refuse to be a concubine

Chapter 1 Going to the brothel to send an embroidered handkerchief

The sky is gloomy, and those big black clouds seem to be pressed down, which is scary to look at.

The cold night wind made me sneeze, and I quickly closed the window to prevent the cold wind from blowing my sleeping mother.But my sneeze woke up my mother.

"Enen, did you catch a cold?" Mother's voice was still so weak, it seems that taking herbal medicine for a month still hasn't cured Mother's asthma at all.

"No, it's cold, mother must not catch the cold again." I smiled at my mother, and put her outstretched hand into the quilt.This dilapidated quilt is the only thing we have cotton for the winter, but this year's winter is too early and colder than usual, this quilt is no longer warm enough for us mother and daughter, it seems that I have to hurry up and do some embroidery Go and sell to earn silver to buy new quilts.

"It's all my mother's incompetence." My mother looked at me full of guilt and self-blame, "Not only did I not give you a life of adequate food and clothing, but I also depended on you to support me. Seeing you always running around for a living, my mother felt really uncomfortable. " At the end, Niang choked up softly.

"Mother, this bit of suffering is nothing. As long as my mother gets better, my daughter is willing to suffer any kind of hardship." This is my greatest wish. My mother is my only relative in the world, as long as she can stay with me well Side, what is suffering?No matter how heavy the burden is on my shoulders, I can get through it.

"If your father is still there, you can live a happy and worry-free life like other girls of the same age. You will not be responsible for the family's livelihood at a young age."

"Mother, my daughter doesn't work hard at all. What my daughter wants is for my mother's health. Mother must live a long life and stay by my daughter's side forever." Dad is a teacher and has a private school in a thatched cottage, which is very popular in the countryside. fame.Since I was a child, although my life was not rich, it could not be called poor either. My family of three lived happily together.But five years ago, a plague came suddenly, turning the originally peaceful and quiet town into a hell on earth within a month. This plague took the lives of many people, including my father.

In order to make a living, my mother and I had no choice but to leave our hometown and came to the capital to make a living. My mother worked day and night to earn a meager amount of silver by doing embroidery work for others, so that I could live a good life. Unexpectedly, in a winter snow My mother fell ill, and I had no ability or money to see a doctor for my mother when I was young. The disease dragged on for five years.

In the past five years, I have used the maids my mother taught me to embroider small items such as silk and handkerchiefs to earn a meager amount of silver to live on.

My mother's illness can't be delayed any longer.No matter what, I want to earn enough money to see my mother before the coldest day comes.

"Silly boy." Niang quietly wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes.

"Mother, go to sleep for a while, it's not yet dawn." I took out the bamboo basket from under the bed, "Daughter is going out for a while, she will be right back."

"Enen, are you going to the best building?"

"These embroidered handkerchiefs were ordered by the girls in the red building four days ago, and I will send them to them now." The Jipin Building is a brothel, and it is almost closed during the day, and only two or three men can be seen there Just cleaning.But at night, there are so many tourists, and it is not convenient for me, a girl, to go to this kind of place at night, so I have to choose to send the embroidered handkerchief at dawn when all the guests are asleep.

"Didn't Mother tell you not to accept business from the Red Mansion again? Good girl, always going to that kind of place is both dangerous and despised, and I'm all to blame." Mother wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes, but the tears fell more and more. more.

"Don't worry, mother, I will be careful." I forced a reassuring smile towards my mother, "Besides, my daughter's appearance is so ordinary, who would notice me?"

"Who said, in Mother's heart, you have always been beautiful."

"Daughter promises you, this is the last time."

"Then you must go early and come back early."

"Daughter knows." Gently closing the door, I stepped into the night.

Jipin Building is located in the central area of ​​Taiping Street in the west of the city, with red bricks and green tiles, and bright cornices, it is easy to identify.

When the sky began to drizzle, one of my feet had just stepped under the eaves of the back door of Jipin Building.I dare not go through the door, although I am not very good-looking, and it is difficult to be noticed.But when I see drunken guests in the lobby of the building, I always feel a little scared, especially when I see Mama Yan, the head of the Jipin Building, her sharp small eyes will make me restless for several days.

Knock on the door, and after a while, the yawning guy opened the door.Seeing it was me, he lazily said: "Why are you here to deliver the handkerchief now? The girls have been looking forward to you for a whole day."

"I'm really sorry, something happened at home, so it's late. Are the girls all up?" I was a little embarrassed, and I agreed to send the embroidered handkerchief over yesterday, but I didn't worry about my mother's body, so it was too late one day.

"It's cloudy and cold, so the girls must get up late. You go to the small wing and wait." The man closed the back door, yawned and went back to his warm room.

I have come to deliver handkerchiefs several times, and I am familiar with Jipinlou.Passing through the front yard and walking out of the corridor is the most lively hall of Jipin Building, and the small wing that the buddy said is in the most remote corner of the hall.

As soon as I got out of the corridor, there was pleasant music in the wind. I stomped my feet and looked forward. The main hall not far away was brightly lit, singing and singing, dancing and dancing.

I find it strange, the Jipin Building is usually very quiet at this time, why is it so lively today?
Inadvertently looking sideways, under the drizzle, the big red cages hanging on the four corners of the attic on the west side swayed gently in the drizzle and cold wind, and the animal heads on the eaves of the attic were very stylish. I remembered that this was the attic where the popular oiran Chen Liuer lived , and in my basket, Chen Liuer's embroidered handkerchiefs accounted for half.

I was thinking about whether to take the embroidered handkerchief to her first, and I was afraid of bumping into something I shouldn't see. After thinking about it, I decided to go to the small wing and wait for a while.

"Miss Su, why are you here now? My girl waited for you all day yesterday." At the other end of the corridor, Xi'er, Chen Liu'er's personal maid, came over with a lantern in her hand. When she saw me, her voice was full of dissatisfaction.

"I'm really sorry, something was delayed yesterday."

"Is that so? Anyway, you're going to deliver an embroidered handkerchief, so just help me take this beef bone soup to the girl, and I have to go shopping for the girl." As soon as the plate was placed in my hand, "Be careful, this soup was made by me all night."

"I'm afraid it's inconvenient at this time." Sending handkerchiefs at this time?I was apprehensive, afraid of bumping into something I shouldn't have seen after entering the attic.

"Look, the lanterns are all out, and the guests in the girl's room should have left."

I looked towards the attic, and sure enough, the four red lanterns that were still lit just now had all been extinguished.According to the rules in the Jipin building, if there is a guest in the girl's room, the red lantern outside the door must be lit until the guest leaves.

None of us noticed that a black figure flew out of the attic the moment the lantern went out, and then another slender figure also jumped out of the attic, chasing after the black figure.

Entering the small attic, it was pitch black.

I patted the raindrops from my hair on my shoulders, and looked at the dark paper window for a long time, wondering if I should knock on the door.There was no light in the room, and Miss Liu'er seemed to have fallen asleep.

After hesitating for a while, I still raised my hand and knocked on the door.

But after knocking for a while, no one came to open the door, and no one answered.

"Miss Liu'er, I'm Su Enen, here I bring you an embroidered handkerchief." I whispered against the crack of the door.

The room was still dark, and there was no sound at all.

"Miss Liu'er, I'm Su Enen, and I've brought you an embroidered handkerchief." I repeated it again, with a louder voice.

Still no movement.

Gradually, worries arose in my heart, something will happen to Miss Liu'er, right?Thinking about this, I went to push the door, but then I realized that it was wrong, if Miss Liu'er was not in the room, it would be extremely inappropriate for me to rush in like this, after thinking about it, I decided to call someone first.

I put the plate and basket in my hand on the ground, and just as I turned to leave, there was a sudden bang in the room, as if something had fallen to the ground.

I was startled, I stepped back and called out from the door: "Miss Liu'er, are you there?"

It seemed that the bang just now was my illusion, and what responded to me was still a dark hut.

I believe that I did hear the voice. There must be someone in this room, it cannot be a thief. How could a thief come in just after the guest left?Who else is there besides Miss Liu'er?

After a little thought, I pushed the door open.

Although the sky is cloudy, it's not like you can't see your fingers.

Tables, chairs, cabinets, teapots on the table, and furnishings on the cabinets are all neatly placed.A pot of cyclamen by the window is just about to bloom, and a few fire twigs are neatly placed in a corner by the window.

I hurried over to pick up the torch, and lit the white candle on the crane cauldron beside it. Although a white candle was not very bright, at least it could illuminate a corner so that I could clearly see the situation inside the house.

Behind the jade screen engraved with Jiangnan landscapes, the pink bed gauze dances lightly, and a person is faintly asleep on the bed.

I breathed a sigh of relief, it seemed that Miss Liu'er didn't respond because she was in a deep sleep, so it was natural for me not to disturb her.

I brought in the tray outside the door, and took out the embroidered handkerchief in the basket and put it on the table, thinking that the next time I would come to get the silver, I heard a sound behind me, and just as I was about to turn around, my waist suddenly hurt, A pair of slender, white hands suddenly stretched out from behind and pulled me over forcefully.

I exclaimed, raised my head in a panic, and met a pair of bloodshot and angry eyes.

"Damn it, how dare you give me a love potion."

"Let go of me." I struggled in fear, I couldn't hear what he was saying, "Let me go."

After a whirlwind, he threw me onto the bed.

There was a loud noise when my body hit the bed board. I gritted my teeth, and the pain penetrated my whole body. I was about to vomit, and I ignored the pain and discomfort of my body. When I got up in a panic, a huge body fell down.

"Ah—" I screamed, my mind and heart were filled with fear, I struggled violently, I didn't know what to do, I could only scream, "Let me go, let me go."

"Damn it." The furious voice did not hide the killing intent.

I was trembling with fear, and beat him desperately, trying to push away his pressed body, but my strength was too weak.

The sound of clothes being ripped pierced my eardrums.

"Don't." I screamed, tears poured out, the coolness on my chest ravaged my whole body, only a small obscene garment was left on my top, and my white and flawless skin was exposed in the cold air.

"Let go of me, please, let me go." I burst into tears, struggling and fisting did not help him at all, I could only beg.Daddy once said: A man has gold under his knees, and a girl must also live with integrity.Right now, innocence is life for me, and there is nothing I can do but beg.

He stopped all movements, and I was ecstatic, thinking there was a turnaround.

He was gasping for breath, his chest heaving and unsteady, and I could feel his whole body tense, as if he was forcibly suppressing something.I didn't dare to look up at him. As time passed, the hands on his chest began to tremble slightly, and the joy was replaced by fear.

Even though it was only a short time, I felt that it was as long as a lifetime, and I couldn't bear this suffering anymore, so I pushed him away with all my strength.

I want to run away, run away from here, and never come again.

I regret that I didn't listen to my mother's advice and didn't accept the business of Jipin Building.

There was a low growl from behind.

As soon as I ran out of the screen, I broke out in a cold sweat.

My hand is almost touching the doorknob, and I am overjoyed.

Just when the door was about to be opened, a scorching hot body that seemed to be on fire pressed onto my cold back with no clothes on, and my waist was tightly locked.The smooth touch tells me that behind me he is naked.

"No, help--" Tears blurred my vision again, I shouted loudly, but this attic is separated from the main house of the best building by a yard and a corridor, shouting is of no avail, even if someone hears it, the music in the main house at this moment Sound, everyone is having fun, who will care?
I was thrown onto the bed again, and I heard a slight cracking sound of the bed board. The pain in my whole body almost made me faint, and I was so painful that I couldn't even struggle until a pair of hands roughly tore my clothes.

(End of this chapter)