refuse to be a concubine

Chapter 32 Love, love forever?
My lips moved slightly, but I couldn't utter a word.

I don't know how long it took, but he didn't make a sound, so I whispered, "Your Majesty?"

He still didn't move.

"Your Majesty?" I raised my voice, trying to push him away, but I heard his even breathing.

He fell asleep, just standing there, leaning against me and fell asleep.

Recently, he is very tired, right?

My fingertips moved, but in the end I couldn't suppress it. I put my hands around his waist, and I hugged him tightly.

The feeling of holding him is very warm.

Since when did I become so greedy for his warmth?

Is leaving the palace really something I should insist on?

After embracing each other for a while, a problem stood in front of them.

How can I move him to the bed?

With my strength, I can't move him at all, just a little movement will wake him up, right?

The night is getting deeper and deeper.

My body was aching, and my feet ached.

But I am happy with it.

wry smile……

Just when I thought I would stand like this until dawn.

Unexpectedly, with a light shoulder, he raised his head and looked into a pair of star-like eyes.

"Your Majesty, are you still asleep?" I exclaimed.
"I think, my one-sided wish will soon turn into two-sided love." His smile is like a child who has been given candy.

Although his face was rather tired, but his eyes were clear, he didn't look half asleep, he wasn't asleep at all, wasn't that just now, wasn't it a kind of temptation?
There are mixed feelings in my heart for a while, it is annoyance, anger, shame, and there is a trace of indescribable throbbing.

"I can wait until the day when you accept me wholeheartedly."

Wait?Anger turns to confusion.

"The stars are very bright tonight, do you want to see them?"

"Look at the stars?"

He nodded, picked me up by the waist, and jumped out of the window. After a few jumps, the two sat on the top of Zhaoyang Hall, the tallest part of the palace.

The wind blows from afar, and the clothes flutter.

In the sky, the starry sky is vast and boundless, and it seems to come from ancient times.

On the ground, the brilliant sea of ​​lights stretches like a long dragon, indescribably prosperous.

He hugged me tightly, lowered his head and asked softly, "Does it look good?"

I nodded.

The stars are beautiful, but they are struggling constantly in their hearts.

With such gentleness, I am afraid that I will fall.

I'm even more afraid that it's just this man's whim.

"Didn't you say that you would not intervene in the fight between concubines? Why did you help me?" Asked this doubt that had been hidden in my heart for many days.

"In the past, I never loved anyone, but now that I have fallen in love with you, I naturally want to protect you." He said it very naturally.

"Don't ask anything, just trust me like that?"

"I have been paying attention to you for a long time, but your eyes are not on me. Of course, I don't know that I have been paying attention to you. I know you. You are not that kind of person. I also said that as long as I live, I will love you." One day for you." His eyes became softer, like the stars above his head.

"Why?" My voice was slightly astringent, "Why me? Why is it me who fell in love?"

I really don't understand, I'm so ordinary and I don't have much ability, how could he fall in love with me?
"Why?" His eyes were as gentle as water, reflecting my confusion, "I don't know, but your hatred first attracted me, and I paid more attention to it, and fell in love without knowing it."

"I am ordinary, neither beautiful nor talented."

"Yeah, I'm also very strange, why did I fall in love with you?" He raised his eyebrows, full of doubts, and the next moment, his smile was like spring water, which can drown people, "However, I am very glad to have met you. Otherwise, I will never know what love is in my whole life."

"Love, will you love forever? Will you love until you die?" The uneasiness in the voice, that is, the uneasiness in my heart, came out unconsciously.

His eyes became brighter and his voice was extremely serious, "I can't guarantee you that love is not a fixed thing, it is not the stars in the sky that can be seen forever, even I can't predict the future, but I will love Until the moment you can't love, as for the time, maybe it's forever, maybe it's..." He didn't go any further, his bright and deep eyes locked tightly on my pale face showing a little fragility.

Always, always like honest people, like the most genuine people.

But now, my heart hurts.

What he said was true, but I couldn't accept it.

Knowing that all promises and guarantees are self-deception, the truth is so clear...

Just unacceptable.

If one day, he doesn't love me, doesn't care about me, how can I deal with myself?

Concubine, Gong Dou, the draft every three years.

Around him, every day is colorful.

I am afraid that once I give my heart, I will lose miserably.

"Enen, I will cherish every day with you." He held my cold hand, his voice became softer and softer, "I love you, if one day I don't love you anymore, I will say no to you Love. I can't promise you, but there is one thing I can give you, and that is sincerity."

"Sincerely?" I stared at him blankly.

"Yes, I will tell you with actions, and I will tell you with an honest heart how much I love you, and if I don't love you anymore, I will say it out, not in the official style, and I will not make any excuses."

"emperor?"

This man, tonight, let go of the figure of an emperor, put aside distinctions of superiority and inferiority, and just talked to me about his love in the tone of an ordinary person.

He said he gave me sincerity, which is more precious than love.

When you don't love, you will tell me that you don't love me.It sounds cruel, but it's what I want.

He knows me so well.

Know what I want.

My uneasy heart was supported by what he said.

The night breeze sends it lightly.

I stared at this handsome face so close at hand. After a while, I turned my head, not wanting him to see the emotion in my eyes.

"You've always wanted to live an ordinary life, what kind of life is that?" He asked suddenly.

"Why did the emperor suddenly ask this?" Looking back, I tried my best to make my voice sound calm.

"I just want to know what's in your heart, tell me, I want to know what kind of life you desire most in your heart."

After thinking for a while, I was suddenly a little confused, so I could only say: "I just want to live an ordinary life, just like before entering the palace, although poor, but down-to-earth, the emperor wants me to tell the reason, and I can't tell."

He looked up at the sky and pondered, and after an unknown amount of time, he said, "I have made a decision."

"Decide?"

"Yes, I also want to live for myself."

"What decision?"

He smiled without answering, and gently brushed away a strand of messy hair on my forehead, "You will know later." After speaking, he hugged me tightly again, and said with long and deep affection, "Enen, I have confidence, you Will fall in love with me, and will be determined, without complaint or regret."

This is the second time I've heard him say that.

Snuggling in his arms brings me warmth and security. Even if the world falls outside, I am not afraid. This is an experience I have never experienced before.

Deep in my heart, I have made a decision, but I need time to confirm and sort it out.

"Enen, don't let me down. My likes can be given at any time, but my love will not be given easily. Once you give it, it is wholehearted. Don't hurt me. If I get hurt, I won't open up to you again. gone."

I didn't answer, but reached out and hugged him tightly.

As a king, he is giving for me in his own way.

Now that I am tempted, any resistance is useless, it will only make me care about him more.

The palace in October was still very quiet.

The only change is that the weather is much cooler, and you have to put on a deep coat outside to go out.

San'er and I walked around the Liuyi Hall, and we didn't usually go out of the hall unless necessary.

Looking at the autumn chrysanthemum in the courtyard every day, from the beginning of a seedling, until it grows up, until it is about to bloom, until now it blooms, the process has not fallen, but I have never remembered it.

Although the eyes are looking at it, the thoughts are drifting far, far away.

I have always wanted to live an ordinary and down-to-earth life, thinking that it is a kind of happiness.

Blindly rejecting the imperial palace, rejecting and even loathing Gongdou, unable to adapt to it, paranoid not wanting to wade into this muddy water.

Before I knew it, I lost my heart, on the emperor whom I hated, loathed, and rejected.

From the day I knew that I fell in love with him, I resisted and resisted.

And he actually gave me infinite tolerance, and in his unique way, he gradually opened up my line of defense against him.

I never knew that he has so many faces, I just thought he would always be a cold and deep person.

It turned out not to be.

"Your concubine, you've been acting weird these past few days, always absent-minded, what are you thinking?" San'er came in from the laundry bureau with the washed clothes, saw me in a daze, and asked.

After the three court ladies sent by the queen were transferred to the laundry bureau by me, all the affairs inside and outside the palace fell on San'er.

"I didn't think about anything, by the way, have you inquired about the prince?" I asked in a low voice after taking the clothes from San'er.

Speaking of the prince, San'er looked sad, "The dungeon in the palace is guarded like something, even the queen can't go in to see the prince, San'er is even more useless."

"Really?" I couldn't help being anxious, didn't Zhao Yuefu say that she wanted to save the prince?Why is there no news at all?Time is getting tighter.

I don't want the prince to be beheaded. Even if he can't be the prince, it's better to be an ordinary person.

"Even Concubine Liu Palace and Concubine An Palace are quiet. Concubine, what happened? Why do you want your slaves to pay more attention to the movements of these two palaces?"

Walking towards the inner hall, I said as I walked, "I stay in the Liuyi Hall all day long, and I don't know what happened in the palace. Naturally, I should pay more attention to the actions of the concubines and ladies."

After entering the bedroom, I took out a small box from the cabinet and handed it to San'er, "For you."

San'er looked at me in confusion, and when he opened the box, he said in amazement: "What a beautiful hairpin, is your concubine going to give it to your servant?"

I smiled and nodded, "Other palace maids have little pearl hairpins on their bodies, but you are naked, do you like it?"

"I like it, I like it very much."

"Come on, I'll put it on for you." As I said that, I was about to take out the hairpin.

"I'll wear it later, it's inconvenient to wear it now." San'er hurriedly put the hairpin ring into the box, it was as precious as anything, neither to hold it nor to hide it in his bosom.

I looked at it and laughed, "Is there any inconvenience? I just walk around all day, and it won't fall off when I wear it."

San'er scratched his head.

"The hairpin is for wearing, not for you to hide." I took the box from her hand, took the hairpin and put it on for her.Looking left and right, until San'er was embarrassed by me, I said: "San'er is also a great beauty."

San'er blushed, "Your concubine made fun of your servant."

"It's really beautiful." I pinched her little nose, adjusted her collar and shoulders, but when my hands slid over San'er's shoulders, her eyebrows twitched, as if she was in pain. In the fundus, but didn't pay much attention, "Don't take it off again in the future."

"Yes." San'er hurriedly went to look in the mirror, looked left and right in front of the mirror, and smiled from ear to ear.

He turned around and put the clean clothes that San'er had just brought into the closet, but when he picked up the clothes, he saw a very faint red mark on his left hand.

Didn't touch anything at all today?

Smelling it, a faint smell of blood wafted out.

Bloody smell?I couldn't help but look at San'er, and saw blood spots on San'er's left shoulder, which were not obvious, and the color of her clothes was not white. If it wasn't for the smell of blood, it would be hard to see that her shoulder was injured. .

It is still bleeding, and the scars are deep.

San'er in the mirror had a nonchalant expression, all his attention was focused on the hairpin on his head.

Subconsciously looking at her shoes, there were some grass and dust on the uppers that were supposed to be clean.

Same as last time.

"Your concubine, it's good for you to treat San'er." Sanchao turned around and smiled at me, with a simple and honest expression and sincere eyes.

I nodded indiscriminately, and hurriedly put the clothes into the cabinet, pretending I didn't find anything, and asked, "San'er, did you go anywhere today?"

"No, I've been to every place I can go in the palace, it's not fun at all."

"The court ladies like to gather in private, but you are always with me, people who don't know will think that I control you very strictly."

"Slaves like to be with noble concubines." San'er giggled.

"is it?"

"By the way, when the maidservant walked through the imperial garden just now, I heard the palace maid privately saying that recently Concubine Liu often went to the imperial study to argue with the emperor, but the emperor ignored her."

"Concubine Liu is arguing to see the emperor?" I was taken aback.

"I heard from those palace people that the emperor forbids Concubine Liu to have a baby. I didn't expect that she secretly replaced the herbal medicine decocted by the House of Internal Affairs to conceive a dragon heir. The emperor is angry, so he won't see her."

"San'er?" I whispered, looking at her with complicated eyes.

"The servant is here."

Facing her happy smiling face, he couldn't ask the words choked in his throat, so he said, "The wild bamboos in front of the window haven't been watered for several days, you go water them."

"Yes, the servant will go here."

In the middle of the night, after thinking for a long time, I left the bedroom and came to the back of the yard, hidden under an apricot tree. Looking from here, it was the wooden window of San'er's small side room.

I don't want to doubt San'er, a person who is still willing to defend me under the lynching in the harem, is more moved and grateful.

It's just that she has too many doubts, too many for me to ignore.

If I ask directly, I'm afraid she won't confess.

The only way is to check it out yourself.

And all I can do is sit back and wait.

I don't know if there will be any gains tonight.

The night wind was cold, and when it blew into his collar, it made his body tremble slightly.

The candles in San'er's room are still on, what is she doing so late?
Two hours later, the room darkened.

Unable to bear the pain in my feet, I had no choice but to go back to the bedroom.

As soon as he entered the palace gate, he saw a slender figure standing by the window looking at the wild bamboo bonsai in a trance.

"Your Majesty?" I don't know when he came to Liuyi Hall and no one was notified.

"It's so late, where are you going?" He took my hand and frowned after touching the coldness in his hand.

"Can't sleep, go for a walk in the courtyard."

"It's getting colder and colder. Next time you go out of the bedroom, you have to put on a cloak to go out."

"Yes, my concubine has written it down." He helped him undress, and when he was about to take off his belt, his body was embraced into a warm embrace, and his deep and pleasant voice sounded above his head, "Let me hug you."

"Isn't the emperor hugging enough?"

"Not enough, never enough, I want to make up for the wasted time."

"I don't understand what the emperor means."

"Enen, do you understand me? Tell the truth."

"I don't understand."

Honestly, would he be sad?

For a moment, I felt uneasy.

I don't know what his hobbies are, except for going to court, I don't know what he does every day.

I really don't know anything about him.

Anxiety arose in my heart, what am I doing?
Why are you so ignorant of him?
"Then do you believe me?" The joy and anger in his voice could not be heard, but his eyes were as gentle as ever.

"Believe." Believe him, have always believed him.

"why?"

I was stunned, why?have no idea.

Yeah, why would I believe him?

"Answer me, why do you believe me?" He seemed to be very concerned about this question.

"I don't know, I just believe it." Believe him for no reason.

He is the emperor admired by all people, and the wise king praised by the people.

The word "emperor" has reverence, fear, and many innumerable emotions.

And in him, the aura of the emperor is natural, with the momentum and charm that people have to submit to, he is born with preciousness.

When the two are combined, when you think about the past, trust becomes blind.

A very strange feeling, a very inexplicable origin.

When I looked up, I saw him staring at me with a kind of incomprehensible depth in his eyes that made me want to drown in it.

"Your Majesty, I...do I have something on my face?" Why is he looking at me like this?

"You have to always trust me, no matter what I do, even if you are separated from me, you still have to trust me." He said domineeringly, but there was a warm smile in his eyes that couldn't be concealed, but that expression was extremely serious.

I nodded unconsciously.

He kissed me on his lips, and with a tight arm, he hugged me horizontally, and strode towards the curtain of the bed.

At noon the next day, I was looking at the flowers in the courtyard in a trance in the corridor, when I felt a mess of footsteps passing by outside the hall.

Looking from a distance, people's heads are floating, and the footsteps of the palace people appear to be chaotic.

I wanted to go out and have a look, San'er who came out with tea asked, "Your concubine, where are you going?"

"Go see what's going on outside."

"My servant will go with you." After finishing speaking, San'er put the tea on the corridor and walked quickly to my side.

I don't know if it's because I saw the blood on San'er's shoulder differently, or because I was too negligent, but now I realize that no matter where I go, San'er is always by my side.

"No need, I'll just go to the door to have a look." I smiled.

"Anyway, the servant girl is fine by herself, so let's go out with your concubine." San'er smiled honestly, "Let's go."

Something seemed to have happened in the Queen's Palace, and the palace people came in and out, with panic on their faces.

"Did something happen in the Queen's Palace?" When I was about to ask, San'er grabbed the hand of a court lady before I asked.

When the palace maid saw me, she hurriedly saluted and said, "Aunt Lian is dead, she was stabbed several times, the Imperial Forest Army is searching for assassins, order the servants to come out and stand in line, if your concubine is fine, the servants will leave first."

Aunt Lian... is dead?
I was overwhelmed with surprise.

"Your concubine, are you okay?" San'er looked at me with concern.

"It's okay, let's go back to the palace." Since the Imperial Forest Army is looking for assassins, it's better for us to stay quietly in the palace.

How could there be assassins in the palace?Under heavy guards, how did the assassin get in?
Is it really an assassin?

"Your concubine, don't be afraid, you'll be fine." San'er said comfortingly beside her.

Fear?No, I'm not scared, I just can't figure it out.

However, until night fell, the Imperial Forest Army did not appear in Liuyi Hall.

Didn't they say they wanted to search for assassins?

The night sky tonight is not bright, it is gray, as if it is about to rain.

Standing under the apricot tree in the courtyard, looking at the wooden window of San'er's small side room.

In my mind, I was thinking about everything that happened this year.

Everything is strange, and there is no answer to everything.

Especially in the past few days, I always feel that a lot of things have happened.

According to the past, no matter how many secrets there are in the palace, there will always be rumors.

I didn't hear anything, which shouldn't be the case.

It was as if someone stood in front of me deliberately so that I could not see or hear it.

The night wind is getting cooler.

It's been two hours, if I wait any longer, I'm afraid my feet won't be able to bear it.

Perhaps, I was overthinking, and San'er's shoulder injury was just accidental.

However, just as I was about to leave, I saw a black shadow sweeping down from mid-air and flying towards my bedroom.

Just when the black shadow fell to the ground, a shining sword pierced his chest, and the person holding the sword was San'er.

I hurriedly covered my mouth, for fear that I would cry out in surprise.

The black shadow said coldly: "Three days ago you received a sword from me on your shoulder, can you still stop me from killing that woman today?"

San'er didn't say a word, she just stared at the man in front of her, her whole body on guard.

"The first two times were your luck. This time, that Bai Xuan was sent out by the emperor, and no one will come to help you again."

A trace of disgust flashed in San'er's eyes, "Stop making you heretics, I've already taken the antidote pill, and these colorless and odorless poisonous powder can't hurt me."

Poison powder?My eyes were wide open, but I didn't see any poisonous powder put by Sombra?

The black shadow smiled heavily, and his figure moved.

With just a snap of their fingers, the two of them passed dozens of moves.

San'er's style of play was obviously to lure Heiying away from Liuyi Hall, in fact, she also succeeded.

Looking at the two figures that were getting further and further away, I was anxious, thinking about San'er's safety, but I didn't know what to do?
He stared eagerly at the gate of the palace, hoping that the emperor would appear.

He wanted to call someone, but he was also afraid that the assassin was sent by the queen, and he was even more worried that there were accomplices...

Unable to wait any longer, I gritted my teeth and chased after San'er.

Dark night, gloomy sky, icy wind.

My nervous and anxious heart made me ignore my painful feet and followed them closely.

Occasionally, a few palace people who were on duty at night walked by, but I avoided them one by one.

When I arrived at the Imperial Garden, I still lost track.

Looking around, I don't know where to go.

Just as I was searching for a rockery, a sinister laughter flashed past my ears.

My heart was tightened, and I turned around suddenly, San'er suddenly rushed out from the side and stood in front of me, holding a sword and looking around cautiously, said in a low voice: "Your concubine, be careful."

"San'er, what's going on here?" I firmly grasped San'er's clothes and looked around in panic, unable to tell where the laughter just came from.

"It's the person Liu Concubine sent to assassinate you."

"Concubine Liu?"

At this time, San'er let out a cry of pain, as if he had been hit in the heart by something.

Under the dim night light, San'er was covered in wounds and bloodstained, which was shocking.

"San'er?" I exclaimed, wanting to comfort her, but I didn't know where to put my hands, so anxious that I didn't know what to do.

"Your concubine, run quickly."

"what?"

"Run!" San'er cried out in pain.

"No, let's go together." Pulling San'er's hand, her hand was sticky and full of blood.

"I'm fine, leave me alone and run."

At this time, I heard something coming through the air again, behind me.

In the oblique stab, San'er blocked me like lightning.

The sound of sharp blades piercing the skin was heard.

San'er groaned in pain again.

"San'er?" I was so anxious that my head was sweating, the enemy was in the dark, I couldn't see anything, and I didn't know how to deal with it.

If I want to call people, I must call people. Not far away is the Zhaoyang Hall. If the emperor is there, I just need to shout loudly, and people will definitely be attracted.

"Is anyone there? Someone..." Just as he was about to shout for help, San'er said weakly, "Your concubine, it's an emergency now, you can't shout loudly, it will distract the emperor's heart."

"What did you say?"

San'er didn't answer me, and after a muffled groan, she fell to the ground, only writhing painfully on the ground, and her consciousness fell into a daze.

"Three children?"

At the same time, that black shadow appeared in front of me, and said in a sinister voice: "The first two times I killed you, I was messed up by this girl, and once I chased me for a long time. This time, you didn't do it like that." Lucky."

I stepped back, staring at him in horror.

"I really didn't expect that the emperor would cause such a big wave for a woman who is not outstanding like you. It's a pity, Concubine Liu is too stupid. She only cares about her children's feud. Up to now, she only wants to protect the emperor." .”

"I do not understand what you are saying."

"You don't need to understand, just know that next year today is your death day."

There is a rockery wall behind me, there is no way to retreat, I watched him stretch out a hand to cover my celestial spirit cover, just pat lightly...

"Aren't you afraid?" With a sneer, his eyes became more venomous.

"I'm afraid, won't you kill me?" I asked, locking his eyes tightly, my thoughts spinning a thousand times.

"If you beg me, maybe I can spare your life."

"Kill if you want."

"I'll give you a chance to call for help."

San'er's words just now flashed in his mind, "You can't yell, it will distract the emperor's heart".

What is the emperor doing now?San'er said he couldn't break his heart?

In this way, he must be nearby, at least where I can hear my voice, "I said, you can kill if you want."

The murderous look in his eyes was intense, and his cold fingers suddenly squeezed my jaw, "Call for help, hurry up."

At this moment, I still locked his gaze tightly, only feeling that this gaze was very familiar.

"Call." He gritted his teeth.

"I won't grant your wish." I snorted coldly.

Suddenly, a bang was heard, and the next moment, the ground shook.

Neither he nor I stood firm, and taking advantage of this opportunity, I bit down on his finger.

Pa——a slap came head-on, and he shouted angrily: "Bitch, dare to bite me."

In the distance, the voice of the palace man came, "It's not good, the Queen's Palace has collapsed, hurry up and save people."

Countless palace people ran into the imperial garden and out of the round gate, but no one ran to the rockery.

"Damn Concubine Liu." Hei Ying roared again.

"Aren't you from Concubine Liu?" The pain on my face made me tremble when I spoke.

Hei Ying leaned over to me, "So what? As long as your girl thinks I'm Concubine Liu's person." He sneered a few times, took out a dagger from his arms, stabbed fiercely like lightning, into my shoulder, "Scream."

Kneeling on the ground in pain, I clenched my teeth and let the piercing pain spread all over my body.

"See how long you can endure it?" He stared at me fiercely, "By the way, your foot was injured, guess what kind of pain it is when the sword cuts your foot?"

"You? Shameless." I don't know much about my foot injury. Who the hell is he?
A light flashed in front of his eyes, and the dagger stabbed down fiercely.

This moment of pain is enough to kill me.

Don't shout, never shout.

He opened his mouth wide, opened it fiercely, and held his breath so that he would not cry out the pain.

The body fell down slowly, and I thought, I might be killed by such pain.

As he sank into the darkness, the black shadow's stinging laughter wafted past his ears, "Want to pass out? No way."

There was a pain in my chest, I don't know where he hit me, and I suddenly woke up.

The indescribable pain hit the limbs and bones again...

His whole body trembled non-stop, and he spat out a large mouthful of blood.

"Looks like it's not ruthless enough, why don't you try that foot too?" Hei Ying laughed coldly, and raised his dagger.

My body was so painful that I couldn't move. I grabbed the mud and grass on the ground with both hands, endured, must endure.

I closed my eyes as the dagger stabbed down.

"Stop." The voice came through the air.

When he opened his eyes, he saw another black figure jumping down from the rockery, preventing all this from happening, "Let her go, the plan has failed."

"She must die." The dagger came at me again, this time in the chest.

But was stopped by the black shadow who just arrived, "I beg you."

"Is it necessary to be so nice to an outsider?"

"I owe her that."

"And what do you owe me?"
"I……"

"I hate you." As soon as the resentful voice fell, the shadow that wanted to kill me quickly disappeared.

The man left behind tightly clenched his hands. Under the night light, his hands were extremely slender, clearly a pair of women's hands.

She looked at me and said lightly, "Go back." She also disappeared into the night.

Both of them deliberately lowered their voices, and even their bodies should have been dressed up. How could a burly man have such a pair of slender and white hands?

"San'er?" I struggled to climb up to San'er, who was still writhing in pain, and after two steps, a pair of white boots stood in front of me, and the next moment, my body was picked up.

"Bai, Baixuan?" Who is it but Baixuan with this alluring face?

"Save San'er quickly, hurry up, save San'er quickly."

"San'er will be fine, someone will take care of her later, you must stop the bleeding first." Jumping up, Bai Xuan galloped towards Liuyi Hall.

The night is cold as water.

I was in so much pain that I couldn't even tell the difference between warm and cold, so I said forcefully, "Thank you."

Bai Xuan looked very heavy.

"I'm fine." He shouldn't be worried about my injury, right?
"Since the emperor made you a noble concubine, he ordered me to stay in Liuyi hall day and night, but the emperor was still worried, and arranged for San'er to come in to protect you."

"What, what?"

"In the past few days, Concubine Liu has poisoned you and sent killers to kill you from time to time. The Queen is also doing the same. They are framing you both openly and secretly, and I, every time you go to a place, will kill you. The palace people who were whispering about the affairs of the palace were dismissed, the emperor said that he will give you the life you want."

Listening complicatedly, the emperor's cool and affectionate eyes flashed in my mind, and for a moment I felt that all the pain had left me.

"Tonight, the Empress secretly surrounded Zhaoyang Hall with the only remnants of the previous dynasty."

"Surrounded Zhaoyang Hall?" I was shocked for a moment.

"The emperor wanted to wipe out the remaining sins of the previous dynasty, this is also an opportunity." Bai Xuan's face became more and more serious, "But judging from the skills of those two people just now, I am afraid that the emperor did not attract The real snake head out of the hole."

"Have you been here since just now?" I asked weakly.

Bai Xuan glanced at me, there was no warmth in his eyes, "That's right, I want to know who these two are and how strong they are. San'er's kung fu is not inferior to any first-class masters, and they are obviously superior to San'er."

I knew that Bai Xuan didn't have any affection for me, but I didn't expect him to be so cold.

"Bai Xuan, will the emperor kill the empress?" I asked, rebellion is a serious crime against the Jiu Clan, and the empress's move may be... But I still hope that she can save her life, just for Tang Yu.

I really didn't expect that what she and Zhao Yuefu said meant rebellion.

"No, the emperor won't even abolish the empress, but she will never leave the empress palace again in this life."

Some are delighted, but more are surprised, and even feel extremely abnormal.

Bai Xuan said again: "I've told you so much, I just want you to promise not to let the emperor know that you were injured."

I froze, "Why?"

"Once the emperor knows that you have been injured, he will go on a killing spree and eradicate all those who threaten you, but those who follow the emperor don't want Concubine Liu to die."

"Concubine Liu?"

"That's right, Concubine Liu used to belong to King Min, but later she fell in love with the emperor and made a deal with him. If she can help the emperor win the throne, she must be made a concubine. The emperor agreed. It was just unexpected that after the death of King Min, she secretly took over all the power of King Min. Concubine Liu was the woman the emperor had to guard against, but in the eyes of the courtiers who followed the emperor, only she could She really helped the emperor to build a great cause, she loves the emperor wholeheartedly, and also wholeheartedly helps the emperor, she instigated the collapse of the Queen's Palace just now, because under the Queen's Palace is the lair of the remnants of the previous dynasty, and you," Bai Xuan said coldly He glanced at me anxiously, "Besides listening to all this stupidly, what else can I help the emperor? How much did the emperor pay for you? What did you return? Your existence is a mistake."

Bai Xuan's words were very hurtful, but I had nothing to say.

Everything he said made sense and was true.

After a long silence, I said bitterly: "I promise you that the emperor will not know that I was injured."

Bai Xuan glanced at me again, the indifference in his eyes became more perplexed.

When we returned to Liuyi Hall, it was almost dawn.

When Bai Xuan carried me into the bedroom, he saw a few more palace servants with new faces in the bedroom.

Bai Xuan said: "They are my people, they are responsible for cleaning your wounds, if you handle them yourself, the emperor will definitely see the clue."

Half an hour later, I stood in front of Bai Xuan with clean clothes, except that my face was slightly pale, I couldn't tell that I was injured.

"Is it all right?" My voice was weak, but the medicine applied to my body was very effective, and the blood and pain stopped.

Bai Xuan nodded, and those palace people left quickly.

"I hope your concubine won't break her promise." Bai Xuan said coldly and wanted to leave, I called him, "Bai Xuan."

He turned to look at me, frowning.

"I love the emperor." I took a deep breath, straightened my back, faced his impatient eyes, and said firmly, "Even if I am useless, I still love him, and I will love him in the days to come." Love him with all your heart."

After speaking, I breathed a sigh of relief.

It turned out, frankly speaking, it would be so easy.

This is the result of my thinking for many days. I have been struggling and resisting, and finally I chose to face it bravely.

Love is love, I don't want to lie to myself, and I don't want to do anything against my will.

"Really?" Bai Xuan said with sarcasm.

"Yes."

"The emperor's affection for you can be seen by anyone with a discerning eye, what about you? If you really love someone, will it be like you?"

"Then what should we do? Are you calling out enthusiastically? Or just agreeing casually?"

He was startled, and then snorted coldly, "At least it shouldn't be like you thinking and thinking, how true is this kind of love? Do you want to deny it? Don't forget, all your behaviors have entered into my heart." Eye."

"Do you know what kind of pain it is to lose what you love?" I smiled dryly, "The person you loved deeply, the person who was talking and laughing with you yesterday, suddenly died in front of you." In front of you, can you feel the feeling of disappearing?"

"What does this have to do with me?" Bai Xuan sneered.

"Yes, it has nothing to do with you, so you will not know the feeling of cherishing when you fall in love with someone again, the feeling of being afraid of losing again." There is no need to say these words to Bai Xuan, but he is Yan Qi's The dark guard is someone very close to him, he should understand that even if he doesn't like me, it shouldn't be disgusting, "I don't have the confidence to deal with concubine's favors and palace fights freely, I'm even more afraid, I'm afraid that repeated palace fights will wear away I am afraid that at that time, he will no longer love me. How many gods love in the world is long-lasting? Ordinary like me, can attract him for a while, can he attract him for a lifetime? Such a long time, once his love disappears , How should I live alone? I have to think about these things, and I have to know whether I have the courage to accept any results."

"As the emperor's women, this is what they have to bear, and it is also the price they pay for enjoying the glory, wealth, and wealth."

"I don't want glory and wealth, and I don't want rich clothes and food. I just want his sincerity."

"You are simply delusional. Even if there are no queens, concubines Liu, and concubines An in the harem, there will be countless women coming one after another. Not counting the beautiful women who come every three years, there are thousands of women sent by Bangguo. , with your beauty, is it possible? The emperor is just bewildered by you for a while."

This is the weakness in my heart, I have no confidence in myself, nor in his love, but at the moment of making a decision, there is no way out, and I am not allowed to have another way out.

Taking a deep breath, I said calmly, "No matter what happens in the future, as long as he still loves me, I will cherish this love. No matter how hard it is, I will never be weak for a moment, and I will never shrink back."

"Sounds good." Bai Xuan was even more disdainful and disgusted, and when the palace door opened, he floated away.

want to cry.

What we cried was not Bai Xuan's dislike for me, but the sincerity that was denied.

There wasn't much time for me to care, however.

Sitting on a chair, let the injured body get the maximum possible rest, and the mind kept turning.

I'm going to think things over.

In order to save the prince, the queen wants to seize the throne?But this plan was proposed by Zhao Yuefu.

Where is Zhao Yuefu now?
The queen was arrested, and Bai Xuan said that the emperor would only put her under house arrest, which meant that the Jing family would not be involved in any way, so Jing Lin should be fine.

Who are those two masked men?

Why did he say he owed me?

If these two people are really in the palace, they should be found out soon. I marked one of them.

"What are you thinking? You don't even feel that I'm here?" Liang Bo's tired voice sounded beside him.

"Your Majesty?" I looked up into a pair of smiling eyes, and hurriedly got up to salute.

"The empress's palace was obviously not well built, and I didn't know there was such a big pit underneath. Fortunately, when it collapsed, the empress came to Zhaoyang hall. You weren't scared?" He took my hand and walked towards the inner bedroom.

"No, I was startled by that voice and woke up." He didn't want me to know everything, so I pretended I didn't know anything.

He loves me in his own way, such guarding should be tiring, right?

I can't be a burden to him.

"The emperor sit down for a while, and I go to get the sweat towel." It's time to tell him my heart, and I won't think about going out of the palace anymore.

I also don't want to be protected by him like this again, Bai Xuan's words are not without reason.

Although I didn't enter the palace for the sake of rich clothes and fine food, since I chose to love him, I shouldn't run away from him, and I can't just focus on living an ordinary and quiet life.

Not being able to share the prosperity with him will never be his burden.

But how should I speak later?

"Your Majesty, wash up?"

He was lying on the bed with all his clothes on, and fell asleep, his beautiful eyebrows were slightly frowned, his handsome face was also tense, and he seemed to be thinking about troublesome things in his deep sleep.

I gently sat next to him, pressed his eyebrows with both hands, and slowly stretched them to the sides. However, with just one movement, he woke up, and the moment he saw me smiling, he relaxed a little.

"I fell asleep?"

I nodded, "The emperor is too tired."

"Yeah, there are a lot of booklets recently, let's sleep with me." He stretched out his hand and pulled me into his arms, and the two cuddled together.

"What's wrong? Are you feeling unwell? Why is your face so pale?"

"It's okay." Lying on my side, it was my injured shoulder that was pressing on the bed. For a moment, the pain made me break out in a cold sweat.

"Are you okay?" He sat up, helped me up again, his face suddenly sank, "Your shoulder...is injured?"

"No."

He pursed his thin lips and looked at me deeply, and after a while his eyes moved to my shoulders, and anger suddenly appeared in his eyes.

"My lord, I'm really not hurt."

"Then why is there blood?"

"Blood?" Looking at his shoulder, he saw thin streaks of blood oozing from his shoulder, which soon stained the light yellow silk shirt red.

With a hiss, the clothes were torn off from his shoulders, revealing layers of bloody bandages.

"Your Majesty, I'm really fine." Under my exclamation, the anger in his eyes disappeared, replaced by ice coldness.

After getting out of bed, he walked outside.

"Your Majesty, listen to me, it's not what you think." I hurriedly chased after him, stood in front of the door, and said anxiously, "It's really not what you think, it's my own accidental injury."

"I want to know how you got hurt."

"I accidentally fell down."

"Could the injury from a fall be so serious?" His voice became colder, he stretched out his hand and embraced me, pushed the door open, his voice was chilling, "Bai Xuan."

"What are your orders, my lord?" Bai Xuan appeared in front of him kneeling on one knee. When he looked up and saw my shoulder, his face suddenly turned pale, and when he looked at me, a flash of anger flashed in his eyes, as if saying, I have broken my promise, Speak out about the injury.

I couldn't help feeling angry.

"Qing Yi." Yan Qi said awe-inspiringly, "Take Bai Xuan to the ice prison, and don't allow him to come out without my order."

"Your Majesty?" Qing Yi appeared from the darkness, begging on his knees, "My Majesty, please spare Bai Xuan this time."

"As a secret guard, if you fail to complete the mission and intend to hide from me, you should be punished with ice." Every time Yan Qi said a word, Bai Xuan's face turned pale.

I don't know what kind of punishment the ice punishment is, but Bai Xuan shouldn't be a weak and fearful person, it can change his face, this ice punishment is probably extremely cruel.

Qing Yi hesitated, but finally got up and walked to Bai Xuan's side, and said bitterly: "Let's go."

"Wait a minute." I looked up at Yan Qi, "Your Majesty, you can't just think it's Bai Xuan's fault without asking anything, the injury has nothing to do with Bai Xuan, it's me who left Liuyi Hall to follow San'er A masked man who was fighting, unexpectedly got hurt by him, it was Bai Xuan who showed up in time to save me, he is my savior."

Qingyi's eyes were full of thanks, but Baixuan was still indifferent.

"Take it."

"Your Majesty, it's really none of Bai Xuan's business."

At this time, Bai Xuan snorted coldly: "Your concubine doesn't need to worry about your subordinates, Bai Xuan is willing to be punished."

"Bai Xuan, shut up." Qing Yi said coldly.

Looking at Bai Xuan coldly, I said: "I'm not worried about you, your ice torture has nothing to do with me, I just don't want you to think that I'm a fickle person, and it's also true that you saved me." Yan Qi, with a faint plea in his eyes, "Your Majesty, I don't want others to say that I am an ungrateful person, so I beg you to spare Bai Xuan from the ice punishment."

"You should have told me." His eyes were full of distress, which was undisguised.

Eye sockets are a little wet, he actually cares about me so much.

In front of me, he was never stingy with warmth and care, and gave me everything he could.

The man in front of the empress, the man in front of the concubine Liu, and the man in front of the concubine An were all alienated, cold and indifferent. He was the emperor aloof, a god who could only be awed and worshipped.

Only in front of me, he is just an ordinary person, a man who truly loves and protects me.

"Your Majesty." Enduring the pain in my feet, I stood on tiptoe and whispered three words in his ear, "I love you."

He froze for a moment, then smirked, "What did you say?"

I bent my head, and I laughed, but there were tears in my eyes, "I didn't say anything."

"Yes, I obviously heard it."

"Nothing really."

He stared at me dissatisfied, "Say it again."

"Didn't really say anything."

"You have." He gritted his teeth.

"What did the concubine say?"

"You said I love—" he folded his hands on his chest and raised his eyebrows.

I pretended not to see, and went into the bedroom on my own, when I heard the door closing behind me, and the next moment, I was embraced in a warm embrace, and his almost coquettish voice came from my ear, "Enen, I want to come again Listen to it once."

"Your Majesty, aren't you very tired? Let's go to bed earlier." I turned around and looked at him with a smile.

"I won't sleep unless I tell you." He pouted like a child, looking at me full of grievances, that appearance, really, really...

I can't laugh or cry, he really has many faces, especially in front of me, which also moved me deeply.

"Well?"

"Your Majesty?" I hugged him involuntarily, pressed my face against his chest, listened to his strong heartbeat quietly, and felt my whole body was surrounded by happiness, "I love you, thank you too .”

It's hard to describe what "thank you" means, just felt compelled to say it.

He seemed to be stunned, and after a long time, he hugged me tightly, "I love you too."

However, we didn't let us be warm for long, Qing Yi's nervous voice shouted softly: "Your Majesty, it's time."

His solemn voice came from above his head, "Take a good rest, I will be back later."

"Your Majesty, I have a lot to say to you." Seeing that he was about to leave, I hurriedly said.

"Come back and talk about it."

"But..." I have to tell him about Zhao Yuefu and that masked man.

"I have to go out first, it's urgent, wait for me to come back." After speaking, he gave me a warm smile and opened the door.

Anxious in my heart, I couldn't help but said: "The Queen's density rebellion, Zhao Yuefu is also involved, I heard it with my own ears while hiding in the dark, with Zhao Yuefu's character, once she knows that the Queen is under house arrest, she will definitely have something to do. Move, Your Majesty?"

"So you know?" He smiled, as if nothing had happened, "Don't worry, wait for me to come back." He disappeared into the outer hall together with Qing Yi.

I was stopped by Bai Xuan who wanted to chase me out, "The emperor doesn't want you to get involved, the emperor knows all these things, so don't make trouble anymore."

"Does the emperor know who those two masked men are?" I asked anxiously.

Bai Xuan sneered and said, "Could it be that you know?"

I nodded, "Yes, even if it's not the person I'm thinking of, as long as she's still in the palace, I can find out."

Bai Xuan was startled, and his voice became urgent, "Who is it?"

Feeling cold, from Bai Xuan's expression, the emperor doesn't know, the enemy is in the dark, he is in the light, and he will be in danger.

"I'm going to the Queen's Palace."

"it is good."

For Bai Xuan who protects the lord, I feel very at ease in my heart, and I can't help but smile slightly.

"What are you laughing at?" Bai Xuan frowned, revealing a bit of disgust.

"The emperor clearly told you to protect me well. Although the empress palace has collapsed, it's hard to say that there are no rebels." I said.

"What? Do you want to go back on your word?"

I shook my head, "No, I'm just glad that the emperor has such a loyal guard by his side, let's go."

(End of this chapter)