refuse to be a concubine

Chapter 5 The emperor, it was him!
This voice is the nightmare of my whole life. I hate it deeply but hide it deeply.

The past that I dare not recall.

That night, my innocence was destroyed.

Because of that night, my mother had a high fever for three days and three nights, and finally passed away.

"Bold slave."

"Enn? Get down on your knees, enen?"

"Diao Nu, how dare you look directly at the emperor, why don't you kneel down?"

I couldn't hear what the people around me were saying, so I straightened up slowly, and the focus of my gaze was fixed on that bright yellow face. The eyes as deep as the night sky concealed the sharpness in memory, but still made people dare not look directly at him. .

This is a face that can easily seduce a woman.

But to me, it's an evildoer, a devil.

Memories come like a tide, bit by bit, becoming clearer.It also brings up the hatred that I hide in the bottom of my heart and deliberately forget.

It's just that I never expected that the person who ruined my innocence and indirectly killed my mother was the current emperor, Emperor Su who was only 27 years old.

A man I can't afford to hate.

My shock and disbelief can be imagined, but this voice and appearance are absolutely true, and it is the man who ruined my innocence.

I clenched my fist so hard that my nails almost dug into the flesh.

He sat tall and high, just glanced at me coldly and then drank the tea brought by the maid, as if he didn't know me.

"What are you still standing there for? Why don't you pull her down?" Concubine Ming was very angry, and her fragrant shoulders trembled faintly.

"Your Majesty, please forgive me. En En entered the palace not long ago and did not understand the rules of the palace. Please forgive me lightly." Aunt Su kowtowed her head to plead for me, her voice was full of tension.

The two eunuchs held me up, one on the left and the other on the right, and dragged me out.

I forcibly twisted my neck. If my eyes were on the blade, I'm afraid he would have died countless times under the blade.

Tears welled up in my eyes, that night, I couldn't seek justice for my lost innocence, even if I found that person, how could I seek justice from a man who went to brothels for pleasure?

I'm not a weak person, but this man will be the most respected person in the world. I didn't expect it, and I can only swallow all the bitterness and hatred in my stomach.

But what about the Supreme?Even if he has all the power in the world, I can still hate him.

"Wait." He said suddenly, got up and walked over, looking down at me with a cold expression, "Do you hate me? Or, is this a means you use to get my attention? If so, you succeeded, Acted very realistically."

means?Acting realistically?He thought I was acting?Think I'm doing this to get his attention?I stared blankly at him in front of me, and for the first time in my life, I had the urge to beat someone up.

He didn't even recognize me, a woman whose innocence had been robbed by him.

"Is the emperor going to accept her?" Concubine Ming glared at me coldly and angrily behind him, but her words were extremely soft, "If that's the case, my concubine will congratulate the emperor."

"She caught my attention, but I won't keep someone like her by my side." He waved at the two father-in-laws who were supporting me, "Take her away."

"Your Majesty, everything is the fault of this servant. It's because this servant is incapable of teaching. If you want to avenge your sins, you should fall on this servant." Aunt Suyan rushed over, knelt down in front of him, and begged bitterly, "Your Majesty, please forgive me." her."

"Su Yan, you are still wearing a sinful body, why would you plead for mercy for a washerwoman who plays tricks to win the emperor's attention?" Concubine Ming took a peek at the emperor's face, seeing that he was unmoved, she shouted, "Come on." People, pull Su Yan out."

"Your Majesty, En En is not that kind of woman." When the father-in-law was about to grab Su Yan's hand, she suddenly said, "Eleven years ago, the Emperor promised my servant that as long as my servant asks for something in the future, I will definitely grant my request. Although the emperor was young at that time, you have no jokes, I hope the emperor can keep his promise."

Aunt Su?I was moved in the bottom of my heart, I am not familiar with her, although I have been in the laundry bureau for nearly half a year, but I have said very little in the past six months, why does Aunt Su treat me so well?

"You just use the opportunity I gave you on an inconspicuous washerwoman?" He glanced at me coldly, with a mocking smile on his lips, as if mocking the emotion in my eyes.

"Yes."

"Well, I'll just pretend that this never happened."

"My servant thanked the emperor for his kindness. Although the emperor said that this matter had never happened, this servant is afraid that other people will cause unwarranted disputes."

Out of the corner of his eye, he saw Concubine Ming's face was livid, but she had to put on a weak appearance in front of the emperor, and said softly: "Su Yan really thinks too much, since the emperor has said that this matter has never happened, How dare others go against the emperor's will?"

"Since Your Majesty has said so, this servant will let go of her heart. This servant will thank the Emperor and Your Majesty for their kindness on behalf of Su En." Su Yan kowtowed to thank her, "My servant will leave."

The snow is dazzling.

It took me a while to adjust to the bright white snow all over the ground.

Aunt Su didn't ask any questions, just walked ahead quietly.

I didn't know how to speak, my heart was so heavy that I could hardly breathe.

For half a year, I thought that the humiliation of that night had been hidden in my heart and gradually faded away, but I didn't expect that when I heard this voice, everything was in chaos, and the hidden memory was painfully displayed in front of me again. At that moment, there was nothing but hatred.

Obviously know that he is the emperor.

He clearly knew that if he provoked the emperor, he would die.

"Don't think about it anymore." Aunt Su who was walking in front of her said calmly, "No matter what happened, forget it completely. This is the imperial palace, and you are just doing errands here with your salary."

"Auntie, thank you." I wet my eyes again, the emperor's promise, it was a great opportunity, but Aunt Su used it on someone as humble as me.

"Everyone who enters the slave wash palace, I will observe them quietly. For so many years, you are the only one who is serious about things, not lazy or procrastinating, and always doing things according to one's duty." Aunt Su turned around and looked at you with a smile. Looking at me, "I have no chance of catching you short. How can such a person play tricks?"

"Auntie, I..."

Aunt Su shook her head, "I'm not interested in what happened to you outside the palace. As I said just now, no matter what happened, forget it completely. This is the palace, and you just take it here Salary to do errands. Can you do it?"

Can it be done?The pain and humiliation I suffered that night, my mother's death, and all hatred will disappear.

Can it be done?To forget all this is not to hide it deep in my heart, but to truly forget.

This is the palace, and he is the emperor.

What if you can't do it?
Aunt Su looked at my clenched hands and sighed.

I stared sadly at the ground, biting my lower lip.

I can't do it, even if that person is the emperor, I can't do it without hatred.

"Auntie, please transfer Enen from the management office back to the laundry bureau to do laundry." As long as I don't leave the laundry bureau, I don't have to see him, and if I don't see him, naturally what happened today wouldn't happen.

In this life, it is best for me and him not to meet again.

Aunt Su nodded, "Let me know when you figure it out."

For the next ten days, every night, you can see the colorful fireworks in the sky, which is a thousand miles away.It was the masters in the palace looking for pleasure.

And I spend every night alone in the small bamboo forest looking at the colorful night sky.

In just ten days, I lost a lot of weight.

On the day of Lantern Festival, I finally adjusted my mood.

Before my mother died, she wanted me to live happily. Since I can't let go of the hatred of my innocence being ruined, I shouldn't live in resentment.

Since I promised my mother, I should do it.

"I feel relieved when I see you smiling." Aunt Suyan walked past me with a few washerwomen. Seeing me smiling at her, she was relieved.

I wiped off the drops of water on my hands with the apron around my waist, and saluted Aunt Su, "My aunt has been worried these days."

Aunt Su nodded, "It's fine if you're fine. I'll go to the Queen's Palace and I'll be back in a while. There are some clothes for the queen in the house. If you are careful, I will leave them to you."

"Yes."

Watching Aunt Su leave the laundry bureau, I entered the main hall. As soon as I entered the hall, I saw a little washerwoman hiding something in her clothes in a panic.

"What are you doing?" I wondered in my heart. You must know that all the clothes of ladies in the palace are placed in the main hall. Although they are only small clothes, there is no room for any mistakes. If it is light, it will be served with a wooden stick, and if it is serious, it will be executed.

"No, no." The little washerwoman waved her hands wildly, her face turned pale.

I looked at the place where the clothes were placed, but I couldn't see anything unusual, but I could see that the washerwoman was flustered, and I felt something was wrong.

"I, I'll go first."

"Wait." I called to the washerwoman who was about to leave, and turned over the clothes she had just touched with both hands. Sure enough, a few silk threads were broken on the silk dress. If he moved his whole body, the clothes might be scrapped.

"Sister, I didn't mean it, please don't tell Aunt Su, woo woo woo..." The little washerwoman knelt on the ground and cried, extremely frightened.

"Which palace does this dress belong to?"

"Yes, it's Concubine Liu Palace. Sister, please don't tell Aunt Su, I, I'm afraid of being punished, woo woo woo..."

I helped her up, and my heart became heavy, "If I hide it for you, then the one who will be punished will be Aunt Su, can you bear it?"

"Then, what should we do?"

I thought about it for a while, and this is the only way I can do it. I haven't touched embroidery work for half a year, so I don't know if I'm unfamiliar with it.

"Have you any needle and thread?"

She shook her head, "I don't have one, but the Embroidery Shop does."

There is a long corridor between the embroidery shop and this place, and it takes a long time to come and go. Aunt Su went to the Queen's Palace and didn't know when she would come back. I saw the little washerwoman looking at me with fear and expectation. I could only smile at her comfortingly, "It's okay, you wait for me here, no matter what, this dress can't be taken to Concubine Liu Palace, you understand?"

The little washerwoman nodded.

At dusk, the entire palace is shrouded in the halo of sunset glow, which is too beautiful to behold.

Today is the Lantern Festival, and red lanterns are hung everywhere in the palace, which is full of joy.

I had no time to appreciate the beauty of the dusk, nor was there any joy in my heart. I just thought about how to restore the clothes to their original state once I got the needle and thread.

The corridor is extremely long, and every ten meters is a round door. Inside the round door is either a courtyard or a hall. Looking inside, you can only see the top of the hall after a lot of scenery.

The maids and eunuchs walked by one after another without saying hello to each other, walking silently in this corridor that seemed to never end.

Occasionally, a few high-spirited court ladies and eunuchs passed by, and other people smiled at them one after another, but they turned their eyes coldly.

In the huge imperial palace, the warmth and coldness of human relations are even worse than those outside the palace.

I looked up at the sky, and the sky on the corridor was just like this narrow corridor, showing only a rectangular blue strip.

I'm going to live under this blue bar for ten years.

Suddenly, my chest felt tight.

"Avoid—" a shrill voice broke the silence.
A sedan chair was carried over, and it was a certain empress passing by.

Like all the palace people, I saluted from the sidelines and didn't get up until the sedan chair passed by.

The Embroidery Workshop is right in front of you, just pass through the round gate.

I quickened my pace, and when I was approaching the round gate, I saw a yellow sedan chair being carried from a distance, and the palace people on the side of the road knelt down one after another.

If the empress passes by, she only needs to salute.
Kneel, only to the emperor.

His hands clenched subconsciously, that man?I don't want to kneel down to him.

The sedan chair was getting closer and closer, and I heard my father-in-law's voice approaching from far away, "Kneel—"

Gritting my teeth and closing my eyes, I turned around and entered the round door next to me, quickened my pace, and almost ran away in the end, leaving the cry of "kneeling—" far behind my mind.

I have decided not to think about the past anymore, and decided to live happily, but at the moment I still feel a little inexplicably sad.

I was out of breath when I stopped, and I ran fast and in a hurry. It seemed that only in this way could I slightly dilute the sadness.

Calming my breath, when I straightened up, I met a cold gaze.

(End of this chapter)