I would rather be a farmer's wife after rebirth

Chapter 121 Past Life Extra Story 4
Past Life Extra Story 121
Qin Zhao was silent.Seeing the doctor packed up the medical box and prescribing a prescription, he asked the housekeeper to send the doctor away.

"I took the medicine and boiled it." Qin Zhao handed the pharmacy to the housekeeper, glanced at him, and said, "Decoct it for me."

The butler's heart sank, and he hurriedly retreated.

"Kneel down!" Qin Zhao said flatly.The voice is sharp.

Xiaodie hastily knelt down.Her face turned pale, as early as when she watched Qin Zhao finish reading the letter, she had a bad premonition in her heart.

Just as she knelt down and wanted to cry, she saw Qin Zhaoqing looking over with Lingling eyes, and said calmly, "Shut up. If you startle Madam, I will make you speechless right now."

Xiaodie's words were stuck in her throat, she was in a hurry, but she didn't dare to say a single word.

Qin Zhao sat by the bed for a long time, fed her medicine before leaving the room.

He called the housekeeper, remained silent for a while, and then ordered, "Send some silver taels to Madam's house."

"How much to send?"

Qin Zhao glanced at him, "How much is in the account, leave a little for emergency, and send back as much as you have."

The housekeeper was startled and stepped back.

Qin Zhao stood where he was, his hands in the sleeves loosened and then tightened, tightened and loosened again.After all, it still hangs down.

In this short period of time, he thought a lot.He wanted to tell her that he was a scholar from a poor family, even if he was the number one scholar, he could get a half-job.However, how much pressure will he face?He couldn't get into the circle of Shixun nobles, and the circle of humble children avoided him like a flood.

He wanted to tell her that in fact, he still liked her.Those concubines were all wanted by the powerful and powerful families whom he relied on.He has no feelings for them.

He wanted to tell her even more that he had desires and ambitions.She knew that she wanted a stable and peaceful life, but he didn't want to!He wants to be an extremely human minister!He wants money and power!He is not wrong!He wants to climb higher step by step!No one can stop him!He never wanted to live those days when he was poor and humble and looked down upon by others!

He wants to be a master, and only when he climbs higher and has more rights, others will be jealous of him, open their eyes to him, put him in an equal position, and respect him. He just wants everyone to admire him, and he will never live the life of begging to see people's faces.

And those past days are reminding him, spurring him, and alerting him in his heart all the time, making him remember everything in the past, so that he can work harder, endure humiliation, and have the current status and prestige. He cannot discard these.

He also wanted to tell her.He didn't mean to make her an unfilial daughter, he really thought she wanted to just leave him like this and never come back.He was so angry that he didn't even calm down to ask her what she thought, listen to her explanation, and see the real situation.

There are many times when he hates himself very much, why makes her so sad, but the desire in his heart makes him unable to stop, push him forward, and it is difficult for him to stop and look at her.

But that's it, he doesn't allow her to leave him, absolutely not, the higher he stands, he realizes how lonely he is, he needs her company, her understanding, and her being by his side, even if she can't understand He, hated him, and he would never let her stay away from him.

He had so many thoughts in his mind.But until now, I couldn't say it in the end.

There was a long and deep moat between them, which could never be crossed.Always will be--

Lin Yun finally woke up.She didn't faint forever, and she survived this unbearable body in the end.Even Lin Yun was surprised.

How nice, that's it.Follow in mother's footsteps.Father was very sad in the letter. He scolded her for being unfilial, and mother was seriously ill and told her that she would not go back.Now my mother is dead and will never come back.But she still can't go back.

Lin Yun's heart was almost numb.She felt so.Maybe it's the numbness of pain.Because when she heard that Qin Zhao was going to marry the third concubine, she felt so calm.There was no hysteria or secret tears, just like that, after listening to the news silently, and then calmly replied, "I see."

However, Lin Yun did not expect that one day, Qin Zhao would appear in front of her with such a posture.

She once thought that maybe she would hug her left and right, maybe she would look at her lightly, and then treat her like nothing.Or maybe they will respect her like ice, like strangers to each other, but they never expected...

Mooncake Festival.Every night in the past, she and Qin Zhao enjoyed the moon together, and then ate mooncakes together.Now she is alone.

In fact, when she sees the full moon, she will think of reunion, and every time she thinks of reunion, she will feel pain in her heart.But she still went to Bibo Pavilion to enjoy the moon.

The moon is like a plate.

She took a jug of wine to the Bibo Pavilion and poured it slowly.I don't know how much I drank, I feel that everything in front of me has become a double image.She lay down on the table and closed her eyes wearily.

It was Qin Zhao who opened his eyes.It happened to be feeding her hangover soup.Such a scene has actually happened before, when she was feeling uncomfortable, she would find a drink, and he would take care of her to wake up.When life was hard before, Qin Zhao also took care of her and advised her not to drink alcohol, which was bad for her health.She doesn't drink often, just thinking about it, she has a small capacity for alcohol, and when Qin Zhao drinks, she only gets drunk after a little.Occasionally, I drank once or twice, and woke up like this.

Lin Yun had just woken up from drunkenness, still a little hazy.She tugged at his sleeve and said pitifully, "I don't want to drink it, the hangover soup is not good."

Qin Zhao was startled, and a smile appeared on the corner of his lips. "Good girl, Yun'er." He reached out and gently stroked her head, the tenderness in his eyes seemed to melt away the person in front of him.

Lin Yun's mind gradually cleared up, and when she saw that he was taking a spoon to feed her hangover soup, she turned sideways to avoid it.The hangover soup was spilled on him.

Qin Zhao's hands froze, and he slowly put down the hangover soup.Said, "Remember to drink sober soup." He left in a hurry, a little embarrassed, and his back made people feel a little distressed.

Lin Yun sat on the bed and sat silently for a long time.

She thought she wasn't in love anymore.But the feelings in the world, if you say you don’t love, you don’t love, you don’t want to love, you don’t love, wouldn’t it be much simpler.Those idiotic men and women will no longer exist.

She would still feel sad and unbearable when she saw him, and her heart would be pierced after thinking of him marrying a concubine after being numb.

She knew that she was unworthy, too cowardly, too weak.Even though I knew it was dirty, I still couldn't let it go.

She thought, it doesn't matter, it really doesn't matter, as long as Qin Zhao is still by her side.She watches him and the day goes on.And if one day, she suddenly wakes up and knows how to let go, then let go.

(End of this chapter)