refuse to be a concubine
Chapter 19 No, It's Not Like This
Chapter 19 No, It's Not Like This
Aunt Suyan didn't turn her head to look at Mingxiu, she said calmly: "Enen is worthy of Master Jing's love, and I believe she will be happy." After finishing speaking, she left.
I didn't expect to see the emperor in the palace gallery, and he was alone.
Didn't you just go to see Concubine Liu dance?
"My servant has seen the emperor." My voice was flat.
He didn't speak, just stood quietly.
The breeze blew quietly, lifting the hem of the bright yellow clothes.
I hold my breath, every time I see him, something always happens.
And every time, he always looked at me with deep and sharp eyes, which made my scalp numb and my heart feel fear.
He said: "Hiding in the flowers, do you think I didn't see it?"
Because of my nervousness, my palms were sweating, but I didn't feel any fear. Sure enough, he knew that I was hiding among the flowers, so he quickly knelt down and said, "Your Majesty, I thank the Emperor for not killing me."
I just want to get out of here.
"What? In the past, you would have asked me why I didn't catch you, but now I'm so accommodating, it really doesn't look like you." He seemed to be sarcasm but not sarcasm, and the anger in his words was unmistakable.
"In the past, slaves were ignorant."
"Not sensible? Are you sensible now? Or, you don't want to talk too much with me, just want to leave immediately after beckoning? Huh?" His voice suddenly rang in his ears.
I was so surprised that when I looked up, my lips met his.
His flustered eyes met his calm black eyes.
Subconsciously, I was about to push him away, but he pressed one hand on the back of my head, and the other hand clasped my waist. As soon as I exerted force, my body pressed against him tightly, deepening the kiss.
Do not--
His kiss is direct, domineering, with the desire of aggression and conquest.
Knock out the double teeth and get entangled with me.
Forced to bear everything about him.
He kissed very deeply, very deeply, like a brand, deeply imprinted into the bottom of my heart.
I no longer struggle.
For this man, everything is powerless.
He let me go, and his cool and deep eyes like midnight met my indifferent face. The next moment, a trace of annoyance flashed in his eyes, and he cursed in a low voice: "Damn it."
"If the emperor has nothing else to do, the servant will leave first." I was indifferent, otherwise what kind of expression should I use?
"What are you going to Concubine Liu Palace for?" Under my indifferent expression, his face also turned dark.
"The servant girl is looking for Aunt Suyan."
"Is that all?"
"Didn't the emperor say that he doesn't care about the rights and wrongs of the harem? What does it mean to ask a servant?"
His complexion became darker and uglier, his eyes flashed a look of embarrassment and then was replaced by Feng Rui, he only said: "Liu Concubine Palace is not the place you should go." Then he left.
Biting my lower lip tightly, I covered my mouth, and after a while, wiped it hard.
I couldn't stop until the skin was scratched.
"Enough, if you keep wiping it off, it will swell up." The wiping hand was pulled away, and Tang Yu appeared from behind.
I stared at him in surprise, my heart suddenly flustered.
Why is he here?
Just now, did he see everything just now?
"It's all scratched, you need to use some ointment." His voice was a little cold, a little warm, a little soft, and when his cold pool-like eyes drooped, there was a flash of pain.
"You, when did you come?"
Looking at my flustered eyes, he looked deeply for a while, and then smiled, "Just now, I saw that you kept wiping your mouth, and there was nothing on it."
"Then, you didn't see anything, did you?"
Tang Yu shook his head and asked, "What should I see?"
"No." I didn't realize that there was something inappropriate in saying these words, I just felt relieved.
It was strange, and he was very concerned about letting Tang Yu see the scene just now.
"Where are you going?"
"I, I'm going back to the Queen's Palace."
"Master Jing has publicly said that he wants to marry you."
"What?" It's no wonder that all the palace people knew about it.
"You should be very happy to have your wish come true?" Tang Yu asked with a smile, his eyes narrowed into slits.
Since I knew him, I have never seen him smile like this, so much that even the coldness in his eyes disappeared.
are you happy?It should be happy.
"You are not suitable to be in the palace, this should be your best choice."
"Do you think so too?" I was disappointed in my heart, I always hoped that Tang Yu could say something, but I didn't know what to expect him to say.
"Isn't this your wish?"
I nodded, yes, my hope, I have been secretly liking Jing Lin, isn't this result exactly what I want?
"Let's go."
The two walked slowly on the palace corridor, shoulder to shoulder.
I have never walked this way with him, and the only time I walked side by side was scolded by him, but that was a long time ago.
I soon came to the end of the palace corridor. I usually think this corridor is quite long, but now I think it is very short.
"Is the hand injury healed?" I looked at his scarred hand, it should be healed.
"Perhaps only Mr. Jing can truly protect you." Tang Yu didn't answer my question, but looked at the corner of my mouth that was scratched by me, the pain in the bottom of his eyes deepened, he clenched his fists and then loosened them, "Leaving the palace Come on, have a good time."
"Then will you come to see me?" After asking this sentence, I regretted it again. How could I ask such a sentence?
Tang Yu walked forward, wondering if he didn't hear me, until they parted, he didn't say a word, and he didn't look back at me.
It's just that hand clenched into a fist again.
Walking on the path of the imperial garden, kicking stones one by one.
I feel a lot more lonely in my heart.
Something has been stuffy and I can't vent it, I can't find a place to vent it, let alone what I want to vent it.
The second prince's matter is not that simple.
Aunt Suyan lost her handkerchief, how could Xiaoling just pick it up?
Did Concubine An really kill her child herself?
Maybe it is.
Now that the matter is closed, I shouldn't investigate anymore, yes, what to investigate?
Do you still want to seek justice for the torture you have suffered in the past three days?
It was so delusional.
"Ah, it hurts so much." A cry of pain came from another direction.
The voice was a little familiar, and I wanted to walk away, but hearing the voice was so miserable, I still walked over.
Looking from where I was, I saw a blue shadow sitting leisurely on a tree with a pile of pebbles beside him. While eating pears, he picked up pebbles and threw them into the distance. As soon as there was a stone, the miserable cry came from afar. This time, I heard clearly that the miserable cry was not made by one person.
I stood on tiptoe and looked far away, but I didn't see anyone.
Walking under the tree, I saw the blue shadow clearly, it was a stalwart man with eyes that seemed to be smiling but not smiling.
Have you seen him somewhere?
He saw me too, and smiled at me, showing teeth as white as snow.
I remembered that during the Hundred Flowers Festival, more than a dozen men in black attacked the emperor, and he and another very good-looking man came forward to save us.
"What are you doing?" I asked curiously, how could he be in the palace?
"Revenge for you." He bit a pear and threw a stone. The next moment, the voice screamed like a pig.
"Revenge for me?"
"It's rare to take such an easy task, I hope you can be bullied all the time, then I can live this happy life every day."
I didn't understand what he was talking about, but the voice was so miserable that I couldn't see it from here. I picked up my skirt and went up to the rockery behind the tree.
The top of the rockery is also quite different from the position of this man, but he can see far away.
When I saw this, I was completely stunned.
The people who screamed turned out to be a few old palace people who tortured me in the dark room. They were located in a flower garden, but they seemed to be inseparable, and they were circling around in situ.
The stones thrown by the man actually hit their calves one by one, and they could faintly see blood stains on their pants.
How did he hit these people from such a distance? It was so accurate.
They are about fifteen or sixteen meters away.
"It's almost there." The man threw away the pear pit in his hand, patted his clothes when he got up, looked at me for a while, blinked and smiled, "I have avenged you."
When he jumped down, he glanced at me again, muttered to himself, "I really didn't expect that." Then he left.
revenge for me?I was confused, and when I hurriedly chased down the rockery, his shadow was gone.
Who is he?
revenge?How did he know that those old palace people tortured me?
I couldn't figure it out, I shook my head, I shook off this doubt, since he was able to walk freely in the palace and saved the emperor, he must have the emperor's permission.
I shouldn't be too surprised.
Walking on the empty and long palace road, I feel really lonely and lonely.
How should we go on in the future?
After so many things, from innocent to full of thoughts, from pure happiness to present loneliness.
Only you know how much you have changed.
When he walked into the round door, he saw a white figure coming in from another round door and walking towards the Queen's Palace.
Under the bright sun, the sleeves of her clothes are fluttering and she is personable.
"Master Jing." I trotted forward.
"Enn?" Seeing me, the melancholy in Jing Lin's eyes faded, and he put on a smile, sizing me up, "Are you alright?"
I nodded, "Where are you going, sir?"
"Look for you."
"Find me?"
"Look for her too." She, referring to the queen, "Have you decided? Will you marry me?"
Looking at the sincerity and anticipation in Jing Lin's eyes, I was stunned.
All kinds of grievances, injustices, resentments, struggles, and the man who came to the palace flashed across his mind from time to time...
I can't protect myself, and I don't want to hurt others. I am not suitable to live here at all.
I like Jing Lin, I liked him from the first time I saw him, and he even saved me from Concubine An.
Don't even think I'm not innocent anymore.
What am I still hesitating about?
Finally, I nodded, "I do."
At this moment, Tang Yu's cold face and lonely back appeared in his mind, and his heart suddenly became very uncomfortable.
"Let's go." Jing Lin smiled softly, and took my hand. His hand was very warm, but it didn't have the feeling of shyness and heart pounding like before.
Shaking away all the weird thoughts in my mind, I took a deep breath following his footsteps.
"Yes."
I look up at him.
"Sorry, it might upset you later."
"what?"
Jing Lin looked down at me, his eyes became more and more worried, "This is the last time."
"I'm not allowed, I'm not allowed if I say so." Biting out every single word, the empress gripped the chair tightly with both hands, her fingers turned white, her almond eyes were red, and she looked at Jing Lin with a look full of sadness and despair .
"How long do you want me to wait for you?" Jing Lin was smiling, sadly.
"I, isn't it good for us to do this?" The queen's voice trembled, she stared at the person in front of her beggingly, "Lin, don't do this to me, don't."
"What I want is a wife who can be by my side day and night, can you do it?"
"You know it's impossible."
"Why is it impossible? Didn't I find it now?" Jing Lin tightened my hand, but still looked at the Queen.
In the huge hall, there are only three of us.
I finally understood what Jing Lin meant when he said "it might make you sad later".
At this time, he didn't see me in the bottom of his eyes, and his eyes were full of the empress's sad face.
So does the Queen.
It would be a lie to say I don't care, but I certainly don't feel angry.
"I don't allow it, I don't allow it." The queen stood up abruptly, pulled away Jing Lin's hand holding me, grabbed his arms tightly, and cried in grief, "You are mine, you swore to me Yes, you will never leave me for the rest of your life.”
"What about you? The oath you made is long gone."
"Are you in love with her?" The queen asked hoarsely, pointing at me.
Jing Lin met my gaze, turned his head after a while.
The queen sneered, "You love a woman like me. There is a difference between her and me, whether it is in character or appearance, how can a person's preferences be easily changed? You marry her, just to escape the relationship between you and me." my feelings."
Jing Lin's face turned pale, and it took a long time before he spoke, "People's preferences are changing, how do you know that I won't fall in love with her? Enen is kind, upright, and sincere to others. She makes me feel warm. I am very happy together, but you have never brought me these feelings."
"Really?" The queen looked at me, tears streamed from the corners of her eyes, "Su En, are you willing? Marry a man who doesn't love himself, and he still has other women in his heart."
I saluted slowly, "I hope your mother will be successful."
Jing Lin said that if you give him time, he will fall in love with me.
All of this he said frankly and sincerely.
Even when he came to the Queen's Palace, he said in advance that he would make me sad, and promised to be the last time.
Why can't I trust him?
"Fulfillment?" The queen was crying and laughing, extremely desolate, "Even if I die, I will not fulfill you, no, you will never want to live happily together in this life, never even think about it."
I saw Jing Lin raised his hand, as if he wanted to hug the queen, but in the end he just clenched his fists.
And I didn't even have the slightest mind in my heart, and I didn't even feel sad.
Obviously it would hurt before.
The hall where no one spoke suddenly fell silent.
Three people, three corners, he looked at her, she looked away in pain.
I see his infatuation and her misery in my eyes.
It seems like a long time.
"Is this really what you want?" The queen seemed to have calmed down, her voice still trembling.
"Yes."
"Okay, I will fulfill you, fulfill you."
"Brother, I thank the empress for her success."
At night, the heat of summer faded away and became cool.
Everyone fell into a dreamland, only me, empty to the bright moon.
Am I not liking Jinglin anymore?Otherwise, how could there be no heartache and sadness in the face of his obsession with the queen?
I liked him for so long, why did I suddenly dislike him?
Flat feeling.
If so, do you really want to marry him?
Why not?
At least he understands me, understands me, knows what I think and what I insist on.
Isn't it a blessing to be married to someone who understands oneself?
Many people don't even meet each other face to face when they get married.
I at least know what he looks like and what his character is.
He still doesn't think I'm innocent, where can I find such a husband?
Suppressing the Mo Ming melancholy that emerged from the bottom of my heart.
I really want to live a peaceful life, but Jing Lin, he will give me what I want.
I took a deep breath, and finally I was able to leave the palace, leave this dark place, and live the life I wanted to live.
I am very happy, right?
I closed the window, closed my eyes, and turned around to spread the bedding.
"My woman has only two choices, either to stay by my side for the rest of her life, or to die." The cold voice drifted past her ears.
I was taken aback.
The emperor was wearing a silk satin moon white gown with a sapphire sash around his waist, standing coldly by the window.
The door was closed, how did he get in?
I took a step back and looked at him warily, what is he trying to do?
"Without my permission, palace servants are not allowed to leave the palace to marry, not to mention that you have already served in bed, and you are my woman." Wu Bo's voice was full of suffocating pressure.
"No one knows about this at all." I pursed my dry lips and said nervously.
"Yeah, everyone who knows thinks you were bullied by a bully." He sneered.
"Would the emperor still announce to the world that this bully is the current holy majesty you?"
The emperor's face sank, "You like Jing Lin so much?"
"Yes, please let the emperor do it." With him, there is nothing to say.
"Fulfillment? You don't have the slightest intention of asking me to be perfect."
"Your Majesty doesn't need to fulfill your slaves, but you can also tell the world how you insulted a commoner woman." I looked back at him coldly, watching the coldness in his eyes gradually turn cold.
I'm afraid of this man, but I hate him even more.
"Is it because of this stubbornness that you endured the lynching in the dark room?" He suddenly changed the topic, which made me unable to pick up for a while.
After a while, I realized what he was talking about. I didn't speak, but turned my head.That night, when Xiao Ling killed me, it was he who saved me, but he didn't come forward to explain.
Yes, what can a maidservant ask of a majestic emperor?
"Are you blaming me?"
I knelt down on the ground and said in a deep voice, "Please Your Majesty, please grant En En and Lord Jing a favor."
The matter of the second prince has passed, is it useful to say this now?
Besides, it was my own fault, so how could I blame others.
It's strange, I have hoped extravagantly, but I still don't get what I want, so I blame it.
I never expected him to help me, so naturally I wouldn't blame him.
"Zhen," every word seems to be forced out, "I have met you again and again, do you really not understand?"
"What should slaves understand?" She knew that he was moody, but she didn't understand why he was angry now.
The meeting was accidental, could it be that he came to meet me on purpose?
It's ridiculous to think of myself.
Frustration flashed in the emperor's eyes, and when he was about to say something, I said, "Your majesty, this servant is just an ordinary court lady, and what I want is a peaceful and stable ordinary life. I beg the emperor to grant my servant."
I don't want to think about the past.
Jing Lin accepted what happened to me, accepted me now, and what I should think about is my future life.
Let go of those things.
For a long time, he didn't say a word.
I knelt uneasily, only to feel that the air around me became solemn.
"Even if I allow you and Jing Lin, you will not be able to live a peaceful life." The voice is no longer calm, as if someone threw a stone, and there are turbulent waves under the hidden anger.
"Your servant only asks for the emperor's fulfillment." I kowtowed.
As long as the emperor agrees, what else can happen?
Another long silence.
Until a long time passed, he still didn't speak.
I couldn't help but slightly raised my head. In front of my eyes, there was no figure of the emperor, only the wooden door of the side room was shaking there.
He actually left without a word.
Why did he come here?
The weather is getting cooler and cooler.
Presumably the emperor agreed, and the Ministry of Internal Affairs sent me a message to leave immediately in ten days.
That day was the day I married Jing Lin.
I seemed to be isolated in a corner. When everyone in the palace saw me, they either lowered their heads and pretended not to see me, or ran away in a hurry.
As if I were the plague.
All of this is the queen's order, and no matter what, she can't let go of Jing Lin's act of marrying me.
suddenly idle down.
The days passed extremely peacefully, and I waited in peace to leave the palace.
Soon, I will leave the palace in two days.
I've packed everything up and made a small package. When I came, I had nothing, and I didn't expect to have nothing to take with me when I went.
There is one more important thing to do, to say goodbye to Tang Yu and Aunt Suyan.
For a period of time in the palace, the two of them took good care of me, which I will never forget in my life.
I wanted to go to the small courtyard where Tang Yu lived, but was stopped by Lu Gonggong in the Royal Garden.
"If you're looking for Tang Yu, there's no need, he's not in the palace." Eunuch Lu's eagle eyes were extremely sharp, and his eyes were filled with disgust.
"Not in the palace? Where has he gone?"
"I sent him out of the palace on business."
"When are you coming back?"
"Five days later."
Feeling disappointed in my heart, can't I even say goodbye to him before leaving the palace?
For some reason, I really wanted to see him.
"Sexy." Eunuch Lu spat in a low voice, "Hooking up with Tang Yu while grabbing Mr. Jing at the same time, shameless."
"What nonsense are you talking about?"
"Isn't it? You've already married Tang Yu, and now you're going to marry someone else." Eunuch Lu sneered, "A slut like you doesn't deserve Tang Yu at all. Save me a shot."
"Grandpa Lu, that's not the case."
"It's a good thing." Eunuch Lu sneered a few times, "It's time for Tang Yu to see your true colors. It's really worthless. During the three days you were imprisoned, Tang Yu spent two full days outside Shangshu's mansion to wait Mr. Jing came to save you, and he even hurt his hands because he blamed himself too much."
After speaking, Eunuch Lu sneered a few times before leaving.
Tang Yu stayed outside Shangshu's mansion for two days and waited for Jinglin, was it just to save me?
His hand was also hurt because of me?
Touching the chest, the weird feeling came out again, and there was more pain.
I hurriedly shook my head, gathered my mind and walked towards Concubine Liu Palace.
I saw Aunt Suyan who was chopping firewood in the small stove house of Concubine Liu Palace.
Feeling sad for a while, why did Concubine Liu treat Aunt Su like this?
Obviously, Aunt Su has lost a lot of weight.
"Auntie." I whispered.
"Shouldn't the bride be happy? Let go of your frowning eyebrows." Seeing me, Aunt Su smiled.
"Why are you doing this?" I choked up slightly.
"Don't talk about this." Aunt Su stood up, shaking the hem of her clothes that had been stained by sawdust, "Talk to Auntie, I don't know when we will meet again in the future."
That's right, once you leave the palace, the wall inside and outside the palace is as vast as the sky and the earth, and you can't jump out or come in.
"My aunt is really envious of you being able to leave the palace." Aunt Su took my hand and sat under the shade of a tree beside her, looking at the slightly yellowing leaves, she sighed, "People in the palace are too lonely, only lonely There is right and wrong, and no one will not be hurt under right and wrong. It's great that you can leave the palace."
"Auntie, you have to take good care of yourself."
"Don't worry, I have been in the palace for more than 30 years, and I know what to do is the best." Aunt Su looked at me with a smile, "Is everything ready?"
I nodded, "Auntie, I want to hug you."
"Are you still a child?" Even so, Aunt Su hugged me into her arms.
At this moment, I seemed to be lying in my mother's arms, and my heart felt peaceful and at ease.
"Enn, you have to pay more attention to the things around you these two days."
"what?"
"People in the palace are unfortunate. Every time they see a perfect thing, they can't help but want to break it."
"What is Auntie talking about?" I looked up at Aunt Su.
"Anyway, just be careful."
Aunt Su looked at me with a smile, there was a deep blessing in her eyes, and there was also something that I couldn't see through.
When leaving, Aunt Su suddenly said: "Enen, I can only rely on myself."
I nodded, probably because of Lichou's sadness, today's aunt looks particularly heavy and restless.
The sunset is particularly red, as charming as blood.
I couldn't help but look at it for a while, the sunset in half the sky dyed the overlapping clouds red, and I was very bewildered.
"What's so good about the setting sun?" A childish and arrogant voice sounded beside him.
Turning around, I saw His Royal Highness looking at me strangely.
"Your Highness." I saluted and smiled slightly, "Why are you here?"
"Come and see you."
The prince's face was a little crimson, and he said in a rough voice: "Uncle is going to marry you, isn't he?"
"Yes."
"Will you enter the palace in the future?"
Enter the palace?I don't want to get involved with this place anymore, but I don't know if it's my illusion, but the prince's gaze has some anticipation, "Does Your Highness want your servants to enter the palace?"
"Hope." As soon as he finished speaking, the prince looked away, preventing me from seeing his expression.
It's a bit of a surprise, doesn't the prince hate me very much?I was still very happy in my heart, and said: "I think this slave must have to enter the palace a few times."
The prince looked at me again, his bright eyes were a little sad.
"What's the matter, Your Highness?"
"I wish you could stay with me."
Surprised, why did the prince who hates me change so much?I saw him folded his hands in front of his chest, his proud expression was very different from that of just now, and he said: "It's been so many days, and you haven't asked for credit. It seems that you have a good heart, and this crown prince appreciates it very much."
Looking at him pretending to be an adult, I laughed.
"What are you laughing at?" The prince pouted and stared at me.
Seeing his appearance, I wanted to laugh again, so I restrained myself and said, "I don't even know what you're talking about."
"Hmph." The prince raised his nose and snorted coldly, as arrogant as he could be, "It's fine if you don't know, the prince is here today to tell you and allow you to be my friend."
friend?The prince shocked me a lot today.
"This is a great gift, why don't you thank me?"
I smiled lightly, but didn't take it seriously, and saluted: "My servant thanked His Royal Highness for your great kindness."
"What do you call a friend?" the prince asked suddenly.
I thought for a while and said, "My servant feels that friends can confide in each other, whether it is happy or sad, they can share together, they are the most trusted confidants, there is no distinction between rich and poor, and they share weal and woe on an equal line A person who advances and retreats."
"Then do you have such a friend?"
This question overwhelmed me, and I couldn't help but think of Tang Yu. Tang Yu has many secrets that I don't know, and the loneliness he shows from time to time. He is my friend, but there is always something between me and him. like.
As for Aunt Su, I regard her as an elder, an elder whom I can rely on and rely on.
What about Jinglin?He understands me, understands me, is a confidant, and a person who can spend a lifetime together.
"The prince asked you something." The prince urged.
Withdrawing my thoughts, I said, "No, I don't have such a friend yet."
"Then you have it now." The corner of the prince's mouth curled up, and he said triumphantly, "We can be such friends, Lagou." He stretched out his thumb and little finger in front of me, "What are you doing in a daze? Lagou."
I stretched out my hand as promised.
"Pull it." After pulling the hook, the prince said with a high air, "Since we are friends, you don't have to thank me. I'm leaving."
After the bouncing figure of the prince disappeared, I looked at the hooked hand, smiled, and murmured: "What a child."
Just as I stepped into the Queen's Palace, the voice of the palace maid came, "Send off Concubine Liu."
The next moment, Concubine Liu and Mingxiu came out of the hall.
Concubine Liu had never set foot here except for coming to the Queen's Palace on the stipulated day.
What is she doing here today?
At this time, Concubine Liu also saw me and walked towards me with a smile.
"This servant has seen Concubine Liu."
"They are all acquaintances, so what kind of courtesy do you have to do? Besides, you will be Mrs. Shangshu the day after tomorrow. It's too late for me to flatter you." Concubine Liu smiled charmingly and came over to help me.
I hurriedly took a step back, bowed and said: "Now the servant is still a maid, so I should salute to the empress."
Concubine Liu raised her eyebrows, and the smile in the corner of her eyes deepened, "It's not that we don't know each other, our relationship is no better than those in this palace. Back then, you often gave me embroidered handkerchiefs, oh, yes, if it wasn't Those embroidered handkerchiefs are not what you are now, so shouldn't you thank me?"
"Of course I have not forgotten the past, I just buried it in my heart, especially some disgraceful things, why mention it?" I respectfully, with a smile in my eyes, and a calm voice.
It really has changed, and now he even speaks with confidence and sophistication.
Concubine Liu smiled even more happily, and said affectionately: "Yeah, don't mention the past, it depends on the future, the future will be long. I have already given the congratulatory gift to the empress, and she will pass it to you for me." When passing by, Concubine Liu whispered, "You must marry happily."
When Concubine Liu stepped out of the palace gate, I was blessed and said softly: "My servant thank you for your kind words."
In the small side room, I saw the congratulatory gift given to me by Concubine Liu.
A gorgeous square box.
The congratulatory gift was thrown on the ground, and the surrounding area of the box was damaged a lot, so it can be seen that someone threw it in from outside the door.
It's the queen. Without the queen's order, which palace man would dare to be so bold?
When the box was opened, a veil embroidered with mandarin ducks playing in the water slipped off and slowly fell to the ground.
My face turned pale in an instant, this veil was exactly what I was going to give to Concubine Liu that night, if it wasn't for this veil, I would not have lost my innocence, and my mother would not have blamed myself and worried that her condition would worsen, in just a few days If I die, I will not enter the palace.
Is Concubine Liu trying to remind me of those past events?
So what?
Since it cannot be erased, I have learned how to face it.
Only by facing it squarely can we better digest the slow past.
In the end, there is only regret left.
When I think about it, there will be a flood of regrets.
Everyone has a dream, and literati say that the feelings of a girl are a poem.
And my poems lost their feelings after that night.
Until I met Jing Lin, but now, I have lost such feelings.
The feelings for Jing Lin changed somehow, very light, very light, as light as water.
However, I sincerely want to hold hands with him for the rest of my life, and live together in a fulfilling way.
On the day I left the palace, I was very happy.
I think that all the palace people can see my happiness, even if each of them has such indifference and disgust on their faces, it is still difficult to erase my happiness.
Picking up the package, I left the side room, looking at the busy palace people outside the palace, I took a deep breath.
Goodbye everyone.
There is no reluctance, no nostalgia, only the yearning for freedom.
"Sister Enen." Xiaoru walked into the hall, holding a cup of tea in her hand, and smiled in front of me, "You are leaving, Xiaoru specially came to see you off, this is the jasmine honey tea I made for you, Consider it a farewell gift."
"Thank you, Xiaoru." After taking the tea, I opened the lid, looking at the fluctuating honey-colored tea, I put it on the carved table beside me, took out the handkerchief Liu Fei gave me from my arms, and dipped it into the tea.
"What are you doing?" Xiaoru's expression was not good.
I smiled slightly, hiding all my thoughts in a soft voice, "After drinking the tea, I will never know Xiaoru's kindness to me, and this veil will always have the scent of jasmine honey tea on it, and when I smell it, I will remember Xiaoru's kindness to me." You, aren't you better?"
I'm afraid, afraid that Xiaoru will poison the tea.
"Okay, of course." Xiaoru said stiffly.
Wringing the handkerchief dry and waving it into my sleeve, I looked at her kindly, but my voice was very heavy, "Xiao Ru, take care."
Xiao Ru was stunned, looking at my beautiful eyes for a moment, she was confused, and after a while, she snorted coldly, "You should take care of yourself." After speaking, she turned her head and left.
Today's sunshine is very good, shining golden, shining on the bright yellow glazed tiles, the refracted light makes the whole palace seem to be in a golden light.
After leaving the Queen's Palace, I took out the handkerchief in my sleeve and buried her deeply in the mud of a field of flowers.
All in all, stop here.
Afterwards, a new life.
In the long corridor, the narrow sky above the head looks so bright.
Walk briskly, pass this road, then pass through Ningcui Courtyard, and walk across the Baiyu Bridge to the main gate.
I trotted up.
Just as he was running through a round gate, his steps slowed down.
Just now, from the corner of the eye, I seemed to see a bright yellow shadow inside that round door.
He looked in the direction of the corridor and must have seen me too.
I bit my lower lip, since I passed the round gate, I would have to question my crime if I went back to salute.
Today is the day I go out of the palace, so I can't make any mistakes.
Just pretend that I didn't see it, even if the palace guards chased it out...
The footsteps were even slower, but the palace man did not chase out from the round gate.
I felt relieved, probably because I was too nervous, maybe he didn't see me.
Thinking of this, I trotted again.
The heart seems to fly.
Out of the tunnel, I saw Aunt Suyan. I was a little surprised, but even happier. Auntie came to see me off, right?
"Auntie." I quickly ran to her and looked at her happily, "Are you here to see me off?"
Aunt Suyan's expression is not as calm as before, as if she has something on her mind, and she avoids my smiling eyes, she just nodded, "Yes, parting, I don't know what to give you."
"My aunt treats Enen like a family member. Don't say thank you to Enen in your heart, and you will be offended if you give something."
"Well?"
I looked at her with a smile.
Aunt Su turned her head again.
"What's the matter, Auntie?"
"I, I have something to give you."
Blinking, I smiled and said, "Although I feel a little sorry for my aunt giving Enen something, I'm still looking forward to receiving a gift from my aunt."
"Yes, is it?" Aunt Su looked at me, her eyes were full of sadness, she opened her mouth to say something, but she saw her eyes move and looked behind me.
Is there anyone behind me?I was about to turn around and take a look, when my aunt said: "You are about to get married, I am your natal family, and the natal family will dress up the married daughter, the aunt has nothing else, I can only give you this lip balm (that is, lipstick). "
After receiving the lip balm, I was moved, "Thank you, aunt."
Growing up, this is the first time I have used lipstick. When I saw other girls buying rouge and powder in groups on the street, I was envious, but my family was too poor and there was no extra money for me to dress up.
"Come on, I'll use it for you, open your mouth."
My aunt put the lipstick on my lips.
"Sip."
I do what I say.
"Sip it a few more times, it's red and pretty." Aunt Su's voice trembled.
I sipped it several times, "Auntie, is it too red?" After I sipped it, I wanted to touch it with my hand.
"Don't touch it, it won't look good if it fades."
"It's a strange taste, but it's very fragrant." Pressing it on his lips, it will more or less flow into his mouth when he speaks. It's just strange, why is the taste of mouth fat so astringent?
"The smell will go away after a while, hurry up, don't miss the auspicious time."
"Auntie, I really miss you."
Aunt Su nodded with tears in her eyes, speechless.
"Then I'm leaving." I walked away step by step, and after five or six steps, I turned around and asked with a smile, "Auntie, does lip balm really look good?"
"It's beautiful, it's very beautiful." Aunt Su's voice trembled more and more.
I think it should be because of the sorrow of parting. In order to make Aunt Su not so sad, I said with a smile: "Thank you Auntie, Auntie, I will live a good life, and I will live a good life for Auntie. I am leaving."
Aunt Su was so choked up that she couldn't speak.
Just when I passed the corner, the sobbing Aunt Su knelt down on the ground, crying, crying sadly, and said: "I'm sorry, Enen, I'm sorry, Enen, in order to keep the prince, I can only do this, I'm sorry .”
When I first entered the palace, I was selected by the ladies in this Ningcui courtyard, but I was not selected by them, but was randomly selected by my father-in-law to enter the laundry bureau.
God made a big joke on me.
Now, the joke is finally coming to an end.
After passing the Ningcui Courtyard and walking up the majestic Baiyu Bridge, you will see the main gate.
The eight-meter-high gate is like two giants reaching the sky. I used to think it was so tall and awe-inspiring, but now I feel very friendly.
Heart is beating.
After getting off the Baiyu Bridge, and getting closer to the main gate, for some reason, my footsteps were a little erratic, and my eyes were a little blurred.
Blinking, I wanted to see everything in front of me clearly, but the two giant doors turned into four, which became even more blurred.
The head also started to dizzy.
What's wrong with the body?
The gate is right in front of you, and you only need to walk another twenty steps to talk to the guard who opened the gate.
He staggered.
what happened?Woke up fine in the morning.
One step, two steps...
My head was getting dizzy, and my feet were weak.
I stood, blurred and trying to focus on the door, without success.
As soon as my body went limp, I slowly fell backwards.
The expected pain did not come.
Someone caught me.
Someone lifted me up.
These people did not walk out of the palace, but carried them into the palace.
I really hate the feeling of blurred consciousness, so I hold on with my will.
I didn't drink Xiaoru's tea, I didn't eat anything, and I didn't have any contact with anyone.
Why does the body behave like this?
There is a strange taste in the mouth, and if she eats it, it is only Aunt Suyan's mouth fat, and she always eats some unintentionally when she speaks.
No, it won't be Aunt Suyan.
However, the heart still hurts, like a knife stabbing into the body, slowly turning there.
The body feels cool, and the frivolous feeling is like being in water.
A few hands were tossing on my body, as if they were bathing me.
Move your fingers, no strength.
Consciousness is a little clear.
Hearing the rush of water, they lifted me up and poured a bucket of warm water on me.
A cloth towel was wrapped around me and I was wiped from head to toe.
The back touched the soft and silky bedding.
Another thinner quilt was covered.
Such a fragrant quilt, where have I smelled this fragrance?
That's right, it's the queen, and the queen has such a fragrance on her body.
Why does this quilt smell like the incense powder used by the queen?
I vaguely heard someone saying: "She is about to wake up, give her this to drink."
It was Xiaoru's voice.
I was half awake, and when I slowly opened my eyes, I saw a palace man suddenly helped me up, and another palace man opened my mouth vigorously, and poured something that exudes a fragrance.
Struggling, the limbs are completely weak.
Xiaoru stood beside the bed coldly, looking at me with a sullen face.
"What did you drink for me?" Although the voice was weak, it was clear enough for people to hear.
Xiao Ru waved to several palace people, "It's none of your business here, go out."
The palace people withdrew one by one.
"Is it good to drink?" Xiao Ru squinted her eyes, pretending to look at me innocently, "Ordinary people can't drink it."
"What the hell are you trying to do?" I started to get dizzy again.
"Look where this is, don't you know?"
Looking around, I suddenly opened my eyes wide. This is the queen's bedroom, and this bed... I actually slept on the queen's bed.
Only then did he notice that he was completely naked.
Uneasiness, great anxiety, even fear spread in my heart.
"You?" Xiaoru in front of her eyes became blurred.
"I'm leaving." Xiao Ru's voice was brisk, looking like she was enjoying the show, "I forgot to tell you, it's already night, just now the palace servants came to deliver the message that the emperor will come tonight."
There was a creak, the sound of the palace door being closed.
Unable to move at all, his consciousness became blurred again and he fell into a coma.
It was the heat that woke me up from my drowsiness.
The heat rising from the lower abdomen swept through the limbs and bones, eager to be relieved.
He sat up and went to find water to drink.
But the moment he opened his eyes, he was entangled with a pair of cold eyes.
He was standing by the bed, looking at me deeply, the moment I sat up, the color of his eyes changed, and a trace of burning heat flashed.
"Your Majesty?" His gaze made my body tremble uncontrollably, and only then did I feel a chill on my chest, and when I looked down, my face turned pale.
I was naked all over, and hurriedly picked up the quilt to cover it tightly, and the memory came back to my mind.
When I was about to leave the palace, I became completely weak, and someone lifted me up when I passed out.
When I woke up, I saw Xiao Ru, what did she give me to drink.
"What trick are you playing this time?" The emperor looked at me coldly, his voice hoarse and deep.
"I...I..." My thoughts were confused, "Please move away for a while, my servant needs to change clothes."
The body became hotter and hotter, and the inexplicable desire flowed in the body, and the ferocity almost made me unable to suppress it.
Squinting his eyes and looking at me for half a second, he sat on the chair with my back behind his back and poured a cup of tea to drink.
Seeing my clothes on the screen, I wrapped myself in the quilt and got out of bed.
After walking a few steps, my feet went limp and I fell to the ground, and the quilt slipped to my feet.
"Don't turn your head." Seeing that he was about to turn around, I yelled in a panic, with crying in my voice, "Please."
My body is so hot, so hot, what did Xiao Ru feed me?
At this time, very helpless.
"Please? This is the first time you begged me." The cold voice was extremely mocking, but he still turned around and saw me in a mess and naked.
My entreaties are useless.
At this moment, I really want to die.
He looked at me naked, his cold eyes became hotter and hotter.
"Don't come over, don't come over, don't touch me." I wanted to get up, but my body was weak.
It's useless to say anything, how could the majestic emperor listen to me.
His hands touched mine and he hugged me.
The moment the skin touched, the heat in the body seemed to stop for a moment, and the next moment, a more violent heat came up from the lower abdomen. Subconsciously, I wrapped my hands around his neck and felt his body stiff.
I twisted and twisted in an extremely weird posture, and countless moans overflowed from my mouth.
"Let me go, please, please." I begged, but my body clung to him even more tightly, and I didn't want to let him go at all.
The body is so hot that it looks like it will explode.
"Have you taken the aphrodisiac?" He put me on the bed, his eyes locked on my crimson body, and asked in a stiff voice.
"I don't know." The coolness of the quilt brought me back to my senses for a moment. I quickly crawled to the corner of the bed and covered my naked body with the quilt. The irresistible heat made me shiver all over.
Is that an aphrodisiac?
I shivered more violently, both from heat and fear.
I know about aphrodisiacs, and I know that this kind of medicine can make people lose their minds and turn them into beasts.
Hold yourself tight, no, I must not lose my mind.
"Come out." He ordered, his voice full of anger.
"No." I shook my head.
"The will is no match for the medicine. You will only make yourself more painful if you endure like this."
"How... how to solve it?" The unstoppable heat turned into sharp knives, cutting all over my body, and my voice became unsteady.
"Having sex." He said coldly.
"No, don't." I shook my head desperately.
"Do you want to die?" He suddenly pulled me away.
"Don't touch me, don't—" I yelled, breaking free from his grip with all my might.
How could he listen to me, he locked me tightly in his arms.
"Please, don't treat me like this, please." As soon as I touched him, my body began to twist strangely again, eager to get his caress.
I cried and begged, if I still had the strength to restrain myself, I would hit the wall and die without hesitation.
"You will die if you continue like this." The coolness in the voice is gone, but sad, with a little bit of pain.
"I'd rather die." I looked at him, desperately, "Please."
"I can't do it." The hurt and pain in his eyes became more obvious.
"Please." My voice is weak, I can't restrain it, I really can't restrain it.
"You've already belonged to me, if I want you again, what's the difference?"
"Don't you know what dignity is? I would rather die than be trampled on."
"Trample? Why do you think that I am trampling on you? Can't you tell that I like you?" At this moment, all the aura that should belong to an emperor disappeared from him, only the incomparable loss and embarrassment, and a little bit of heartache.
"But I don't like you."
"You're bleeding." He looked at the blood dripping from the corner of my mouth and smiled bitterly.
Does he laugh like this too?
No wonder I feel something is coming out of my mouth, is it blood?
"I like you, but you always trample my pride and conceit under your feet, and you still look like you don't know it. I am the emperor, when you look at me with disgust, how do you make me pull you?" Do I have to put on this face and say I like you?" He hugged me who was half unconscious, and smiled bitterly, "I can't let you die, if you don't like it, then don't like it."
He kissed me.
"No." The kiss was not without feeling.
No matter how much I resisted in my heart, the moment he kissed me, my willpower disappeared and I let my senses dominate everything.
Responding jerky to his lingering.
Urgently unbuttoned his clothes.
Facing my jerky, he kissed deeper and deeper.
Until both of them were naked, until he was deep inside me, throbbing.
The dryness and heat in the body were relieved a little.
It's been a long night.
This night, he wanted me many times. If I said that the first few times I felt unprecedented joy, then in the last few times, I was walking in hell.
As each time passed, the potency of the medicine became weaker and weaker, and the consciousness gradually became clear.
The last time, in a fully awake state, with him...
I couldn't resist it, because I was weak all over, and because the medicine still had some power.
"Go to sleep, have a good sleep, all the peace is only at this moment." He hugged me naked, and said lightly.
My heart was so cold that I wanted to shiver, but I forced myself to speak and said hoarsely: "How will the emperor solve it?"
"I can make you a concubine."
"Is that all? Someone drugged the servant."
For a long time, he didn't speak. When he spoke, I smiled wryly and closed my eyes.
"What I can promise is to make you a concubine."
"My servant thanked the emperor, but my servant only wanted to leave the palace."
"You still want to marry Jing Lin?" His anger was obvious.
"If he wants a servant, the servant will marry." I said very empty, is this still possible?
"Damn it, I said I would make you a concubine."
(End of this chapter)
Aunt Suyan didn't turn her head to look at Mingxiu, she said calmly: "Enen is worthy of Master Jing's love, and I believe she will be happy." After finishing speaking, she left.
I didn't expect to see the emperor in the palace gallery, and he was alone.
Didn't you just go to see Concubine Liu dance?
"My servant has seen the emperor." My voice was flat.
He didn't speak, just stood quietly.
The breeze blew quietly, lifting the hem of the bright yellow clothes.
I hold my breath, every time I see him, something always happens.
And every time, he always looked at me with deep and sharp eyes, which made my scalp numb and my heart feel fear.
He said: "Hiding in the flowers, do you think I didn't see it?"
Because of my nervousness, my palms were sweating, but I didn't feel any fear. Sure enough, he knew that I was hiding among the flowers, so he quickly knelt down and said, "Your Majesty, I thank the Emperor for not killing me."
I just want to get out of here.
"What? In the past, you would have asked me why I didn't catch you, but now I'm so accommodating, it really doesn't look like you." He seemed to be sarcasm but not sarcasm, and the anger in his words was unmistakable.
"In the past, slaves were ignorant."
"Not sensible? Are you sensible now? Or, you don't want to talk too much with me, just want to leave immediately after beckoning? Huh?" His voice suddenly rang in his ears.
I was so surprised that when I looked up, my lips met his.
His flustered eyes met his calm black eyes.
Subconsciously, I was about to push him away, but he pressed one hand on the back of my head, and the other hand clasped my waist. As soon as I exerted force, my body pressed against him tightly, deepening the kiss.
Do not--
His kiss is direct, domineering, with the desire of aggression and conquest.
Knock out the double teeth and get entangled with me.
Forced to bear everything about him.
He kissed very deeply, very deeply, like a brand, deeply imprinted into the bottom of my heart.
I no longer struggle.
For this man, everything is powerless.
He let me go, and his cool and deep eyes like midnight met my indifferent face. The next moment, a trace of annoyance flashed in his eyes, and he cursed in a low voice: "Damn it."
"If the emperor has nothing else to do, the servant will leave first." I was indifferent, otherwise what kind of expression should I use?
"What are you going to Concubine Liu Palace for?" Under my indifferent expression, his face also turned dark.
"The servant girl is looking for Aunt Suyan."
"Is that all?"
"Didn't the emperor say that he doesn't care about the rights and wrongs of the harem? What does it mean to ask a servant?"
His complexion became darker and uglier, his eyes flashed a look of embarrassment and then was replaced by Feng Rui, he only said: "Liu Concubine Palace is not the place you should go." Then he left.
Biting my lower lip tightly, I covered my mouth, and after a while, wiped it hard.
I couldn't stop until the skin was scratched.
"Enough, if you keep wiping it off, it will swell up." The wiping hand was pulled away, and Tang Yu appeared from behind.
I stared at him in surprise, my heart suddenly flustered.
Why is he here?
Just now, did he see everything just now?
"It's all scratched, you need to use some ointment." His voice was a little cold, a little warm, a little soft, and when his cold pool-like eyes drooped, there was a flash of pain.
"You, when did you come?"
Looking at my flustered eyes, he looked deeply for a while, and then smiled, "Just now, I saw that you kept wiping your mouth, and there was nothing on it."
"Then, you didn't see anything, did you?"
Tang Yu shook his head and asked, "What should I see?"
"No." I didn't realize that there was something inappropriate in saying these words, I just felt relieved.
It was strange, and he was very concerned about letting Tang Yu see the scene just now.
"Where are you going?"
"I, I'm going back to the Queen's Palace."
"Master Jing has publicly said that he wants to marry you."
"What?" It's no wonder that all the palace people knew about it.
"You should be very happy to have your wish come true?" Tang Yu asked with a smile, his eyes narrowed into slits.
Since I knew him, I have never seen him smile like this, so much that even the coldness in his eyes disappeared.
are you happy?It should be happy.
"You are not suitable to be in the palace, this should be your best choice."
"Do you think so too?" I was disappointed in my heart, I always hoped that Tang Yu could say something, but I didn't know what to expect him to say.
"Isn't this your wish?"
I nodded, yes, my hope, I have been secretly liking Jing Lin, isn't this result exactly what I want?
"Let's go."
The two walked slowly on the palace corridor, shoulder to shoulder.
I have never walked this way with him, and the only time I walked side by side was scolded by him, but that was a long time ago.
I soon came to the end of the palace corridor. I usually think this corridor is quite long, but now I think it is very short.
"Is the hand injury healed?" I looked at his scarred hand, it should be healed.
"Perhaps only Mr. Jing can truly protect you." Tang Yu didn't answer my question, but looked at the corner of my mouth that was scratched by me, the pain in the bottom of his eyes deepened, he clenched his fists and then loosened them, "Leaving the palace Come on, have a good time."
"Then will you come to see me?" After asking this sentence, I regretted it again. How could I ask such a sentence?
Tang Yu walked forward, wondering if he didn't hear me, until they parted, he didn't say a word, and he didn't look back at me.
It's just that hand clenched into a fist again.
Walking on the path of the imperial garden, kicking stones one by one.
I feel a lot more lonely in my heart.
Something has been stuffy and I can't vent it, I can't find a place to vent it, let alone what I want to vent it.
The second prince's matter is not that simple.
Aunt Suyan lost her handkerchief, how could Xiaoling just pick it up?
Did Concubine An really kill her child herself?
Maybe it is.
Now that the matter is closed, I shouldn't investigate anymore, yes, what to investigate?
Do you still want to seek justice for the torture you have suffered in the past three days?
It was so delusional.
"Ah, it hurts so much." A cry of pain came from another direction.
The voice was a little familiar, and I wanted to walk away, but hearing the voice was so miserable, I still walked over.
Looking from where I was, I saw a blue shadow sitting leisurely on a tree with a pile of pebbles beside him. While eating pears, he picked up pebbles and threw them into the distance. As soon as there was a stone, the miserable cry came from afar. This time, I heard clearly that the miserable cry was not made by one person.
I stood on tiptoe and looked far away, but I didn't see anyone.
Walking under the tree, I saw the blue shadow clearly, it was a stalwart man with eyes that seemed to be smiling but not smiling.
Have you seen him somewhere?
He saw me too, and smiled at me, showing teeth as white as snow.
I remembered that during the Hundred Flowers Festival, more than a dozen men in black attacked the emperor, and he and another very good-looking man came forward to save us.
"What are you doing?" I asked curiously, how could he be in the palace?
"Revenge for you." He bit a pear and threw a stone. The next moment, the voice screamed like a pig.
"Revenge for me?"
"It's rare to take such an easy task, I hope you can be bullied all the time, then I can live this happy life every day."
I didn't understand what he was talking about, but the voice was so miserable that I couldn't see it from here. I picked up my skirt and went up to the rockery behind the tree.
The top of the rockery is also quite different from the position of this man, but he can see far away.
When I saw this, I was completely stunned.
The people who screamed turned out to be a few old palace people who tortured me in the dark room. They were located in a flower garden, but they seemed to be inseparable, and they were circling around in situ.
The stones thrown by the man actually hit their calves one by one, and they could faintly see blood stains on their pants.
How did he hit these people from such a distance? It was so accurate.
They are about fifteen or sixteen meters away.
"It's almost there." The man threw away the pear pit in his hand, patted his clothes when he got up, looked at me for a while, blinked and smiled, "I have avenged you."
When he jumped down, he glanced at me again, muttered to himself, "I really didn't expect that." Then he left.
revenge for me?I was confused, and when I hurriedly chased down the rockery, his shadow was gone.
Who is he?
revenge?How did he know that those old palace people tortured me?
I couldn't figure it out, I shook my head, I shook off this doubt, since he was able to walk freely in the palace and saved the emperor, he must have the emperor's permission.
I shouldn't be too surprised.
Walking on the empty and long palace road, I feel really lonely and lonely.
How should we go on in the future?
After so many things, from innocent to full of thoughts, from pure happiness to present loneliness.
Only you know how much you have changed.
When he walked into the round door, he saw a white figure coming in from another round door and walking towards the Queen's Palace.
Under the bright sun, the sleeves of her clothes are fluttering and she is personable.
"Master Jing." I trotted forward.
"Enn?" Seeing me, the melancholy in Jing Lin's eyes faded, and he put on a smile, sizing me up, "Are you alright?"
I nodded, "Where are you going, sir?"
"Look for you."
"Find me?"
"Look for her too." She, referring to the queen, "Have you decided? Will you marry me?"
Looking at the sincerity and anticipation in Jing Lin's eyes, I was stunned.
All kinds of grievances, injustices, resentments, struggles, and the man who came to the palace flashed across his mind from time to time...
I can't protect myself, and I don't want to hurt others. I am not suitable to live here at all.
I like Jing Lin, I liked him from the first time I saw him, and he even saved me from Concubine An.
Don't even think I'm not innocent anymore.
What am I still hesitating about?
Finally, I nodded, "I do."
At this moment, Tang Yu's cold face and lonely back appeared in his mind, and his heart suddenly became very uncomfortable.
"Let's go." Jing Lin smiled softly, and took my hand. His hand was very warm, but it didn't have the feeling of shyness and heart pounding like before.
Shaking away all the weird thoughts in my mind, I took a deep breath following his footsteps.
"Yes."
I look up at him.
"Sorry, it might upset you later."
"what?"
Jing Lin looked down at me, his eyes became more and more worried, "This is the last time."
"I'm not allowed, I'm not allowed if I say so." Biting out every single word, the empress gripped the chair tightly with both hands, her fingers turned white, her almond eyes were red, and she looked at Jing Lin with a look full of sadness and despair .
"How long do you want me to wait for you?" Jing Lin was smiling, sadly.
"I, isn't it good for us to do this?" The queen's voice trembled, she stared at the person in front of her beggingly, "Lin, don't do this to me, don't."
"What I want is a wife who can be by my side day and night, can you do it?"
"You know it's impossible."
"Why is it impossible? Didn't I find it now?" Jing Lin tightened my hand, but still looked at the Queen.
In the huge hall, there are only three of us.
I finally understood what Jing Lin meant when he said "it might make you sad later".
At this time, he didn't see me in the bottom of his eyes, and his eyes were full of the empress's sad face.
So does the Queen.
It would be a lie to say I don't care, but I certainly don't feel angry.
"I don't allow it, I don't allow it." The queen stood up abruptly, pulled away Jing Lin's hand holding me, grabbed his arms tightly, and cried in grief, "You are mine, you swore to me Yes, you will never leave me for the rest of your life.”
"What about you? The oath you made is long gone."
"Are you in love with her?" The queen asked hoarsely, pointing at me.
Jing Lin met my gaze, turned his head after a while.
The queen sneered, "You love a woman like me. There is a difference between her and me, whether it is in character or appearance, how can a person's preferences be easily changed? You marry her, just to escape the relationship between you and me." my feelings."
Jing Lin's face turned pale, and it took a long time before he spoke, "People's preferences are changing, how do you know that I won't fall in love with her? Enen is kind, upright, and sincere to others. She makes me feel warm. I am very happy together, but you have never brought me these feelings."
"Really?" The queen looked at me, tears streamed from the corners of her eyes, "Su En, are you willing? Marry a man who doesn't love himself, and he still has other women in his heart."
I saluted slowly, "I hope your mother will be successful."
Jing Lin said that if you give him time, he will fall in love with me.
All of this he said frankly and sincerely.
Even when he came to the Queen's Palace, he said in advance that he would make me sad, and promised to be the last time.
Why can't I trust him?
"Fulfillment?" The queen was crying and laughing, extremely desolate, "Even if I die, I will not fulfill you, no, you will never want to live happily together in this life, never even think about it."
I saw Jing Lin raised his hand, as if he wanted to hug the queen, but in the end he just clenched his fists.
And I didn't even have the slightest mind in my heart, and I didn't even feel sad.
Obviously it would hurt before.
The hall where no one spoke suddenly fell silent.
Three people, three corners, he looked at her, she looked away in pain.
I see his infatuation and her misery in my eyes.
It seems like a long time.
"Is this really what you want?" The queen seemed to have calmed down, her voice still trembling.
"Yes."
"Okay, I will fulfill you, fulfill you."
"Brother, I thank the empress for her success."
At night, the heat of summer faded away and became cool.
Everyone fell into a dreamland, only me, empty to the bright moon.
Am I not liking Jinglin anymore?Otherwise, how could there be no heartache and sadness in the face of his obsession with the queen?
I liked him for so long, why did I suddenly dislike him?
Flat feeling.
If so, do you really want to marry him?
Why not?
At least he understands me, understands me, knows what I think and what I insist on.
Isn't it a blessing to be married to someone who understands oneself?
Many people don't even meet each other face to face when they get married.
I at least know what he looks like and what his character is.
He still doesn't think I'm innocent, where can I find such a husband?
Suppressing the Mo Ming melancholy that emerged from the bottom of my heart.
I really want to live a peaceful life, but Jing Lin, he will give me what I want.
I took a deep breath, and finally I was able to leave the palace, leave this dark place, and live the life I wanted to live.
I am very happy, right?
I closed the window, closed my eyes, and turned around to spread the bedding.
"My woman has only two choices, either to stay by my side for the rest of her life, or to die." The cold voice drifted past her ears.
I was taken aback.
The emperor was wearing a silk satin moon white gown with a sapphire sash around his waist, standing coldly by the window.
The door was closed, how did he get in?
I took a step back and looked at him warily, what is he trying to do?
"Without my permission, palace servants are not allowed to leave the palace to marry, not to mention that you have already served in bed, and you are my woman." Wu Bo's voice was full of suffocating pressure.
"No one knows about this at all." I pursed my dry lips and said nervously.
"Yeah, everyone who knows thinks you were bullied by a bully." He sneered.
"Would the emperor still announce to the world that this bully is the current holy majesty you?"
The emperor's face sank, "You like Jing Lin so much?"
"Yes, please let the emperor do it." With him, there is nothing to say.
"Fulfillment? You don't have the slightest intention of asking me to be perfect."
"Your Majesty doesn't need to fulfill your slaves, but you can also tell the world how you insulted a commoner woman." I looked back at him coldly, watching the coldness in his eyes gradually turn cold.
I'm afraid of this man, but I hate him even more.
"Is it because of this stubbornness that you endured the lynching in the dark room?" He suddenly changed the topic, which made me unable to pick up for a while.
After a while, I realized what he was talking about. I didn't speak, but turned my head.That night, when Xiao Ling killed me, it was he who saved me, but he didn't come forward to explain.
Yes, what can a maidservant ask of a majestic emperor?
"Are you blaming me?"
I knelt down on the ground and said in a deep voice, "Please Your Majesty, please grant En En and Lord Jing a favor."
The matter of the second prince has passed, is it useful to say this now?
Besides, it was my own fault, so how could I blame others.
It's strange, I have hoped extravagantly, but I still don't get what I want, so I blame it.
I never expected him to help me, so naturally I wouldn't blame him.
"Zhen," every word seems to be forced out, "I have met you again and again, do you really not understand?"
"What should slaves understand?" She knew that he was moody, but she didn't understand why he was angry now.
The meeting was accidental, could it be that he came to meet me on purpose?
It's ridiculous to think of myself.
Frustration flashed in the emperor's eyes, and when he was about to say something, I said, "Your majesty, this servant is just an ordinary court lady, and what I want is a peaceful and stable ordinary life. I beg the emperor to grant my servant."
I don't want to think about the past.
Jing Lin accepted what happened to me, accepted me now, and what I should think about is my future life.
Let go of those things.
For a long time, he didn't say a word.
I knelt uneasily, only to feel that the air around me became solemn.
"Even if I allow you and Jing Lin, you will not be able to live a peaceful life." The voice is no longer calm, as if someone threw a stone, and there are turbulent waves under the hidden anger.
"Your servant only asks for the emperor's fulfillment." I kowtowed.
As long as the emperor agrees, what else can happen?
Another long silence.
Until a long time passed, he still didn't speak.
I couldn't help but slightly raised my head. In front of my eyes, there was no figure of the emperor, only the wooden door of the side room was shaking there.
He actually left without a word.
Why did he come here?
The weather is getting cooler and cooler.
Presumably the emperor agreed, and the Ministry of Internal Affairs sent me a message to leave immediately in ten days.
That day was the day I married Jing Lin.
I seemed to be isolated in a corner. When everyone in the palace saw me, they either lowered their heads and pretended not to see me, or ran away in a hurry.
As if I were the plague.
All of this is the queen's order, and no matter what, she can't let go of Jing Lin's act of marrying me.
suddenly idle down.
The days passed extremely peacefully, and I waited in peace to leave the palace.
Soon, I will leave the palace in two days.
I've packed everything up and made a small package. When I came, I had nothing, and I didn't expect to have nothing to take with me when I went.
There is one more important thing to do, to say goodbye to Tang Yu and Aunt Suyan.
For a period of time in the palace, the two of them took good care of me, which I will never forget in my life.
I wanted to go to the small courtyard where Tang Yu lived, but was stopped by Lu Gonggong in the Royal Garden.
"If you're looking for Tang Yu, there's no need, he's not in the palace." Eunuch Lu's eagle eyes were extremely sharp, and his eyes were filled with disgust.
"Not in the palace? Where has he gone?"
"I sent him out of the palace on business."
"When are you coming back?"
"Five days later."
Feeling disappointed in my heart, can't I even say goodbye to him before leaving the palace?
For some reason, I really wanted to see him.
"Sexy." Eunuch Lu spat in a low voice, "Hooking up with Tang Yu while grabbing Mr. Jing at the same time, shameless."
"What nonsense are you talking about?"
"Isn't it? You've already married Tang Yu, and now you're going to marry someone else." Eunuch Lu sneered, "A slut like you doesn't deserve Tang Yu at all. Save me a shot."
"Grandpa Lu, that's not the case."
"It's a good thing." Eunuch Lu sneered a few times, "It's time for Tang Yu to see your true colors. It's really worthless. During the three days you were imprisoned, Tang Yu spent two full days outside Shangshu's mansion to wait Mr. Jing came to save you, and he even hurt his hands because he blamed himself too much."
After speaking, Eunuch Lu sneered a few times before leaving.
Tang Yu stayed outside Shangshu's mansion for two days and waited for Jinglin, was it just to save me?
His hand was also hurt because of me?
Touching the chest, the weird feeling came out again, and there was more pain.
I hurriedly shook my head, gathered my mind and walked towards Concubine Liu Palace.
I saw Aunt Suyan who was chopping firewood in the small stove house of Concubine Liu Palace.
Feeling sad for a while, why did Concubine Liu treat Aunt Su like this?
Obviously, Aunt Su has lost a lot of weight.
"Auntie." I whispered.
"Shouldn't the bride be happy? Let go of your frowning eyebrows." Seeing me, Aunt Su smiled.
"Why are you doing this?" I choked up slightly.
"Don't talk about this." Aunt Su stood up, shaking the hem of her clothes that had been stained by sawdust, "Talk to Auntie, I don't know when we will meet again in the future."
That's right, once you leave the palace, the wall inside and outside the palace is as vast as the sky and the earth, and you can't jump out or come in.
"My aunt is really envious of you being able to leave the palace." Aunt Su took my hand and sat under the shade of a tree beside her, looking at the slightly yellowing leaves, she sighed, "People in the palace are too lonely, only lonely There is right and wrong, and no one will not be hurt under right and wrong. It's great that you can leave the palace."
"Auntie, you have to take good care of yourself."
"Don't worry, I have been in the palace for more than 30 years, and I know what to do is the best." Aunt Su looked at me with a smile, "Is everything ready?"
I nodded, "Auntie, I want to hug you."
"Are you still a child?" Even so, Aunt Su hugged me into her arms.
At this moment, I seemed to be lying in my mother's arms, and my heart felt peaceful and at ease.
"Enn, you have to pay more attention to the things around you these two days."
"what?"
"People in the palace are unfortunate. Every time they see a perfect thing, they can't help but want to break it."
"What is Auntie talking about?" I looked up at Aunt Su.
"Anyway, just be careful."
Aunt Su looked at me with a smile, there was a deep blessing in her eyes, and there was also something that I couldn't see through.
When leaving, Aunt Su suddenly said: "Enen, I can only rely on myself."
I nodded, probably because of Lichou's sadness, today's aunt looks particularly heavy and restless.
The sunset is particularly red, as charming as blood.
I couldn't help but look at it for a while, the sunset in half the sky dyed the overlapping clouds red, and I was very bewildered.
"What's so good about the setting sun?" A childish and arrogant voice sounded beside him.
Turning around, I saw His Royal Highness looking at me strangely.
"Your Highness." I saluted and smiled slightly, "Why are you here?"
"Come and see you."
The prince's face was a little crimson, and he said in a rough voice: "Uncle is going to marry you, isn't he?"
"Yes."
"Will you enter the palace in the future?"
Enter the palace?I don't want to get involved with this place anymore, but I don't know if it's my illusion, but the prince's gaze has some anticipation, "Does Your Highness want your servants to enter the palace?"
"Hope." As soon as he finished speaking, the prince looked away, preventing me from seeing his expression.
It's a bit of a surprise, doesn't the prince hate me very much?I was still very happy in my heart, and said: "I think this slave must have to enter the palace a few times."
The prince looked at me again, his bright eyes were a little sad.
"What's the matter, Your Highness?"
"I wish you could stay with me."
Surprised, why did the prince who hates me change so much?I saw him folded his hands in front of his chest, his proud expression was very different from that of just now, and he said: "It's been so many days, and you haven't asked for credit. It seems that you have a good heart, and this crown prince appreciates it very much."
Looking at him pretending to be an adult, I laughed.
"What are you laughing at?" The prince pouted and stared at me.
Seeing his appearance, I wanted to laugh again, so I restrained myself and said, "I don't even know what you're talking about."
"Hmph." The prince raised his nose and snorted coldly, as arrogant as he could be, "It's fine if you don't know, the prince is here today to tell you and allow you to be my friend."
friend?The prince shocked me a lot today.
"This is a great gift, why don't you thank me?"
I smiled lightly, but didn't take it seriously, and saluted: "My servant thanked His Royal Highness for your great kindness."
"What do you call a friend?" the prince asked suddenly.
I thought for a while and said, "My servant feels that friends can confide in each other, whether it is happy or sad, they can share together, they are the most trusted confidants, there is no distinction between rich and poor, and they share weal and woe on an equal line A person who advances and retreats."
"Then do you have such a friend?"
This question overwhelmed me, and I couldn't help but think of Tang Yu. Tang Yu has many secrets that I don't know, and the loneliness he shows from time to time. He is my friend, but there is always something between me and him. like.
As for Aunt Su, I regard her as an elder, an elder whom I can rely on and rely on.
What about Jinglin?He understands me, understands me, is a confidant, and a person who can spend a lifetime together.
"The prince asked you something." The prince urged.
Withdrawing my thoughts, I said, "No, I don't have such a friend yet."
"Then you have it now." The corner of the prince's mouth curled up, and he said triumphantly, "We can be such friends, Lagou." He stretched out his thumb and little finger in front of me, "What are you doing in a daze? Lagou."
I stretched out my hand as promised.
"Pull it." After pulling the hook, the prince said with a high air, "Since we are friends, you don't have to thank me. I'm leaving."
After the bouncing figure of the prince disappeared, I looked at the hooked hand, smiled, and murmured: "What a child."
Just as I stepped into the Queen's Palace, the voice of the palace maid came, "Send off Concubine Liu."
The next moment, Concubine Liu and Mingxiu came out of the hall.
Concubine Liu had never set foot here except for coming to the Queen's Palace on the stipulated day.
What is she doing here today?
At this time, Concubine Liu also saw me and walked towards me with a smile.
"This servant has seen Concubine Liu."
"They are all acquaintances, so what kind of courtesy do you have to do? Besides, you will be Mrs. Shangshu the day after tomorrow. It's too late for me to flatter you." Concubine Liu smiled charmingly and came over to help me.
I hurriedly took a step back, bowed and said: "Now the servant is still a maid, so I should salute to the empress."
Concubine Liu raised her eyebrows, and the smile in the corner of her eyes deepened, "It's not that we don't know each other, our relationship is no better than those in this palace. Back then, you often gave me embroidered handkerchiefs, oh, yes, if it wasn't Those embroidered handkerchiefs are not what you are now, so shouldn't you thank me?"
"Of course I have not forgotten the past, I just buried it in my heart, especially some disgraceful things, why mention it?" I respectfully, with a smile in my eyes, and a calm voice.
It really has changed, and now he even speaks with confidence and sophistication.
Concubine Liu smiled even more happily, and said affectionately: "Yeah, don't mention the past, it depends on the future, the future will be long. I have already given the congratulatory gift to the empress, and she will pass it to you for me." When passing by, Concubine Liu whispered, "You must marry happily."
When Concubine Liu stepped out of the palace gate, I was blessed and said softly: "My servant thank you for your kind words."
In the small side room, I saw the congratulatory gift given to me by Concubine Liu.
A gorgeous square box.
The congratulatory gift was thrown on the ground, and the surrounding area of the box was damaged a lot, so it can be seen that someone threw it in from outside the door.
It's the queen. Without the queen's order, which palace man would dare to be so bold?
When the box was opened, a veil embroidered with mandarin ducks playing in the water slipped off and slowly fell to the ground.
My face turned pale in an instant, this veil was exactly what I was going to give to Concubine Liu that night, if it wasn't for this veil, I would not have lost my innocence, and my mother would not have blamed myself and worried that her condition would worsen, in just a few days If I die, I will not enter the palace.
Is Concubine Liu trying to remind me of those past events?
So what?
Since it cannot be erased, I have learned how to face it.
Only by facing it squarely can we better digest the slow past.
In the end, there is only regret left.
When I think about it, there will be a flood of regrets.
Everyone has a dream, and literati say that the feelings of a girl are a poem.
And my poems lost their feelings after that night.
Until I met Jing Lin, but now, I have lost such feelings.
The feelings for Jing Lin changed somehow, very light, very light, as light as water.
However, I sincerely want to hold hands with him for the rest of my life, and live together in a fulfilling way.
On the day I left the palace, I was very happy.
I think that all the palace people can see my happiness, even if each of them has such indifference and disgust on their faces, it is still difficult to erase my happiness.
Picking up the package, I left the side room, looking at the busy palace people outside the palace, I took a deep breath.
Goodbye everyone.
There is no reluctance, no nostalgia, only the yearning for freedom.
"Sister Enen." Xiaoru walked into the hall, holding a cup of tea in her hand, and smiled in front of me, "You are leaving, Xiaoru specially came to see you off, this is the jasmine honey tea I made for you, Consider it a farewell gift."
"Thank you, Xiaoru." After taking the tea, I opened the lid, looking at the fluctuating honey-colored tea, I put it on the carved table beside me, took out the handkerchief Liu Fei gave me from my arms, and dipped it into the tea.
"What are you doing?" Xiaoru's expression was not good.
I smiled slightly, hiding all my thoughts in a soft voice, "After drinking the tea, I will never know Xiaoru's kindness to me, and this veil will always have the scent of jasmine honey tea on it, and when I smell it, I will remember Xiaoru's kindness to me." You, aren't you better?"
I'm afraid, afraid that Xiaoru will poison the tea.
"Okay, of course." Xiaoru said stiffly.
Wringing the handkerchief dry and waving it into my sleeve, I looked at her kindly, but my voice was very heavy, "Xiao Ru, take care."
Xiao Ru was stunned, looking at my beautiful eyes for a moment, she was confused, and after a while, she snorted coldly, "You should take care of yourself." After speaking, she turned her head and left.
Today's sunshine is very good, shining golden, shining on the bright yellow glazed tiles, the refracted light makes the whole palace seem to be in a golden light.
After leaving the Queen's Palace, I took out the handkerchief in my sleeve and buried her deeply in the mud of a field of flowers.
All in all, stop here.
Afterwards, a new life.
In the long corridor, the narrow sky above the head looks so bright.
Walk briskly, pass this road, then pass through Ningcui Courtyard, and walk across the Baiyu Bridge to the main gate.
I trotted up.
Just as he was running through a round gate, his steps slowed down.
Just now, from the corner of the eye, I seemed to see a bright yellow shadow inside that round door.
He looked in the direction of the corridor and must have seen me too.
I bit my lower lip, since I passed the round gate, I would have to question my crime if I went back to salute.
Today is the day I go out of the palace, so I can't make any mistakes.
Just pretend that I didn't see it, even if the palace guards chased it out...
The footsteps were even slower, but the palace man did not chase out from the round gate.
I felt relieved, probably because I was too nervous, maybe he didn't see me.
Thinking of this, I trotted again.
The heart seems to fly.
Out of the tunnel, I saw Aunt Suyan. I was a little surprised, but even happier. Auntie came to see me off, right?
"Auntie." I quickly ran to her and looked at her happily, "Are you here to see me off?"
Aunt Suyan's expression is not as calm as before, as if she has something on her mind, and she avoids my smiling eyes, she just nodded, "Yes, parting, I don't know what to give you."
"My aunt treats Enen like a family member. Don't say thank you to Enen in your heart, and you will be offended if you give something."
"Well?"
I looked at her with a smile.
Aunt Su turned her head again.
"What's the matter, Auntie?"
"I, I have something to give you."
Blinking, I smiled and said, "Although I feel a little sorry for my aunt giving Enen something, I'm still looking forward to receiving a gift from my aunt."
"Yes, is it?" Aunt Su looked at me, her eyes were full of sadness, she opened her mouth to say something, but she saw her eyes move and looked behind me.
Is there anyone behind me?I was about to turn around and take a look, when my aunt said: "You are about to get married, I am your natal family, and the natal family will dress up the married daughter, the aunt has nothing else, I can only give you this lip balm (that is, lipstick). "
After receiving the lip balm, I was moved, "Thank you, aunt."
Growing up, this is the first time I have used lipstick. When I saw other girls buying rouge and powder in groups on the street, I was envious, but my family was too poor and there was no extra money for me to dress up.
"Come on, I'll use it for you, open your mouth."
My aunt put the lipstick on my lips.
"Sip."
I do what I say.
"Sip it a few more times, it's red and pretty." Aunt Su's voice trembled.
I sipped it several times, "Auntie, is it too red?" After I sipped it, I wanted to touch it with my hand.
"Don't touch it, it won't look good if it fades."
"It's a strange taste, but it's very fragrant." Pressing it on his lips, it will more or less flow into his mouth when he speaks. It's just strange, why is the taste of mouth fat so astringent?
"The smell will go away after a while, hurry up, don't miss the auspicious time."
"Auntie, I really miss you."
Aunt Su nodded with tears in her eyes, speechless.
"Then I'm leaving." I walked away step by step, and after five or six steps, I turned around and asked with a smile, "Auntie, does lip balm really look good?"
"It's beautiful, it's very beautiful." Aunt Su's voice trembled more and more.
I think it should be because of the sorrow of parting. In order to make Aunt Su not so sad, I said with a smile: "Thank you Auntie, Auntie, I will live a good life, and I will live a good life for Auntie. I am leaving."
Aunt Su was so choked up that she couldn't speak.
Just when I passed the corner, the sobbing Aunt Su knelt down on the ground, crying, crying sadly, and said: "I'm sorry, Enen, I'm sorry, Enen, in order to keep the prince, I can only do this, I'm sorry .”
When I first entered the palace, I was selected by the ladies in this Ningcui courtyard, but I was not selected by them, but was randomly selected by my father-in-law to enter the laundry bureau.
God made a big joke on me.
Now, the joke is finally coming to an end.
After passing the Ningcui Courtyard and walking up the majestic Baiyu Bridge, you will see the main gate.
The eight-meter-high gate is like two giants reaching the sky. I used to think it was so tall and awe-inspiring, but now I feel very friendly.
Heart is beating.
After getting off the Baiyu Bridge, and getting closer to the main gate, for some reason, my footsteps were a little erratic, and my eyes were a little blurred.
Blinking, I wanted to see everything in front of me clearly, but the two giant doors turned into four, which became even more blurred.
The head also started to dizzy.
What's wrong with the body?
The gate is right in front of you, and you only need to walk another twenty steps to talk to the guard who opened the gate.
He staggered.
what happened?Woke up fine in the morning.
One step, two steps...
My head was getting dizzy, and my feet were weak.
I stood, blurred and trying to focus on the door, without success.
As soon as my body went limp, I slowly fell backwards.
The expected pain did not come.
Someone caught me.
Someone lifted me up.
These people did not walk out of the palace, but carried them into the palace.
I really hate the feeling of blurred consciousness, so I hold on with my will.
I didn't drink Xiaoru's tea, I didn't eat anything, and I didn't have any contact with anyone.
Why does the body behave like this?
There is a strange taste in the mouth, and if she eats it, it is only Aunt Suyan's mouth fat, and she always eats some unintentionally when she speaks.
No, it won't be Aunt Suyan.
However, the heart still hurts, like a knife stabbing into the body, slowly turning there.
The body feels cool, and the frivolous feeling is like being in water.
A few hands were tossing on my body, as if they were bathing me.
Move your fingers, no strength.
Consciousness is a little clear.
Hearing the rush of water, they lifted me up and poured a bucket of warm water on me.
A cloth towel was wrapped around me and I was wiped from head to toe.
The back touched the soft and silky bedding.
Another thinner quilt was covered.
Such a fragrant quilt, where have I smelled this fragrance?
That's right, it's the queen, and the queen has such a fragrance on her body.
Why does this quilt smell like the incense powder used by the queen?
I vaguely heard someone saying: "She is about to wake up, give her this to drink."
It was Xiaoru's voice.
I was half awake, and when I slowly opened my eyes, I saw a palace man suddenly helped me up, and another palace man opened my mouth vigorously, and poured something that exudes a fragrance.
Struggling, the limbs are completely weak.
Xiaoru stood beside the bed coldly, looking at me with a sullen face.
"What did you drink for me?" Although the voice was weak, it was clear enough for people to hear.
Xiao Ru waved to several palace people, "It's none of your business here, go out."
The palace people withdrew one by one.
"Is it good to drink?" Xiao Ru squinted her eyes, pretending to look at me innocently, "Ordinary people can't drink it."
"What the hell are you trying to do?" I started to get dizzy again.
"Look where this is, don't you know?"
Looking around, I suddenly opened my eyes wide. This is the queen's bedroom, and this bed... I actually slept on the queen's bed.
Only then did he notice that he was completely naked.
Uneasiness, great anxiety, even fear spread in my heart.
"You?" Xiaoru in front of her eyes became blurred.
"I'm leaving." Xiao Ru's voice was brisk, looking like she was enjoying the show, "I forgot to tell you, it's already night, just now the palace servants came to deliver the message that the emperor will come tonight."
There was a creak, the sound of the palace door being closed.
Unable to move at all, his consciousness became blurred again and he fell into a coma.
It was the heat that woke me up from my drowsiness.
The heat rising from the lower abdomen swept through the limbs and bones, eager to be relieved.
He sat up and went to find water to drink.
But the moment he opened his eyes, he was entangled with a pair of cold eyes.
He was standing by the bed, looking at me deeply, the moment I sat up, the color of his eyes changed, and a trace of burning heat flashed.
"Your Majesty?" His gaze made my body tremble uncontrollably, and only then did I feel a chill on my chest, and when I looked down, my face turned pale.
I was naked all over, and hurriedly picked up the quilt to cover it tightly, and the memory came back to my mind.
When I was about to leave the palace, I became completely weak, and someone lifted me up when I passed out.
When I woke up, I saw Xiao Ru, what did she give me to drink.
"What trick are you playing this time?" The emperor looked at me coldly, his voice hoarse and deep.
"I...I..." My thoughts were confused, "Please move away for a while, my servant needs to change clothes."
The body became hotter and hotter, and the inexplicable desire flowed in the body, and the ferocity almost made me unable to suppress it.
Squinting his eyes and looking at me for half a second, he sat on the chair with my back behind his back and poured a cup of tea to drink.
Seeing my clothes on the screen, I wrapped myself in the quilt and got out of bed.
After walking a few steps, my feet went limp and I fell to the ground, and the quilt slipped to my feet.
"Don't turn your head." Seeing that he was about to turn around, I yelled in a panic, with crying in my voice, "Please."
My body is so hot, so hot, what did Xiao Ru feed me?
At this time, very helpless.
"Please? This is the first time you begged me." The cold voice was extremely mocking, but he still turned around and saw me in a mess and naked.
My entreaties are useless.
At this moment, I really want to die.
He looked at me naked, his cold eyes became hotter and hotter.
"Don't come over, don't come over, don't touch me." I wanted to get up, but my body was weak.
It's useless to say anything, how could the majestic emperor listen to me.
His hands touched mine and he hugged me.
The moment the skin touched, the heat in the body seemed to stop for a moment, and the next moment, a more violent heat came up from the lower abdomen. Subconsciously, I wrapped my hands around his neck and felt his body stiff.
I twisted and twisted in an extremely weird posture, and countless moans overflowed from my mouth.
"Let me go, please, please." I begged, but my body clung to him even more tightly, and I didn't want to let him go at all.
The body is so hot that it looks like it will explode.
"Have you taken the aphrodisiac?" He put me on the bed, his eyes locked on my crimson body, and asked in a stiff voice.
"I don't know." The coolness of the quilt brought me back to my senses for a moment. I quickly crawled to the corner of the bed and covered my naked body with the quilt. The irresistible heat made me shiver all over.
Is that an aphrodisiac?
I shivered more violently, both from heat and fear.
I know about aphrodisiacs, and I know that this kind of medicine can make people lose their minds and turn them into beasts.
Hold yourself tight, no, I must not lose my mind.
"Come out." He ordered, his voice full of anger.
"No." I shook my head.
"The will is no match for the medicine. You will only make yourself more painful if you endure like this."
"How... how to solve it?" The unstoppable heat turned into sharp knives, cutting all over my body, and my voice became unsteady.
"Having sex." He said coldly.
"No, don't." I shook my head desperately.
"Do you want to die?" He suddenly pulled me away.
"Don't touch me, don't—" I yelled, breaking free from his grip with all my might.
How could he listen to me, he locked me tightly in his arms.
"Please, don't treat me like this, please." As soon as I touched him, my body began to twist strangely again, eager to get his caress.
I cried and begged, if I still had the strength to restrain myself, I would hit the wall and die without hesitation.
"You will die if you continue like this." The coolness in the voice is gone, but sad, with a little bit of pain.
"I'd rather die." I looked at him, desperately, "Please."
"I can't do it." The hurt and pain in his eyes became more obvious.
"Please." My voice is weak, I can't restrain it, I really can't restrain it.
"You've already belonged to me, if I want you again, what's the difference?"
"Don't you know what dignity is? I would rather die than be trampled on."
"Trample? Why do you think that I am trampling on you? Can't you tell that I like you?" At this moment, all the aura that should belong to an emperor disappeared from him, only the incomparable loss and embarrassment, and a little bit of heartache.
"But I don't like you."
"You're bleeding." He looked at the blood dripping from the corner of my mouth and smiled bitterly.
Does he laugh like this too?
No wonder I feel something is coming out of my mouth, is it blood?
"I like you, but you always trample my pride and conceit under your feet, and you still look like you don't know it. I am the emperor, when you look at me with disgust, how do you make me pull you?" Do I have to put on this face and say I like you?" He hugged me who was half unconscious, and smiled bitterly, "I can't let you die, if you don't like it, then don't like it."
He kissed me.
"No." The kiss was not without feeling.
No matter how much I resisted in my heart, the moment he kissed me, my willpower disappeared and I let my senses dominate everything.
Responding jerky to his lingering.
Urgently unbuttoned his clothes.
Facing my jerky, he kissed deeper and deeper.
Until both of them were naked, until he was deep inside me, throbbing.
The dryness and heat in the body were relieved a little.
It's been a long night.
This night, he wanted me many times. If I said that the first few times I felt unprecedented joy, then in the last few times, I was walking in hell.
As each time passed, the potency of the medicine became weaker and weaker, and the consciousness gradually became clear.
The last time, in a fully awake state, with him...
I couldn't resist it, because I was weak all over, and because the medicine still had some power.
"Go to sleep, have a good sleep, all the peace is only at this moment." He hugged me naked, and said lightly.
My heart was so cold that I wanted to shiver, but I forced myself to speak and said hoarsely: "How will the emperor solve it?"
"I can make you a concubine."
"Is that all? Someone drugged the servant."
For a long time, he didn't speak. When he spoke, I smiled wryly and closed my eyes.
"What I can promise is to make you a concubine."
"My servant thanked the emperor, but my servant only wanted to leave the palace."
"You still want to marry Jing Lin?" His anger was obvious.
"If he wants a servant, the servant will marry." I said very empty, is this still possible?
"Damn it, I said I would make you a concubine."
(End of this chapter)
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