aisha Beauty and Body Management Co., Ltd.Come to do a regular facial mask called 90-minute hydration therapy session.It coincides with the first few days of opening, and it is very busy, dealing with various discount cards.I was in a hurry to help greet the guests.

During lunch, Sister Zhou said: "Sister, you went back, why are you here again. You are addicted to love affairs."

"Sister, don't make fun of me. I have some bad news to tell you. I have a hunch that I'm about to lose my job."

"That's a good thing. How about you help my sister manage the two stores. I'm too busy."

"It's good, the premise is that you open a branch in Beijing to Beijing."

"Haha, I don't have that plan. I don't like that kind of crowded and noisy city. I will travel, but I won't live there. I will study, but I won't start a business there. I will visit you, but not Will stay there. Because I can never find the feeling of home, and my heart will always be wandering. In comparison, I prefer second-tier cities like Kunming, where the pace is slow, and I have time to eat breakfast quietly, go shopping, drink tea, and read books , climbing, traveling, and soaking up the sun."

"However, I have been in Beijing for a long time, just like a blind person needs a cane, I am also dependent and addicted."

In the afternoon, Ms. Zhou held a meeting for the staff to listen to the work report of the new store manager, emphasizing beauty techniques, reception etiquette when entering the store, counting the number of cards issued, summarizing sales, and arranging disinfection and sanitation.I sat in a corner and listened quietly. This optimistic, cheerful, shrewd and capable little woman was very quick in thinking and decisive in dealing with problems.I can't help but secretly admire it.

Xia Qiusheng called and said in a hoarse voice that he would take me to Cuihu.Watch the seagulls.

I said, "Let's forget about it at this time. You should take care of your family affairs first."

He sighed and said: "I'm almost done with my work. A few aunts are helping. You finally came here. I'm sorry last time. Let me make it up."

He opened a white modern, wearing a black sweater, black shoulder windbreaker, thin figure, tired eyes hiding a touch of sadness.Even so, Junying couldn't hide it.

For a while, I didn't know what to say.In silence, we arrived at Cuihu Lake.Compared with Beijing, Kunming is really small.

It has long been heard that seagulls gather in Cuihu Park in Kunming from November to February of the next year.That kind of spectacular scene has long been famous all over the country.These red-headed gulls, which came all the way from Siberia for the winter, have also become a beautiful scenery in Kunming.

Walking by the green lake, there is a feeling of "I heard that Qiantang is the best in the world, and Ruan Dike knows whether it is Su Causeway".Even in winter, Cuihu Lake is rippling with green waves and is always surrounded by greenery.

Compared with my imagination, it was beyond my expectation.

The afterglow of the setting sun lazily shines on the lake, and thousands of red-billed seagulls covered in white are cheering loudly, chasing and playing with each other.Some spin to high places, some run along the lake, some quickly pass over the top of the head, and some swim leisurely on the water surface, contrasting with the fish in the water.

I tore the bread into small pieces and threw it in the air, only to see the seagull swooping down and gliding proudly.Most of the seagulls who are full fly to the pavilions in the park to close their eyes and bask in the sun, sweetly continuing to dream of the boundless forest in Siberia and the crescent-shaped Lake Baikal.

People strolling along the shore enjoy leisure and tranquility.Human voices are noisy, and people and birds live together.

Xia Qiusheng said: "Look, if you weren't here, would you know that people and birds can live in harmony like this? Would you know that nature is so close to us?"

I was a little moved by the harmonious picture.Indulge in the endless joy and shock brought by seagulls.I also instantly realized why many foreigners want to stay here.

The horizon of dusk draws the last halo, and the city enters light night.

Sister Zhou called and said that she was done with her work and would have dinner together in the evening.Xia Qiusheng set the location at Dali Bai Nationality Hall on the edge of Cuihu Lake.

They exchanged greetings in Yunnan dialect.I didn't understand a word.

I have never liked to order food. Sister Zhou looked at the menu and ordered sliced ​​beef and hot and sour fish. After that, she handed the order list to Xia Qiusheng.

He actually closed the menu and ordered a bunch of them without script.Deng Chuan milk fan, grilled bait, dried incense platter, Midu rolled hoof.roasted tea.Regular customers who come here often.He repeatedly asked to put less chili peppers, and it is strictly forbidden to put chili peppers. I know that chili peppers are extremely spicy among chili peppers.

As a native of Yunnan, there must be no spicy food.But he knew that I don't eat spicy food, so I gave him 32 praises for his carefulness in my heart.

While waiting for the food to be served, he looked at me chatting with Sister Zhou with a half-smile and didn't interrupt.

Certainly a delicious meal.

After dinner, Sister Zhou and Xia Qiusheng competed to pay the bill, and finally Xia Qiusheng won with absolute tenacity.

Sister Zhou saw him walking towards the cashier and said in a low voice, "Quick! Be lenient when you confess, and stricter when you resist."

I made a brief statement to Sister Zhou about my experience in Vietnam, without adding salt or vinegar.

"Going to Vietnam, this, an affair? This kind of chance is really not something that everyone can encounter. It's interesting."

I shook my head and said, "The two of us? It was just a chance encounter. I've been on Baidu, and most of the romantic encounters have been in bed. We are in Vietnam. We are clean and clean, cleaner than white noodles, and there is no impurity at all."

"No call?"

"Hey, you're absolutely good, Liu Xiahui, even if I'm Pan Jinlian, I can't do anything, not to mention my role-playing is more like a pimp Wang Po."

"That's just what you think, then you two also have a story, let me preview your show."

"Please! Our show ended in Vietnam. Stop teasing me with my sister. He keeps saying I'm stupid, but he actually calls me a silly elder sister. I don't bother to explain. I'm so wise and stupid. I pretended. Let such a person with a low IQ breed a little capital of pride." I muttered in protest.

(End of this chapter)