Reborn Noble Daughter and First Wife

Chapter 146 Suicide Attempted
After noon, there was a muffled thunder in the sky, one sound like another, and after a while, the big raindrops began to fall like pouring down.

Gu Qinglian was exhausted physically and mentally, and gradually fell asleep.Fangxin came to the room and saw that Gu Qinglian was fast asleep, so she pulled off the brocade quilt beside her and covered her body.

It rained for a day and a night, and Gu Qinglian also slept for a day and a night.When I woke up the next morning, I could smell the unique earthy fragrance after the rain.She got up and came to the courtyard, and looked down at a wild flower that had been damaged by the wind and rain under her feet. A few drops of rain were pressing on each petal. with.

Looking at this wild flower, Gu Qinglian couldn't help thinking of herself. Isn't her situation the same as this wild flower? After being ruthlessly destroyed by the wind and rain, she had to work hard to support her heavy body and tired heart.

The sun slowly rose up, and the wild flower seemed to have gained new strength, facing the sun tenaciously, the raindrops on the petals gradually disappeared, and the petals were in full bloom, more colorful under the warm sunlight.

Looking at all this, Gu Qinglian seemed to have gained new strength all over her body, looking at the rising sun in the east.

What a beautiful sunshine!

A new day has come!
"Young Mistress, it's windy, be careful of catching cold!" At some time, Fang Xin had come behind her and put a cloak on her body.

Gu Qinglian glanced at her gratefully.

Hearing Gu Qinglian's yelling yesterday, Fangxin was worried, so she came to the door of the house, and she saw the fierce battle between the two masters.Fangxin also felt sympathy and pity for all of Gu Qinglian's experiences. She did not expect that Gu Qinglian could be so tenacious this morning, and she admired her even more.

Gu Qinglian came to the room and sat down, at this moment she suddenly seemed to go back, thinking that she could not go back, she sighed.

All of this is like a dream. There are too many accidents in life. Everything that Gu Qinglian has experienced since traveling to this ancient world is too dramatic and sad. Now I think of it An unreal feeling.

Am I clearly acting in a bitter drama?Thinking of this, Gu Qinglian smiled wryly.

Since then, Gu Qinglian has been thinking about one thing all day - how to travel back to modern times.

When I was sleeping, I was thinking about how she should go back, but I couldn’t fall asleep when I couldn’t think of it, and I kept thinking about it when I couldn’t sleep.Fangxin's worry at the beginning turned into indifference in the end.

Just when Gu Qinglian was thinking about this matter, she didn't think about food or sleep at night, suddenly her eyes lit up, I might be able to travel back after I die, isn't it because I had a car accident in my previous life?Didn’t I also read a lot of time-traveling stories before, it seems that people who time-traveled after they died in ancient times would travel back to modern times and continue to live. Didn’t they also acted in TV dramas who lived in ancient times for a period of time and could travel back after death? days or months.Thinking of this, Gu Qinglian was like a hanging pot empowering the top, suddenly enlightened.If you want to go back, you just have to die.

Thinking of a way to go back, Gu Qinglian was in a good mood, and no matter what time of day it was, she ordered Fangxin to prepare a table of good food, and she wanted to be a full ghost no matter what!
It's late at night now, what kind of meal are you eating!
Fangxin couldn't see through the master in front of her, and didn't know what was going on in her head all day long.When he heard the order, he had to do it.

After Gu Qinglian had a full meal, she thought about how to commit suicide, yes, scissors.Now that the night is quiet, it is just a good time to commit suicide.

She stood up and looked around. She seemed to have used it when she saw Fangxin in the morning. Where is it?It turned out to be here, and finally found it behind the bronze mirror.

Gu Qinglian held the handles of the scissors upside down with both hands, and gestured towards her heart. After this, she should understand, and she must be faster, otherwise it would be so painful if she couldn't die at once!

Determined, Gu Qinglian closed her eyes, took a deep breath, held the scissors and stabbed straight at the heart!As soon as the tip of the knife touched the clothes on her chest, it stopped, and she mustered up the courage to stab again, and stopped stabbing, while still muttering silently: "If you die, you can go back." After repeating this for a dozen times , and ultimately failed.She put down the scissors and sat on the couch.

I'm a fucking normal person, how can I have the courage to stab myself with a knife!
I really want to cry without tears!

How to do it?Let's dive, I can't swim anyway, jumping into the water will definitely kill me.Gu Qinglian thought of another way to commit suicide and was secretly delighted when she suddenly thought that she is now under ground and can't get out of the gate, where to jump!
Otherwise, jumping off a building is fine, but the chance of death is not high. If you can't die, you will suffer even more if you become disabled.Gu Qinglian was thinking wildly like this, and fell asleep unknowingly.

The next day, she was still thinking of ways to commit suicide, and suddenly her eyes lit up, and she had it.

Gu Qinglian gave Fangxin some money and told her to buy some good materials and prepare a table of good wine and food.

Fangxin prepared in a daze, and at noon time, a table of good wine and food was served.Gu Qinglian pulled Fangxin to sit down together, had a rich lunch with her, and said a lot of farewell words during the dinner, after all, a master and a servant, Gu Qinglian thought that she would travel back and never see her again, There was still some reluctance in my heart, and I drank a few more glasses with her.

After eating, Gu Qinglian found an excuse to send her out, found a white silk in the house, moved a stool, threw the white silk on the beam, and hanged herself, isn't it all like this on TV.Then he stood on the stool, tied the white silk with a dead button, and hung it around his neck.Gu Qinglian closed her eyes tightly, took a deep breath, mustered up her courage and prepared to stare at the bench, and it was over.

"Young Mistress, what are you doing?" Fang Xin broke in, her face turned pale with fright at the scene before her.The voice trembled a little.

What Gu Qinglian said during the banquet just now made Fangxin very uneasy, she did not go far away, but secretly hid outside the house to peek, saw that Gu Qinglian was about to hang herself in the room, so she broke in.

"I, I..." Gu Qinglian faltered, her heart became more and more anxious, and I couldn't figure it out for a long time.

Fangxin flew over immediately, snatched the white silk from Gu Qinglian's hand, and glared at Gu Qinglian angrily.

Gu Qinglian had never seen Fangxin get angry, and she didn't know what to do for a while.

"Young Mistress, come down. From now on, I will never leave." The anger on Fangxin's face gradually dissipated, and she returned to her usual tone.

Gu Qinglian couldn't explain to her that what she did today was purely for wearing back, not committing suicide.Even if she said it, how could she, an ancient person, understand it.

The suicide plan was strangled in the infancy!
Since then, Fangxin has really been inseparable every step of the way, making Gu Qinglian feel like a prisoner, without any freedom.

With Fangxin staring at her so closely, the resistance to suicide is too great, it seems that she has to find another way.Gu Qinglian thought to herself.Apart from being able to wear it back after death, what else can I do.She was thinking hard, but Fangxin's words woke her up.

"Young Mistress, you've always been so unlucky recently, why don't we ask a fortune teller to figure it out, and how about getting rid of evil spirits?" Although Fangxin's words were unintentional, they were a great inspiration to Gu Qinglian who was thinking hard.

Fortune-telling, feng shui, astrology, yes!Why didn't I think of it before?

Gu Qinglian was overjoyed, hugged Fangxin happily and twirled around happily, kissed her on the cheek, and laughed loudly: "Fangxin, thanks to you!"

Fangxin was infected by Gu Qinglian's sudden emotion, thinking that her proposal just now really worked, she danced happily. "Young Mistress, I'm going to ask the fortune teller." Fang Xin rushed outside excitedly.

"Wait!" Fang Xin was caught off guard by Gu Qinglian's words, and she continued: "Go find some stars, and books on studying astronomy."

"Young Mistress, what do you want these books for?" Fang Xin looked at her suspiciously.

"Don't ask so many questions, just go find it." Gu Qinglian urged, ignoring her question.

Fang Xin was puzzled, hearing what Gu Qinglian said, it was inconvenient to ask, suddenly she seemed to have figured out something, gave Gu Qinglian a thumbs up and shouted: "Young Mistress, you are awesome!"

Gu Qinglian looked at the dazed Fangxin, shook her head and smiled as she ran away.

After a long time, Fangxin returned to Jingxinyuan with a pile of books in her arms.

Seeing Fangxin returning home full of rewards, Gu Qinglian couldn't help sighing: "This girl is quite neat in her work!"

There are so many books, such as 28 constellations, 64 hexagrams, Tianguanshu, Huangji calendar, Qianxiang calendar, four pillars and eight characters, yin and yang and five elements, six lines and eight trigrams, nine-star geomantic omen, ten celestial gangs and twelve earthly branches, and some palmistry , facial book and so on are really everything.

Gu Qinglian picked up a book of 28 Constellations and flipped through it, and saw that it said 28 Constellations, also known as "28 Houses", or "28 Stars".In order to observe the celestial phenomena and the movement of the sun, moon, and five stars, 28 star officials were selected as the symbols of the observation time, called "28 constellations".It is divided into four groups on average, with seven constellations in each group, matching the four directions of east, west, south and north, and animal images such as Qinglong, Baihu, Suzaku and Xuanwu (collectively known as turtles and snakes), called "four elephants". There are also graphics on each page at the back. Although they are all black and white, each animal is drawn vividly, as if it is about to come alive from the book. The painting is so realistic.

Seeing that Gu Qinglian was watching seriously, Fangxin poured her a cup of tea and withdrew.

The book is full of old sayings and involves a lot of technical terms. It is a bit embarrassing for a modern person like her. Fortunately, she was a hard-working reporter in her previous life and has a certain literary background. In order to escape this miserable world, she also worked hard. Yes. Looking at the words and graphics that make people feel dizzy, I study them carefully every day.Fangxin gradually became worried from being happy at the beginning.

She came forward with a bowl of vegetable porridge, and said with concern: "Young Mistress, you have been sleeping and forgetting to eat and drink these past few days, so you should take care of yourself. This servant has cooked a bowl of porridge, please drink some."

Gu Qinglian held the book and refused to put it down, and said perfunctorily: "You can put it away first."

Fangxin was still worried and continued to persuade: "Young Mistress, you'd better drink some while it's hot."

Gu Qinglian lowered her head and made gestures that she didn't want to be interrupted, and she was about to finish her research. She was interrupted by Fangxin again and again, and she was a little annoyed: "Why are you talking so much, don't you see that I am busy!?" Seeing Fangxin's expression of concern for herself, her heart softened, her voice softened a lot, and she said, "I'll drink now, that's all right."

Gu Qinglian picked up the bowl and started to eat.

"Young Mistress, have you studied it thoroughly?" Fang Xin asked curiously as she looked at the book with big watery eyes.

The bowl in Gu Qinglian's hand had bottomed out, she smiled at Fangxin secretly and said, "I'm going to be done soon, but" she deliberately lengthened the ending and paused.

"Just what?" Fangxin asked with her eyes wide open after being caught.

"Just don't bother me, you ghost girl." Gu Qinglian put down the bowl, poked Fang Xin's forehead with her finger and joked with a smile.

Fangxin was a little annoyed, her face blushed, and she stomped her feet: "Young Mistress, people are also worried about your health, afraid that you won't be able to bear it, and you came to tease the servant girl."

Gu Qinglian said softly, "Okay, okay, reading the book is depressing, let me joke with you."

Holding the bowl, Fangxin stuck out her tongue towards Gu Qinglian: "Then you have to pay attention to your health, don't be too late."

Gu Qinglian nodded, and did not forget to ask: "You should also go to bed earlier."

Fangxin withdrew, Gu Qinglian picked up the book and continued to study hard.

(End of this chapter)