Concubine is polite

Chapter 32 Xi Yan's Uneasiness (2)

There seemed to be something familiar in the nose.

Except for some trees, there are some flowers and plants around.There are still many trails, I don't know where they lead.It is obviously a huge palace, why is there no one?Otherwise, find someone to ask the way.

do not care.Relying on the trace of smell, Xiyan moved her steps slowly.Through a circular corridor, Xi Yan came to a very quiet place.

It's very empty here, it seems to be an abandoned courtyard.There is a very tall tree in the courtyard, it should be a hundred years old.Xiyan didn't do much research on flowers and trees, and couldn't tell what kind of tree it was.I just feel that the tree is extremely tall and strong, and it feels very safe.

The verdant green branches and leaves are densely covered with a shadow.A swing made of rattan rope is tied to the tree trunk, swaying slightly with the breeze in the shadows.

There is a swing here?Xiyan approached curiously.

She had seen this thing when she was a child, and usually a group of children would occupy such a good thing, or play with their parents.I can't even sit by myself.She has snatched it, sat on it secretly, and tried everything.Of course, I will be bullied miserably by everyone.

Because he is an outcast, he is often bullied and teased.At that time, when the master saw the injuries on her body, he thought that she had reached the stage of rebellion and had failed her studies.Because she didn't want to worry the master, she could only watch helplessly afterwards.

Then she learned to be good, from avoiding them to slowly learning to try to deceive them and please them, she can play for a while.They will only ask, why is she lying?If you don't change yourself, how can you survive?
So, this is also her favorite thing when she was a child, right?Xiyan touched the swing and looked around.There should be no one here, right?It shouldn't matter if she sits down for a while, right?

Xiyan sits carefully with support, as if a thief is learning to steal, a little uneasy, more really eager to try.

With her eyes closed, her slightly upturned face leaned against her own hand holding the rattan rope.Just let the swing swing slowly.The familiar taste in the nose is faintly visible.

Thoughts drift away in an instant...

"An outcast who has no father or mother also wants to play with us? Hmph."

"That's right, thick-skinned, shameless. Father doesn't love mother or mother!"

"We don't want you to play like a little beggar!"

"It's because you're not good, that's why your parents don't want you!"

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Tears just dripped down without warning.Sliding across Xi Yan's face, leaving a shallow trace.

When I was young, those childish words, even if they were jokes, were sharp swords that hurt people.Every sentence hit her heart.

Although she has always been accompanied by a master, she has never felt wronged.But after all, I still envy children with parents.I also think, why don't I have parents?Why don't they want to be themselves?Is there any reason?Or do you think she is a nuisance?

Because of fear, because of insecurity.So she hopes that she can become more capable and not let her master worry about her.In this way, the master will not be too tired, and will not leave himself, don't want to be himself.

Every time the master leaves for a few days, she will be worried that she won't be able to eat or sleep well all day and all night.When seeing the master come back, the feeling of happiness in my heart is multiplied.

"Master didn't leave. Master didn't want me." She thought so.

(End of this chapter)