Say goodbye to you before the wedding

Chapter 21 Enough for a Man, I Rarely Like You (3)
I was locked in the room, my mobile phone was confiscated, and I thought about my mistakes behind closed doors.I thought about a lot of things, lying down from dawn to dusk, our past, from the beginning to the present, although we are a little distant, but I love him, for so long, dependence has become a drug.It goes deep into the bone marrow and I can't quit. The more my mother objects, the more I want to be with him.If the men who appeared in my life later were the icing on the cake, then Qingfeng would definitely be a blessing in disguise for me.

It was almost time for dinner delivery in the evening, and I heard my mother whispering in the living room, asking my father to bring me chicken soup later, the child has lost weight.

"Sun Tzu's Art of War" 36 tactics of bitter meat.

I took out the scissors that my mother used for sewing, and stabbed the arm fiercely. Of course, it was not the large artery or the small artery, but the place with the most flesh in the bend of the arm.I don't know if the scissors were too sharp or the strike was too ruthless, but the bright red blood gushed out. I bit the quilt and tried not to scream.But big beads of sweat flowed down my forehead.

How long has passed, I can’t remember, I have never had the fear, I thought I was really going to die, I prayed that my dad would find out about it soon, the blood had already flowed down from the arm down the arm, to the tip of the little finger, It dripped on the ground and flowed through my heart, every drop hurt, my consciousness began to blur, I clearly heard the breeze call me: girl, girl...

When my dad opened the door and saw this scene, the bowl and chopsticks fell to the ground. He shivered and shouted: "Mother Xiao, come quickly, it's not good, the child committed suicide!"

My mother collapsed in front of my bed and shook me desperately: "Xiao, Xiao, you should look at mom. Mom has worked hard to raise you for more than 20 years. You can't do stupid things. Mom regrets it, no Stop you, don't stop."

I slowly opened my eyes: "Do you keep your word?"

She pressed her apron over my wound and my sensible dad called 120 right away.

A few minutes later my mother was loaded into the ambulance.Overwhelmed, heart attack.As soon as I lay down in the hospital, it was the seventh day of the seventh day. That day we rubbed our tears and were relatively speechless.I only returned to Beijing on the eighth day of the lunar new year.It was only after I went back that I realized that my mother had called Wei Qingfeng before I did, which probably meant that she had no money and no house to marry her celestial daughter.Wei Qingfeng, who is so self-proclaimed and lofty, naturally doesn't feel like a bird of hers. Before I could show my scars, she threw all the fire on me, and then I moved away in a rage.Then we were in a state of inseparability, Qingfeng lived a life of drunkenness, Susu had been coveting him for a long time, so he took advantage of the situation and robbed him, trying to comfort his wounded heart with his body.

That's probably what happened.It's all over, don't want to.

This year, the taste of the year in my hometown is more full. These days, I feel that the days are long and satisfying.In the morning, I sleep until the sun basks in my buttocks, get up to eat dumplings, and then visit relatives in various ways. In the afternoon, I watch folks play cards and mahjong.

At dusk, when I lay on the deck chair and watched the sunset, I was thinking, this is also a way of living, simple and down-to-earth.Why do I dislike Beijing a little bit?

On the night of New Year's Eve, my dad was frying fish in the kitchen.My mother and I peeled the scallions and prepared to chop dumpling stuffing.

The phone rang.I didn't move my hands when they were a little dirty, and I usually ignored them when they hung up after a few rings, and went back when I had time.The CRBT sang persistently, interfering with the signal next to the TV, the sound of 'tuk-tuk'.I washed my hands slowly and walked over, it turned out to be Wei Qingfeng.

I hesitated for a moment, but went back to my room to pick it up.

"Long time no see, happy new year." He said excitedly.

"Happy Chinese New Year, what's the matter?" I held back my excitement and replied lightly.

"My mother said she missed you, let me call you."

"Say hello to aunt and uncle, I'm fine."

"Your mother let you go on a blind date again?"

I froze for a moment, not understanding what he meant by asking this question.

"That's natural. There are more than a dozen of them, waiting in line to be summoned. You were watching a movie with someone just now, and you chose this time to disturb the interest."

"It's really dear, just a friendly reminder, although you look like a sauerkraut, don't be too inferior and jump when you see a man. For me, you can also consider joining the team. Can I guarantee the quality this time? ?”

"A good horse doesn't turn back, shut your crow's mouth, my male god called me, hang up."

This phone call sent ripples in my heart.It's been a long time but I can't wait for God to come.

Xiao Xiazi's MMS still stubbornly sent from time to time, our relationship is neither far nor close, neither painful nor itchy.

No.16 moth
A few days before returning to Beijing, I had a lot of nostalgia for my hometown.It was delayed until the tenth day of the first month and had to leave home.

My mother can't wait to send me there in person, and can't wait to bring all the special products.My mother who travels thousands of miles is worried, and I deeply understand it at that moment.

After returning to Beijing, he took a full day's rest and went to work non-stop. For the first time, Lao Yu came here before the Lantern Festival.The first thing was dismissal. After the difficult completion, it was found that some positions were not manned enough.The second thing is recruitment.

Old Yu, look at what you are doing, can we die if we don't make trouble.

Quickly contact the recruitment website: urgently recruit 10 telemarketers.After lunch, when she was about to take a nap, Tian Tian called the internal line to the office and said that there was an interview.Got my permission, and then brought in.Holding the resume in my hand, I feel that the one-inch photo is very familiar.Looking up, it turned out to be Wei Qingfeng's younger brother, Qingyang.His hair was shaved, he had a crew cut, and he wore a shirt, but it was a casual one, and his lower body was still in crotch pants.Seeing it was me, I turned around and left.

"Wei Qingyang, wait a minute, don't you recognize me?"

"Sister Xiaoxiao, I'm sorry, I didn't know you worked here."

"Is it because I am afraid that my sister will go through the back door? Haha, no, I will do business. Come on, let's introduce myself."

"Forget it anyway. I don't know how to say something to you. Anyway, I'm sorry for you."

"Where are you sorry? We seem to be meeting for the second time. Did you climb the window of my house?"

"Last year you had a fight with my brother, which led to the breakup. It was all my fault. I took those photos. My girlfriend was promoting beer at Yunsheng Bar. I went to pick her up from get off work that night. I think the back looks a bit like you, I stayed for a while longer. I just ran into a man holding a glass of wine to strike up a conversation with you, and then you two drank a lot of wine together, and finally left together. I didn’t know what to do at the time, and no one answered my brother’s phone. I just took a lot of photos and sent them to my brother, but you are also quite avant-garde, and you even go to bars to get drunk..."

"Why are you? Why did you tell me now?" Susu's sad and lonely eyes after being slapped clearly appeared in front of my eyes. I was trembling all over, and my emotions were a little out of control.

"I think my brother has the right to know, so he told me to leave it alone and handle it by himself. I didn't know that you two broke up because of this. Later, a woman named Susu came to the house After explaining this to my brother, I realized that the man is just an ordinary friend of yours, we all know each other, and there was a misunderstanding, oops, I'll go..."

"I see, you can go."

"Oh. I'm sorry, Miss Xiaoxiao."

"Wait, the resume is also taken away, immediately, immediately."

In Beijing, where the heating was just turned off, it should be a bit cold according to reason, but there were large beads of sweat on my forehead. I pushed open the window and stood in the wind, and the north wind blew on my neckline.Looking down from the 23rd floor, the cars on the Fourth Ring Road are as big as a matchbox, and the people are as small as ants.I was a little dizzy and my legs were weak. I closed my eyes and opened my arms, imagining that I was flying freely. I definitely didn't intend to jump down, don't get me wrong.

Xiao Ya secretly told me on QQ: "According to reliable information, Mr. Yu's wife and children have all been brought to Beijing, and the whole family has been reunited. He even came to the company for inspection yesterday. Maybe he got wind that Mr. Yu is cheating. So you must be careful."

"What does it have to do with me?"

"Be careful hitting the muzzle of the gun, keep a distance from the mines."

"Well, it makes sense. How did you hook up with the nostalgic version of Brother Liu Yu?"

"Advancing by leaps and bounds. Unstoppable. The sky is falling apart. I finally found the goal of my life." Proud, proud, proud... More than 20 proud expressions.

"So fast?"

"Of course this is just my wishful thinking. He treats me like a child. He said there is a big age gap."

"You're not coming, are you?"

"He said that I was trying to be new for a while and lacked fatherly love, but I believe that love will grow over time. I can wait slowly, I am not in a hurry."

"Has the tsundere princess finally realized the feeling of unrequited love?"

"You have to help me, don't laugh at me."

"Then how are you going to thank me?"

"My friend's newly opened yoga studio is doing activities. I'm going to get two monthly cards. What do you think?"

"Let's talk. Back off."

"Boss, boss, annual card, annual card. That's it."

"make a deal."

At noon, I was in a bad mood because of training a few new employees who were not very smart. I pulled Liu Yu out and complained that it was really difficult to be a teacher. Jokes or not-so-serious pictures.There is a feeling of being disrespected.

I took out my trump card and gave a powerful counterattack: "Cynicism, dissolute and unrestrained. I deserve to be unable to find a wife. Virtue." When mentioning a wife, Liu Yu was silent.

No matter how I ask, I don't answer.

Invite colleagues from our department to eat pizza in the evening.It's a little late to get home.

When I got home and logged into QQ, I saw Liu Yu sending messages on his own, seemingly talking to himself, or reporting his whereabouts.

"I thought my wound was healed, but I was stimulated by you."

"My mother urged me to find a wife every day, and introduced girls to me everywhere. She would go to any park where there was a blind date meeting."

"I didn't go to work yesterday and slept at home all day, so I wasn't in the mood."

"After breaking up with Susu, why am I not interested in girls? It's too realistic. Is there true love?"

"I'm sick of everything around me."

"I'm a bit decadent, so strange that I don't even know myself."

……

"Xiaoxiao, our unit is going to reform the system."

"Good thing."

"Xiaoxiao, this means that a bear like me may lose my job."

"Congratulations."

"Xiaoxiao, why do you think I am so miserable?"

"God willing."

"I don't know what else I can do."

"Wait to die."

After a while, Liu Yu's QQ was still flashing, I was watching the old movie "Zhou Yu's Train", I simply typed a bunch of words to express my resentment.Roughly speaking, are you annoying? Don’t bother me, can you? Besides me, there is no one else who can act as a trash can and listen to your complaints?You are a big man, are you sad or not?
Liu Yu finally fell silent, and after I finished watching the movie, I went to look through the chat records.The message he sent was: How should I face Xiao Ya's passionate feelings?I don't quite believe that the heartless Liu Yu would ask this question, is it a brain teaser?Think about the big toe is not.

I quickly asked, "Are you still there?"

Liu Yu replied: "Tell me how to deal with Xiao Ya's passionate feelings?"

I didn't think about it: "As far as I know, she is serious. What about you, do you love her?"

Liu Yu: "I'm not sure, what should I do?"

I said disapprovingly: "Wait. Everything in the world has been arranged by God, so buddy, all you have to do is to have a positive attitude and wait. Wait until you are sure of what you really think in your heart. Before that, don't act rashly."

"Oh. I dare you to be a master."

"Fart, I'm not used to you being so serious. Continue to be sensational, actually, do you know? I'm also waiting, waiting for my love. Waiting for God to make the most appropriate arrangement for us."

"What would happen if you loved someone deeply?"

"If I love him, if going to the ends of the earth happens to be his wish, I will fulfill his wish. There should be a vigorous love in a person's life, like moths to a flame."

"Xiaoxiao, what if I am willing to accompany you to the ends of the earth?"

"Okay, when it's time for vacation, make an appointment with Xiao Ya and my other sisters."

Of course I know what Liu Yu means, but besides pretending to be stupid, can I hit him again?Isn't that embarrassing?

When I typed the words vigorously, moths to the flame, my mind was full of the shadow of Xia Qiusheng.

No.17 yoga
No matter how many stories and how sad the night, the sun will always rise the next day.

In the morning, I drove by the intersection of Ciyun Temple and met a strange man in black. He walked back and forth at the zebra crossing. With a bright smile, the red light turned on, and amidst the heavy traffic, he stood at one end and clapped vigorously, like a curtain call on the red carpet.Many people are watching, many people are discussing, everyone gave him a unified name: crazy.Then hurry on the road.Chen Xi stretched his shadow very, very long, he was immersed in his own world, self-indulgent, self-appreciative, making people unbearable to be disturbed.If it was a dream, he must not want to wake up.At least, at the moment his expression looks happier than mine.

As soon as I arrived at the company, Xiao Ya put two yoga cards on my desk to invite credit, as well as a detailed class schedule.

"Duck, what is this?"

"Yoga card, yoga can decompress and nourish the mind, release the body and mind, calm the mind, improve temperament, think calmly, and achieve the purpose of cultivating the mind and nature. Boss, take a look, let's go together after get off work."

"Okay, I'm more interested in cultivating the mind and character, and I'm alone anyway, so it's such a happy decision."

During the day, his job was to summarize training and assess new employees, his mouth was dry while he was talking, when Wei Qingfeng's sister called.During the days when I lost contact with Qingfeng, his sister always brought news.Her brother bought a new car, and her brother's annual salary has risen to more than 50.Her brother rejected many girls because he still had me in his heart.Her parents were looking forward to his early marriage and grandchildren. He started to be depressed, he smoked several packs of cigarettes a day, and he drank his sorrows away...

Qingfeng will occasionally leave a message on QQ, to refine the central idea: are you okay?Take it easy.Eat more and don't get too skinny.Don't trust men too much.Don't be silent, we are not enemies.If we can't be together, let's be relatives far away.

I suggest that everyone look at the projection data first.He walked out of the conference room to the balcony to answer the phone.

"Sister-in-law, are you disturbing your work?"

"Ling'er, let's discuss something, don't call me sister-in-law, call me sister."

"Sister, I'm getting married. Can you come on 3.18?"

"That's great, congratulations, Ling, my sister is happy for you. Me, I'll see the situation then."

"But I really hope you can come. By the way, let me tell you something. Susu came to our house after the sixth day of the Lunar New Year. She came to see my grandma. My grandma is a little sick. My brother is afraid of my grandma. I was sorry before I left. My parents liked her very much and regarded her as their future daughter-in-law. Of course, besides me, I only like you, Sister Xiaoxiao. I regret that you can't be my sister-in-law."

"Ling, this kind of result is actually quite good. I'm really happy for your brother. If my parents hadn't objected, even if it wasn't Susu, it was any other girl, we might have ended up like this. It's because we have gaps, don't It's a pity. Let your brother treat Susu well, she is a kind and good girl."

"Sister, do you really think so?"

"Yes, sincerely. I wish you happiness, wish your brother and Susu happiness."

After hanging up the phone, I wanted to slap myself twice.Do I really think so in my heart?
After the assessment of new employees, the entry procedures were handed over to Tian Tian, ​​and I took Xiao Ya to the Tuliya Yoga Studio an hour earlier in the name of talking about clients.The address is next to Minzu University.

(End of this chapter)