Say goodbye to you before the wedding

Chapter 18 You are such a crying person, how can I bear to impose sadness on you (6)
I found a private hospital.I hesitated again and again, and I planned to kill the child without anyone noticing. There are so many barriers between us, such a deep misunderstanding, and it will be more complicated to have another child.Lying on the cold operating bed, I stared at the shadowless lamp on the ceiling, my mind went blank.All the equipment was in place, I was infused with cold liquid, and I was inserted into the oxygen tube. The doctor took off the mask and said softly, "The anesthesiologist will come later, can you wait?"

I said, "No, no, please don't anesthetize me, I need to wake up and remember this moment."

The doctor said, "Are you sure? Do you know how much it hurts?"

I looked at this aunt who looked like my mother with tears in my eyes, and said to her, "I'm sure, that's not my heartache."

I heard a heavy sigh.

My hands were tied to the armrests of the operating table with gauze.I heard the sound of metal utensils colliding back and forth, the voice of doctors directing nurses, the sound of blood pressure reporting, and the sound of my heart dripping blood.The physical pain really started, although it was only a few minutes, but it was a heart-piercing feeling, as if a trace of iron was tearing your uterus fiercely, and then threw it on the ground viciously.Big drops of sweat flowed down my forehead, locks of hair sticking to my face, I must be in a terrible mess, very well, this is the price, Li Xiao, you should bear it alone.I began to moan softly, my legs trembled, and my whole body trembled. The doctor and auntie felt that I was extremely uncomfortable, and asked me eagerly: "Are you okay? How is it? Can you bear it?"

"I..." I burst into sobs.I want to say, thank you auntie.That warm look.

A ferocious old nurse next to me ran up to me: "What the hell are you talking about, what did you think when you were happy, now you know it hurts."

After the operation, I was pushed by the old nurse to the ward for postoperative observation.

"Do you have any family members? What do you eat?"

"No, I won't eat." I replied coldly.

I closed my eyes and tried not to look at her. She was standing by the trash can, eating sunflower seeds and whispering to another nurse.

Every word is printed in my ears:
"You beat the fetus by yourself, it's not Xiao San'er, who did such an outrageous thing at a young age. It's a crime."

"Mom, I'm chanting scriptures again." The voice was so familiar.

The old nurse slapped her hands, only to hear the melon seed shells on her body shaking neatly: "Why are you here, Xiaoyu."

I already know the identity of the visitor, I dare say this is the legendary Nanny Rong.

"I'm here to get the keys to the house, I forgot where I lost them." I have already confirmed the identity of the person who came, and these two living treasures are actually a family.

"Oh, my ancestors, it's like throwing laying hens. Follow me to get it."

I quickly covered my head under the quilt, the needle on my arm was touched, and blood returned quickly from the infusion tube.

"It hurts, it hurts, it hurts".I called out instinctively.

Mother Rong came over full of resentment.

"Xiaoxiao?" Liu Yu actually recognized me.You motherfucker, you were invited by a monkey to be funny, can you come out again after my sister goes home from surgery.

"Yeah." I replied helplessly.

"You two know each other? Son, look at how stubborn she is as a vixen. Oh, these men are all born and raised by mothers, and they are irresponsible even if they put on their pants."

"Who says it's irresponsible? Didn't I come here? Damn, you're scolding yourself." Liu Yu walked quickly to my bed, and said with a serious expression, his expression was in place.

"Oh my ancestors, can't it be, yes, it's yours?"

"Ah (third tone) ah (fourth tone)." Liu Yu's words sound quite puzzling.

Nanny Rong immediately understood: "Oh, my ancestor, why didn't you say it earlier? It's really good. Mom has only broken up for a few months now, and now I have a girlfriend again. During that time, I saw you drank your worries every day. Yes, your dad and I were still thinking about you because you were afraid that you would not be able to slow down. You finally did something that a man does today, son, you are amazing!"

After finishing speaking, he took a peek at me, as if feeling inappropriate, took Liu Yu's hand, and said tearfully: "My eldest grandson was killed right in front of my eyes, why didn't you tell me sooner?" You can come down if you are not married."

"Mom, we're afraid that you won't agree. If you beat me to death after you're born, you'll break the law."

"Hey, look at this girl, she's so juicy. Mom agrees. It's good. If you want it later, you can take care of your health first. I'll order chicken soup for you first." Said and rushed out like a gust of wind.

The ears were finally quiet.

"Hey, buddy, what about me, help the world." He said helplessly.

"The fourth movie Huan Zhu Ge Ge will be filmed again, you remember to sign up for your mother."

"Are you saying that my mother is suitable to play the queen? Will she be a little old? I'm afraid the emperor will have some opinions."

I said quietly: "Can you not make fun of a person who is still lying on the hospital bed. No matter how awesome Chopin is, he can't play my sadness."

"Seriously, whose is it?"

"Isn't it yours? You admitted it just now." I said with a pale face.

"Look at my head, is there a dazzling green light?"

"I'm almost heartbroken to death, you're still poor here." With a blink of his eyes, a big tear rolled down the corner of his eye.

"Don't be afraid, I will help you find a handsome and rich master as soon as you leave the hospital."

"I'm an abandoned wife, and I've had an abortion. Who would want me, unless a 60-year-old crappy old man."

"This statement is wrong. Now the 60-year-old man is very popular, and in a few years, he will be able to inherit the inheritance. Then he will become a rich woman and take care of a few handsome faces."

"How do you know so much? You have such a thorough understanding of society? Got it, have you been taken care of?"

"That's right. I'm blackmailing myself to make fun of you and relieve your pain." He curled his lips and said.

The advertisement said that on the day of the operation, you can go as you please, but because of the enthusiastic obstruction of Sister Rong, I had to stay for two more days.

Liu Yu came to see me the next day and brought soft-shelled turtle soup made by Nanny Rong.He even helped me up to drink soup.Still blowing in a decent manner, wanting to feed me.I was so moved.

I said: "Farewell, it's very ambiguous, I'm sorry for you wearing an outdated cuckold!"

He chuckled: "Just kidding, we have to show it to Nanny Rong. After graduating from the acting department, we have to be professional."

"This nurse is not bad, does she provide other services?"

"Do you need any other services?" He glanced at me slyly.

"How much is the monthly subscription?"

"A monthly subscription is not expensive, only 30 yuan."

"You're so cheap, and you're also responsible for carrying shit and peeing, picking your teeth and pinching your feet?"

"No, those are value-added services."

"What are the monthly subscriptions?"

"Eat, sleep and chat with each other."

"Oh, I'll go, fuck off."

I was discharged from the hospital on the third day. I felt like I had regained a new life. Liu Yu seemed to have entered the role. He followed me to the house, gave me supplements, and carefully explained the usage of various postoperative drugs.

I said, "Please go back, Mr. Liu."

He pretended to be surprised: "Didn't you trap me?"

"Stop teasing me, I'm a broken flower, I'm not interested at all. If you want a girl, you can find Xiao Ya. If you want a mother's love, you can look for Aunt Rong Rong."

"If you're missing your uncle, then I'm leaving. Take care of yourself, dear."

"Wait, don't tell Xiao Ya about this. If she knows that you took care of me, I will either die or be injured."

"Is this girl really interested?" Liu Yu asked, scratching his head against the door.

"What do you say, she is really a good girl, simple, heartless, easy to support."

Before going to bed, I said to myself, Xiaoxiao, be a restrained woman who cherishes love.Time will be the best way to heal the wound, and the wound will not hurt so much as the memory gradually blurs. Compared with the so-called love, the greater meaning of Bei Piao is to realize self-worth, which is to make money in layman's terms.

One also has to live beautifully.

Until the early hours of the morning, Xia Qiusheng's multimedia message was not received.According to the usual practice, I should have received it long ago, which made me a little uneasy, holding my phone and waiting.Thinking that the phone is broken, unplug the battery, clear the memory, and do various tests.Finally I couldn't resist calling him a phone, which kept ringing, but no one answered.I fell into painful pondering.

The thought about Xia Qiusheng is that in the closet, that beige hat hangs quietly, lonely and sad like me.A little regret, a sense of loss.

It's been so long, Xia Qiusheng, have you forgotten your hat?I want you to forget, and I am afraid of your fickleness.It's like the big meal you eat during weight loss, the ambivalence of guilt after indulgence.

There is a kind of uneasiness that a habit that has persisted for a long time is suddenly disrupted. I guess maybe he is busy, maybe he forgot, maybe he is tired, who will stick to a meaningless thing all the time.Playing ambiguous, whoever gets serious first loses.Don't be too stupid, okay?Wash up and sleep, don't dream, I told myself.

I really had a dream that night.

In the dream, I was swimming in the sea alone, and my feet were caught by large groups of seaweed.I tried my best to break free, but I couldn't break free.Then I woke up, drenched in sweat.I sat up in the dark and took out my mobile phone from under the pillow. The pale light on the screen was so dazzling in the dark night. I squinted one eye, and the time display was 3:48. This is the most decadent time of the night. Many People with depression choose to end their lives at this time.

shudder.

The phone showed that I had just received an unread MMS, like a guiding light in the dark night, I was ecstatic to open it, it was Xia Qiusheng's 51st rose.P.S.: Sorry for being a few hours late on business.

At that moment, the rope hanging from the bucket in my heart was slowly let down.

It turned out that my looking left and right, and my nightmares were all because of a late MMS message from Xia Qiusheng.

I called Xia Qiusheng at such a time, my heart was tumbling, but what I said was neither salty nor bland.I have to admit, he is more patient than the enemy.

"Xiao Xiazi."

"Well. Why haven't you slept yet? I woke you up."

"I fell asleep after calling you, how about you?"

"What a coincidence, I'm going to sleep after answering this call. Anyway, I'm sleeping alone, let's go together."

"Hehe." I blushed suddenly, not knowing how to answer this joke. "When can I go to Meili Snow Mountain?"

"Last time you promised me to exercise, did you do it?"

"Well, I will, don't worry."

"Well, the time will be notified later, and Comrade Li Xiao should be ready at all times."

"You know, that song you sang in Mui Ne keeps circling in my head, and I regret not recording it. Can you sing another song?"

"Huh? Is this a fan confessing to me? Let me calm down and satisfy you. I like Xu Wei's song, so I will sing a few lines so as not to disturb the people. You can just listen to it. Always in a dream/I see you Helpless eyes / My heart is awakened again / I stand here and remember the scene of parting with you / You stand so lonely in the crowd..."

After singing, he said sadly: "We can always find what we want to say in Xu Wei's songs. But there are some words that we would rather rot in our hearts than say."

Xia Qiusheng, what is it that you can't say?
(End of this chapter)